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Tell me when you get bored. A story about doses. [x]

I posted this on twitter and had a variety of aggressive ableism thrown my way.

This is a story about changing what I can in spite of what I cannot for the comfort of my loved ones. The thing that others find to be hurtful about me is that I like to spend time in silent solitude. People who love me often feel hurt that I tend to solve my own problems instead of leaning on them.

When we spend too much time together, people find my neutrality to be concerning, and it becomes too much for people to be unable to read me.

To show the people I love that I enjoy their company in ways they can understand, I pool my energy together to be high-energy, peppy, and social. Since this is not my natural state of being, it takes effort, which can only be expended in small doses. I amplify the things people like in me while filtering out everything they dislike about me when I am in their company.

I change my behaviors for those I love, but at the end of the day, I cannot change my neutral state of being, which is the thing that they want most out of me.

This is a story about me accommodating people in the best way I know how, not the other way around. I would truly appreciate it if people don't misconstrue this anecdote as me asking for dismissal of hurtful behavior when in reality, people find hurt in the fact that I simply exist, and I must change for them.

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im sorry i just love them so much

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I don’t know who that character is, draw him receiving the Ten Commandments

very funny prompt. he has a god complex

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"I don't make enough art." Enough for what?

Genuinely! Sometimes the answer is "my portfolio" or "to advertise my commissions" or "to reach a wider audience." These can be daunting, but they're concrete goals with trackable progress! Maybe you don't reach your ideal goal, but you can still see progress, and be proud of it!!

Other times, the answer is "to feel like a real artist" or "to deserve this attention" or something like that. THESE are SINISTER BRAIN TRICKS!!! Do not listen!!! They are abstract and anxiety-fueled, and will be ever-shifting!! You will never feel like you've made progress!! That fucking sucks and is unfair to you!!!!!!

Make enough art to learn a new technique! Make enough art to see your progress in a few months' time! Make enough art to put an idea onto paper! Make enough art to have some fun in your spare time! THIS makes you an artist, and your art is enough when YOU decide it is!! Okay!!!!!!

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I'm a bit tired of people calling asexuality 'not a big deal.'

Here's the thing, I never thought it was a big deal either. I didn't have a big angsty coming out about being aro or being ace. It was difficult in a sense to think of the future I'd imagined for myself not coming true, but I didn't mourn that future. I was happy that there were others out there feeling what I was feeling and going through what I was going through.

But it's become a big deal. It's become a big deal because as I have grown older, I have realised the future is still fucking blurry. I have no idea what to expect from it. Society was not built for those who do not or cannot follow its rules. I've realised just how MUCH people say aphobic stuff on a daily basis. I feel constantly othered by comments that carelessly remind us we are out of the majority. That remind us again and again that we are NOT the norm and will never BE the norm. I rarely see myself on TV and in books and in movies. People feel weird about it, so they just never bring it up like an unspoken secret. I'm constantly doubted and told I'm mistaken about my own identity, which causes anxiety and self doubt so many years later. People make a variety of assumptions about me and tell me it's 'sad' and I'm 'missing out.'

It's not just about 'not having sex.' It's about feeling like you're the only one at a concert that doesn't know the words. it about society making you feel like you're just a little bit off. My sexuality/romantic identity doesn't define me. I don't WANT it to be a big deal.

But it is. It is a big deal because all of you make it a big deal.

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neither here nor there

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just sharing a friend's indie comic kickstarter! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

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ep.2 - 3/3

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ep.2 - 1/3

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Hey! Do you have any plans to continue content for Channel 12 1/2? The art for it is amazing!

hey thanks for asking!

I'm currently working on the backgrounds for the first episode like a madman, I'm thinking of setting up a patreon soon, since I don't necessarily want to share the entire production, as in making of the soundtrack, character sheets, animation and process videos publicly-

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puss in boots 3 when???

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saw the puss in boots sequel 3 times. 10/10 perfect film ✮

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AAAA this is so sweet thank you!! (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) !!! happy holidays~~~!

Happy Holidays, @necrosishead ! ✨️

I'm your @op-secret-santa giftee. Here's Robin in her natural environment (and a cowboy hat).

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@gomugomu-no-tickle I'm your one piece secret santa~! happy holidays! wahoo!╰(˵ヘωヘ✿)╯