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Thursday, 29th Sept 2022

Hello I'm back. I'm glad to be here again and writing down everything just popped up in my random mind. I always coming back here whenever I sad, angry or happy. And today I want to share about things that makes me super excited and new. Ole, let start from the 100th episode of 30 days of lunch which is talk about slow living featuring ukke kosasih aka founder of KebunKabin. This episode is s eyes opening for me especially in being zen, back to nature and have a sustainable life cycle. it touch my heart so deep down, because I always exciting when someone talk about something green and zen. I found some insight from this podcast let's get to the list:

1. I want to start a new habit for sustainable living. Start from make organic compose from kitchen waste. Plant some veggie on my own. Less sugar eating & drinking.

2. Start to reuse some furniture or tools to make it more functional in other word thrifting some 2nd stuff for home

3. Start to make a plan for sustainable income. I still thinking about make a cattery, baking, illustration, photo and videography, get some revenue from YouTube but I still thinking about now to combine all of it in to one.

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Monday, 12 September 2022

Hi! How's life? Still complicated? I hope you feel better and happier.

I though now I grew up so much more than before. Still don't know where to navigate this ship but the storm almost over. The peace has came and my though seems clearer.

Maybe this is the reasons, let me tell you.

First I want to tell you how magically "my bad tough" slowly faded and seems like disappeared. The fire has been extinguished. It possibly caused by my adulting process. The wisdom has grown. The sparks stills there but I can handle it properly. I hope this would be permanent.

I still struggling with my lack of energy issue. I still can feel tired all the time physically but it blurred by a bunch of happiness and peace. Now I know how to give out my energy wisely.

Here's the list of my, I called it positive distraction. Let's get to the list:

First, I uninstalled all my "toxic apps" like mobile legend instagram and twitter. It all of that app still on my phone they would drag me down over and over again as usual or worst in some case.

Second, I tried to explore new things like how to be a good cattery, how to make compose, drawing exercise, listening good podcast which is give you more insight and general knowledge, like how to manage your mental health, gossip or even comedy.

The third is being more real. We have to live our offline life activity. In this case I try to do more tasks at home, like gardening, grooms my cats, my scooter, grocery shopping or make a good conversation with your bae.

P.S. Yesterday we just adopted a new pet in our house. She's named Belle, a candidate for a new mom of Ben's child, I hope they'll make it soon. Aaaaaakkk! I'm so excited for the babies. I promise to you all, that I'll make a brand new cattery. I'll name it a sweet water cattery. Today I just bought 1 lot stock from go to at IDR 28200 and surprisingly I maybe just forgot that I had 2 Lots stock from BSI at IDR 297000. This is a good start to invest. One more I just cut out my cactus and plant it on a new media and I just plant some plants on my backyard. My best hope they all will grow up healthy and bring more joy to my life. Health baby kitten, health plants and health investment.

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Hello again, been a long time I didn't check here. But I'm back. Theres something I wanna share wirh you.

Last night, in the middle of the night. I just awaken regularry, I don't know why I always awaken between 1 a.m. to 3 a.m. and mostly I feel so dehydrated, so I have to drink. (Fuck grammar).

Long story short, I always thougt "why I am awaken every night? Is it a sign? May Allah call me? Did he miss me?" But I never take a pray on the night. As usual just get drink and back to sleep. Sometimes, I just layed on bed, open my smartphone and wildly surf everywhere on the internet. Mostly youtube and "twitter" (one of the most regreted momen, but as always, I back there again and again). Back to the track. Last night I thought about my life. Where do I have to navigate it, how to make it better, and how to get everything I want and be free as financial and career? I wanna ive my passion, in photography and videography world. Make an amazing visual project. Maybe live like my muse kang Dani effendi. He's one of the most person that inspiring me too much.

So from there rndom though in the middle of the night. I decide to write my wishlist than I want to achieve on 5 years later.

Here's the list:

1. Expert in photography & videography

2. Make my kwn youtube channel (maybe a silent vlog about my daily routine on aesthetic ways)

3. Have a proper camera in middle range idealy Fuji XS-10

4. Being an illustrator

5. Have a mini cafe/warkop

6. Wake up on 4.30 a.m.

7. Gym & healthy lifestyle

8. Have a car (Brio as I wish)

9. Coming home every 1 or 2 month, to visit mom

10. Have a beautiful house (full of plant)

11. Macbook for editing my content

So there's my list. I have to break down one by one to make it happend. Make a plan and running it.

Wish me luck!

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Hallo, it's been a long time. There's so much story I wanna share with you.