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Creating sacred space for my own sanity, for the growing inner self, for career clarity, and most of all — for academic greatness, because my thesis won’t write itself and I’m not here for distractions.

no one else but chatgpt lol

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Finally, I decided to get over my crushing era. simply because my crush gives me red lamp sign haha lol. udah lama sih begini, cuman gw emang dodol aja kan susah banget dikasi tau padahal tandanya ada dimana-mana. jadi ya, aku pelan-pelan akan mengikis crush ini, and convince myself that later if I have the opportunity to crush somebody, it would be, definitely, only for fictional men, LOL

“Getting over it doesn’t mean forgetting it. It just means reducing the pain to a tolerable level, a level that doesn’t destroy you.”

— Kevin Brooks

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thevery first post I found after opening tumblr, which is SO DAMN RELATE, I'm turning 30 next month and I guess I'm in a great need of such kind words.

“Just because you took longer than others doesn’t mean you failed. Remember that.”

— Unknown

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Shalat dzuhur - makan siang - coloring/kristik sembari dengerin Taylor Playlist -Shalat ashar - jogging - Shalat magrib, Quran Time, Shalat isya - fruit dinner - brainstorming jurnal utama tesis - journaling - bobok cantiq

Indah sekali wacana ini 🫶

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Oke. Opsi self-healing

Coloring

Kristik

Lanjut baca buku

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I don't crush good man until I rush for good grades. Period

-in the midst of my brokenheart era-

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So I have already unins ig, patah hati pengen mode unsos to its fullest😅

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Kenapa tiap kali bestie cerita mau ngedate aku jadi nyesek. Iri macam apa ini. Astagfirullah

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I dont think love-romance-stuffs fit me sih HAHA. literally on my hopeless era ga sih😅

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Ditolak lagi sama crush yg sama wkwk

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Mungkinkah kini saatnya unins ig dan kembali sambat di tumblr dan cari inspirasi ke pinterest. Ya ga si

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Another chance got rejection wkwk

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Mau ambis academic goal, body goal, fiancially stable. MAU AKU BORONG SEMUA BOLEH YA YAA ALLAH🫠

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So I decided to reach him first. The name is also effort🙂‍↔️

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My crush only seem unreachable but why on earth I still pray him to be my future.

Sometimes, I make an offer to God, I've gone trhough so many pain and hurt and hardships so can You please just make him to be my future companionship?

This is childish, for sure, but well God Himself says that Nothing Impossible for Him, so it's only mya human thing to ask for the best for me. Eventhough I know, what I think the best for me might not be the best God's plans. But again, at least I pray and ask right?

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Currently might be what I'd been dreaming of, halfly, but defitinely it tortures like alot.