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i was eating ice cream at like my local ice cream place and i was walking to my car and there was another car parked and i just hear “your so beautiful” and i’m like “thank you🥹” and i thought that was it, but he kept going like “your melanin skin your just glowing” and i was like “your so beautiful too you just made my day tysm💓” and then he was like “you made mine” and drove off lol

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i feel so content yk! like i feel so good! my life is really life-ing rn and i feel like i finally having control over it! school started and so far so good i like dead cant believe it��s my SENIOR YEAR AHHH!! i only have 5 classes so i get to leave early which is amazing bc i can beat traffic. my boss actually likes me lmao at first i thought she didn’t but she’s super cool, guys i’m so glad i have a job that i genuinely like yk? it allows me to chill and i get paid at the same time🙏🏾

back to school tho, i like my schedule and the people in my class there’s this one boy tho that like talks about sexual stuff out loud and it’s so uncomfy 😭😭 i be looking back at him giving him the stank face so i think he thinks i don’t like him 😭 apart from that i’ve also been studying for my SATs i did a practice reading test and only got one question wrong ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

guys i had to delete tiktok -just the app not my acc- because i’m lowkey feeling objectified like my tiktok only receives likes and views and saves from boys and i’m so over it!!! if any girls wanna drop their tiktok and be moots with me when i decide to redownload pls do 🙏🏾🙏🏾 i have like 700+ followers and only like 6 are girls 😔 I KNOW!

speaking off, why my x boo thang start saving my tiktok videos all the sudden like 🤔 ik you miss me but don’t be weird !

i’m so excited to go to the fair and my 18th birthdayyyyy!!!! VIRGO SZN PLEASE🎀 hopefully i get a tattoo my mom is leaning towards yes so yea i’m happy!

your girl’s also been working out too and i got compliments this week abt my body and i was just like thankssss it’s giving no waisttt!!! i’m obsessed with love island uk that’s all i’ve been watching so like i’m constantly saying “it’s givinggggggg” 😭😭😭

but yea that’s my life so farrr much love x

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i feel like i’m starting to let go of things/people that don’t deserve to be in my life! i’m starting to understand the importance of my own happiness and well being. deep down inside i feel like i’ll always be a people pleaser but not in a negative way anymore, more in a still putting my self first and cater to them later if that makes since. i just removed a bunch of people from my cf and although it may not seem like that big of deal it is to me. i always felt like i was there solely to entertain people and like that’s not just me talking bc people would tell me like “everytime you don’t post insta is so boring” so like that’s what i felt like i was to people. but now i’m at the point where it’s like imma start doing things bc I want to yk? not cuz sb is pressuring me or bc people expect to do yk?

i feel like my senior year is gonna be all about growing and learning who i am. i used to think i knew who i was but i feel like all i knew was who i wanted to be not who i am now?! that don’t make any sense i’m sorry😭😭 but like if u get it u get it

also started making decisions to better myself! even tho i don’t want to do something i force myself to do it because one, it’s good for me & two, i ALWAYS feel better about myself after i do them and i thank myself afterwards for doing it yk? like today i had a very busy day school & work and i was super tired so i was like imma just take a shower and clean my room tmr. but then i was like no, that’s me falling back into old habits of laziness ! so even though it was 12 am in the morning i got up showered did my skin care routine and cleaned my room!!! and i just feel so proud! so yea that’s just something i wanted to talk about frl🎀

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life is so “….”

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... im back!! LMAOOO IK IK IK!!! listen listen listen! y'all don't understand how insane my life has been these past couple months! like i've been on this acc but i haven't had the time to like write on here anymore! so forgive meee! ANYWAYS the way.. i've been working.. EVERYDAY for 2 months is INSANE. i'm a camp counselor and i feel like i’ll never be the same again! like i’ve matured so MUCH and i’ve learned so much like omg, but like these kids though are no joke there’s been times where i’ve wanted to bang my head, cry, and run away😭😭😭 but i’m so so so thankful for my co workers they are just the best and so funny and chill! we went to dinner and jumped in the pool and just urgh much love! i’m ngl i have not been saving i’m down to my last $25 but listen

i’m just a girl.

i’ve been going to the gym and watching my calories too like who am i! y’all i am not playing when i tell you my body is TEA☕️ low waisted, high waisted, long sleeve, crop top, dress, skirt, shorts ANYTHING!! i look gawd innnn like urgh imma go to the gym today too i just yessssss😩

as for boys and shit yk… i’ve had a couple situation - ships i’m not gonna lie to yall! they’ve been cool but like i’m not feeling relationships rn like urgh, taking care of myself is already hard work and now i gotta look after a nigga?!!! DO I LOOK LIKE A MOTHA!!! no. lmaoo but i’d be lying if i said one of the main reasons i’m looking forward to going back to school is for the guys😭 idk like guys coming up to you in the hall and asking for your insta is such an ego booster!

speaking of insta i have not been taking pictures and it’s cuz i’m suffering from a bad case of camp counselor hair… like urgh my hair not cute rn bc these kids love touching it and ONE TIME THEY CHASED ME WITH SHAVING CREAM AND DRENCHED ME IN IT!! plus i have to get in the pool all the time so it’s like there’s no point in having a middle part buss down if it’s just gonna get ruinedddddddd!!!

buttttt i bought me a wig for back to school so i look good and hawt so don’t even worry y’all! i also started shopping on depop bc yk i kinda care for the environment like lowkey… i don’t wanna get into rn BUT i got some nike dunks in grey for super cheap and they were real and new so i was like lemme get some black ones too… long story short i got scammed but it’s fine cuz money comes to me abundantly right? right.

i also took my SATs this past june i got a 1050 which isn’t the best but it’s better than that 950 i had gotten earlier this year, ITS CUZ I FELL ASLEEP LMAOOO!! no but i’m gonna take it again in october and hopefully hopefully get a 1400 that’s my goal cuz baby i need scholarships!!

i watched the barbie movie 2 days ago and it made me realize that this summer i haven’t been appreciating my mom as much as i should, i feel like working summer camp as just made me a little more irritable when i get home and shit. i just started to feel bad. at the end of the day my mom is just a grown teenage girl🎀 i did her lashes yesterday and they turned out cutee i’m also installing her hair, mothers deserve to be pampered too!

i went hover boarding yesterday to clear my mind and i almost fell but is it just me or do i not get embarrassed anymore like i’m definitely starting to think that being embarrassed is a choice🤔

anyways my goals for this school year is to be hot, make $$, and get into my college of choice!!

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