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I haven’t been interested in food lately. Like yesterday I ate only 594 cals before dinner. I had ramen, apples and grapes, and half an aero bar. I stopped my fast at like 1pm because I knew I had to see at class by 4 and my class is literally walking around London for 3 1/2 hours. I burned so many calories. About 2,500 cals or a little over. I got Korean hot dogs for dinner but they sucked. I only ate like half of each of them. Wasted £12.35. But now I can feel myself getting smaller because I’m just not interested in eating. I’ve been smoking more cigarettes. Maybe that’s why. But like when I’m hungry now I’d rather go have a smoke than eat a meal. I dunno why. Maybe I’ve conditioned myself to have a cigarette when I’m hungry and after I’m done I’m not hungry anymore? I have no idea. But hopefully this will get me to my ugw.

Don’t you fucking dare start smoking after reading this.

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I want to be as sick as I was when I cried at lasagna

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I wanna fucking kms

My bf said I was too heavy and it was painful to have me on top during (you know what). I’m a fucking failure. I’m so disgusting. I’m not eating during November. If I have to eat I’m only eating carrots and lettuce and shit that is basically 0 calories. I’m so fucking fat and disgusting I hate myself so much.

I need to get sick again. As sick as I was when I was 232. As sick as I was when I could go without food for two days so easily. As sick as I was when I did an hour HIIT workout (burns about 800 cals) because I ate 2 mandarin oranges rather than one (47 cals each).

I have to get sick again if I want him to love me.

He deserves so much better than me.

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I wanna look like a girl who’s only subsistence is cigarettes and Coke Zero

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in theory, loosing weight is so easy, you just have to skip meals and wait. But i have a brain with a survival modus and thats the whole problem -_-

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If I get sickly skinny will people finally care about me?

People care about me now only because I’m useful to them.

Will people finally care about me because they genuinely value me for me?

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I’ve been watching videos on people doing 30 days fasts and oh my god I wanna do it. I haven’t fasted for more than 2 days before though. One guy lost 70 pounds in a month!!! I so desperately want to do this. I need all the will power I can freakin get. Im gonna start off with a three day fast first to get me past my 48 hour mark. Then, if I feel healthy enough and like it’s safe I’m going to do a 10 day fast. Im gonna work up to a 30 day fast. I’ll probably start my 30 day fast in November. I want to get my body acclimated to fasting again before I completely jump in.

Imagine me after a successful 30 day fast!!!! If I lose 60-80 pounds during it I’d be so happy.

I can’t wait!!!

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here are some calorie counts of certain foods, if anyone needs them :)

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This.

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I follow some people that are on weight loss journeys on insta bc I find it really motivating.

I saw this post from this one woman that is losing weight and she lost 30 pounds in 10 days.

No surgery, just exercise and good food.

I WISH I could lose so much weight so fast.

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new pants hehehe

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omg PASGAGSZDUFG this is literally me. I do be looking like that

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ok wait, reblog if you’ve cried at least once because of math, doesn’t matter which grade i’m trying to prove something 

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I Thought I Wanted This / It / You by @magpiecollages (on tumblr and ig)

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