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Or maybe, love isn’t meant for me in this lifetime, and I’ve finally accepted my fate. No one wants me, and I guess I’m okay with that.

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Maybe if I were a hoe, someone would love me.

Maybe if I got my breasts done, someone would love me.

Maybe if I weren’t dark-skinned, someone would love me.

Maybe if my bottom row of teeth was straight, someone would love me.

Maybe if I wasn’t skinny, someone would love me.

Maybe if I appeared sexy, someone would love me.

Maybe if I wasn’t myself, someone would love me.

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This is for anyone, especially those in their 20s, who are "struggling" or thinking things will not get better. Here’s some clarity.

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HOPE - NF.

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Please don’t flex for social media. Did you know that a lot of people don’t have emergency funds or a savings account? It’s okay if you’re figuring things out, it’s okay if you have roommates, it’s okay if you’re not driving the latest car, and it’s okay if you live with your parents. It’s okay if you work at McDonald’s. If people have a problem with that, tell them to help you instead of judge you. This is your comeback story. Don’t go broke trying to impress people who wouldn’t spit on you if you were on fire. I think you’re doing phenomenal.

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Don’t let loneliness cause you to forget your worth.

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*Me to Me: I have to get my money up. I have to. 😩*

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I recently went to a high-end restaurant in Maui and was surrounded by wealthy people. It felt good! I need to make this a habit—going to fancy restaurants only. It does something to you and motivates you to improve your financial situation. I deserve this life.

Rich men love golf.

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Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely insecure, and I was wondering why. I was thinking about how I’m never pretty enough for anyone, not even people I considered lovers. I thought about how I will never meet the beauty standards of society and the Black community. I thought about how, when my butt is bigger, people are drawn to me. This includes women too, since women are usually the ones who body-shamed me. And if I’m being honest, the comparison messes with my mental health because why do I have to be as pretty as her? Why can’t I be pretty as me? Why can’t I have a flat booty? Why can’t I be skinny without anyone pointing it out?

I had to get myself out of these thoughts that aren’t mine. These are words people said to me; my insecurities were NEVER MY OWN. Back in elementary school, a teacher said I was trying to be sexy when I used to switch when I walked. I’m now 26 and I’m learning how not to walk stiffly. That messed with me. Once you realize your insecurities aren’t your own, you will learn how to take back your power and love yourself wholeheartedly. When I first started going to the gym, my goal was a bigger butt because I thought I’d be more attractive. Now, my goal is to better my mental health. I don’t owe anyone "pretty" because I am enough, whether you think I’m pretty or not.

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You have to realize that many of these celebrities are all about performative activism because it benefits them. Being a millionaire, a billionaire, or even rich enough to own an estate in LA or anywhere in the world. Yet, you have the audacity to come online and ask “rich” people to donate or the general public to donate. You have to see through people’s facade especially these celebrities. I’m only here for the ART, but many of them are just as selfish and entitled. Remember the Maui fire and how all these rich people, I mean, they’re at least high millionaires or billionaires were asking people to donate to fire victims. When all they had to do was call their rich friends, their connections and come together and things would’ve gotten done faster. The gag is, they don’t care and like to perceive themselves as good people. People are homeless, can’t afford health insurance, and are debating if they can afford to pay their rent and eat.

So yes, the celebrities we have like having power over the people, but they don’t care. Maybe that is why they were chosen because they’re not as good as they portray themselves. But then again, it’s no one's job to help, unfortunately.

But someone with millions or billions of dollars, they should be obligated. But you know, they rather play dress up and eat children. I digress though.

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If I could speak to my younger self, I would advise her not to go to college and not to move in with her first boyfriend. Instead, I would encourage her to travel. While college has its merits, personally, I would prefer attending trade school rather than spending several years on a degree. Everyone's aspirations differ. Every day, I'm striving to establish a stable life in another country because I've grown weary of America. If I'm fortunate enough to have children, I'll urge them to live fully. They don't have to rush into schooling right away. I don't see many young black kids traveling because we're often encouraged to go straight to university. I've encountered numerous young Europeans, some as young as 20, who have visited more countries than I have. I'm convinced they're encouraged to explore life through travel, and many of them are still in school! Please, everyone, travel! 🥹

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The problem is, we often wait until we're rich or have everything figured out to truly live. I didn't wait until I was wealthy to move to Hawai’i, even though it's one of the most expensive places in the world. I made it work. Now, I'm excited to relocate to another country officially. But I say this to emphasize: if you wait until everything is perfect to fully embrace life, you'll miss out on its true essence. Do it now! Looking back, there are many things I would do differently.

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If you're young and have a desire to travel internationally, I truly believe your first destination should be somewhere in Asia. The food is delicious, the people are among the kindest in the world, and it's affordable. I don't spend much when I'm in Asia; as a budget traveler, I stick to hostels ranging from $5 to $20 a night, maybe $30 for something fancier. Eating out costs less than $20 for a whole meal. Even staying for a month, I don't spend more than $1k.

If you have to choose between visiting Hawai’i or anywhere else, don't waste your money in Hawai’i. A day there equals a week and a half in Asia. Traveling isn't about splurging; it's about enjoying yourself and seeing the world. Don't wait until you're "rich" to do it—do it now!