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Love this discussion <3

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have you ever listened to a song that tapped your subconscious mind and it suddenly made you sob? i just did.

I'm angry at you For something I can't do I care too much But don't try enough Caution what I choose 'Cause there's too much to lose I missed you today Can't help but feel like a pain I'm too scared to leave my room Don't want to see what I can't choose Everyone's watching but nobody cares Everyone's laughing, the joke is there's no one there Why do I miss the uncertainty of being fourteen? Familiar sadness is too comforting And I don't wanna hurt again I just want back old friends I'm too scared to leave my room Don't want to see what I can't choose Everyone's watching but nobody cares Everyone's laughing, the joke is there's no one there I'm terrified of being found out That progress is fake and my thoughts are still loud Nobody's watching, I need you to care Nobody's laughing 'cause nobody's there I'm angry at you Why can't you leave your room? You care too much But don't try enough

This song felt like, I was talking to myself. I burst out crying and again, it made me aware that I was alone.

Wanna know what's weird? I smiled after. For the first time, I loved my own company. It feels like something was healed inside me.

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Virgo moon self is so happy with my weekend accomplishments! I’m ready for this week!

On another thought, still contemplating ‘bout how I’m gonna be able to register to vote on the final week of registration 🥲 Hope that the processing time wouldn’t take too long 😣 D*mn, I seriously forget about this. Been a qualified voter for almost 8 years now and the guilt still haunts me that I wasn’t been able to cast my vote before, now that I’m aware of the shitty things happening in the government.

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how was wednesday treating you?

me? kind of hating my f*cked up body clock. maybe because I haven’t been sleeping in my bed recently. i had to sleep in my fur mats for now because my clean clothes are in my bed and I haven’t transferred them in my drawers yet. AND the light bulb socket in my room needs to be fixed. so, i cannot use my bulb speakers. i had to listen to music thru my earphones for now. i hate my laptop’s speaker 😒

in another note, meditating helps for this bad bois (brain cells). somehow helps me get thru the day to clear my head. specially with the help of the crystals i bought.

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SERIES TO WATCH FOR

I rarely watch series because I hate cliff hangers and getting hooked in a very long story. BUT, this series that I'll recommend are everything.

LUCIFER

SERIES PLOT SUMMARY:

Based on characters created by Neil Gaiman, Sam Kieth and Mike Dringenberg, this series follows Lucifer, the original fallen angel, who has become dissatisfied with his life in hell. After abandoning his throne and retiring to Los Angeles, Lucifer indulges in his favorite things (women, wine and song) -- until a murder takes place outside of his upscale nightclub. For the first time in billions of years, the murder awakens something unfamiliar in Lucifer's soul that is eerily similar to compassion and sympathy. Lucifer is faced with another surprise when he meets an intriguing homicide detective named Chloe, who appears to possess an inherent goodness -- unlike the worst of humanity, to which he is accustomed. Suddenly, Lucifer starts to wonder if there is hope for his soul.

BIG BANG THEORY

SERIES PLOT SUMMARY:

The Big Bang Theory is a comedy about brilliant physicists, Leonard and Sheldon, who are the kind of "beautiful minds" that understand how the universe works. But none of that genius helps them interact with people, especially women. All this begins to change when a free-spirited beauty named Penny moves in next door.

SEX EDUCATION

SERIES PLOT SUMMARY:

Sex Education is a British comedy-drama streaming television series created by Laurie Nunn for Netflix. The series depicts the lives of the students, staff, and parents of the fictitious Moordale Secondary School as they contend with dilemmas in their personal lives, often related to sexual intimacy.

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Just realized that this fluff is 17 months old (turning 15 years old in human years) and I can’t wrap my head around the idea that there will be a time that he’ll get older than me. This fluff saved me during the trying times of depression and pandemic. Now, he is a big boy 😭 Man, poor Salem. He became a sponge of my frustrations and had to endure my random surge of annoying cuddle attacks to disturb him from his peaceful naps.

Imagine seeing him like this with my ✨future kids✨ (hopefully) makes me sob 😭😭😭

putangina 😭

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