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Crazy and very sad to see that the founder of Saveafox has passed away. I loved that channel, but just a few months ago I've been told of rumors how they're actually malicious (foxes dying unknowingly dying, over adopting, etc.). I didn't really believe it, but I also didn't look further into it either. Not everyone's perfect but to my eyes I saw someone who was doing whatever she could to rescue those animals in her care.

How do you guys feel about it now (those who accused of her and Saveafox). Whether it's true or not, I hope you take a good look at yourself. And ask, what are you doing to add to the good things to this world? Whatever you claimed was "true" or spreading speculation, and whether or not if it's true, she did not deserve this.

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Finally figured out how to permanently disable google assistant on phone

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What a world we live in, amirite

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Israel: we are shelling Palestine, we wanna attack Syria and we don't like Iran so we'll probably do something about it.

USA: say no more! here are all the weapons you need, do whatever you want and kill whoever you want! we will attack Iran and raise the air force for you🫶🏻

Ukraine: can we please have the weapons you promised in exchange for our nuclear weapons? we want to protect ourselves from russia which kills us every day and destroys our homes.

USA: are you fucking crazy? this is escalation! you are dragging us into WWIII

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Another sleepless night in Kyiv.

Heard many, many explosions very close to me.

There already are damaged buildings. More drones are coming in the direction of the city.

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THE ENTIRE WEST IS BEING PUT UP FOR SALE AND I AM BEGGING YOU TO CALL YOUR SENATORS

Trump’s budget bill has many, many things in it, but buried amongst it is the MILLIONS OF ACRES OF PUBLIC LAND FOR SALE.

This is the entirety of the Arizona state forests, the entire Cascades mountain range. Swathes of pristine desert around the national parks in Utah. On the doorstep of Jackson Hole.

THIS BILL IS BIG, BUT IT CAN BE AMENDED AND ABSOLUTELY MUST NOT PASS AS IS please.

If you have ever enjoyed the wilderness, we stand to lose it all forever.

CALLING your senators - NOT JUST IN THE WEST. ALL SENATORS, is CRUCIAL.

Outdoor alliance has a great resource for reaching out.

I don’t have a huge following but please, everywhere I have ever loved, the forests I grew up playing in, the land I got married on, is all at risk and I am begging.

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Communities of Resistance: how to organize your neighbors with a Neighborhood Action Council

The neighborhood assembly is a well-tested and very successful strategy of anarchist organization, as seen in places like Argentina where the asambleas effectively replaced the roles of the failing government in the early 2000′s

This is a great starting point to identify and collectively respond to almost any type of problem facing your community in a flexible and horizontal way

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Just a reminder, do no bring your phones this weekend for the No Kings protest. Get a burner phone.

Wear masks, covid is still a thing. Other than concealing your identity.

Prepare a small first aid kit. Basic bandages/bandaids, antibiotic ointment.

Check your weather, see if you need to apply sunscreen or not. Although I would still bring one just incase. Cloudy days can still give you sunburn since uvb/uva isn't blocked out by clouds.

I'm not sure if I should prepare for the worst. I've been in protests where I have been hit with tear gas and got shot at with rubber bullets. I've brought gloves and portable fans to help deal with the tear gas (although it's most effective if you're close by with a group doing the same thing). I'm going to bring my respirator with attached goggles (designed for working with fumes) though.

Buddy system. Not recommended to go alone, or at least have someone outside know where you're going (make sure you trust them). Or start a group at the event. Meet new people and make friends.

Remember this is a peaceful protest.

Good luck and stay safe. There are probably more good tips to remember, but these are great to start with. And remember, afterwards if you know anyone there, no you don't. 🙂

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Sorry, have not been on here lately. Very busy, and definitely am now given what's happening in the US currently.

I've left Twitter and Bluesky as of now. I don't know what I'm going to do with this blog. Maybe post updates on protests I attend, but being a bit vague as possible. I'm probably already on the list. But if you know me I'm always for peaceful protests. So.

This Saturday my nearby cities are hosting the 'No Kings' march. I will be attending the one closest to me. I hope you all stay safe out there, be there for others too. Strength in numbers. We can never be silenced.

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With all its faults, i enjoyed the story of Stalker 2. It feels like home.

After 2nd pt, I grew to love Faust, easily one of the most memorable and iconic characters of the franchise. I still wish monolith and ex-monolith had more screentime besides being the go-to adversaries for exploration shootouts. The few quests they had are not enough, especially given the tragedy of Strider and his entire group. I'm still not over his death, he of all people in the franchise deserves better. The way he tried to shoot himself right after the Signal went off broke my heart. And the death scene, where he's free of monolith influence again, realizing he nearly killed Skif........................

Surprised by Korshunov, like super surprised. First time i did Varta-Varta-Strider-Strelok-Doctor (i also did permutations of the last two to see the three other endings), and this time I did Spark-Spark-Varta-Strelok-Doctor. I expected him to be a typical soldier bossman, someone who would betray me and who would try to off me, but nothing like that, and he actually respects Skif and does not consider him to be a meat on legs. He's very convincing, menacing but not evil, likable also. The "i can't even bury them" speech hit right in the heart - he's got his men at the top of his priorities, and it's a breath of fresh air to see a military man in a media to not think of his subordinates as of disposable.

Dalin Jr. is the same revelation. I thought he'd be a scumbag, a scientist without morals, another trickster, but nope, man with a heart of gold following after his not so good father. Feeling a bit guilty for not trusting him the entire time the first playthrough. I laughed my ass off during that one section at the institude where Korshunov casually watched Skif assault Dalin, as if it's a regular occurence at the place.

Scar is one big holy shit. I both love him and hate him. He's definitely not something i thought him to be from Clear Sky, but he's entertaining nonetheless. He is actually the ruthless and crazy motherfucker i believed Korshunov to be, with absolute fuck all about human lives. Proper terrorist. And his S2 story tying with CS - i can't help but pity him, groomed to be used as a modem by people with power.

Separate mention to Spark's Star. The guy had at most 10 minutes of screentime total, but he's got some real good chemistry with Skif.

Richter is a whole nother beast. He's like an autistic golder retriever puppy. Jesus, man, just kiss Skif already, you aren't gonna see him ever again anyway.

I swear, if the game was less depressing, Skif, Richer and Star could be boyfriends.

Strelok is everything i thought he'd be and would become. Definitely didn't disappoint, tho at one point i questioned where tf he got so much money hiring all those mercs lmao. He definitely had his brain scorched with an idea, but he's somehow still rational about everything else. Clever, stubborn in his ways, rigid, unable to see thru some subtler parts.

Really glad to meet Doctor proper after so many years. He's everything I expected him to be and more. What I didn't expect is him throwing heavy as fuck lines constantly, making me question every single step.

Degtyarov... had crininally little time after introduction. Certified badass tho.

Oh my god Agatha the bitch. This is the ruthless person I believed Dalin to be. The Varta ending is easily THE BAD one because of who she is, who she is serving and what their plans are, though not even remotely as depressing as Scar's. The old hag had my homie Korshunov follow her without any doubt. Ugh I wish there was a way to knock some sense into him....

For the Varta ending, Strelok literally says they're going to use the Thread project for something during that one infiltration mission with the TVs, but he doesn't know exactly what for. I followed Korshunov's reasoning and logic that the Zone is to be destroyed, but somehow, i disregarded Agatha completely. And then the ending hit me. Ye, the Zone is gone, but something far more sinister is in its place, with project X finished after so many years and its goals fulfilled. And those TVs at the end, being creepy. Nah, never picking that one again.

The Scar ending is easily the most depressing one. First Korshunov kills Richter, but then turns out that O-Soznanie is legit and exists in the subtle matter, and Dalin is ecstatic to finally be able to talk to his father. And then the O-Soz representative sends you to the generators, and it's surprisingly peaceful and not dangerous at all, rainbows everywhere, and you chill near the blue campfires under emissions with your now suddenly alive-but-not-really Richter and other dead homies from the subtle matter (Strider is suspiciously absent), and Richter shows you the way like a fucking disney princess. And you think, hey, it's not as bad as I thought it would be. WRONG. You get to the X-lab, and Scar is having a life crisis cuz his entire life in the Zone was a lie, his memories have been imprinted from another stalker, and he himself was programmed for this exact job, but then he comes thru and decides to go into the fish tank anyway. And then it's butterflies, poppies, unicorn farts everywhere, all dead people are alive, and Skif be having a grand time of his life chatting with homies.... UNTIL THE FUCKEN CAMERA SHIFTS, and turns out it's all in his head. Yeah no, never again.

The Strelok ending is probably a good one. Or at least neutral. He gives his reasoning, he tells everyone to fuck off, he prohibits exit and enter into the Zone, and he's now the entity guarding her like a loyal dog. The Zone supposedly (because let's face it, this balding mofo's in charge now) has no masters anymore, no one can abuse her ever again, but she's not free either. Tho it's kinda a weird one with him. He wanted the Zone gone, but now he put her under his own protectorate? I mean, it's been 10 years, a man can change, but... would be interesting to hear a more elaborate explaination than "she gave me a new life" or smth.

And then the Doctor ending. Some say it's a bad one, but I really do love it the most. I knew i wouldn't be able to kill him as Strelok wanted, and he gives very compelling arguments against Strelok's crusade... and you spare Doc, run to hide into the basement of his house from the emission... only to find more notes down there, talking about the O-Soz agents and him using them and scaners and alpha-artifacts for something... makes you question if he wasn't the mastermind behind all this. Maybe even his couriers were behind the explosion at Skif's khrushovka. Maybe it was a setup to bring an outsider to make his plan come true. And then, at the end, as the Zone finally frees herself of her shackles, expanding worldwide (i doubt it's an actual expansion, more like local anomalies appearing worldwide), Doc morphs into Faust and makes you question the entire Doctor's story. Was it Faust the whole time? Was he not killed by Skif? Is he a manifestation, an illusion? Was it Faust himself that is the mastermind behind all this? And then remember that reactivated monolith-Strider tried to kill doctor. Was it a coincidence? Was it a command to kill Doctor Kaymanov by O-Soz, was it a command by O-Soz to kill Faust while pretending to be Doctor because he's sorta gone rogue/against his original program, or was it a command by Faust himself to get Skif to trust the illusion?

And the awesome part is that all of the endings-related parties are right about their respective things.

This is the game narrative-wise I wanted Veilguard to be tbh. But here I am, left alone to geek out about stalker 2 instead. Oh and in this game they drop some serious lines, most notably Doctor, as I mentioned above. His "But how does one know the value of freedom if one has never been free?" hit me like a truck. Strider's monologue after his death about monolithians being puppets brings tears to the eyes.

Ugh, this makes me think what kinda ending woulda been if Strider was alive and still himself, if he went into the aquarium instead of everyone else.

Oh by the way, the Faust theme, 0:40 - 0:50, I swear I can hear "let me out". Not creepy at all, but checks out.

TL:DR i want more monolithian stuff, i want justice for my bestie Strider AND I want a romance-dating DLC because Richter and Star are definitely boyfriend materials for Skif lmao.

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Trying to insert symbolism so it's not super slap-in-face

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psyche

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I think, being Ukrainian, the cherry on top to just living through a genocide of your people and news about more and more rape, deaths and destruction every single day, is the constant gaslighting and whining from russians and some non-russians alike about us being so russophobic for daring to not appreciate the great russian culture.

Babes, this IS russian culture. Genocide, theft, rape, murder - that is russian culture. Everything else (ballet, literature, and the like) basically exists to facilitate, justify or disguise the things mentioned above. And everyone defending that culture, promoting it and giving it platform and awards participate in this genocide, willingly or not.

And until the russian people themselves process their identity and culture and the issues with it and work on it, it's not going to change.

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reblog this if your blog is a safe space on april fools and won’t have any jumpers, screamers, or anything scary or anxiety inducing

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What do You mean I'm not pretty enough ?

| now Richter will think twice before comparing the Zone and Skif... not in favor of the latter?🤭| Original bluesky | x

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I hope I'm doing Ilya Naishuller justice by describing him properly in a Storm book I'm working on instead of writing Clear Sky. 💀 I honestly hope I described Nimble correctly in that fic. Character descriptions is not exactly my strong suit. I'll avenge Nimble somehow, maybe do drawing of him since I now have my IPad fixed, but that's still up in the air.

I had an idea where Ilya is the face claim of a few bad guys in this story, like several guys with the same face, and just had to start writing this story. His work also inspired me to write this Storm arc since I love office escapes and parkour. Storm is going to have a rough time in this book, but then again, when does she not have a rough time in any book. 💀 Storm literally has to deal with an asshole hitman, who I may or may not have took a lot of inspiration from Ilya's ten second cameo from Nobody.

So yeahhhh, this story is one of the reasons why I haven't been working on Clear Sky. Oops. My writing has been all over the place lately, I'm sorry. 💀

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quick reminder that everything russia’s doing to ukraine isn’t new. there were 170 governmental bans on ukrainian language in the last 150 years. most of ukrainian writers from the basic school literature curriculum were murdered or oppressed for speaking out for ukraine. an average person doesn’t have to know executed renaissance or slovo house or the ems ukaz or forced russification or literally hundreds of similar precedents, but please do note that this all was a thing long before putin

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Me @ Makarov

"Which color of your eyes is blue and green,

WHICH ONES"

Wiki is saying that Makarov's left eye is blue, but it's technically his right. It would be your left. Idk, just saying, and also seeing a couple of art having eye colors swapped. In game screenshot shows his left eye is green and right blue. At least, for MW2.

Yes small detail, doesn't matter(?), it's just tad bit bothersome to me lol. Trying to find out which one's the right detail.