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Tied to the Lesson. N.R

Warnings: 18+! MINORS DNI!, Age gap, strap on (r receiving,) edging, seductive, praising

Word count: 779

A/n: Giving myself a little motivation to start studying.

The ropes were soft.

Natasha had made sure of that, silk, strong enough to restrain, gentle enough to keep the bruising to a minimum. Not that you would have minded..

She straddled you slowly, deliberately, her thighs tight around your hips, the strap already buried deep inside. She wasn’t moving yet. Just sitting there, letting you feel the fullness of it, the pressure, the heat. Letting your body remember that you were owned.

Your chest rose and fell in ragged, desperate breaths. Your fingers curled into empty air, unable to reach anything, no sheets, no skin, no anchor.. You let out a whimper, thighs trembling. You rolled your hips instinctively, trying to make Natasha move. It only made the strap sink in deeper, harder, hitting that sore, sweet spot inside.

“Oh, baby..” Natasha whispered, leaning down, brushing her nose against yours. “You’re so needy. So impatient.”

Her hips moved..once. A slow, deep thrust that made you cry out, your back arching helplessly. Your arms strained against the restraints, trying to grab onto something, anything, but there was nothing.

“F-Fuck..” you gasped. “Please..I need-“

Natasha cut you off with a kiss. Her mouth hovered over yours as she pulled back and thrust again, deep and slow. “Focus.” she murmured. “It’s time for your lesson.”

You whimpered. Your eyes fluttered open, unfocused.

“First question.” Natasha whispered, circling her hips in a slow, cruel rhythm. “What part of the brain regulates fear and aggression?”

You blinked rapidly, lips trembling. “Amyg..Amygdala..!”

“Mmm.” Natasha moaned, pressing in harder as reward. “Yes. That’s my girl. So fucking smart when you’re stuffed full of me.”

She leaned down again and kissed your open mouth, swallowing your gasp, her voice dipping darker as her hand snaked down between your legs.

“Such a good answer.” Natasha breathed, fingers slipping over your clit in slow, maddening circles. “You deserve a reward, don’t you?”

You cried out, real, broken. Your hips jerked. Your arms pulled hard against the restraints.

“Too much!” you whimpered. “I- please..I can’t-“

“You can.” Natasha said, pressing down harder on your clit. “You’ll take it like the good girl you are.”

Tears slipped from the corners of your eyes as your legs shook. Your body wanted to let go. Your mind wanted to fall. But Natasha didn’t stop.

“Next question.” Natasha tapped your cheek lightly. Not hard, just enough to pull you back. “Stay with me, baby. I want you right here.”

You blinked. Tried to breathe. “What’s the reinforcement schedule where a reward comes after an unpredictable number of responses?”

Your lips moved but no sound came out. “Answer me.” Natasha whispered.

“R-Ratio..variable ratio-” you stammered.

Natasha paused, and shook her head slowly. “No, baby. Just naming it isn’t enough.” Her thrusts slowed, dragging the toy out until you sobbed.

“P-Please don’t stop-”

“Oh, I’m not stopping..” Natasha purred. “I’m dragging it out. You’ll feel every inch now. You got it wrong..you pay for that.”

She thrust back in, agonizingly slow. Your moan tore straight from your throat, mouth falling open as your whole body shuddered.

“You feel how deep I am?” Natasha asked, her voice almost gentle. “Feel me stretch you? And you can’t grab me, can you?”

You shook your head, crying now. “N-No..”

“You need to take.” Natasha corrected, brushing the backs of her fingers across your flushed cheek. “Take what I give you. Not what you want.”

Then, slowly, cruelly, she thrust once, deep and fast, and you screamed. Your mouth dropped open wide, eyes rolling back, and Natasha, smiling matched it, parting her own lips as if she were mirroring the moan. Like it fed her.

She leaned down and kissed you again, mouth open, matching the gasping shape of your lips, catching the sounds, the heat, the surrender.

“You’re so close..” Natasha whispered, still not speeding up. “You want to come?”

You cried. “Yes- yes, please! I’ll do anything-“

“Then get the next one right.” Natasha said, brushing her lips against yours. “And maybe I’ll let you fall.”

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maybe don't blast this playlist out loud.... there's some not so family friendly songs

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More excited, want 💳💥💳💥

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okay working on your playlist rn, so far we have quite a few radiohead songs, but I'm also adding different things

including, but not limited to, Jeff Buckley, two feet, fleetwood mac, Raye, bad omens, linkin park. A lot of different vibes but I wanna introduce u to different kind of songsssss

oh and also chase atlantic, to make a certain anon happy :)

I reckon I'll be done soon

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I haven’t heard any of those artists before, so I’m really excited 🧍🏻‍♀️🫂

[natsaffection]

There are waterproof hearing aids. I don’t have them, just heard about it. I’ve been wearing hearing aids for almost 20 years now, so you don’t even have to describe the feeling. :)

If you need any advice on anything with it, like tips or idk, reach out, because I’m happy to help! (Also, maybe there’s a chance that your device can be connected to your phone, that’s make phone calls easier.)

-🫡

Omg, a mutual, where were you when I first started with it. Because honestly, I hated it, still kind of do. I’ve had it for about 3–4 months now. I even got used to not hearing on that side back then, and then had to readjust to hearing again. And it just…didn’t feel the same? I could tell there was a difference.

I’ve heard about the connection features, but I don’t want to use them. I still don’t fully want to accept it or give into it, I don’t even know how to describe that feeling properly (again) I think I’ve been gaslighting myself a bit, telling myself I don’t need it, or that I don’t really have it. It’s a weird mental loop. 🫠

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so you're a pilot?

Not exactly. I do fly in a helicopter, yes, but I’m not the one controlling it.

I’m responsible for the systems and for coordinating the people on board, like giving signals to the soldiers when it’s time to jump out.

I also assist the pilots during takeoff and landing (usually while hanging out the door or being lowered down, lol).

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If you've already listen to radiohead, any thoughts about their song?

if not I'd recommend listening to "let down" by radiohead

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I’m waiting for a special playlist, only then will I start listening to them 🙂‍↕️

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good question. idk really. just another training. water rafting and cave exploring (and auditing-yes, in the middle of the jungle). honestly, I'm not built for this. I'm supposed to be a Darshen. where's my Samuel at? :(

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Ohaaa!! I would imagine dinosaurs in there 🧍🏻‍♀️

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Do you still have some hearing left or nothing at all ? And stupid question; can you wear headphones ?

Hope you don’t mind those questions, if yes, just ignore :)

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Noo, it’s okay! I still have a little hearing left, like, if someone is standing close to me and it’s quiet, and I really focus, I can understand them.

But as soon as more people start talking? It’s over. I can still hear music too, though it’s hard to explain. There’s a sensor inside my ear that connects to a bigger piece that sits kind of over the ear, but still inside?

When I want to listen to music, I just take that part off (the cable stays in) and put my headphones in. No idea if that’s the “right” way to do it, I just do it, hahah

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You can’t put a phone to your ear when you have an earring aid ? Does it get in water ?

(I know nothing about this)

-🥋

I mean, yes, you can. But I find it uncomfortable to press the phone against it, so I usually put calls on speaker or use my left ear instead.

And I’m not sure if there are waterproof devices out there, but mine definitely isn’t 🥲

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Hearing aid? Welcome in the club! I have one (actually two) too. How is it? Do you like it?

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Liking is a strong word. I don’t like it, but I don’t hate it either. It definitely took time to get used to. Over time, I stopped thinking about it, until moments like putting my phone to my ear for a call, or getting into the shower.

Now, it’s just part of my routine. I know it’s there… but at the same time, I kind of don’t. It’s hard to describe, it just became part of life. ✨

So I’m glad I only have one. No idea how people survive with two 🫠

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Too much work to do today, I might explode 😩

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Feel youu 🫂

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So are we living the clint way now? 🏹🏹🏹🎯

Jk?

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Awww, never saw it like that

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Yellowjacket is so good! Although the anons are right, it's so messed up in some of the scenes 😅

I won’t touch it ✨

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https://www.tumblr.com/natsaffection/786587908273537024/have-you-ever-been-overseas-because-of-your-job?source=share

Did u go to an ear doctor?

._. 🪻( is this taken? Cause i'll take it 😝)

Yess, I got taken there, hahah, and now I’m wearing a hearing aid 🫂

Welcome!

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Have you ever been overseas because of your job?

Three times. The last one was where it escalated again over the weekend. I’m kind of mad and sad that we were there for nothing now, and I lost my hearing because of it.

All that, and again…for nothing. :,)

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Can I add you on Discord tho? ._. i am kinda shy but if you are okay with it?

Of course!!

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A friend recommended yellowjackets, and at first, it was all good, but then there were some pretty wild scenes. Everyone’s unhinged 😭

–🦝

Nuh uh, I want a peaceful life 🧍🏻‍♀️