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"dabi" who is okay with dying because it's one of the many rebirths of his soul. he went from touya to dabi he knows what it's like to die and be reborn, i think he finds comfort in his experience and that he will be reborn into a kinder life and maybe even reunite with his siblings

he is a practicing buddhist so there's that :)

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give an audience a canon gay ship and they will be entertained for one season. queerbait them and you entertain them for a lifetime.

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trip trip fall in love

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besties

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Jealousy 🌹

More jockemo AU !!!!! ARGHWBDKW

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What does “deadbeat fujoshi” mean in your bio?

I force those 2 guys to kiss and then I neglect them emotionally and physically

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Beach scene sketch

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KILLER SONIC

Art & Concepts: 1. 💙 FIRST BLOOD 2. 🖤 FIRST BLOOD 3. 🔁 FIRST HINT 📲

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Same color scheme, same lighting, same tears/sweat, same club vibe…

Close enough, welcome back Deep Faker (偽顏) music video 💕

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from a breath before the fall

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@/nw99sn: #ivantill ※モブ女子 ※謎時空現パロ

ティﾉﾚはあるあるの状況すぎてうんざりしてるだけ

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harana

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Rinrin sketch

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god bless anyone who comments on ao3

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Trailer!!

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Thinking about the Mizisua and Ivantill merch cards again (sedate me)

These ones.

I already have a post discussing the difference between Ivan and Till’s anguished looks and Mizi and Sua’s more… resigned ones, is the best descriptor I can think of. Attached to these cards is a message about these four characters and their attachments to one another: hate is such a simple emotion, it says, as compared to something as complex as love (paraphrasing obviously).

With the post R7 Patreon confirmation of Ivantill being a mutual love-hate relationship, this quote makes quite a lot of sense for them, and in obvious ways, too. They recognize a kindred spirit in one another, and while Ivan attaches himself to Till because of it, Till pushes him away. This is the tragedy of Ivantill and we know this.

But what about this applies to Mizisua?

Because of Sua’s short time in the series thus far, we don’t get a lot of Sua’s internal thoughts or feelings about… anything. The Sua comic with her sister was the most we’ve ever gotten, I think, and it was beautiful and very telling about her character. Mizi truly is her love, her universe, her paradise, her light in the dark. She loves Mizi with her whole heart. There’s no denying that.

But Sua is only human, and she has the capacity to be bitter. She has the capacity to feel something as base as hate.

Maybe a small part of her loathes that very same innocence that she fosters in Mizi until the very end. Maybe a part of her, like any abused child would, felt envious of her naivety throughout their childhoods, disgusted by it, because here Sua is, this girl who knew exactly what was going to happen to her from the time she was young, and here’s Mizi: Blissfully ignorant. I’d imagine that drew Sua in as much as it burned her. Mizi could never fully see or understand Sua. Sua was always trying to do the impossible, always trying to preserve that innocence.

No matter how much it haunts her, no matter how much she might wish to shake Mizi and scream and cry at her to wake up, look around, this is our reality, wake up—she never could bring herself to do it. She held onto that secret until the very end.

So Sua’s object of resentment is also the thing she longs to protect the most. And Mizi? Mizi was kept in the dark. Mizi’s god kept her in the dark and then abandoned her when she needed her the most. Wouldn’t you resent that? Wouldn’t you hate that?

In the aftermath of Sua’s death, the barrier between them finally makes itself plain to Mizi. Mizisua, just like Ivantill, is doomed to miscommunication and deceit. Mizisua, just like Ivantill, is filled with both deep love and deep hatred—for betrayal, for ignorance, for deception, for tragic circumstance within each other.