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Irk sucked anyway I don't even remember it so it must've been terrible

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I just realized that I never really did get to go home ever again so that's great

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Guess I'll die

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I continue to be a ball of contradictions even in this life

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I'd say I'm lonely but god aren't I supposed to like it

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Hi

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I just found out that I might be able to start hrt without therapist req though so the anger is fading. I just need to ask for help from the people in my gsa because I don’t really know where to start but you see the problem with that is that I’m incapable of asking for help because that means people know more than me and that’s a load of crap

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I’ve been having horribly violent thoughts and impulses about people now since that kid said that thing to me and im like Please I don’t want these.

I didn’t go to gsa today bc that kid would probably be there and if i saw them I’m pretty sure I’d accidentally be really mean to them in an attempt to literally not strangle them 

Good job me

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This one kid I know and told could room with me if they wanted to keeps like coming back and like asking about random crap and like they have social anxiety disorders or whatever so I get it but like 

It’s starting to royally piss me off. They were like “Im on t now so ill have a lot more problems finding roommates :C” and while i guess thats true if youre going random it pissed me the fuck off

cuz i cant stand the idea that people are getting hrt and im not because I’m a selfish person so i’ve been in a bad mood since they told me that

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Literally everyone annoys me for no god damn reason.

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I hate my life right now 

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my sister said she would read my cover letters thsi weekend and she didn’t and i understand that shes busy but honestly if you dont have the time to please just let me know instead of like....just not doing it and saying you will

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i’m honestly glad no one likes me romantically anymore (or at least i think so) because I honestly don’t think i could trust myself to be in a relationship without getting possesive or jealous or irrationally angry because i already get that way with normal friendships so it’s probably a really bad idea for me to start dating anyone before i like.....seek professional help

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i think i have too many power & control fantasies for it to be healthy but its hard to judge because im not in anyone elses brain

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me: worries about my own future wellbeing

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a blog called christian bloggers followed thsi blog im laughing

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i just want to hold someone’s undivided attention and be the center of their world but that’s not something i can ask or expect of anyone