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Dani Ardor from Midsommar has Vaginismus

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The worst part about vaginismus (aside from the fact that I'm afraid I'll die alone because men tend to be more attracted to me than people of other genders are and men tend to come with penises that they like using) is that it sure makes going to the doctor a million times harder

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REAL

How do you deal with the fact that you can't have vaginal sex? Isnt It something hard to deal with? How do you Dommes deal with that?

I try to be *really* patient with questions about my vagina because I want to destigmatize the topic as lots of women deal with challenges just like me.

But questions like this grind my gears. Your tone implies there's something wrong with me. That my life is hard or that my partners have to "deal with" me.

How do I deal? Well, I don't have a choice. My normal never included vaginal sex and yet, I have a sex life that puts most of y'all's to shame. I'm doing just fine.

Is it hard to deal with? No. I've never struggled to find pleasure. Dealing with people assuming I'm hard to deal with is hard though. For years I felt worthless because I had partners who led me to believe I was.

It's pretty fucking easy as a domme because I control how and when I get pleasure. Any sub worth their salt will quickly learn how to please me properly. And any dominant partner, as well tbh.

It's not my fault if someone is paralyzed by the realization that creativity is required to get me off. You can't just stick a cock in me and call it a day.

I'm a challenge, in the very best way. If that's too much for you, go find less. 🤷🏻‍♀️

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Nah it’s okay I’m broken and I’m fine with that

To all of us with vaginismus:

Vaginismus doesn’t make you untouchable

Vaginismus doesn’t make you unloveable

Vaginismus doesn’t make you broken

Vaginismus doesn’t make you unfuckable

Vaginismus doesn’t make you unwanted

You are loved, you are complete, and you are not broken.

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#femcel #ladygaga #vampire #dracula #countess #ahs #ahshotel #ahs5

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I like being single

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I can’t believe my old friend is sympathising with my ex who abused me but I’m glad I have discarded people in my life whom I knew had to be discarded.

I want friends to laugh with and share memories with not friends who don’t understand me and refuse to try. I’ve also been learning how to set better boundaries with people. I’m turning 25 but I’m just slow on these things. If the people from my past decide to gang up together then be it. If my ex wants to gain sympathy then let it be. If I have to walk alone on Earth, I will. I’d rather walk alone than have people who don’t understand me.

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when he called me unattractive I swear a new me was born, one that was violent

monovalent

this anger burns my insides, almost cancerous this agony I need to know he is insufferable

#anger #violence #femcel #poetry #girlblog

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I despise men

Their very existence i despise it

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I want to fall in love with life again

And this time I have to do it without leaning on anyone but myself

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Why do people who hurt you tell everyone how hurt they are by you and avoid talking about the parts they did wrong?

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The most dangerous man to any government is the man who is able to think things out for himself, without regard for the prevailing superstitions and taboos. Almost inevitably he comes to the conclusion that the government he lives under is dishonest, insane, and intolerable.

H.L. Mencken, Prejudices: Third Series

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I have a lot of pain I’m not sure if I can endure.

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I don’t trust people.

I have not trusted a person since I myself was constantly accused.

I was never understood.

I was never given time.