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I know this is sort of a very old and very tired philosophical conversation but like. Do you guys really think that you are some kind of divinely ordained rational narrative-monologue with full faculties and control of its body servant? I don't exactly have the best sense of interiority, but that whole description just falls apart on really basic introspection. Is it really like that for you people? Doesn't your mind surrender itself to experience? Do you really think "oh my god wow this is so delicious. I loved that crunch and now im chewing and now i need to take another bite. I cant wait!" every time you eat an apple? Is your brain Actively Taking Notes every time it watches a movie? Do you really think a "break in the conscious experience" is somehow dying? Doesn't your mind break conscious experience every time you speak out loud?

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the funny thing about intrusive thoughts/OCD is that you end up endlessly ruminating about "am i a good person or not" or "what is the correct moral approach to life" or "is there such a thing as a just society and if so what would it look like and how do we get there" probably about ten times as much as normal people, but because your brain is doing this to convince you that you're evil actually no matter the circumstances you never reach any conclusions other than "whatever it is im not doing it right now and wont ever be able to". so your actual behavior and beliefs in practical terms is frequently indistinguishable from anyone else in spite of all that worry.

^ completely normal train of thought

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my secret agenda is getting my mutuals to to reblog and tell me how tall they think i am, and everyone is motivated by continuing a chain muahahahaha

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WATER GUN ATTACK!!!!

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OHHHHHHHHH WAOH

IM UNBEATABLE

POKEMON

(ADVANCE BATTLE!!!!!)

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birdhouse rockin

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its like my body will take any avenue no matter how ridiculous to cascading and overwhelming self hatred

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Transfeminine readings of Anthy are a good way of weeding out bioessentialists who believe a story about girlhood and patriarchy must strictly be about cis girlhood - when in reality, everything that Anthy represents can just as easily, if not more suitably be applied if she is a trans woman.

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i feel there is a plaintive, almost mournful quality to the declaration "i like to play and draw"

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i think some of you may be color blind.

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Who need they revolution taken..?

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"psychological damage from fumbling a trans girl" is a funny sentence given that when tmes fumble a trans girl they typically immediately just construct a self-victimizing rationale for it being the trans girl's fault, often in a way that frames the trans girl as an abuser, and seek out other transmisogynists to reassure them that this is correct