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eve and villanelle's relationship is everything to me they're like yeah we're in love. we hate each other. she caused my divorce and that was valid and correct of her. we attempted to murder each other. we're married. we're ex-wives. we had a threesome. we kissed once (no tongue). we're soulmates. that is a bad thing. that is a good thing. hand in unlovable hand indeed!

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killing eve is like. what does it even mean to be “normal” and why is it so limiting. are there really just Good People and Bad People who are born that way and they’re incapable of changing. what if real love means that someone sees and understands you in a way no one else can and STILL loves you, all of you, even at your worst & most ostracized. what if women were unafraid and unashamed to let themselves want, and to go after what they want. can men ever truly love and understand women the way other women can. sandra oh big sexy. how can you exploit other people’s perceptions of you. what does it mean to trust someone in a world defined by power, violence, and lies of varying degrees. governments and rich people operate by their own rules and at their core are probably evil. what would you do if society had no power to hold you back. don’t you ever just want to go apeshit

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Sirius wanted to impress her moony with a joyride...

Remus did not like it.

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they were the first thing i thought of when this audio started going around lol

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male gaze is not 'when person look sexy' or 'when misogynist make film'

death of the author is not 'miku wrote this'

I don't think you have to read either essay to grasp the basic concepts

death of the author means that once a work is complete, what the author believes it to mean is irrelevant to critical analysis of what's in the text. it means when analysing the meaning of a text you prioritise reader interpretation above author intention, and that an interpretation can hold valid meaning even if it's utterly unintentional on the part of the person who created the thing. it doesn't mean 'i can ignore that the person who made this is a bigot' - it may in fact often mean 'this piece of art holds a lot of bigoted meanings that the author probably wasn't intentionally trying to convey but did anyway, and it's worth addressing that on its own terms regardless of whether the author recognises it's there.' it's important to understand because most artists are not consciously and vocally aware of all the possible meanings of their art, and because art is communal and interpretive. and because what somebody thinks they mean, what you think somebody means, and what a text is saying to you are three entirely different things and it's important to be able to tell the difference.

male gaze is a cinematographic theory on how films construct subjectivity (ie who you identify with and who you look at). it argues that film language assumes that the watcher is a (cis straight white hegemonically normative) man, and treats men as relatable subjects and women as unknowable objects - men as people with interior lives and women as things to be looked at or interacted with but not related to. this includes sexual objectification and voyeurism, but it doesn't mean 'finding a lady sexy' or 'looking with a sexual lens', it means the ways in which visual languages strip women of interiority and encourage us to understand only men as relatable people. it's important to understand this because not all related gaze theories are sexual in nature and if you can't get a grip on male gaze beyond 'sexual imagery', you're really going to struggle with concepts of white or abled or cis subjectivities.

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hoodie thief and his dog friend

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Central Bridge Memorial Wall

"Eight years past since suppression of the rebellion on Cental Bridge. Plaque from Council is installed on Memorial Wall as symbol of reconciliation between Zaun and Piltover. Shall we never forget our mistakes" - "Day of Tragedy" Piltover's voice

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unfortunately if you are an old friend of mine i will always care about you no matter what even if we haven't seen each other in forever because i still remember what you were like 7 years ago and i still remember how it felt to be young with you and i still have a lot of love for you in the back of my mind

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Not finished but I didn’t really like It that much

I post it anyway cause it’s wolfstar

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and at the end of the day ask yourself - what is it that you really need?

(the kickstarter for this story is LIVE now!)

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i knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs

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There’s always a lingering question that I ask myself, which is why do I, a cis bisexual woman, enjoy romance between two men so much?  

There are easy answers, like that it’s just fetishizing.  And like, I find men attractive, yes.  But I also find women attractive.  I don’t have a problem with enjoying het romance, assuming I can find good ones.  I enjoy stories with female characters I can relate to.

But there’s something much deeper at play, IMO.  A friend of mine who is a gender studies professor was the first person to point this out to me, but a lot of women enjoy m/m romance and gay porn because of the lack of women.  It removes a source of pressure and sexism.  Without any women present, you don’t have to constantly evaluate the sexism of their portrayal, or be reminded of negative experiences in your own life.  It allows women to experience romance and especially sexuality without all the baggage that comes with it in our patriarchal society.

This was recently illustrated to me rather dramatically.  I read a recommendation for a het romance.  And it sounded cute, and came highly recommended.  The tropes at play were fun.  Until I read a snippet and realized this was a romance between a woman and her boss.  I had a visceral negative reaction.  

Instantly I’m thinking of sexual harassment stories I’ve read and heard from other women. I’m thinking of how uncomfortable it would be to have your boss develop feelings for you.  How icky the power dynamics would be, etc.  

And then I realized…this wouldn’t bother me if it were two men.  Now, there’s no logical reason for that.  Sexual harassment is just as wrong when its object is a man.  But I know I’ve read fics with a similar premise and never thought about it.  Because when it’s two men I can accept this is just a light romance, a fantasy, meant to be fun and sexy and not to represent the real world.

But I can’t when it’s a het relationship.  There’s too much baggage there.  Too much societal history of abuse.  I can’t relax enough with the premise to enjoy that story.  

Now some people can.  And that’s fine.  And some people are never going to be okay with power imbalances like that regardless of gender.  That’s also fine.  I don’t think having either reaction makes one morally superior.  It’s okay to just enjoy light entertainment for what it is without going into deep analysis.

But it’s much more difficult for me, and I think for many women, to relax and enjoy romantic and sexual stories when they involve female characters.  We’ve been burned too many times by shitty depictions, by shallow role models, by abuse portrayed as romantic.  We have developed a stress response, a trauma response to heterosexual romance.  We are hyper-reactive to a wide variety of triggers in regards to it.   But removing women from the equation makes stories safer for us.  And maybe it shouldn’t?  In an ideal world?  But for many of us, that’s the truth.

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16-5-23

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🌷 here is a flower for anyone not feeling their best today

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Late night in the prefect bathroom

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“baby do you think about the past? do you wonder if every stupid little thing has led us to this?” — moony and padfoot somewhere back in ‘95