neilfoxsten

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I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 32.

This website has been in my life - more frequently in some periods than others - since I was 17 years old. I'm 32 tomorrow. I occasionally pop on here to find weird fandom stuff that isn't really in my purview anymore.

If you've been here for a while thank you for being a transient internet friend. If you stumble across this by accident then hello there are grown ups on this site who have an aching nostalgic fondness for being 19-23.

Is this website even still used as like... 'a blog'??? Who knows but some of us are still kind of here

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jean yves moreau in blue

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I'M STILL READING TGR I'M SORRY I blame the broken brain that can't concentrate but boy

Boy.

Yes it's problematic, yes it's not the point, yes I've read all the books and I know the trauma of the whole series. But like it's fantasy and let me suspend reality for a few seconds to say

BOY it's hot that Andrew gets a red card and 5 game ban for trying to murder the person who hurt Neil. AGAIN.

Never loved 2 tiny idiots more, @ me idc

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THAT'S MY BOY 🧡

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I'm 3 chapters into tgr and here I am again crying over Jean Moreau

ive just finished tsc and im crying a lot over one (1) broken french man

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"this book had no jerejean!" they were both constantly losing their minds jealous whenever the other looked at someone else for a few seconds bsffr

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Oh and I went to watch the ice hockey last week for the first time ever (got some pals who are well into it and our home team just so happened to be playing away in the city we were in for a friend trip)

And I loved it so much but also it made me wish exy was real more than anything 😅😅

(And yes we warmed up for the game in the morning by watching videos of speed laps, best fights, best goals, best plays etc etc and my god if I ever get the chance to go to the US/Canada the hockey is going to be high on the list because it was insane)

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@korakos

I am vibrating out of my skin let's fkn GO

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One of the most underrated scenes from AFTG is in TRK when Neil tells Andrew “I hope she was worth it” talking about Cass and Andrew turns and says “Neil, you are far too heavy to tread ice this thin”.

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u guys ever think about the sunshine courts connection to greek mythology being named the trojans and all that? y’all ever think about how the greek god Apollo (god of the sun and healing and music and more) had a sacred animal. A Raven… yeah. i think of it a lot.

Jean was never Riko’s he was never edgar allens, he belongs to his rightful place in the sun. im going to go bang my head against a wall now

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The contents of Jean's brain

75%: I am worthless and deserve nothing

20%: Jeremy and his beautiful muscles

5%: Neil is an abominable cockroach

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can you imagine being Jean Moreau and waking up in the middle of the night from a horrific night terror only to sit up and be met with the everlasting stare of a cardboard golden retriever named fucking Barkbark Von Barkenstein

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Like I lived my whole life // before the first light

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i know it's been pretty unanimously decided (and confirmed by nora) that aaron leaves exy and becomes a doctor after palmetto but like. could you imagine if he ended up as the medic for neil and andrew's pro team

cause the comedic potential there is too good to ignore

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Jean:

Meanwhile:

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i have so many hobbies and interests but each day the four horsemen (instant gratification, shortened attention span, procrastination, exhaustion) grab me by the throat and shake me until i collapse in my comfy bed

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laila and jeremy talking about jean