necropuke

[necropuke]

hey niorist. niorology. just realized i never blocked you here. get your sorry ass away from my friend, he doesnt like you. you say oh im healing im not gonna be mean anymore and then go showing off my tumblr from when i was in deep psychosis as a way to make said friend stop talking to me. it didnt work. youre not better and youre not capable of getting better. have a lovely day.

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i need this fat fucking skinhead gone

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crazy fucking deja vu how many times have i had these emotions sitting on this floor bawling over this lady in this dress

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back in that dress she likes

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i want her to take advantage of me when im regressed

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my cars transmission blew up im going to hang myself i might never be able to drive him again

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yearning to be home (his house)

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i cant get the image of this 14 week old kitten crying with his leg limp dangling in the air out of my mind

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can i please stop being like this. i was getting better but the past week has been. oh my god. i cant go one night without almost killing myself i cant go one night eithout bawling my eyes out and wishing i was anywhere else anyone else just away i cant do this i dont know if ill survive the two years i have until i can move out i dont know if theyll let me survive two more years i dont know what i did to them but noe they all hate me and are trying to keep me away from the family and get rid of me and treat me like im shit and make me upset just so they can say im always upset and theyre always walking on eggshells around me. i cant fucking take this

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claw marks on my arm

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i want to hurt someone so bad

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got through an awful night without relapsing or taking anything. i dont know if i can do the same tonight because i know today is going to be awful but i can try. im really proud of myself. and nobody else will be proud of me because i cant tell them because they dont know anythings wrong

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i want to eat because im hungry but i keep throwing up and my stomach aches and im tired im so tired why cant people be fucking normal about me why do they all fucking want me im so tired why cant they be normal about me

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i wanna get fluent in french and leave everything change my identity and leave everyone be a new person new look new name new personality i want to change it all

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feeling awful and violent towards my school and really violent towards the people in my life

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i fucking hate my family.

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healed scars under cut

comparison of how much theyve faded. the "current" photo is half a year old now.