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☆ꜞ˖ ᴘɪᴄᴋ-ᴀ-ᴄᴀʀᴅ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ

Major soul connection that is unfolding behind the scenes in this life right now

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You guys wanted a love reading, so here we are… I didn't really want to do a basic love reading so I hope this can be considered somewhat unique ?? honestly idk... Did I cry doing this reading though? Yes, I did… more than once… why did this have to be so touching ?? 😭😭💔 - you better read this because your soul counterpart has something to say to you !!

ᝰ. 𝙿𝙸𝙻𝙴 𝙾𝙽𝙴 𐙚

Dear pile one, this does not seem like an easy connection. But sometimes those connections with such heaviness bear a very big significance. Regardless of how aware you are or have been of this soul connections, major themes here in the past were struggling with exhaustion, self doubts and an inability to maintain boundaries. You might be both very stubborn individuals with former people pleasing tendencies who have developed big trust issues in this life. Energetically, regardless of the major attraction and unexplainable bond, it might have felt like you both constantly had to defend or prove yourself or the connections to the other which has been emotionally draining at times. I sense messy (energetic) fights and arguments with silent 'giving you the cold shoulder' type of periods.

Big thing here is in this connection that you were meant to step back at some point to regain your individual inner strength and to learn to establish healthy boundaries first. This connections is overwhelming for both of you which makes you both uncertain at times if this is really meant for you and whether the effort is worth it at all. Are these battle and struggles are a part of necessary growth or sign that something needs to change? Thoughts like that might have gone through mind at some point. But the things is that you both need to become aware of what you really want in this life. You're not necessarily forced to really establish this connection in the 3d. You do both have free will and the freedom of choice in this life in regards to who you want to spend your life with. You both have many other soulmates in this life too. However, you both did consciously choose to reincarnate in this life time together with the possibility to reconnect. Important is that you both try to find a sense of inner peace first to ensure that you don't fight for this connection out of fear or insecurity but instead of out love.

Your soul counterpart (or both of you) might have started this life with a strong will, determination and confidence but life has been hard and they had to learn many lessons. Therefore, they might currently appear more tired, withdrawn - lacking the energy and confidence they once had. The universe had to slow them down, so that they spend time now more on rest, reflection, self-care and emotional renewal to regain their inner fire. They or both of you (because you mirror each other a lot) might have felt torn between desires and outside opinions, feeling insecure and easily influenced by external pressure. They need to build resilience, trust in themselves and a strong sense of self-worth to be able to reconnect with the power of their emotions rather than feeling defeated by them.

Possible past lives themes: Natural disaster/ship accident/drowning as cause of death for one of you; one being disowned, shunned/banished or exiled (because of this love perhaps), self identity and overcoming loss were lessons in those lives, feeling imprisoned or restricted by your life circumstances or social hierarchy, one might have been the benefactor/patron of the other, difference in social standing or culture, even miscarriage or death at birth of your love child might have happened, after this end of this love or relationship (because of death or exile) the remaining person might have never loved or entered another relationship again until their death…. This life might perhaps mirror certain aspects of former lives together but this time these struggles are overcome-able and more easier to manage. Perhaps you might have a different standing in social hierarchy again or struggle with a feeling of not being good enough for the other/idolizing their counterpart etc.

Messages from them: I messed up real bad. + I love you more than you know. + I admire your strength and grace, you inspire me every day. + You have a way of making even simple thoughts extraordinary + Your love is my greatest treasure, and I'm so thankful for you. + You're my safe haven in this world. || -> I have a lot going on right now - it's stressing me out a bit. I know I'm not paying you and our connection as much attention as you (and I too honestly) would like. But I'm willing to adapt, okay? And I'm willing to prioritize you and to do what it takes to make sure that you have your needs met. I know I can't do this alone like I do with all other things. This connection needs both of us to put in equal effort. I'm used to do everything on my own but I'm constantly reminded that I need your help in this to make this work but it's not so easy for me to rely on other people for help… but it feels like I can count on you to be flexible for me and that I can rely on you no matter what, in times of need… So, I'm very thankful !! However, that does not mean that I want to keep this unbalanced dynamic, I'm learning to be more flexible too! It's just feels very assuring that I can depend on you when I have no one else… I'm sorry, I'm not very good at expressing my thoughts. I also might have pushed myself too hard and neglected my emotional world in the past years. I feel very drained. I need some time and space alone to collect my thoughts and recharge. But this has nothing to do with you, okay? It's not like in the past where I disrespectfully ignored you and behaved very immaturely (I'm really sorry for that), this time I just need space for myself to become a better person for you. I hope you can understand that. (I mean… I'm sure you do, you're the most emotionally insightful person I know but I still want plea for your understanding out of respect.) Perhaps, regardless of this period of distance/separation/lack of communication, my love for you lights up your life even from afar, just like your love does to mine?

Dear pile one, will you try it this time with this person one more time? Then focus on finding that sense of peace for yourself first. Fulfill your desires, create a live for yourself that you're happy with. When both of you are stable and content people you can meet each other at the same level and establish this connection on a healthy foundation. I know that you're both willing to fight to the end for this connection once you decide to. There is no need to hurry though. Go at your own pace and focus on yourself for now.

Lot's of love and blessings to you, pile one! xoxo daisy 🍏

ᝰ. 𝙿𝙸𝙻𝙴 𝚃𝚆𝙾 𐙚

Dear pile two, this connection seems to involve emotional withdrawal as well as soul searching. This type of connection will make you walk away from things that do not longer serve your highest good. This connection opens your eyes and gives many realizations about yourself and the life that you're meant to create for yourself. You might have already for long time sensed deep within in you that you are going through a chapter that needs to end first before you can find true happiness. You might have already felt that all this is just temporary and does not represent what kind of life you will end up living in the future. This is definitely not an easy journey for this soul connection either but it's not as emotionally messy as for example pile one's one. The reason for your soul's counterpart presence is to trigger your growth and self discovery or lets say help you align with your soul's spiritual journey in this life.

Your soul might be very susceptible to distractions and other people's dreams/desires. You might struggle perhaps with indecisiveness and with easily getting emotional attached to things/people and are not very assertive. You have a kind heart and sometimes put other people's happiness before your own. This soulmate was put into this life time to help you find your own happiness and to prevent that you miss all the opportunities thrown at you just because you undervalue your own importance in this life. You're meant to find your own personal deeper meaning for your existence and to let go of all these hindering and outdated emotional attachments you have formed that hold you back and cloud your view.

There might also be a long/significant period of separation to allow healing and transformation… You're soul counterpart might live faraway from the place you're were born and was not present at all in your early life (Childhood, teenage years, early twenties…) or for some of you, they were present very early on and then had to move away and there was no communication for a long time and you only reconnect during adulthood. Regardless of their strong love for you, they did not want to be another distraction on your path towards your personal happiness. This connection shouldn't have been at the forefront of your mind in these important years of developing your identity etc. Even walking away (you choosing to not keep this connection in mind to focus on other things), whether temporarily or permanently, is part of the soul’s evolution in this connection. Because knowing your soul/personality, you would have prioritized the future of this connection over your own happiness.

Your soul counterpart might be a very reflective and introspective person with a serious demeanor - often carrying an energy of solitude or emotional depth. Others might feel like they are hard to connect with as they often may distant or preoccupied, as if they are always searching for something beyond what is in front of them. They probably have a strong physical presence, but there is often a lingering sense that they are elsewhere in their mind and heart. In comparison to you, they are very willing to leave behind what no longer resonates with their soul. They are pretty good at cutting emotional attachments or being selective with whom or what they get emotional attached to. However, there might have been a past where they struggled with feeling emotionally detached or disconnected (so they went the other extreme direction), always looking for something more meaningful. This search for deeper truth made them seem quite elusive, but it also meant that they were (and still are) very committed to their personal evolution. Nevertheless, their journey is not about abandonment — it is about finding the deeper truth within themselves and their connection to others.

Possible past lives themes: Warrior/knight and healer/doctor/nurse - a person that healed the wounded warrior after the war, both lost precious people in their life - the shared feeling of loss connected them, both met later in life, one might have already been a widow/widower, perhaps the other person was the doctor or supportive person in their life when the other lost their wife/husband due to a long-lasting sickness (not as cheating affair! but genuine support). The feeling of being understood and not just pitied gave them strength; one mended the broken heart of the other, strong feelings of gratitude for having the other person in their life; I'm also picking up in another life one might have been a slave or concubine and had unrequited feelings for the other and also for some, without making in sound weird but perhaps one soul was the child of the other and the one being the parent might have struggled with infertility or having lost children before and the only were able to have healthy child later on in life (whether biological or adopted) and that was the other soul - so there was a very interesting dynamic with gratitude but also obsession and guilt and insecurities etc…

Messages from them: I had to lose you to realize the value of this connection. + Things moved to fast and I didn't know how to trust my feelings for you. + I am not quite ready (yet). + It just scares me to feel so much for you. + Every thought of you is a reminder of how deeply I care. || -> I refuse to let insecurity and anxiety get in the progress of our connection this time. I want to become stronger, to be able to be honest with you and to face the truth. I have suffered quietly alone some time now, perhaps you too in this life. But carrying the weight of the world and of our connection on my shoulders on my own is not worth it. I'm slowly learning that I'm allowed to reach out to those around me to help lighten my load. I know how much you've been through in all these lives, you deserve so much more. Ever since I felt this overwhelming sense of responsibility or duty perhaps to pave the way to your happiness, to help you reach a peace a mind and a tranquil carefree life. I don't want to see you cry so painfully again. I feel very relieved that we have this chance in this life to reconnect under different circumstances. You're the only person I feel like I can truly open and honest with, mentally I'm ready to let you in but emotionally… I have to become stronger first, I'm working on it. I promise. You will always have my support, you can be sure of that. I know I'm not alone, and I hope you have come to this realization too already. You will always have me, regardless of what happens or what keeps us apart. I will always be committed to you, and you only. I will never let you down. We both know that pain and emotional burden are better carried together than on our own, right? So, lets be there for each other while striving for our happiness, okay? The point of being in a relationship is to have someone with whom to share the ups and downs of life. Let's learn to let go of that past pain that has been consuming us up until know. We are meant for more than that, I'm sure of it. You know,… when it comes to romantic partners I have high standards. But you have all my respect. I can't stress how important it is to me to treat you right and to be a good partner for you. I know what I want, and it's you, and it's always gonna be you. I will make my intention known to you clearly. There will be no deception or misleading intentions. I value good communication and honesty, and I don't mind having to work hard to convince and assure your wary heart that has been hurt too many times. So, don't feel bad about you needing time. You may take all the time you need. Your happiness is my top priority, I'll always strive to see you smile, my dear.

Dear pile two, you both might be very different from each other in general, "opposite attracts" so to say. You both have to learn a lot from each other, where someone has a weakness, the other has a talent. You both are able to help each other out to find your own individual personal happiness while still ending up together. This reading was very touching and I'm so happy that you have/will have such precious soul in your life that loves you so selflessly. (bye I'm gonna cry in a corner now)

Lot's of love and blessings to you, pile two! xoxo daisy 🍏

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