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౨ৎ So, love has blinded you? ᭪ ֶֶֶֶָָָָ֢֢֢֢

── .✦ " Me abrace, como fazia à beira do lago em naboo, quando tudo era silêncio, vento e sol, quando nossos olhos se encontravam sem pressa, sem medo, quando o tempo não importava, quando a galáxia parecia tão pequena comparada ao que eu sentia por você" ִֶָ

𓂃 ִֶָ o mundo parecia pequeno demais pro que eu sentia dentro do peito então me abrace como se ainda fôssemos só nós dois, com o vento balançando meu cabelo, seu olhar perdido no meu e o tempo congelado só pra gente existir. Sem barulho, sem futuro, só nós. As vezes eu fecho os olhos e volto pra aquele momento, eu consigo ouvir o som da água, sentir a luz morna do sol batendo na nossa pele, o riso tímido escapando da sua boca, tudo era mais suave, mais limpo, mais leve e o mundo, inteiro, cabia entre nossos dedos entrelaçados, mesmo que o tempo seja outro e os dias mais pesados, eu olho pra você… e ainda é o mesmo amor, mais profundo, mais nosso, um amor que não precisa se explicar, que não quer ir embora, que nasceu em silêncio e cresceu como raiz e agora é tudo que me mantém de pé

𓂃 ִֶָ Eu sei que as vezes o mundo tenta endurecer as pessoas, sei que a vida machuca de jeitos que a gente nem sabe nomear mas eu também sei, com todas as células do meu corpo, que você é o meu lar, que mesmo se tudo explodisse ao redor, mesmo que nada fizesse sentido, ainda assim você estaria lá e eu também, porque nós somos isso: constância. Resistência, amor em sua forma mais crua e delicada. A verdade é que não existe futuro onde eu não esteja com você, eu não quero uma vida grandiosa se não tiver seu riso ecoando nela, sua mão procurando a minha, seus olhos me dizendo em silêncio: “tá tudo bem, eu tô aqui” e eu quero a nossa simplicidade, quero você reclamando do frio enquanto me empresta seu casaco, quero nós dois sentados no chão, inventando brincadeiras idiotas como se o mundo não existisse fora dali, quero nossa paz, nossa bagunça, nosso amor

então me abrace como se o tempo não tivesse passado, como se estivéssemos no meio do nada e tudo fosse permitido: deitar na grama, falar sobre o universo, sonhar com o impossível, mas a verdade mais bonita é essa: o impossível já aconteceu, porque eu encontrei você e você ficou, e nós dois decidimos que não importa o que venha, vamos ficar juntos, eu amo você

𓂃 ִֶָ E é por isso que esse texto não é um adeus, é uma promessa, uma promessa de que eu sempre vou te escolher, em todos os dias bons e em todos os dias nublados, quando você sorrir, e principalmente quando não conseguir, quando o mundo parecer leve, e quando parecer demais. Uma promessa de que mesmo quando eu parecer distante, mesmo quando o silêncio pesar entre a gente, ainda assim vai ser amor, porque o que eu sinto por você é tão grande, tão real, que nem os buracos do universo dariam conta de conter, você é meu lugar seguro, meu caos preferido, meu afeto favorito e eu? vou ficar, vou ficar sem dúvidas, sem medo, sem fim, me abrace, como fazia naquela tarde e nunca, nunca mais solte

Eu amo você

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Anidala piece inspired by that light/dark concept art for the prequels that I’ve always loved

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a single mom padmé idea that’s been living in my brain lately

[ note: the clothing inspiration for these designs were taken from bedouin, tuareg, iranian, and saudi arabian references, as well as the original tatooinian designs + padmé’s nieces in the aotc cut scenes. i wanted my version of tatooine to more accurately reflect what desert cultures look like in the real world and just be more practical in general ]

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Ah yes, my favourite genre of Anidala has always and will forever remain the two of them flirting with one another in front of literally everyone.

Whether it be Yoda and OWK.

Or Padmé’s handmaiden.

Even in broad daylight. (Specifically in front of Rex and Ahsoka.)

Dire situations where they’re being held captive alongside other prisoners…

For God’s sake, at least show some restraint in front of Sith Lord Palpatine, Mace, and the Queen of Naboo, you guys 😭 c’mon!

Bonus:

OW not being above noticing how well Padmé knows her way around ANAKIN’S Twilight…

I ain’t even need to say anything for this one 😂

I’ll just end it by saying “poor 3PO and Jar Jar.”

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Friendly reminder that if Padmé had never met Anakin, she’d continue to give her life in service of others, never once thinking of herself. She’d continue to lock herself away and never let herself do anything for her own happiness, she’d never find that peace, security, safety, love, and happiness if she never met Anakin. She’d never be able to save her planet, she’d never would have made it off Tatooine, she’d never realize what it means to live, and recognize herself as a person instead of a politician. She was never at peace before him and with him she found it.

Quite literally in her own words:

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Friendly reminder that if Padmé had never met Anakin, she’d continue to give her life in service of others, never once thinking of herself. She’d continue to lock herself away and never let herself do anything for her own happiness, she’d never find that peace, security, safety, love, and happiness if she never met Anakin. She’d never be able to save her planet, she’d never would have made it off Tatooine, she’d never realize what it means to live, and recognize herself as a person instead of a politician. She was never at peace before him and with him she found it.

Quite literally in her own words:

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Obi-wan truly loved Anakin. I’m talking canon Star Wars, and I’m not talking about ROMANTIC love (honestly I envy the Greeks who had so many different words for the different kinds of love and as English speakers we only have one, as if there is only one kind of love and that’s very annoying but also a completely different topic) I’m talking about purely platonic love. And he did love Anakin, so so much.

Not in that characteristically distant way of the Jedi, but as family, as a BROTHER. He loved Anakin in a way that no Jedi should ever love anyone. And I think Anakin created this kind of love in other people because he was such a loving person, himself.

Anakin loved fearlessly, always. Anakin was never afraid of expressing himself, never afraid of baring his heart to those he cared about. He was never afraid of showing those he cared about that he loved them.

And even though Obi-wan was very rigid in his ways, even though he was often overly-adherent to the rules of the Jedi, he absolutely broke the rules about attachment when it came to Anakin.

You see this in the Revenge of the Sith novelization by Matthew Stover, where Obi-wan is having a conversation with Mace Windu and Master Yoda, and Obi-wan tells Master Yoda, "You and I have been close since I was a boy. An infant. Yet if ending this war one week sooner–one day sooner– were to require that I sacrifice your life, you know I would." He goes on to tell Master Yoda that Anakin is not like this, that Anakin would never sacrifice the lives of those he cared about for the greater good. And then, Obi-wan goes on to tell the two Jedi Masters that he would also stop at nothing to save Anakin.

You see this in the way he at first refuses to kill Anakin when Master Yoda asks him to, even after seeing Anakin kill younglings.

Obi-wan would literally rather face Sidious and die than have to kill Anakin.

And you see it in the way that he cares for Luke and Leia for the rest of his life.

I think Obi-wan often comes off as keeping Anakin at "arm's length." Anakin definitely feels this, as he is constantly looking for validation, approval, and even love from Obi-wan. And while Obi-wan feels it, he is not the best at showing it because Obi-wan did not grow up with a family. He does not know how to show this kind of love.

Anakin, on the other hand, lived with his mother for 9 years. He knows the love of family, and he shows it to everyone he considers family-- Padme, Obi-wan, Ahsoka, and Palpatine.

Obi-wan holds himself back from Anakin, not because he didn't care about Anakin the same way Anakin cared about Obi-wan, but because he cared too much.

If he had allowed himself to fully accept the depth of attachment and love he felt for Anakin, he probably would have questioned his role as a Jedi, as he questioned his role as a Jedi with Satine.

There are three people Obi-wan truly loves: Qui-Gon, Satine, and Anakin. He would have done almost anything for these people. He tells Satine he would have left the Jedi Order for her, if she'd asked him to. And he breaks the rules of the Jedi Order to allow Anakin his secret relationship with Padmé because Obi-wan loves Anakin enough to allow him that happiness.

It is only fitting that Obi-wan dies at Vader's hands, completely at peace, while protecting Anakin's children who have finally been reunited.

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PADME AMIDALA costume appreciation: ▶ Revenge of the Sith [7/9] (costume design by Trisha Biggar)

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i like that while queen amidala's signature color is red, PADME'S is definitely blue. with her slave disguise, the first time we really get to see "padme naberrie", and from thereon how often it's used during her most vulnerable moments with her family and her husband

there's just something special to me about how it was what she was wearing when she first met anakin, showed him her home, became the color we most often see her wear in her apartment after marrying him, and the color she was buried in after her last words swore his innocence

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I know Anakin's desilusions of grandiosity are the talk of the town, but something something Padmé dehumanization of herself as a result of so much survivor trauma and so many close death calls. She's the senator with the highest murder attempts on her, she gets assesination attempts weekly and brushes them off, and she keeps chasing for justice to the point of collition, she sees people dying around her all the time but she keeps on living and living, at some point she's flirting with death as much as Anakin does in the battlefield. And something something, Anakin, ironically, in his extreme trauma and fear of death taking the people he loves, being the only one to say "You're a person, and your name is Padmé, not queen nor senator, and you're as fragile as any other live being" Something something the irony that person that most adored her being also the one who saw her as a person Something something Anakin commiting atrocities not for a goddess, no for a politician no for royalty, for a person. Something something how contrarian it is, that Anakin sees himself as a weapon, and Padmé's extreme guilt becoming what seems like superiority.

And particularly here in this comic something something how easily Anakin can walk through that storm Padme has created, how easily he can enter into her headspace and she doesn't flinch, doesn't blink, she isn't even surprised because she expects him and he's the only one that knows and can reach her like this, they're just having a conversation, something something.

Something.

I swear this was the end of me, so idc if i'm rambling, this comic kept me up awake for more than one day, because the power would go out every single time i sat to work on it, damnit

i need to sleep asap, and eat, eating first probably

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PADME AMIDALA costume appreciation: ▶ Attack of the Clones [13/13] (costume design by Trisha Biggar)

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PADME AMIDALA costume appreciation: ▶ Revenge of the Sith [1/9] (costume design by Trisha Biggar)

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I THOUGHT IT WAS FORBIDDEN FOR A JEDI.

sapphic anidala

attack of the clones (2002) dir. george lucas / sappho fragment / revenge of the sith screenplay / “sappho and erinna in a garden at mytilene” by simeon solomon / concept art for revenge of the sith by iain mccaig / novitiate (2019) dir. margaret betts / revenge of the sith novelization by matthew stover / exiles in sepharad: the jewish millenium in spain by jeffrey gorsky / attack of the clones screenplay / concept art for revenge of the sith by iain mccaig / illustration of carmilla by d.h. frinston / letter from virginia woolf to vita sackville-west / sappho fragment / attack of the clones deleted scene / “once more to see you” by mitski / concept art for revenge of the sith by iain mccaig / stover / letter from vita sackville-west to virginia woolf / stover / revenge of the sith (2005) dir. george lucas

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finally finished my Padme costume database! Now has concept art, deleted scenes, behind the scenes photos, exhibition pics, promo pics and all of her animated TCW outfits! there are over 150 slides of refs in total <3

LINK and a sneaky peek below

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hey girl you can aggressively negotiate with my blaster any day

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nine outfits per character:           » padme amidala, star wars