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Disney’s Animal Kingdom Thursday, March 22, 2018

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Late Night Confessions #1

Wednesday, January 18,2018  

10:43 p.m

These are some things that I actually have never told anyone and who better who tell then the internet?

A few months ago around the first couple months of school I cut a couple times but never to deep to leave a scar because I always wear shorts and dresses & couldn’t risk anyone seeing

I believe that if I were to leave my friend group no one would really notice

For a long time I wanted to leave my friend group just because I was always sad and they never noticed but I realized they didn’t notice because I’m really good at hiding my emotions

I actually really want to move schools I hate my school with a passion I just form want to leave certain people behind

I have never been as insecure about myself and my body as I do at this moment

I debated breaking up with my girlfriend just so that she can date someone who opens up with her emotions not someone who keeps everything bottled up but I could never do that to me or her

Sometimes I wish i overdosed on the pills I was caught with but then I always rethink it I would never actually end my own life

Sometimes I feel like even my dog hates me

My relationship with my parents is shit at the moment

Not eating didn’t work for me to loose weight it so the last few weeks I debated making myself throw up but I stopped I know that’s not the right way to do it

I know I won’t get far in life so it’s whatever

I’m actually so insecure but I make jokes about myself before others do it like when I cut my hair short I said i look like Lord Farquad or when I wore a turtle neck I was the first to say I look like Steve Jobs even tho no one has made fun of me I’m the one who makes fun of me

I didn’t realize how emo I was until I wrote this

Woah. I’m actually crying right now

Ok. Well at least I’m expressing my feelings and thoughts that was the reason I started this page

Well that’s it folks even tho no one is actually reading this but me. I’m at 3% so goodnight y’all I’m going to go do some homework

10:59 p.m.

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Conflicts, Cars, & Connecting

Friday, January 5, 2018

11:40 p.m.

Last night I went to sleep at 8 and it was a rest less night I kept waking up at ransom times it was horrible. This morning was kinda rough...I woke and my dad got mad because before we were about to leave for my appointment I realized he left my baby (puppy) outside and yes it’s Florida but it’s freezing this year it’s like 40 degrees outside ( i thought there was a degree symbol emoji???) so I rushed out the car to put him inside and he started yelling about how I’m stupid and that he shouldn’t be inside blah blah blah. Obviously I put him inside I’m not a heartless bitch. Then I went to appointment and was asked to describe where I see myself in 20 years and describe myself now. I hated it, I HATE describing myself even more but what can you do? She said that hopefully we only have 3 more appointments left and so I hope that also means no more test or Wednesday meetings. My phone is at 11% atm so hopefully it doesn’t die before then. So one thing you should know about me is that I absolutely LOVE Cars, I may not know shit about their engines but you know I can still appreciate them leave alone car nerds (no offense please I’m jealous of your skills). Those cars were SEXY there were classics and new models it was amazing. Their were mostly old white men there tbh so I was out of my place but I couldn’t give less shits I loved every single moment. Then when I got home I went for a walk or should I say walks guess those were good. I then talked to my cousins that I haven’t in a while and that’s nice... but one of them doesn’t believe in gravity, the atmosphere, and he believes the earth is flat. I’m a bit worried for him honestly. The other one was his brother who was explaining all of this to me. 10%. I also talked to my cousin from my moms side who I haven’t seen in 10 years maybe even more he’s on his way back from visiting Mexico. My parents judge me for social media yet I’m reconnecting with family that I haven’t seen in years and he said hopefully he will come and visit during the summer. I need a job I have a lot of plans this year and money is needed. Ok I think that’s it WAIT I don’t have WiFi and it’s actually horrible I’m so bored and tired I should just go to sleep and hope this actually saves. Goodnight I’ll write tomorrow... school in 2 days 😭😕

11:57 p.m.

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“Think of the one thing that you’ve always wanted. Now find it in your mind’s eye and feel it in your heart.”

The Beast: Beauty & the Beast 🥀

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Woah, it’s 2018...

January 2, 2018

So I already wrote this once and accidentally deleted it, time for round two. The first day of 2018 was so AMAZING!!! You would never believe what happened, ok so first I got to travel up north and meet my favorite celebrity.... RIHANNA!! Then I wrestled a crocodile in the land down under, I made Peter Pan proud. In fact he was so proud that I’m actually sending this from Neverland while having tea with fairies. Who knew they had WiFi here? Ok. So obviously none of that actually happened, the first day of this glorious year of 2018 was pretty uneventful. It was really cold and windy and rainy making it impossible to do anything but chill inside. I spent the entire day watching Friends & The Ace Family videos all day. The most interesting thing that happened today was me going on a walk/run and the wind was so powerful and wet(?) like come on Florida you are the Sunshine State get your shit together. At the moment I’m watching a tattoo show and I can’t wait to get my own tattoos. I also ate like 7 protein bars today, is that even healthy? I don’t think so cause my stomach feels like shit. Ok. Now I’m done cause there is nothing else to say about today. Plus it’s really late and I should go to sleep before my parents wake up.

4:48 a.m.

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2018 Goals

Time for that New Year New Me bull shit!!! But who are we to judge someone for wanting to improve or change for the better anyways here are my goals for this years

1. Go Vegan: I’ve been vegetarian for more than a year so I may as well go all the way

2. Go for more walks & runs: I only go at night but let’s make it a morning thing too

3. Visit Chicago: I was born there and I love going there so hopefully I can go all summer break

4. GET PERMIT before spring break: I need to actually complete the course cause I’ll be 18 and not have my license yet

5. Re-Decorate my room: a changing environment is always nice

6. Past my AP classes: self explanatory

7. Warped Tour: it’s the last tour and I just love the vibe (so people still say that) there

8. Save money: for Chicago & Warped Tour.... hopefully a tattoo too

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Gays & Shows

Saturday November 18,2017

Woah.What’s this I’m actually writing in this? This is actually going to be one of the worst pages on Tumblr… well on the bright side at least I’m not a sex box. Unless you’re into that then I’m sorry to disapoint.I don’t actually know what I’m going to write about just whatver comes to mind I guess. Let’s start with what I did yesterday, I went to watch a play that a few of my friends were in and it was fun. I went with my friend Nat and she brought along 2 of her friends and one of them was lowkey jealous??? Nat was sitting by me and we hung out together during intermission and the jealous friend whose name I still don’t know was mad about it which makes no sense since we are friends but lowkey I think she likes her (yes we are a group of gays, a lesbian, a Pan girl, and a Bi girl) and honestly I ship it. There was way more I wanted to write about but sleeping is more important.