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Rest In Peace Happy Lowman

Fawn: {I knew what @AReapersRose needed. She needed to be down with everyone else, but I didn’t want her over doing it. I also knew that JJ was here and he didn’t do well with so many people staring at him. I exhaled slowly knowing that I wanted her carried but she had issues with being carried by just anyone. I pushed her hair out of her face. My words came out in a soft whisper so I didn’t scare everyone who was down the hall and down stairs. The last thing anyone needed was an outrage because of what I had decided to do.} I want to bring you downstairs. JJ is down there and I know you’re worried about your kids. The thing is I don’t want you walking just yet. I would rather have you being carried. I know how you feel about that but just this once I wish you wouldn’t fight me on it. I can have August coming here if you would like. I just think that it’s important you get to spend time with your son after what just happened. {I had no idea if @AReapersRose was going to listen to me or not, but I had to try. I also knew that people downstairs were going to think that I have lost my mind at the request of bringing her downstairs. She needed to be around people she loved and I knew that that was going to be hard for anyone that didn’t have a medical degree to understand, but it wasn’t like she didn’t have enough medical personnel surrounding her at the moment. Of course, if @AReapersRose wasn’t comfortable with this she will stay up here, but chances are that she will jump at the chance to be downstairs with everyone else in which case I better prepare myself for the tons of questions that are going to get thrown in my direction.}

Lexi: [I nodded as @AScalpelNInk told me what I should do. I understood that last thing that I wanted to do was upset anyone much less my son. I should say something but I didn’t really have anything I thought that would be important enough to put myself through a shit load of pain. I pushed myself to sitting before trying to decide if I wanted to be the person who explained everything that just happened to me to anyone much less @KingPinOfAll. Despite knowing that being carried downstairs by a black man was going to upset half the people downstairs I shook my head and spoke for the first time since being brought out of anesthesia.] August, would you mind carrying me downstairs so that everyone knows I’m okay? If anyone says anything I’ll handle it when I have enough strength to do it. [I knew what I was asking of @KingPinOfAll wasn’t that big of a deal, but to him it would be everything considering the fact that I hate making physical contact with men. It’s not that I don’t want to, but I just can’t seem to get over my past enough allow me to have physical contact with even @OnceAMayan. I knew it was something that my father hated, but it wasn’t like I did it on purpose. I would do anything imaginable to be able to stomach being held by my father. I used to love being curled up on his chest and they would give anything to have that ability right now. I knew a lot of people were going to want answers from me once they realized I had a son by a member of the Pope family. I didn’t care what anyone thought of me as long as they didn’t bring it down my son. If that happened then I was just going to have to handle it the only way I know how.]

August: [I knew what @AReapersRose was asking of me with simple, but to me it was everything. To me it meant that she was trusting me to make physical contact with her and that was a big step for someone that went through what she did. I nodded and made my way over to the side of the bed kissing her on the forehead before double checking to make sure this is truly what @AReapersRose wanted.] I can always ask your father to come do it if you would be more comfortable with that. I have no problems carrying you at all, but the lesson I want to do is make you uncomfortable. [@AReapersRose I had a special connection that wouldn’t be so strange if she wasn’t raised to believe I was her enemy. She was raised in Charming for the majority of her life which made it a little more difficult for her to believe that not everyone is out to get her. To this day I have to remind her that not everyone wants to harm her and wish her ill will, but it seems every time that I get her to believe that she had some kind of hurdle with someone else and everything I worked with her towards getting back to normal goes down the drain. I slipped my arms around her bridal style lifting her to my chest. Hesitating only briefly before making her way towards the stairs. Just as I suspected people were staring at me like I have lost my mind. Without saying a word I settled @AReapersRose in one of the chairs in the living room. If any one had a problem with me helping @AReapersRose, well they could get over it. I was waiting for someone to say something to me about being able to carry her, but nobody said a word. I was beginning to think everyone was stunned silent and right now silence was not a good thing.]

Abbie: | I watched as @KingPinOfAll carries @AReapersRose down then stairs I froze in my place as I clear my throat looking at @AScalpelNInk and then at August | What is she doing down here! I mean she was just not feeling well | I knew I had to be careful about what I said because @FutureNinerKing was smart as a whip and would catch on. I look at @AReapersRose before taking a deep breath I knew I shouldn’t be freaking out this much but Lexi was practically my sister since both of mine I could care less about. I grab some of @HappilyArmed pillows so it helps prop @AReapersRose up on the couch so she can enjoy her visit with JJ. | Lexi do you need anything else? | I leaned up against the wall deciding it was best not to leave the room until I was sure @AReapersRose was okay, I also knew there would probably be a list of people that she would want me to call, I scanned the room before shifting my weight to my left side. I had this gut feeling shit wasn’t done going down and I’m pretty sure with all these people it would probably end in more blood shed, I slide my hand through my hair as I chew on my lip. I take a deep breath as I cross my arms leaning my head back against the wall trying to keep my mind focus on this moment but all I wanted to do was hug my president and tell her everything will be alright even though everything in my gut is screaming something entirely different. |

Jax: I looked around the room I was wondering why everyone was in such a state of shock and then my eyes landed on @Kingpinofall carrying@AReapersRose down the stairs I froze on my place everything in my body tensed up not because who was carrying her down the stars but because of the way I felt things before her lung collapsed and it was all on me and I take full responsibility for my actions and what was said but that still didn’t change the way I feel about @OnceHerPrince and some of his actions. I take a step back allowing @KingPinOfAll room to get to the couch I look over at @HarleyRiderAbbi who appears to be fixing to fall apart at the seems or wait for some thing awful to happen, I stand between @TheoriginalSOA and someone else though I wasn’t really focused on then enough to tell you who it was. All I could focus on was the fact that @AReaspersRose was not even strong enough to walk herself down the stairs, I walk taking back I’ve always seen Lexi as this warrior now to see her depending on someone to get down the stairs was a little shocking. I clear my throat looking at @AReapersRose as I speak up “ Do you need anything?” I noticed a little boy with @OnceAMayan I tilt my head keeping my questions to myself.

Esai: | I was still on edge from hearing the machine flat line so when I see @KingPinOfAll carrying @AReapersRose down the stairs I let a breath of relief as I look a @HarleyRiderAbbi as she was having her total melt down about Lexi being out of bed, but like myself Abigale understood that allowing @AReapersRose to see @FutureNinerKing would be vital to her recovery, all that was left was to get Carols here and I was almost certain it would ease her mind enough to rest. I walk Over to @HarleyRiderAbbi and whispers in her ear “ Find Carlos” I moved back to my spot next to @ElJefeOfOakland’s side as I watched to make sure @TheOriginalSOA or his son didn’t try anything stupid while @AReapersRose was recovering, to say I had trust issues when it came to them was putting it mildly to say the least. I didn’t trust them as far as I could throw them. I found myself inching towards the couch to stand guard over @AReapersRose I was almost daring someone to start or say something about the little boy that was curled up in Alexis lap. I stood next to the couch with my arms crossed as I take a few breaths trying to ignore the pain from being shot at because @AReapersRose needed my full attention.|

Alex: [I couldn’t help the smile that crossed my face when @FutureNinerKing woke up and kissed my cheek. I chuckled and then I frowned at his questions. I didn’t want to tell him anything because the last thing that anyone needed was for him to get scared.] Hi, mijo. I’m not sad I’m just a little worried that’s all. [I hated lying to my grandson but I knew that right now it was painfully unavoidable at the moment.] Mommy is inside baby boy. We’ll go see her in a bit. [I didn’t know how the hell Maribel knew about @FutureNinerKing but right now I could care less about anything that she had to say. Without adding any further fuel to the fire I turned to bring @FutureNinerKing inside. I couldn’t hide out here forever even though I really wanted to because I would be ready to face the world without @AReapersRose. When I walked into the house and set @FutureNinerKing on his feet @AReapersRose was still here. In fact she was sitting on the couch propped up by pillows. I didn’t want to worry her so I stayed quiet silently thanking whatever force above decided that they weren’t quite ready for @AReapersRose yet. I could feel the eyes on @FutureNinerKing already but he didn’t notice. He was more concerned with climbing on his mother which I was very thankful for. I couldn’t help but feel worried as I watched every move that @AReapersRose made. I wasn’t the only one from the looks of it either. I wanted to be one to everyone that she was going to be fine but even I was worried. I couldn’t help but feel helpless right now. I wasn’t used to this at all. I was one who usually has all of the answers. I didn’t have a single answer right now and that bothers me.]

Marcus: [It was good to see @AReapersRose downstairs with everyone. I don’t know what kind of condition she was in but at this point I’m just happy she’s breathing. When I heard the machine change from a steady beat of a strong heart to the steady beat of the flatline my heart broke. I knew that people were trying to figure out how @AReapersRose could possibly be the mother of the little guy who was currently hugging her for dear life. I was waiting for someone to say something extremely racist because that’s the kind of people that we were around right now. If anyone thought about saying anything racist I couldn’t promise that I wouldn’t lose my temper on who ever it was that had the balls to say something. I wasn’t normally a violent man in front of my family but if I need handle something I would. Most of my club was here anyway so if I needed backup they would think nothing of it. I leaned down to kiss the top of @AReapersRose head. I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable so I was doing my best to keep my distance. It really is heartbreaking to see such a strong woman trying to be stronger than she actually was for everyone else. I wanted to tell her to go back upstairs and lay down but I knew better than to try and tell her what to do right now. Sometimes being a father is more of a torture than it is a blessing. I looked around the room trying to figure out what everyone else had going through their minds. I was actually waiting for @AReapersRose to snap since everyone in the room seemed to have their eyes on her. Just as I was going to break the silence I could see something out of the corner of my eye. All of the sudden the temperature of the room seemed like it dropped. I don’t know why but I just didn’t like the feeling that washed over me.]

JJ: [I looked around the room not knowing any of the people that were staring at me. I didn’t understand what the big deal was because I was just a little kid. When I saw @ParadoxOfAPope standing against the wall I got the feeling that something bad had happened. I didn’t like it because I didn’t see @AReapersRose anywhere. I took my toy car out of my pocket and put on the floor making vroom sounds as I pushed it along the carpet. I was easy to keep entertained which I’m sure that my grandfathers were thankful for. Everyone in the room seemed to be staring up towards the stairs and I wasn’t going to look but then the worry in @HarleyRiderAbi’s voice. I turned my head to see @KingPinOfAll carrying @AReapersRose down the stairs. I didn’t say anything instead I just climbed on to the couch and laid my head on @AReapersRose’s lap. I wanted to talk to her back I was getting sleepy. I looked up at my mommy and smiled at her hoping that she won’t be sad anymore. Someone had said that she didn’t feel good a little bit ago. I didn’t like that because I didn’t like it when my mommy didn’t feel good. I watched her face because she always makes the funniest faces. I know that she does it to make me laugh. It’s one of my face things when I get to spend time with my mommy. I was starting to fall asleep but I was fighting it because usually when I fall asleep when I’m with @AReapersRose I wake up somewhere else and I don’t see her again for a long time. It makes me sad because I don’t know what I do wrong all the time to make her send me away.]

Lexi: [I knew that everyone was concerned for me, but I really didn’t need anything right now. I looked over at @HarleyRiderAbbi and shook my head. Everyone needed to just give me a minute. I knew why @OnceHerPrince was hovering and I loved him for it. I smiled as he took control and took care of @HarleyRiderAbbi giving her something to do. As her sister and president I should be able to do that but right now my attention needed to be on my son. I watched @FutureNinerKing sleep on my lap. He was one of my best accomplishments in this life of chaos along with his little brother, @AMayanPrince. I felt everyone’s eyes on my son and I hated it. I kept my voice low but loud enough to be heard.] Yes, I have a mixed child. You can all stop staring at him now. How he came to be here is no one’s business but my family’s. [I turned my head to look at @OnceAMayan speaking in a whisper.] Daddy can you get me his blanket please? [I shifted @FutureNinerKing so his head was on my shoulder and slowly rocked him so he would stay asleep. It was then that I realize he was warm.] Damon, he feels warm to me. Is Jai on his way? Can you have him pick up some Tylenol for him please? [I was trying my best to act like everything was fine even though there was this gut feeling that the bad shit was far from over. I didn’t like this feeling, but a big part of me was hoping that I was just worrying for nothing. Usually I tend to do that after something bad happens to me or my club. It took me a few minutes, but I finally noticed just how many people were in the house now. Most of them were Niners or Mayans but I even say @AShadyAssassin standing in the corner minding his own business. My boys were loyal for sure and I loved it, but the absence of Pedro was everywhere for me.]

Abbie: | I nodded at @OnceHerPrince’s request I move to step just inside the kitchen to place dial up @TattedPetalNysa number knowing that Carols is supposed to be with her at @MatriarchOfCros’s house, I run my hands through my hair as I listen to the phone ring a couple of times I could feel my self getting more and more Irritated with the fact @TattedPetalNysa hasn’t answered her phone yet. Once the call clicks over to the voicemail I speak softly so @AReaspersRose didn’t hear me.| Anysa this is Abbie, I need you to call me back please.| I hung up the phone and slides it into the pocket of my jeans. I turned to walk back into the living room where everyone was still staring at @FutureNinerKing I frown hearing @AReapersRose ask Damon about some Tylenol. I close my eyes as I bite down on my lip my nerves still trying to come down from all the chaos that had just happened, Cause I knew my attention needed to be focused on my family and my club, I look over at @ElJefeOfOakland then I turn my attention to @AReapersRose | Lex there is a thermometer in the cabinet in the kitchen would you like me to grab it for you? | I push myself up off the wall once again as I walk back into the kitchen to grab the thermometer for Lexi so she could see if @FutureNinerKing had a temperature, I let out a deep sigh as thinking about JJ makes me miss my baby boy Tye it had been a couple weeks since I had seen him and I knew that probably made me a shitty ass mother but I didn’t want him tied up in this lifestyle so he currently lives with his father. I shake my head trying to bring my thoughts back to the present as I turn to make my way back into the living room to hand @AReapersRose the thermometer so she could keep a check on JJ temperature.|

Jaivon: I smiled as I crossed the Nevada state line I knew it would only be a couple more hours until I see @AReapersRose and my son, though I’m pretty sure it wasn’t going to be a warm welcome epically since my father @ParadoxOfAPope had already crawled my ass once this morning and I pretty positive when I get to @HappilyArmed’s house Lexi will have a few choice words for me and I can’t say I blame her I’ve been a ass and sorry excuse for a father. It was something I promised myself I would never become, but it did and I’m not making excuses for my actions cause I know it won’t change anything, but I also know that the only thing I can do now is learn from them and try to be a better man and father. I pick up my phone dialing @ParadoxOfAPope’s number to let him know I was only a couple hours out from being there and of course I want to make sure @AReapersRose was okay cause I knew she was fighting for her life when I talked to my father this morning, and all I could do is hope and pray that she made it through and that @FutureNinerKing was enjoying his time with his mother.

Easi: | I moved to grab @FutureNinerKing’s Blanket just as @AReapersRose asked of me I bring it back over laying it across him, running my hand over his back frowning slightly I hated when either of the boys were sick, it broke my heart and I know it makes things rough on Lexi when she can’t fix it. I bend down kissing JJ’s head and then moves to kiss the top of @AReapersRose’s head, I smiled at @HarleyRiderAbbi as she comes back with a thermometer for Lexi to check and see if @FutureNinerKing had a temp, I step back to the spot where I was standing next to the couch, still on edge and watching everyone in the room to make sure no more chaos erupted, cause I knew that was the last thing anyone was I was sure of. I place my hand on @AReapersRose shoulder smiling as I watch JJ sleep soundlessly in his mothers arms. I quickly raise my brow as I look at @HarleyRiderAbbi mouthing the words “Carlos?” I was a little puzzled when she shrugged her shoulders then shook her head, I didn’t press for anymore information at this time because if it was bad I didn’t want to alarm Lexi, She needed all the rest she could get right now.|

Jax: | I could feel the tension in the room I could understand why @OnceHerPrince was hovering over @AReapersRose and @FutureNinerKing, but I also understood why everyone was a little taken back by the fact that JJ was mixed. I shrugged my shoulder as I look at @TheOrginialSOA before turning my attention over to @TheGemmaRose as I offer her a small smile I stood there in awe of the strength that @AReapersRose was displaying at this present moment in time. I clear my throat as I look around the room for @HappilyArmed because I was gonna see if he needed anything, I shook my head as I noticed he had disappeared I just figured he had locked his self back up in his room to get away from everyone down here that he didn’t like I look over at @TheOriginalSOA before speaking | Did you see where @HappilyArmed went? | I tilt my head as I notice the room getting a little more crowd than it probably needed to be put it wasn’t my place to speak up.|

John: [I didn’t have a clue where @HappilyArmed was hiding but I did know that he was being a coward because all of these people were in his house some were injured. Anyone who wasn’t a coward would be down here with everyone else trying to help somehow. I don’t even care what his excuse is at this point. @AReapersRose was not a fan of me anymore and I understood why. I had crossed a line with her a few years ago. Watching her be a mother right now despite everything going on around her left me in awe. She reminded me a lot of @MatriarchOfCros which gave me a sense of pride even though I knew that I didn’t deserve it. I looked at @AReaperPrince and shook my head glancing up the stairs.] I have no idea. [I was angry at the current situation because none of us should have to wonder where @HappilyArmed is right now. This was not how we did things in my club. I was going to have to have a meeting with @ARuggedNomad about this at some point. This was not how the nomads were supposed to be. Even though they don’t have one place that they call home it is expected that they act as though they are an active member of Redwood. I wasn’t sure what I should be doing but standing around doing nothing was driving me nuts. Usually I know exactly what to do and I know how to help. Knowing that @AReapersRose would never let me help her with her son didn’t make me a happy man. I’m not proud of my actions a few years ago, but there is nothing that I can do to change the past. I hated not knowing what was coming next because something told me that I wasn’t going to like whatever it was.]

Happy: [When I finally came out of my room I decided to stand in the top of the stairs and try to figure out what was going on. No one knew that I had taken a hit off of my heroin stash and I doubted they would figure it out since everybody seemed to be more focused on @AReapersRose anyway. From what I could see, she had brought her son to my house. Something about that child has always made my blood boil and without thinking about it I spoke my mind.] Alexis, I thought I told you never to bring that monkey in my house. [I didn’t even really want to hear @AReapersRose’s reasoning for bringing her child into my house, but I knew that someone in this house was probably going to have an issue with the fact that I just didn’t like @FutureNinerKing. I didn’t like his affiliations and even though I knew he was a small child and couldn’t help who he was associated with I knew that without a doubt @AReapersRose could and that’s why I always got angry with her when she brought him around. She always says that she has a fear of men yet she has two children. Neither time did she object to that contact from either man. When @AReapersRose didn’t respond to what I had said the first time, I decided to get a little louder with my question.] Alexis, I know you aren’t deaf I know that you heard what I said. What are you doing thinking about bringing that monkey into my house when you know I don’t like him? Don’t ignore me either because I’ll keep asking the question until I get an answer. [I didn’t even care what anyone thought of me in the moment because I had one rule when it came to @AReapersRose and she just broke it.]

JJ: [I shifted in @AReapersRose’s arms. The yelling at the top of the stairs and woken me from my sleep. I could hear everything @HappilyArmed was saying to @AReapersRose that caused me to lift my head and glare at him over mommy’s shoulder. Normally I stay quiet around people I don’t know because I don’t want to get in trouble with anyone, but I could feel @AReapersRose tensing around me and I didn’t like it.] I’m not a monkey you meany head! You leave my mommy alone! [When I realized that @HappilyArmed wasn’t getting the point I jumped out of @AReapersRose’s arms and stomped up the stairs to stand right in front of @HappilyArmed. I glared up at him through my sleep filled eyes before swinging my foot back to make contact with his shin. I suddenly didn’t care about getting in trouble and I wanted @AReapersRose to feel safe. When people talked bad about me and my baby brother @AReapersRose wasn’t safe. I kept kicking @HappilyArmed, but he wasn’t moving. It was like I was kicking the wall. A loud growl rumbled out of @HappilyArmed and that made me go running back down the stairs. My tiny feet carried me back over to the couch where I grabbed my blanket pulling it over my head. I peaked out from underneath it only to keep an eye on @AReapersRose. I was trying to be a big boy and not cry because @HappilyArmed had scared me, but I could feel my entire body trembling underneath the blanket. I didn’t know why @HappilyArmed never seemed to like me and always made mommy upset, but I wasn’t a monkey and she really hated it when someone called me that. I don’t understand why @HappilyArmed has to be so mean all the time, but right now I really want @WayOfAHustler here to help @AReapersRose before something bad happens.]

Lexi: [I wasn’t expecting to be thrown into a blind rage as soon as @HappilyArmed entered the room. We used to be very close in fact he was more like a big brother to me than anyone. When he called my son the monkey I was angry, but I was trying to stay calm because of everybody in the house. I didn’t want to cause a scene even though everything I wanted to go have it out with @HappilyArmed. It wasn’t until he growled at @FutureNinerKing that I lost the need to keep everything peaceful. I pushed off of the couch and stormed up the stairs much like my son had done only minutes before. I stood on the exact same step coming eye to eye with @HappilyArmed.] I don’t know what your issue is when it comes to my son, but I would appreciate if you kept your opinions to yourself. No one needs your hatred right now in fact I don’t think anyone in this house wants to hear from you. I don’t know what has happened to you over the past few years but the man I met when I was eighteen would’ve never stood to have anyone treated the way you just treated my son. [I pushed @HappilyArmed backwards because no one treated my children the way he had just now and gets away with it.] Are you that pathetic that you have to make a three-year-old afraid of you? You realize that you would have a daughter the exact same age as him right? Would you want somebody growling at her for defending herself? Don’t even answer that because everyone knows the answer would be no. Like I said, your daughter would be the same age right now. Let that sink into your head because if you ever do something like that to my son again I won’t be the only one you have to deal with. [I didn’t have any reason to apologize to anyone for what I just said. I was proud to be the mother of two beautiful boys and I’ll be damned if anyone makes them think otherwise.]

Happy: [Something about the mention of my daughter made me see red. I was already angry to begin with but the mention of my daughter made things worse. Then to top it all off @AReapersRose went and shoved me backwards. I didn’t like how this was turning out, but for some reason I couldn’t rein my temper in not even a little bit. I shoved her backwards in return making her stumble on the stairs.] I wouldn’t talk if I were you because you’ve made it clear that you are afraid of men yet you have two children by two different daddies. I guess you aren’t that afraid of them after all, are you? [My words were lace with anger because @AreapersRose had pushed the wrong button. I know better than to put my hands on women, but at this moment I was angry. There was no stopping the anger I felt and more words were on the tip of my tongue.] I mean, if you are so afraid of men then please explain to me how you have to children by two different men. Not only that but it’s two different men of two different races. I guess you aren’t really that picky after all are you? You’ll do anything to get with you need, but when it comes to your responsibility of said children you run away scared. [I didn’t even care who I made angry at this point because everything I was saying was true even if the people in the house didn’t want to agree with me. I don’t where this is going in the at the end of it, but someone has to hold @AReapersRose accountable for actions at some point. I don’t like the fact that it was me, but no one is also going to do it. It’s time she realizes just how much damage she closes every time she runs away from responsibilities.]

Marcus: [I couldn’t believe that @HappilyArmed was talking to @AReapersRose like that. I was going to say something because it looked like @AReapersRose was too scared to speak.] Alexis, you are an Alvarez don’t let him speak to you like that. [I didn’t care if anyone had a problem with what I said. I knew that @AReapersRose needed to hear that someone didn’t believe what was being said. I didn’t know what else to say to snap @AReapersRose out of her frozen state. I knew what @HappilyArmed was saying was having an effect on her, but I wanted her to know that no matter what anyone said or thought of her right this moment she was still my daughter. I leaned back against the wall and folded my arms over my chest. Suddenly and was like I could see a transformation in @AReapersRose. It was like her spine came back, but the only problem with that is the fact that I don’t know how far @HappilyArmed was willing to go to make sure that he won this fight. I have always taught my children that you don’t back down when someone is belittling you. I also taught that to @AReapersRose and I was hoping like hell that lesson was sticking with her right now. As much as I wanted to interfere and come to @AReapersRose’s rescue I knew that this was a fight she had to fight on her own. @AReapersRose was a lot stronger than she gave herself credit for and it was about time people started noticing that no matter the outcome of this argument. @AReapersRose reminded me a lot of Diana but at the same time right now @AReapersRose has a vulnerability about her that I don’t understand. I don’t understand why @AReapersRose feels the need to cower down to @HappilyArmed, but I’m hoping she snaps out of it soon.]

Lexi: [All of the sudden I felt this overwhelming need to stand up for myself. With both of my hands pushed @HappilyArmed backwards with everything I had. Of course it barely made him move, but I kept trying despite everything in my mind screaming at me to stop. I finally made eye contact with @HappilyArmed freezing once I realized that he was high. I didn’t know if anyone else could tell or not and I didn’t want to make the situation by drawing any unnecessary attention to it. The look in his eyes terrified me and without even thinking about it I brought my foot up to make contact with his leg. I should’ve known better than to kick @HappilyArmed when I was balancing on a set of stairs, but I didn’t want to repeat what happened to me when I was seventeen. Getting physically violent probably wasn’t the answer to any of the questions going through my head, but it was all about self-preservation now. I couldn’t even get myself calm enough to say anything to @HappilyArmed. This man was like my brother in fact he was more like my brother than most of the men in the house right now. However, this version of @HappilyArmed I didn’t like. I was afraid for myself and everyone else in my house, but the last thing I wanted to do was make the situation worse by making everyone else aware of the kind of trouble I was in right now. I knew from experience that the last thing someone on drugs cares about is the people that are affected by their actions. My mind was going so fast it was hard to keep up with my thoughts, but the one thought that I kept having was that I needed to protect everyone else. I didn’t care about myself at the moment I just needed @HappilyArmed to be knocked down a few pegs before he hurt himself or someone else.]

Javion: I finally reached @HappilyArmed’s house, I turn the key and killed the engine I climb out of the car and make my way inside the house, I look around as soon as I enter the door looking around I froze for a moment as I caught a glimpse of @AReapersRose holding on to the railing for dear life as I glance up seeing @HappilyArmed holding one of her legs, I could tell Lexi was off balance and I could tell everyone else in the room was on edge. I toss the Tylenol towards my father and dart up the stairs and grabs ahold of @AReapersRose pulling her close to me trying to stead her balance. I lean down whispering in her ear “ I got you mami don’t worry.” I felt the tension in my body and I knew @AReapersRose could too, but I wasn’t about to let her fall and crack her head open, I wasn’t sure what @HappilyArmed’s problem was but I’m sure I would find out soon enough. I glanced up to make eye contact with Happy, and I felt my body tense up even more than it should have as I noticed that @HappilyArmed was high, I shook my head as I kept my grip on @AReapersRose, my own feet balancing on the steps as I hold on to the rail with my free hand.

Abbie: | I turned just in time to see @ARosesTrueLove dart towards the stairs to stop @HappilyArmed from tossing @AReapersRose down the stairs, without thinking I pulling my gun from behind my back and moved closer to the stairs and I fire the rounds into @HappilyArmed’s chest, I froze even more when I see Happy fall backwards. I speak softly to @AReapersRose | Lexi are you okay? | That’s all I could mange to mumble out as my mind begin to flash different scenes of the night @HappilyArmed got mad at @FristNineMorrow and Knocked me down the stairs and made me loose our baby. I backed down the stairs as I stare at Happy’s body then at my gun then back at @AReapersRose then back at my gun then back at Happy’s body. I was in complete shock did I kill him? I look down at my feet not saying another word as I felt this gaping whole in my chest. I couldn’t stop staring at my gun then back at @HappilyArmed’s body I looked around the room to see if anyone else was staring at me.| Is he? | I move to slide my gun back into the back of my pants as I just stood there staring at what appeared to be a lifeless @HappilyArmed.|

Lexi: [I blinked in disbelief of @HappilyArmed fell backwards. It all happened so quickly that I had no idea what had actually happened until I saw the blood pooling underneath him. Automatically I pushed to my feet and climbed the stairs to where @HappilyArmed was laying. There was no doubt in my mind that he was dead. His eyes were wide open and staring at the ceiling. I leaned down to kiss his forehead before making contact with @TheOriginalSOA for the first time. Tears were running down my cheeks as I shook my head. I didn’t want to say that words that I knew everyone was thinking. @HappilyArmed was gone and the worst part about it was that I was too stunned to remember that two of his siblings were in the house. I would have to explain, I would have to tell them that @HappilyArmed was high. With the slow exhale I closed his eyes and turned my attention back to @ARosesTrueLove. I didn’t know what to say. I looked it @HarleyRiderAbbi and shook my head before turning my attention to the woman that was my mother for the better part of my childhood.] Someone needs to call Raine and let him know please. [I walked downstairs staring at my father almost unsure what to say. I knew that this was going to be bad no matter which way it was explained. Just as I had taken a breath I noticed @NeedlesNLead standing directly to my left taking the sight of his now dead brother. I saw the cold in his eyes before anybody else could. I knew what was coming before anybody else did. Without even thinking about it I was pushing myself backwards towards the front door before @NeedlesNLead could even say a word.] I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. [It was probably the worst thing I could’ve said that it was the only thing I could think of at the moment.]

Pit: {I heard the gun shots and I stared at my wife @LikeAPistol_ for a long minute before going back inside. I saw everyone standing around and then I saw the body on the stairs. I made eye contact with @AReaperRose before she was offering her condolences to me. I didn’t understand why until I recognized the tattoos on the arm. An inhuman scream filled the silence in the house and it took me a minute to realize the scream was coming from me.} Memo! No! {My sadness was quickly replaced with anger as I stormed down the stairs to confront @AReapersRose.} This is your fault, my brother is dead because of you. You need to leave. Now. I don’t even want to hear your excuses just get the hell out. {I turned my attention to everyone in the house then not really caring about what anyone had to say to me at this point.} Better yet if you aren’t an immediate member of the Lowman family you all need to leave. Unlike the rest of you I have to notify my mother that her son is dead. I’m sure she would’ve been much happier if it was me. {When no one was moving I shook my head and shoved @AReapersRose into the wall behind her and got directly in her face.} I wasn’t kidding when I said you need to leave. Get out of my house now. {I didn’t even care that I was probably clarifying her. I just wanted everyone gone. There was a reason everyone called me Pitbull and somehow no one was reacting to the fact that I was freaking out in front of them.} Everyone needs to get the fuck out! {I didn’t care what anyone thought of me anymore. My big brother was dead and no one cared.}

Savannah: I hit the floor soon as I saw @HappilyArmed fall backwards. I didn’t need to be told that he was already dead. I knew exactly where the first bullet hit and I knew what that meant. I also understood why @HappilyArmed was just shot. That didn’t take away from the fact he was still my big brother and I still loved him dearly. I watched as @NeedlesNLead screamed at @AReapersRose like this was all her fault. I shook my head in silence trying to find the strength to speak through my sobs because I knew it wasn’t anyone’s fault in reality but @HappilyArmed’s. My big brother was dead and knew I was going to have to help @NeedlesNLead tell our mama. I got to my feet and shrug my cut off my shoulders handing it over to @AReapersRose. “I just need time I don’t know how much, but right now my family needs me. I love you all of you, but I love my brother more. I’m sure you can understand.” I didn’t even have to question whether @AReapersRose understood where I was coming from because I knew deep down she did. That didn’t make my decision to step away from the club any easier. I wasn’t normally want to get emotional, but then again I never thought I would be watching @HappilyArmed die like that. I understood @NeedlesNLead’s emotions, but I didn’t agree with his behavior. I would eventually have to apologize to @AReapersRose along with everyone else that he just lashed out on because of losing @HappilyArmed. This was never going to be something I could easily forget or even stomach, but I understood a lot more than @NeedlesNLead did. There were things about @HappilyArmed that he was never made aware of because of the fact that everyone in the family was trying to keep the drama to minimum. My heart ached so badly I thought it was going to give me a heart attack, but the worst part about it was I couldn’t really pinpoint what hurt more. I think leaving the club for however temporary made everything so much worse than was necessary. I wanted to tell @NeedlesNLead that everything is going to be okay, but in all honesty I wasn’t sure anything would be okay ever again. I knew about @HappilyArmed’s drug issues and I knew about what happened to his daughter. Yet somehow I still thought of him as some sort of superhero despite all of his flaws. Maybe that’s what’s wrong with me maybe I don’t see the bad parts and people when they are staring me in the face. I wanted @ASteadfastShot, but he was another one that just up and left me with no warning and he completely shattered me. I didn’t even have a chance to tell @HappilyArmed that there may be a chance he was going to be an uncle. I have made one decision that split second of that thought. If I have a son his name was going to be Guillermo. He would have the same nickname also because it was my way of honoring my brother even though some cases I knew he doesn’t deserve it. I wanted to go with my club and @AReapersRose to make sure that everyone is going to be okay, but I knew I needed to stay with @NeedlesNLead. If I didn’t he would be completely alone and despite all of that no one wants to be alone after going through what we just did. Without a second thought I wrapped my arms around my brother hiding my face in his chest because somehow we would have to figure out how to make it to tomorrow together.

Lexi: [I took the cut from @ADeadlyGrin and hugged her to my chest for a minute. I knew she would need time to be with her family and that was completely understandable. I was holding back my emotions for the sake of everyone around me.] Believe me, I understand. You call me if you need anything. You always have family with us. [With that I turned taking one last look at the stairs. My eyes were beginning to cloud with tears again. I cleared my throat so that I was loud and clear.] For anyone that would like to follow me I’ll be heading to Lodi. We need to give this family space. [As I headed for the front door I grabbed @HappilyArmed’s cut off the hook behind the door.] John, I’m sure you going to be wanting this. [I was trying to be so incredibly strong but on the inside I wanted to fall apart. I knew that this family is hurting, but what none of them realize was that we were hurting too. When I got out of the front door I was barely able to stand up. Out of the corner of my eye I saw my bearded giant of a best friend leaning against his bike.] OPIE! [Without a second thought my feet carried me over to him and by arms wrapped around his neck. The need to be strong was destroyed as soon as my face made contact with his chest.] Happy is gone. His brother is making us all leave. I think I want to go see TO. Amaya, call your husband let him know my army of people is about to invade. [once my tears slowed I turned and faced @OnceAMayan wrapping my arms around his neck for the first time since I was seventeen. The only word that seem to leave my mouth was one he hadn’t heard in years.] Daddy…. [I could barely speak but I knew that one word meant everything to @OnceAMayan.]

Opie: [I’m not sure why I felt this overwhelming urge to protect @AReapersRose. Hearing that @HappilyArmed was gone stunned me, but nothing could have prepared me for having @AReapersRose wrapped around me the way she was. Listening to her cry broke my heart in a way I can’t describe. I glanced over at @AReaperPrince a little puzzled by this. At the same time though I didn’t want to question it. If @AReapersRose was willing to let me comfort her during what is obviously going to be a very difficult time for everyone involved I wasn’t going to object. I wanted details, but also understood that right now was not the time to ask for them. I ran my hands down @AReapersRose’s back trying to bring her some comfort all while trying to figure out what happened. I wanted to ask, but now was not the time. I hated this because I felt completely helpless a guy like me isn’t used to feeling like that. When @AReapersRose got down and went over to her father I stared at all of the people coming out of @HappilyArmed’s house. Just how many people they @AReapersRose know? How many people came to protect her when I was being an idiot? I needed to make that right, but right now was not the time for that either. I did everything I could answer my own questions in my mind, but still no matter what I tried to do the questions still remained. I had no idea what happened inside and I almost wish that I was inside when it happened because then I could be of more help. I reached in my pocket and dug out my burner phone calling @AnInkedOleLady to let her know where I was going to be in case she wanted to come up and help out. When I got her voicemail I wasn’t surprised, but still I really wish she was on the other end of the line as I left this message.] Hey darlin’ I’m on my way to Lodi. I was going to go to Vegas, but something bad went down and everyone’s moving to Lodi. We’ll be at the Grim Bastard compound if you want to come up. I’ll explain everything there rather than the one please everything on your messages. Call me and let me know what you decide to do. Drive safe darlin, I’ll talk to you soon. [I ended the call and waited for the next move.]

Alex: [I can’t even lie and say that I didn’t want to cry at the physical contact from @AReapersRose for the first time in many years. I have no idea what to say to make her feel better and as a father that makes me feel like a failure. I wrapped my arms tightly around her back holding her close to me. When she was younger this was often what she did when she was upset. I didn’t know how to make this better for her so I just softly hummed her favorite song in her ear. I was hoping by doing this it would keep her relatively calm. I knew that being upset like this after having just nearly died couldn’t have been good.] It’s okay, baby I’m here now. Everything will be okay. [I didn’t even know what I was saying was true, but as a father that’s my only hope. As a grandfather even, I wanted my family to be safe. I glanced over @ElJefeOfOakland and shook my head unsure what to say. I even looked at @KingPinOfAll for help, but no one knew what to say because no one saw things going down the way they did. I know how much @HappilyArmed meant to @AReapersRose and I knew that losing him shortly after losing Pedro was going to do a number on her emotionally. The only hope that anyone had for helping her was the fact that she would never give up on her kids. Her sons were her driving force, but if she lost them I don’t know that she would still be here with everyone. It’s a scary thought as a father. Knowing your child could be in the darkest place in her mind and not knowing how to help is the worst feeling in the world. The only thing I could promise myself was now that @AReapersRose and let me in just a little bit I wasn’t going to leave her ever again.]

August: [I knew everyone was getting ready to leave, but before I could leave the house I had to make one thing crystal clear to @NeedlesNLead. I nodded to @ParadoxOfAPope before slamming @NeedlesNLead up against the wall and getting right up in his face much the same way that he had done to @AReapersRose.] I know you want everyone to leave so respectfully that is what Lexi and the rest of us are going to do. First though I have a few things I need to say to you. If you ever pin Lexi against anything ever again I will make sure you meet the same fate your brother just did. That isn’t a threat it’s a promise and believe me when I tell you I’m not the only one that will make you the very same one. Secondly, your brother was higher than a kite. Lexi was in danger and maybe if you were in the house instead of hiding out back in the same way your brother did when everything went to hell he would still be alive. I respect that you are upset and you have every right to be, but you also have to remember who you just threatened. We call her the queen of Oakland for reason. You might want to think about everything she’s done for your family before you approach her again. I hope I make myself clear because I’m not one who will ever repeat what I’ve said. If I feel what I said needs to be repeated you will end up in a shallow grave. [I let go of @NeedlesNLead and turned to @ParadoxOfAPope before walking out of the front door and standing beside @OnceAMayan. I need to make sure everyone was with us before anyone left. That included my daughter because I wasn’t going to leave her here if I wasn’t here to protect her from the crazy that was now present inside that house.]

Abbie: | I stood there motionless even after the fact that @NeedlesNLead was practically loosing his shit on every, I still couldn’t make my feet move, I couldn’t even collect myself enough to even make a sentence, I look over at @AReapersRose then at @ElJefeOfOakland waiting on someone to tell me what to do, I was completely lost and confused. I took a couple of deep breaths I turn to make my way out the front door I needed some fresh air before I got sick from just standing there listening to everyone talk. I leaned against the side of the house closing my eyes as I bite down on my lip, I grabbed my pack of smokes I grabbed on out of the pack lighting it up as I take a couple of drawls off of it, I could feel my body still shaking and I knew I should probably call @FirstNineMorrow to let him know where we were headed cause I wasn’t going to lie I was going to need my father after all this, and I knew I needed to call @FleshIsMyCanvas and let him know to bring this kids to Lodi so I could see my babies. I was trying to think of anything other than the fact that I just shot the only man I’ve loved since I was about eighteen, Well I shouldn’t say the only man I’ve ever loved. Happy was the one constant relationship in my life and I just killed him, for crying out loud I had a daughter with this man.| I’m so sorry Memo | I mumbled to myself trying to make myself less numb.|

Bristol: | I froze just inside the door as I hear my husband scream out @HappilyArmed name, I look up and I seen his lifeless body. I let out a gasp as I move to @NeedlesNLead’s side hanging my head as I frowned at @AReapersRose, I could understand why my husband felt the need to lash out but I don’t see how he could blame Alexis when we didn’t know what exactly happened here that lead to Happy being shot, I let out a small deep breath as I turn to look over at @ADeadlyGrin as I could see the pain reflecting in her eyes. I moved to grab a blanket and goes to cover Happy’s body. I bent down to hiss the top of his head, I knew we didn’t always see eye to eye but it still didn’t stop me from hurting for @NeedlesNLead and the rest of my family. I stand up making my way back down the stairs to make my way over to Pit, I take a deep breath before speaking softly to him.| What do you need me to do? | I knew we still had some issues to work out but right now @NeedlesNLead need me to be the wife I should be and nothing was going to get in the way of my taking care of my family. I turn to make eye contact with @ADeadlyGrin frowning a little more as I stand to the left side of my husband unsure if I should be attempting to make phone calls or giving my husband to calm down before he wound up just like Happy.|

Gemma: I stood there frozen as I cover my mouth with one of my hands as I see @HappilyArmed hit the floor, I curled into @TheOriginalSOA as I felt this pain in my chest, yes I understood why @HarleyRiderAbbi lost it and opened fire and I can’t say I blame her all that much, but still didn’t stop the pain in my chest each one of these boys are like my own sons, I moved to follow @HarleyRiderAbbi outside cause I wanted to make sure she was okay, I knew there were other things I needed to be tending to but this seem pressing too, I just watch a sweet girl turn into a cold blooded killer just to protect someone she loved, I also watched a member of our charter turn aggressive towards my daughter, and I moved to kiss the side of @HarleyRiderAbbi’s head before walking back inside as @AReapersRose was telling Ayma to call TO and let him know we were all coming to the grim bastards compound. I walked over to @TheOriginalSOA taking his hand squeezing slightly as I place my hand over my chest. I look over at @MaskedByEmotions before nodding my head towards @AReapersRose and @OnceAMayan.|

Beau: I nod once at @MatriarchOfCros as I walk over to @AReapersRose’s and @OnceAMayan I speak softly as I place my hand lightly on her shoulder I whisper softly “ Lex, we need to go before @NeedlesNLead starts yelling again.” I wanted to feel some kind of sympathy for the Lowman’s but I couldn’t bring myself to feel anything other than relief that @AReapersRose was not hurt and that @HarleyRiderAbbi was quick on the drawl, was I heartless maybe so but I’ve always believe you get what you deserve and Happy had no one to blame but his self for that. I cut my eyes at @NeedlesNLead as I rub @AReapersRose’s back knowing I really needed to call @ChaosNMelodies and have her Ride with Torileigh when she heads towards Lodi cause I knew she would want to be with @AReapersRose instead of stuck there with @ALoyalCro. I mean I couldn’t blame her for being pissed at me but when I got the call about @AReapersRose I didn’t think about anything other than I needed to get up here, and get here now, and I am truly glad I did because things went from bad to a hell of a lot worse in just a few short hours.

Torileigh: { I finished helping @ALoyalCro with his oxygen when I see a missed call from @AnExplosiveCro I look down seeing he also left a voicemail, I hit redial on the voicemail as I place it up to my ear. I move to hand @ALoyalCro a cup of coffee as I sit down on the chair across from him, I felt my heart sink as I hear the words “ Something bad went down” I was already digging for my keys as I looked over at @ALoyalCro who had been keeping me company since @AnExplosiveCro left for Vegas. I hang up my phone moving to kiss Piney on the head } They are moving to Lodi and something bad happened Piney, I don’t know the details but as soon as I find out something I will comeback and let you know. { I smile softly at @ALoyalCro as I quickly dial @AnExplosiveCro’s number placing the phone up to my ear as I make my way out of the front door, I know I probably left more unanswered questions than I did anything but I had to know that everyone was okay before I told Opie’s father and the rest of Samcro anything. I sighed once I got @AnExplosiveCro’s voicemail I speak calmly.} Hey babe, I am on my way to Lodi, I was sitting with your father so I wasn’t sure if you wanted him to come. I told him I would come talk to him as soon as I knew what was going on. Call me when you can, I love you. { I slide into my SUV as I start the engine up and backs out of the driveway and drives towards Lodi.}

Lexi: [I knew that I had to let go of @OnceAMayan. We needed to leave before everything got worse. I slid to my feet knowing that my face was puffy from the tears that just wouldn’t stop falling. I walked over to @OnceHerPrince the pain that I feel couldn’t be explained. I met his beautiful blue eyes with my own. I didn’t know what to say but with @OnceHerPrince words weren’t always necessary. The fact that I was still standing up should speak volumes considering losing @HappilyArmed felt like losing Pedro all over again. I stepped closer to @OnceHerPrince speaking in a whisper that only he could hear, but I knew what I was about to say would mean everything to him.] So am I riding with you for do you want me to go with someone else? [I normally wouldn’t have bothered asking such a silly question, but tensions were high for everyone. The tattoo on his neck should have been enough of a clue the only bike I should be riding on besides my own should be his. Still, I had to ask because I didn’t want to cause any more issues for anyone. I pushed my hair behind my ears looking down at the ground. I knew that @OnceHerPrince loved me, but the scary part was I just didn’t know how to function at the moment. My mind was questioning everything. I just needed one thing to remain the same and that one thing I really wanted was up in the air still. I looked back up at @OnceHerPrince and waited for him to say something. If it was just the two of us I probably would’ve thought nothing of getting on the back of his bike and riding to Lodi. Given everything that we just experienced I was a little cottage even with the man I have loved since I was fourteen years old.]

John: [I knew that @MatriarchOfCros was upset because @HappilyArmed was like a son to her. There was so much going through my mind right now too that I didn’t know what to say. I leaned down and kissed @MatriarchOfCros on the head pulling her to my side. I wanted to make everything okay again for everyone, but that wasn’t a possibility no matter how hard I wanted it. I also wanted to tell @MatriarchOfCros that everything will be fine, but even I felt like it was a lie right now. I hated lying to my wife so that’s why I never did it. Lying to her now won’t solve anything for anyone and it would just make the tension between us that much worse. I know I have things to explain to her when we are alone and I will, but right now I think everyone’s main focus is trying to get the hell out of here before anybody else gets shot. I walked over to my bike looking back at @MatriarchOfCros and giving her a wink before throwing the leg over the side and put my helmet in place. I knew tension was thick for everyone right now, but the things that I never understood is why @NeedlesNLead felt it was necessary to threaten @AReapersRose like that. I understood that he lost his brother and all of that, but there was no need to threaten someone who simply needed to be defended. I put my shades on and looked at both of my sons nodding to give them the clue that it was time to go. Everyone had a reason to be on edge because at this point we don’t know how well @NeedlesNLead is going to cope. He could snap at all of us and then we have a bigger problem on our hands. The first thing they needed to do was handle getting out of here very quickly.]

Tiki: {I never expected @HappilyArmed to die, but now that he had the only thing we could do would get out of here. I knew exactly why @AReapersRose was acting like a zombie. She was taking the blame for his death and I can’t say that if I was in a position it would be any different for me. I walked over to @HarleyRiderAbbi’s bike and looked to @DeucesUpRoar.} Help me get this in the back of my truck because there’s no way she’s riding to Lodi on a bike right now. {Was I being overprotective of @HarleyRiderAbbi? Maybe just a little bit, but I know that she would do the same thing if it was me in her shoes. Something wasn’t sitting well with me, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. I had no idea the @HappilyArmed was an addict and maybe that was part of the reason everyone was in shock. I shook my head as I waited for @DeucesUpRoar to make his way over to my truck. I could see the wheels turning in his head and when that happens it never ends well. We needed to move it. I wasn’t about to lose anyone else because @NeedlesNLead went batshit nuts again. It felt like everything was going in slow motion and I hated it. No amount of weed would ever be enough to make me forget what just happened inside that house. It was in times like this that I completely understood why my mom didn’t want me to be a part of this life at all. I didn’t like the creepy feeling that seemed to be surrounding us all right now. As much as I understood why @NeedlesNLead was upset but there was still no reason for him to lash out. He wasn’t even in the house when everything happened so seeing him snap was a little nerve racking.}

Tommy: [There was so much about @AReapersRose and even @HarleyRiderAbbi that I felt like I didn’t know anymore. I know with time both of them will talk to me the way they use to, but right now it’s just a little hard for me to stand back and let everyone else help them. Then again I think that both of them still think of me as a nine-year-old kid that they used to babysit for my parents. Well, at least that’s how I would think @AReapersRose looks at things. I was still baffled at how many people she knew. I knew that so many people have questions about how @AReapersRose knew all these people, but in the end, did it really matter? I walked over to @AReapersRose and kissed her on the cheek before walking to my bike. I wanted to talk to @OnceHerPrince but I knew that we all needed to get out of here first. No one really knew that I was friends with @OnceHerPrince. I didn’t feel like I needed to explain that anyone, but chances are strong that once we all got to Lodi I was going to be slammed with a bunch of questions. Did I do really care what anyone thought? Of course not I had already been written off by the majority of my family anyway. What’s a few more people in the long run? It would probably come as a surprise to my family that I would put @AReapersRose and her family before my own. It makes you think when you’re going through rehab who’s really going to be there for you when all is said and done. @OnceHerPrince and I became friends before I even realized he was connected to @AReapersRose. Now that I realize that and how connected the two of them really are there’s no doubt in my mind that I made the right choice. I will stand behind both of them no matter the cost because that’s what you do when your family isn’t always blood related.]

Deuce: {I didn’t hesitate to help @TokingProspect get @HarleyRiderAbbi’s bike in the back of his truck. To be honest I needed a distraction from the fact that my mind was going so fast I couldn’t make it stop. Everything happened so quickly that I didn’t even have a chance to breathe before everything unfolded in front of us. I knew we needed to get out of here and pretty quickly before anything got worse. I briefly looked at @AReapersRose and tried to smile despite the fact that my chest felt like it was being ripped wide open. I don’t know why I still had a problem with seeing @AReapersRose with other people knowing that she could handle physical contact with them. She has two children from the sounds of it and in order to have children you have to have physical contact with the opposite sex so I was little confused as to why she wouldn’t have physical contact with anyone else. Maybe that was my own mind trying to realize that she could be mine still if I hadn’t left her in the middle of the night. I know that these two men that are the fathers of her children know who I am. I’m sure that I’m not high on their appreciated list. I don’t think I’m high on anyone’s list to be honest and I know I deserve it. Still, it doesn’t make me feel better knowing that @AReapersRose wants nothing to do with me. We have a life for three years and because I couldn’t find it in me to be patient enough with her she has children by other men. I know that in my mind I shouldn’t feel like I hate these men, but if I hadn’t walked away @AReapersRose would still be mine and I didn’t like the fact that karma was catching up with me.}

Bobby: [To say that everyone was in a state of shock would be an understatement. I don’t even think shock even starts to cover what I was feeling. First we all start to think that we are going to lose @AReapersRose and in what felt like a matter of seconds we all lost @HappilyArmed. I’m not even sure what they were fighting about because @HappilyArmed didn’t seem to be himself. I’m still trying to process everything in my mind as I’m standing in the driveway waiting for everyone to be ready to go. I searched the crowd for my oldest daughter @OfCrosNSin and I automatically realize that one of my children is not here. @ChaosNMelodies is probably back in Charming and I know that someone is going to have to tell her what exactly went on. I don’t know that I should be that person, but at least calling her would give me something to do. I cleared my throat and called out to @OfCrosNSin.] Eva, you might want to call your mother and give her an update before she hears it through the grapevine inserts the panic. [It wasn’t very often I worried about @ImBehindThePorn because she had @ABitOffMyRocker to do that for her. Still, I knew that if she heard this from someone else other than one of us she was going to put the worst scenario in her head. The last thing we needed was for her to be in the hospital because one of us didn’t fill her in accordingly. I stepped over to a quiet corner and dialed the number I have for @ChaosNMelodies. I knew that I was going to get her voicemail, but I also knew that she would want to be in Lodi with @AReapersRose after everything happened. Just as I thought the voicemail answered and with a sigh I started to leave a message.] Hey baby listen everyone is headed to Lodi. I know you don’t know what’s going on and I’m going to leave that to you or other half to explain, but I know that Lexi would want you there even if she can communicate that front room right now because her lack of a cell phone. I’ll see you soon and be careful driving baby girl we don’t need any more tragedies today. [I hung up the phone because I didn’t need to be rambling on about nonsense. I put my burner back inside the pocket of my cut and headed for my bike. I knew one thing was for sure none of us could get to Lodi fast enough.]

Eva: [[I nodded at @SonWithTheMoney’s request because I knew my mother would worry if she heard about anything secondhand. I nodded to @ABitOffMyRocker also because as much as @SonWithTheMoney was my father @ABitOffMyRocker was as well. I grabbed my phone quickly scrolling through my contacts to find @ImBehindThePorn’s number. There wasn’t really a surprise for me when I got her voicemail. Chances are she was doing @MatriarchOfCros’s job in Charming while she was waiting for an update from anyone.]] Hey mama daddy he asked me to call you and tell you that we were on our way to Lodi. Some bad stuff went down and I will leave it for both of them to explain to you because honestly if I did I cry. I don’t want to leave that kind of message on your voicemail. I’ll let you know though that anyone immediately related to you is just fine we’re just emotionally bruised. I love you and I’ll see you soon if you decide to come up. I’m sure Lexi would enjoy a visit from you she’s okay physically but emotionally she’s completely shattered. That’s all I really want to tell you over the phone if you decide to come out please be careful driving. [[I didn’t want to scare my mother and make her think that anyone she was directly related to was hurt, but I knew that @HappilyArmed meant something to her as well. He was a frequent visitor to her studio just to keep her company. At least that’s what she told me about a year ago. I didn’t have the pleasure of really knowing him and seeing how everyone around me is completely devastated at his death as heartless as this may sound I’m almost thankful that I had no idea who he really was. Even though I didn’t know him well his death is affecting me. If I knew him any better than I did I would be a complete blubbering mess and I would be no help to anyone. That wouldn’t work well for me and it certainly wouldn’t work well for anyone to depending on me right now.]]

Otto: [I was glad that someone else was going to tell @ImBehindThePorn what was going down because I don’t know that I could’ve done that. I love my wife more than life itself, but let’s face it I just got out of jail myself. She barely knows who I am right now so to be the one who delivers the bad news probably wouldn’t be the best thing in the world. As much as my heart was breaking at the loss of a brother, I was glad he was gone for the simple fact that he put @AReapersRose in danger. I wasn’t oblivious to what happened to @HarleyRiderAbbi a few years ago. @AReapersRose used to come visit me in prison and give me all the details that the rest of my brothers were missing out on. I shook my head and walked outside whistling for @AStitchOfSin to follow me. I didn’t want anymore that I cared about in that house anymore because the last thing any of us needed was more blood spilled. Call me heartless if you want, but at this point there was no love lost when we lost @HappilyArmed. I stood amongst the many people in the driveway waiting for instructions. It had been a long time since I had been in Lodi so this visit would be welcome and maybe relief from all the pressure I’ve been putting up myself to be the same man that I was before I got locked up. It seems silly now that I think about it because if the people that I was surrounding myself with loved me enough they would understand why I was struggling with freedom. I felt like a fish out of water right now because I didn’t really know how to help and waiting for instructions was killing me because only wanted to do was get the hell out of here.]

Teagan: [[I followed my father’s instructions without saying a word. There was nothing that I needed to say because as much as I loved the Lowman family what happened here tonight was unnecessary. I don’t know what @HappilyArmed was on and I don’t even really care because at the end of the day if @HarleyRiderAbbi hadn’t made a move to protect @AReapersRose than I would’ve done it myself. Not many people understand the bond that stands between our club, but most of us were children of the members of Sons of Anarchy. We had a bond that went back to childhood and some of us would do anything to ensure that our president was still breathing at the end of the day. Even if making sure that happened may result in someone else losing their life. I also understood how painful this could be for @AReapersRose and @HarleyRiderAbbi. I wasn’t about to ask either one of them how they were doing because you would have to be an idiot to think that either one of them was doing fine. The fact that I knew part of @AReapersRose was still looking for Pedro to come to her rescue was killing me. That man was such a big part of all of our lives that we haven’t even had a chance to lay him to rest yet. I don’t even care if we show up at @HappilyArmed’s funeral or not. I just know that what was done here today was completely necessary no matter how painful it will end up being for us in the long run. I walked out of the house and wrapped my arms around @ABitOffMyRocker to let him know that I was safe. Today was a very eventful day, but I couldn’t lie and say that I wasn’t excited for the trip to Lodi. It had been much too long since we paid a visit to the Grim Bastards.]]

Amaya: [I had no idea how in the hell @HappilyArmed died like that. I mean, I know how he died, but I’m still in disbelief that it actually happened. As a medical professional before I left the house I bent down and touched his pulse point just to be sure. I frowned to myself when I realized that @AReapersRose had been right. @HappilyArmed was gone and I knew that no matter what she said this was one death that she wasn’t going to get over as easily as she thought. I love @AReapersRose like a sister but in reality losing two people so close together was going to affect her more than she realized. As I walked out the front door I noticed that @AReapersRose was being very hesitant to make eye contact again. It made me angry think that between @HappilyArmed and his brother to back to that broken woman all over again. I pulled my cell phone out of my back pocket and called @ABastardOfGrim. When he didn’t answer my body tensed because I knew coming into the house with all of these people was probably going to throw him off. Then again @AReapersRose and all of her crew was like family to us. I didn’t want to be yelled at by not giving my old man fair warning that all of these people were coming in. When the voicemail beat to indicate that I could leave a message I exhaled slowly before I began speak.] Hey handsome, you might want to send some people to the store to get some food and supplies Lexi and her crew will be joining us for a while. Happy is dead. It’s a long story and I’ll explain when I get there. I love you and I’ll see you soon. [I put my phone back in my pocket and walked to my car to get myself home where I was going to be needed the most.]

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