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pela luz dos olhos teus✨✨

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Joong 😭 you are our only hope - release that picture!

Via: Dunk’s IG

(This is the most convulated photo ever taken - Dunk taking a photo of Joong taking FirstKhao shot)

FKJD FM IN VIETNAM

#TheHeartKillersinVietnam

22/06/2025

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Chapter 6 of This Tedious Misery, my Alan/Ray fic, is now posted! It's the second to last chapter and I'm still sad this one is ending even though it's much shorter than my usual chaptered fics! I hope you enjoy the ending for these two sad boys :)

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Gorgeous 🥰

Source as above

The Mall Bangkae x Khaotung

#พาข้าวตังมาเดอะมอลล์

#themalllifestorebangkaexkhaotung

20/06/2025

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Precious akkayan

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Chapter 5, Stay (for always) of my Alan/Ray fic, This Tedious Misery, is now posted!

Sorry this tumblr post is late, I had something to do directly after posting the chapter. I really love this chapter and I hope you all enjoy it too!

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FIRST step to enjoying any media is getting attached to the character whose suicidal tendencies are the most obvious

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Ayan + ตัวใหญ่ | The Eclipse (2022) Thai ตัวใหญ่ / Romanised dtua-hyai / translated big one. Less common than its counterpart, used in much the same vernacular you'd call someone big guy in English. In the case of The Eclipse, the nickname substituted was Big Foot, and it gets less mocking and more sincere as the series progresses.

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They are so beautiful 🤍🧡

Source as above (the first photo from here)

FirstKhaotung x Shabushi

13/06/2025

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Khaotung | 13 June 2025

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GIFSET REQUEST: Pain and suffering and heartbreak.

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the only way to know what your mother said about you is to become close to those cats and ask from them. love has always been all around you. you just hadn't noticed.

FIRST KANAPHAN as TIGER and KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as LYNX pilot trailer of CAT FOR CASH

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Chapter four of my Alan/Ray fic This Tedious Misery is now posted! It's titled, Change (for the future). I hope you enjoy it :)

Also, if you're waiting for an update on my First/Khaotung fic Undeniable After All, I finally finished the chapter seven rough draft, and I should be able to post it sometime this week, or next week at the very latest! I'm sorry it took so long <3

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This Tedious Misery Chapter 3 is now posted :)

Relationship: Alan/Ray

Rating: Mature

Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Strangers to Lovers, AU - Canon Divergence, Sand and Gaipa do not exist in this AU

Chapter 3 - Pain (for the present)

Reaching out to cup Ray’s cheek is a matter of instinct, a whispered desire that Alan has held back too long. He smooths a thumb over the cheekbone, looks into those wide, bright eyes, and loses.  He loses the lies he’s been telling himself, loses the last shroud of Wen’s ghost, loses the last pitiful excuse for his actions. He loses and loses and as everything drains away, as the world sharpens and fades, as the rush of his pulse whites out every other sound, even the beautiful moans that fall from Ray’s lips, he knows— This has to be the last time

Read the rest of chapter 3 here!

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This Tedious Misery

Relationship: Alan/Ray

Rating: Mature

Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Strangers to Lovers, AU - Canon Divergence, Sand and Gaipa do not exist in this AU

Chapter 2 - Ghosts (for the past)

One time, and one time only before the end, Alan fucks up. He is out drinking again, at that seedy bar. Ray hasn’t texted in a few days, and he gets desperate, thinks that maybe this is it. Anxiety hums through his veins, ratcheting his heart rate up a notch for each day that Ray has left him alone. 

This is what he wants. He wants Ray to leave. He needs that cycle broken, that tedium of misery relieved. He needs the effect to have a cause. 

But he thought there would be more relief in it, more release of the pent-up frustration that he has already failed to take out on Ray’s body.

It’s because the stupid boy didn’t tell me. Didn’t bother to end it properly.

Just like Wen. 

He should have known.

Read the rest of chapter 2 here!

***I am trying to be a little more organized about my fic update posts... we'll see how long this lasts!***

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#married

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I just posted the second and final chapter of my First/Khaotung fic In the Morning. Thank you all for waiting over the intervening days between the two chapters - I hope you enjoy the conclusion! <3