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THANK YOU!!! I’m done! 😭 I’ll be able to resume drawing next week! 🥹💖💖💖

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Today is the day 🙂‍↕️😖

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One of the best moments in TGCF is when Xian Lian is lying stabbed in the road in Lang-Er Bay, seriously thinking about committing genocide, and the merchant bumps into him, drops his rice, cusses and yells at him, and then a bit later comes back and apologizes for being angry and gives Xian Lian his bamboo hat. The reason it is the best is that we expect one moment of kindness. This is what happens in a book like this. We know that Xie Lian has to have an epiphany about humanity to draw him back from the brink of utter and complete darkness. We know he has to have a catalyst that makes it so he does not commit genocide and decides to save everyone instead. This is how these stories go. But in these stories, that moment is usually given to us by an innocent child. Or it's given to us by someone who is just a purer soul than all the rest. In the set-up for this scene, you fully expect the one who will give Xie Lian the will to save humanity will be the water merchant who has been wanting to help Xie Lian the whole time he was lying in the road with a sword through him. That water merchant has been shown to be more compassionate than the rest and has been held back by his wife, who fears the God of Misfortune.

And yet, in TGCF, that moment is not given to us by a pure, innocent child. It is not given to us by one person who just happens to be kinder than most. It's not. It's not. It's given to us by just your every day guy having a shitty day who is just as cruel and nasty to Xian Lian as everyone else, but who takes a moment to calm down and sees this pathetic loser in the rain and is like "hey, I lost my temper, sorry, don't be a pathetic loser, here's my hat, stopped getting rained on and looking so sad, go home."

It's not this pure shining moment about the inherent goodness of humanity. It's this pure shining moment about people doing shitty things and people doing kind things and how that's all mixed up within us and we're always both. It's that that gives Xie Lian the will to survive and sacrifice everything to save all humanity. It's not because there is good alongside the bad but because we're always both, and Xie Lian knows that he is both, and he thinks that's worth saving. He thinks it's worth being obliterated for.

When he's not obliterated for it, he lives for it instead.

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What is a wedding zine without someone getting cold feet? 🤭 @paljuresji 's story has all the twists and turns, make sure you read it here:

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There was only one room at the inn... and it's the matrimonial one! 😏 Read thekeyholder's story here.

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Feng Xin: Where's Crimson Rain Sought Flower?

Mu Qing: I'll find him

Mu Qing, *raising his voice*: Xie Lian is arrogant!

Mu Qing: *dies*

Feng Xin:

Hua Cheng:

Feng Xin: OH MY GODS, YOU KILLED HIM-

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Mu Qing: If we don’t get out of this alive... If we’re both about to die… I love you, Feng Xin!

*Neither of them die*

Feng Xin: ...

Mu Qing: ...

Feng Xin: So do you wanna talk about-

Mu Qing: No thank you

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Fengqing nation! 🥰The Wedding Zine is now available as an epub, thanks to @/kopi_pheng . Get yours here.

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3 down. Last one will be next week! 💪😭

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The prompts are here!

Text version under cut.

Feng Xin Week Prompts

Sunday, July 14 - Ascension / Ju Yang Monday, July 15 - First Love / Mount Tonglu Tuesday, July 16 - Blood / Fengshen Wednesday, July 17 - Archery / Banishment Thursday, July 18 - Childhood / Xianle War Friday, July 19 - Temple / Nan Feng Saturday, July 20 - Free day!

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Chinese painting of deutzias

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After over two years of blood, sweat, and tears, I'm finally doing this. I'm finally gonna start posting this behemoth. Full disclosure, this is a WIP, about three-quarters written, and the entire story arc is already outlined. More info to be found in A/N on AO3.

You Have Turned Into A Prayer

Rating: Explicit

Main Pairing: FengQing

Word Count: 88K and Counting 👀 (So officially the longest fic I've ever written. I've always been more a short story/novelette/novella writer in the past.)

Summary:

Everyone knows that the General Nan Yang and the General Xuan Zhen hate each other's guts. They fight all the time and have come in equal first on the unofficial "Most Likely to Cause Property Damage in Heaven" list for the past three centuries. Some Heavenly Officials swear that they must have gotten together at some point, though, because nobody can fake that much divorce energy. Some Nan Yang and Xuan Zhen followers have begun praying that the two Generals reconcile and unite as one front to defend the South. Some Ju Yang followers have begun praying for a similar thing, but perhaps with a bit of a more literal interpretation as far as the "uniting as one" bit.

Nobody knows that the truth is far more chaotic than fiction. Nobody except for the Historian who asked to record their story, there in the settling dust after the Crown Prince of Xianle's confrontation with the Emperor of Heaven.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55885858/chapters/141907642

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Wearing hanfu. The half-shouldered style resembles what would've been worn for ease of archery and the like during the Tang Dynasty

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this month has been so busy…

next week will be my 🥲🥲🙃…

Our former principal always seems to be asking how I'm doing. Does she think I’m not okay? I wonder. 🤔

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