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You're always emotionally there for your friends engaging in conversations about their personal issues, but then when you're having that hard time and tried telling them your what you think are shallow but breaking issues of yours, you're not just feeling the vibes that they are connecting in the same way that you do for them when they're on that position... when you're in that position of hearing out... of making you feel that they're actually interested.

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The world is in chaos, you're starting up your career and you feel that everything is going your way until now, you don't know where you're being led anymore, your pockets are empty and so you are, in so long you feel this kind of self-pity again, work has its sickening repetitive vibes and now you realized it's better than having none...

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Recommended Resource: The Names of God by Ken Hemphill

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😢😭

You came into my life. And for the first time in a long time I started to feel things again. I started to feel happy.

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I think I'm enjoying my work naman, but I know will not stay this way but just always think that ALL IS WELL, or will be well.

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At work it's either you'll get the hang of everything or you'll be hanged. - No choice so LOBON!!!

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Or the person you're following, thinks you're a snatcher... hmmmm. 😢😂

I walk alone Someone’s following me. I stop He continue walking Until I realized That he’s not following me We just had the same way home.

- Feeler

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“I loved the stuff with Eleven in the grocery store aisle and we’re sitting down and I’m telling her about love and stuff,” he said. “And in that scene, I got to explore awkwardness and just be funny. That was fun. And it’s the first season where Mike got to flex that muscle and show that he’s a weird, funny, awkward dude. And the Duffers loved it and were like, ‘Just say more, say more.’ And so some of the stuff in that scene was improvised.” - Finn Wolfhard

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That’s the problem. You guys are never in the mood anymore. You’re ruining our party. That’s not true. Really? Where’s Dustin right now? See? You don’t know and you don’t even care. And obviously he doesn’t either and I don’t blame him. You’re destroying everything, and for what? So you can swap spit with some stupid girl?

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If this is for me , God will let me, God will put it in my hands and make it flourish..

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"Hindi porke't ganito lang AKO"

Hindi porke't ganito lang ako ay habang buhay nalang akong mananatiling ganito,

Hindi porke ganito lang ako ay madali mo nalang akong iiwan pero ganito lang ako kaya mabilis mokong nakalimutan.

Oo tanggap ko naman, na ako ay simple lamang, sobrang simple na madali kang makakahanap ng iba upang ako'y palitan.

, sobrang magmahal pero aanhin ang pagmamahal kung masasayang din naman...

oo ganito lang ako, halaga ko'y di kona makita, ganun siguro talaga kung ano rin sayo ang pinakita.

Ang hirap kapag "ganto" kalang , sasabihin nilang mahalaga ka, e ba't ka iniwan? sasabihin nilang for keeps ka, e ba't naghanap pa ng iba.

Minsan maaawa kana lang sa sarili mo, sabi nila di mo naman deserve yung "enjoyin lang natin".... kasi deserve mo yung seseryosohin ka rin kung gano ka kaseryoso.

Minsan nasasabihan ko nalang yung sarili ko na "nakaka awa ka". Kasi nagmuka ka nanamang tanga, kasi binigay mo nanaman lahat, di ka nanaman nagtira.

Dali sanang isipin kung sana yung mindset mo, positive lang palagi, yung hindi ka nag ooverthink about life.Yung hindi mo pinoproblema yung problema ng mundo.

Ganito lang naman ako ngayon, pero hindi mananatiling ganito nalang. Kaya nga ako nag aaral at nagpapaka dalubhasa upang maging better sa lahat ng aspeto.

Hirap lang kasing i open up yung kaluluwa at pagkatao mo after ng isang failed relationship , nakakatamad ng sobra ... sobrang sakit din na mahal na mahal mo sya pero wala pa yatang 1 week naka move on na sya. Nakaka awa kasi ang lungkot at miserable ng point of view mo, pero baka ang tingin nalang nya sayo e nagdadrama lang... pero yung totoo, the struggle is real.Hirap hanapin ng worth ko ngayon, sobrang daming advice, pero wala rin kung di mo naman ina absorb. Kasi sana kasing gwapo ko si james reid e, kahit talaga may sense of humor ka, pag pangit ka, wala rin... kahit na sabihin mong napapatawa mo sya, napapasaya mo sya, wala rin talaga kapag na turn off sya. Di rin siguro to magegets ng mga pretty people, kasi madalas sa buhay, hindi mo eksaktong mararamdaman yung feeling kung wala ka mismo dun sa posisyon, kung hindi mo personally naranasan at naramdaman ...kasi di naman ako perpekto ,kaya nga naghahanap ako ng kahati ko, na pupuno sa lahat ng insecurities ko, kasi ganun raw yun diba, kayong dalawa yung pupuno ng kakulangan ng bawat isa, kasi sabi nga sa movie na home, that love is the cure to all imperfections, so it means it's not really love kung ginive up ka... kung naiwan ka... hirap kasi talaga makahanap ng taong makaka relate ka, kaya hirap lumandi e, 🤣 sana nung naka move on sya, naka move on narin ako, hindi yung muka akong tanga. Pero ganto talaga ako magmahal e, baliw kung baliw 😂 naka hang parin ako till now, ang empty ko, hinahanap hanap ko parin yung may kausap sa gabi... yung hindi ako naiiyak sa mga problema ko kasi may outlet ako na nagpapasaya sakin, minsan naiisip ko na sana di nalang sya umalis , na sana naitama ko lahat ng pagkakamali ko, sana nakita kona agad yung mali para nabago kona agad...kasi mahal na mahal ko yun ng sobra.Pero anong magagawa ko kung may mali sa itsura ko? 😂 wala na finish na 😂

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no offense but the cutest thing to me is random little kisses like not even, on the lips just, when someone kisses you on the temple or like?? the top of your head or anywhere honestly its just rlly cute and I’m suffering

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too real

“He was great. We shared many great moments. Our physical connection was never in question. He kissed me within an hour of meeting me and I let him. I thought that it could be a great story that we tell other people one day, not knowing that maybe moving too fast doomed us from the start. Our emotional connection, on the other hand, is something that I always questioned. The only time he allowed me a glimpse into his heart is at three in the morning, when we would talk all night, not needing sleep, only each other, even though he has to be up at eight for work. I feel him smiling against my face. His heart beating against my chest. His thumbs caressing my fingers. His hand rubbing my bare back. These are the little moments that I will keep close to me. These are the moments before everything good about us slipped away. He was charming and confident and he created an environment where I felt safe to grow. He taught me many things about life and I will always care for him in that sense. And although my relationship with him was exhilarating, there was a dark and twisted side that was always lurking.He was able to flash a smile at me and charmed me into changing my morals for him. To the point where I slid down the door, holding onto my chest, the part where the heart is, and questioned if I am still me. He was able to use his confidence to make me feel small and less than him, to the point where I made excuses to my friends for the ways he treated me. He used my need to feel alive to suck the innocence and what little naivety I had left. And the more nights we spent together, the colder I felt. The more he withdraw, the more I needed his warmth. It was a sick relationship based on my fear of spending my nights alone and his fear of commitment and missing out on everything life has to offer did not make things easier. Of course it hurts to see things changed. Of course it hurts to remember all of the tender moments we had. And of course, my heart breaks every time I compare the beginning to now. I will never understand how someone wakes up one day and decides that they don’t care anymore. He used to pull me closer to him during the middle of the night to kiss my forehead. Now all he does is cowered me into the corner and throw words at me, that he claims he does not mean the next day. And I hate myself for never having the strength to leave him in that moment. So I lay down in the same bed next to him, facing the opposite direction, leaving inches between us. And I hate myself for still wanting his arms around me.”

— He trapped me in the environment he created and it took me a while to find my way out of the maze. And sometimes, I wonder if I am really out. (via illuminatewords)

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Depression visits me in unexpected places in unexpected times.

It visits on a busy Monday at work while I’m looking at an organized cells of data and suddenly I feel a familiar feeling inside of me, like a long-time friend that I haven’t seen in a while, only this time, I’m not happy to see him.

It visits at 6am, while I’m taking a shower and I’m wondering why I’m suddenly crying.

It visits on a Saturday night when I’m with my friends and we can’t stop laughing at the silly things in life when out of the blue, I just stop because nothing is funny anymore.

It visits when I find myself imagining of being with someone I know I’m never going to be with.

It visits me everytime I watch a family-themed movie and thinking that things don’t work that way in real life.

It visits when I’m looking at myself in the mirror and I don’t like what I’m seeing.

It visits me when I’ve come upon the realization that I’m stuck at being myself. That there’s no way out of here.

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“It’s so easy to love someone when things are perfect and everything’s wonderful. But to love someone when things are difficult, when they’re not being perfect, when they’re messing up, flaws are seen, mistakes are made, i think that’s what really allows you to see how much love really is there. Anyone can love someone who’s doing and saying all the right things, being everything you want and need, when they’ve got it all together, when they have it all figured out, but to love someone at their lowest, to love someone despite how broken they feel, when they’re lost, when you’re willing to stand by them no matter how challenging or difficult things may be, i think that kind of love is a lot more beautiful. I think that kind of love is a lot more meaningful. Thank you for loving me both times, when things are good and also when things are bad. Thank you for taking in every aspect and part of me, accepting my flaws, forgiving my mistakes, helping me become the best version of me possible.”

— Unfinished Thoughts (à mon amour , mon capitaine Llouiz)

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