mylovedouglas

[mylovedouglas]

haizzzz idk man haizzzz

what u wan miie do sia haizzzz fk just so fk idk haizzz

[mylovedouglas]

tbh i never met a person who gets worried when i told them i lost my ring & the next day rush down to my work place trying to help miie find it our outing together always he is the one paying i spend his money till he is stressed about how is he going to afford the rental of the car miie on the other hand having problems with work i can’t stand the full 10hr work with no break & also when is my time to get of work they said to finish the orders before leaving & is always the timing when all pastry order coming in i missed my lrt 3 times in a row i quit the job and the ppl there come find miie saying i should not send my letter to hr should have talk to the chef like i have already make up my mind whats the problem if the place is not for stay why stay any way i just wanna say this guy in my whole life show miie how important im even tho sometimes he just not paying attention to miie on what im talking hahaha but fir sure when ever i have problems i will go find him as he said if i don help u who will … now i just hope the next job will be better & also things will get better now is lag of money for so many things & he is the one having to work 3 job at once go where find this kind of ppl all my x just have one job & some more spending my money he on the other hand buy miie bags food & clothes bring miie go make my hair get miie my x face wash & still bring miie out with his drinking friends as long as he can bring miie along he will i told him i never had a staycation and he bring miie to almost every off days i had if the two days is together as u know its not cheap some more is over the days when the voucher government gave had expired bring to 5stars hotel n when he know i never been to overseas he bring miie to malaysia almost every off day too n all the spending is from him too n knowing past company wan miie to clear leave he bring miie to highland genting n KL and same most of the spending from him from the start to now donno spend him how much money n he keep working day n night for money tbh i never seen someone who r able to sleep during work n is ok de he is payed to sleep as he always said he is really a very smart person he fund ways to make things works n evry problems i have he sure to solve it im happy to met him and he is not scared away by miie i love u n i hope things get better also i wish my x return my money really i help u in the past n for so long i never ask u to pay but u really think u don need to return? he knows about it n he can always find ppl to find u but i told him don lah cos i never think they have the money to return but some part of miie really hope u will return haizz nvm any way im here to say that damn he is really a nice person just don take it too over ok bye i should sleep tbh hahahah

[mylovedouglas]

hmmmmmm

sometimes just don wanna deal with this but hmmmm idk haizzzz

[mylovedouglas]

15/07/22

i found this person who trying so hard to make miie a better person but im still stuck in my shadow thinking good thing never happen to miie but this is real he done so much treat miie so well teach miie how to speak my words out and what i have done in return is giving him more stress maybe this is y i fail in all my r/s he told miie that i brush away all my problems but no one teach miie how to face them i have told him so much about my past but the one part i never say was my suicide thoughts happen in my pri school and yes that was the past but it still come back when ever i feel like im a burden to others and well some hoe he make miir feel that should i let him know but i know this will stress him up even more i really love the time we spend together but he is always the one making miie happy i wanna make him happy too but how? i say i wanna change but till now i have not now im the one breaking promises and is a thing i hate the most i should do something not just tell idk and what not i need to know what i wan & dont i need to make decision of my life i need to work it out he have been so nice to miie i need to do something better i need to get better as a person so he will not stress of miie and i know i have been giving him all the stress i really wan this to work out i really need to ahhhhhhhhhhhhh y am i like this i hate it y cant i speak my heart out y ahhhhhhhh if this ended u blame it urself n don cry about it

[mylovedouglas]

Hmmm 19/04/22

Im done with school what next? Tbh idk man i once wanna open a shop but after learning it is kinda hard i don wan have a shop that i have to think of making profit if this make sense idk well right i need money to be alive but also i wan time place where i can create & do stuff i wan u see hmmmm idk also does how high u study matter ? Like i have spend so much time in school cos i kinda donno what i wan and tbh till now i still donno what i wan maybe i wanna a space of my own where i can host ppl with my dessert i make tbh i kinda wan a space of my maybe i should work towards it idk also i wanna travel idk …… kinda wan a relaxing life but at the same time have no money …… wanna do some thing also no money to get it done now im working & is tired af & well i also wanna watch stream so idk man idk what is what only if money can be planted arhhhhh

[mylovedouglas]

14/02/22

single af during v.day ……… is still a normal day to miie and u know trying to play game and some how the character ask for date & yup date yah end up not going well fk just im single for life even game also give up on miie 😭

[mylovedouglas]

10/10/21

Work day nothing much tbh im lazy with this hmmmm maybe i will stop it yup i know no one really look here tbh yup byee school start so yup

[mylovedouglas]

09/10/21

today work hmmm im so tired i knock out after dinner hahah any way end one hour early this mean lesser money saded hahaha but well i have more time to watch some video hahahaha good right? ok bye for now

[mylovedouglas]

08/10/21

today work half day idk man i feel so tired hahaha but any way fall asleep watching video also i get to watch full live hahaha kinda happy but also kinda sad i miss the morning one hahaha but what ever hmmm yup by for now nothing much

[mylovedouglas]

07/10/21

today work half day so hmmmm lunch need to think what to eat so fast food again hahahaha when home draw more emot and fall asleep hahahaha nothing much

[mylovedouglas]

06/10/21

today nothing much again just watch video all day long most like to fall asleep after lunch hahaha no ppl stream today so hahaha bye for now

[mylovedouglas]

05/10/21

today same old shit but this time done some drawing which is good i guess any way yup nothing much happen again stream & video hahaha

[mylovedouglas]

04/10/21

today just relax watch video and stream ok im getting lazy ahh what to do idk man hmmmmm yup this is what i do alll day

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03/10/21

today just work and nothing much hahah i’m getting lazy to do it everyday haha any way nothing much happen and also don think i will update much so hmmm yup bye for now

[mylovedouglas]

02/10/21

Today work kinda busy as not much people is working dang brain is weird sometimes it just hurt people hmmmm idk man i think hmmmm just hope this guy will get help needed also when i try to reply u asap but i just text as & when u feel like hmmmm i have it in reverse and guess it don feel good right? But any way this 2 day im just now going to reply u and see how things goes tbh i don think it matter to u ngl hmmm im tired from work waited for kitty to be online & i can help by falling asleep too soon ahhhhh but it is what it is

[mylovedouglas]

01/10/21

Well a new month and hmmmmm idk i never do my yoga i watch stream and done some drawing and hmmm nothing much hmmmm idk why my fan break down is not moving any more so i guess its dead hmmm ok sleep late cos u know worry i will be late for work oof ahhhhh life man idk hmmmmm

[mylovedouglas]

30/09/21

Today nothing much watch some stream do some cleaning and hmm drawing hmmm and hmm really nothing much im just a lazy person hahaha never do my yoga hmmmmmmm