mythierra

[mythierra]

It’s amusing how some people think I don’t notice their true intentions behind seemingly innocent words. I’m naturally adept at understanding these subtle games, which I view as both a blessing and a curse. It’s interesting to see them play their part skillfully, unaware that I am fully aware of their motives.

[mythierra]

August 7, 2017

I wake up with the sound of silence

Silence from my soul

Your sweet smile causes me pain

I couldn't stand another separation

But your soft and fragile touch pushes me away.

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Walking with you through the road of thousand eyes

Giving me encouragement and proudness

By letting them see that you look at me as a shining star

I wanted to stay and savour every chances

But destiny gave me limitation.

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Its as if the clock is mocking

The more you wanted to stop its hand

The more it increases its speed on moving

Giving me no choice but to let my heart filled with sorrow.

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Pain is what I deserved

But could you blame me for its reason?

When all I want is to give you what you deserved

Even if it means bleeding

I will take it all for the exchange of that smile

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How I wish we were living at a different dimension

Where we don't need to fight against this cruel world

Where no one leaves and no one comes

But what can I do, I'm just a man who savour the worldly gift

And all I can do is to dreams for the IF's

[mythierra]

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(August 09, 2016)

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Over the moonlight of nowhere

An embrace of endless loved showered

With the lovely cry of an angel

A woman dancing a heartbeat song

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Beneath the transparent light

Expectations of heaven relies

Pushes by a hundreds of sweats

Shivering down my soul

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I, an apprentice of sorrow

A keeper of light

Will surely raise the torch

Giving honor to your BROCKEN HEART

[mythierra]

August 15, 2017

Today was the day

You set my heart on flame

You lighten the fuel

That had slept a million years.

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You wake the fire

And draw my heart on ashes

A fire that wants to spread

But cage by its smoke

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The fire leaves nothing but ashes

You had me taken for granted

Insult is what suits the description

A heat that causes me distraction

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Help! I wanna leave

From the heat that is burning me

But why there is no spare loan from such a big world

Why I am stock at this little place near this very hot fire.

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Escape is what I want

But my heart was chain by the unknown

Maybe, by the feared for darkness

But how can I live?, when the fire that gives me light, burns me badly....

[mythierra]

August 11, 2017 (4:30-6:00pm)

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Oh Rock, thy diamond conceal beneath

Thy beauty gives sparks that takes eyes breath

But oh! Why thy eyes refuse to see

Sparkling light that thy might gives to thee

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Eyes finally found thy worth, claimed thy owned

Hence, spark was cherished but not honored

You are found, but you were never seen

By the eyes who looked but never sees

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Thy worth was only for heart that beat

Thy rich heart who knows how to spare heat

Oh diamond! Teach me how to open

Thy door to make thy magic happened.

[mythierra]

October 11, 2017

Yesterday

I anticipated the worst

Today

I laughed for the thought

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Yes, you will feel dreadful

Thinking 'bout the future

For the future promises nothing

It will leave you no clue...

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But one thing for sure

The time won't stop nothing

Tomorrow will become history

Pain will only be your memory...

[mythierra]

October 17, 2017

Alone in the cave of crowded silence

Living an unlimited dreams with limited access

With the adoration of every glance

But stares who'd dream for an agony

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You are there for me

The sincerity of your touches are real

The happiness you cause is to pure

Which always remind me how lucky I am

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I smile yet I'm not happy

I laugh but the truth is

I cried a billions of tears

But no one was really there to see it...

[mythierra]

October 17, 2017

Tonight I lye beside the purest love

With the touch of your sincere white

Your smile that calm the battle of thoughts

Who assures the future which myself can't hold

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As I watch your peaceful sleep

My heart whisper the greatest pain

For living this perfect fantasies

Which reality hunts as both

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I can offer you the skies

But my strength and courage is not mine

For I was force to work not for myself

For I am just a coward who hid behind this metal armor

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In this realms full of dreams, hope and light

With the stuffs that you can see

But you can never get a grip

For you give but will never gain

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You see my smile but not sadness

You share my laughter but not the agony

For the truth is, even your love is the purest

Still you couldn't heal the tears of this crazy heart

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For no one was really there to see what's everything in you

They might listen but will never understand

For love will surely give everything

And also take it all away...

[mythierra]

February 24, 2018

I smiled because I remember

I cried because I'm hurt

I got furious because I'm being wrong

I hide because I'm humiliated

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You see, I'm human too

It irritates me to realize that its you

Who holds the key on how my emotion runs

But you seems not to know

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So please

Can you be a little gentle

Eveytime you want to inflect something

Coz, I really wanted you to untouched me instead.

[mythierra]

Why do I live? Do I really have to have a reason to Live? Is Living everyday not enough reason to live? March 1, 2018

[mythierra]

April 6, 2018

I'm screaming for my invisible pain

I cried for my existence

Your admiration cause my sorrow

For I am your worthless model

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I always wanted the worlds way

But I can't follow your path

I can only envy you

Whom who don't have a golden light but can cross the darkness

Rather than I who holds a torch yet couldn't see any shed of light.

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I want to dare to hold someone else's heart

But my hands are to invisible to reach

You see me as a rose

But would you still want to hold me once you knew how painful my turns could be?

[mythierra]

April 7, 2018

Today my heart jumps wildly

I seek for its reason

But found nothing but a smile from my lips

From the thought of that ideal image of your.

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Am I losing myself to you

Though your touch is something I can't reach

I still can't stop my heart from dreaming

And can't stop dreaming from reaching your hurtful touch

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Am I really losing it to you?

I have to admit, but I don't want to.

Cause your only my hearts illussion

And the more I dream of you, the more my heart jumps painfully

[mythierra]

April 7, 2018

My heart won't stop crying

And it bothers me a lot

Its sobs won't let me focus on my life

And won't even let me sleep or even just taking a nap

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Heart, why do you have to cry for someone you don't even own?

Why bother hurting when you don't have the right?

You don't have the right to feel pain

When you are the one who refused to open yourself

So stop it now

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Brain, stop complaining from hearing my sobs

When you are the one who set the limitation and rules on opening my door.

Why complain?, when you are the one dreaming

And causing me move wildly

[mythierra]

June 15, 2018

I could still feel

That strange magic

The moment our hands entwined

Beneath the clear dark sky

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That sweet assurance

From your rosy lips,

Cause me thousands

Of great sleepless nights.

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But suddenly

The distance between us

Grew more each passing day

Leaving me another horrible sleepless nights.

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Every night beneath the dark clear sky

I never miss a chance to wait for your return

But never even seen your shadow

Which cause my heart to shutter.

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They'd once ask

Am I already drawn to you

I told them, I'm just enjoying our shared moments.

But why my heart cries for your sudden absence

Am I really losing it to you? Am I in love with you?

[mythierra]

June 15, 2018

6:00pm

Every night I've always waited for you

To come and give me the exit

I had always dream of

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2 weeks

You've given me that strange thing

I couldn't resist and losses my grip

Which I never thought I'd like

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2 message

But only 2 message

It tooks you to say your farewell

Which slaps and drain my souls.

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Still, I never miss a single night

To wait for your Hello

To show you I never left

Even you let go of me easily

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But tonight you broke my shuttered heart

By letting go of the only thing that connects us both.

I couldn't understand my feelings now

One things for sure, Damn it, it fucking hurts like hell...

[mythierra]

November 13, 2018

The tears behind the smile

The fear behind the strength

The anguish behind the calmness

The evilness behind the goodness

All those hiden sides

Was intentionally kept

To fit in the world

Who judge but dont wanna be judge

But was is worth it?

To be accepted by the society

Which is imperfect yet with the perfect standard?

By the eyes who see but refuse to see

In this cruel world

Who once thought of its survival

Whose side was played right?

Mine or the other? Who knows who!

Am I the protagonist,

Who suffer from ones selfishness?

Or am I the antagonist,

Who is self centered and always thought that I'm doing the right thing?

Who knows who!

People is naturally born selfish

Thinking of its own glory

Being the main character of their own story.

[mythierra]

April 25, 2019

I never betray anyone, I just never share. My reasons are nonsense to you yet it kills me within.

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I always anticipated this to happen but I never knew how painful it is in reality. And you will never understand because you will never in my shoes as I will never understand you.

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If only you waited a little time, if only u gave me a little time, if only you trusted me, things would have been different. You used the bonds to wrong me, but you never used it to see what is its worth to understand me.

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I am wrong, I know and I will stand by the consequence of my action. But am I a Saint to be perfect? Am I not a human to be spare? In this world which I never was familiar, am I not worthy to be spare?

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You are right, always were. I might not know how you feel when everything turns out against, but is it enough reason to wrong me? To let me feel I'm no longer belong? Could you just be mad and show me how you feel? You are right, always where but you are no Saint to let me feel I'm nothing.

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You, my dearly light. You never let me feel alone. You always make me feel that you are always there to listen. My sweet little angel, only if you knew how scared and alone I am yet I come to that fear to be with you. I come to you but it kills me when you stop believing me. My fault, I know. But it was from you I can't bear.

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Now, I will stand to my decision and accept that the past will only be the past. What we have before will only be a memory that I can cherish. Today we will be only connected by name and would do the same reason, to raise the light of our name.

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In the next life, Ill pray that we don't share a strand. Not friends nor colleuge, nor someone who just knew each other. Let's not cross path, not once but never.

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I never hated you for what happen, but this pain within can't be handle by a foolish heart of mine. May our menories be cherish