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Summary

This 2020 has been a lot to take in, and it has taken away a lot from people. The almost World War III, the COVID-19, the Beirut Explosion, and many more. A lot of people has suffered through the disease, and has lost their loved ones to different disasters that has occured the year 2020. The Corona Virus Disease-19 started to emerge around the last few days of December year 2019, and quarantine around March of 2020 in the Philippines. Around the 4th of August 2020, at the port of the city of Beirut occured an explosion that has damaged not only buildings but also people. The Almost World War III between Iraq and the United States, luckily it did not pass through because it would have a very chaotic ending. But we shouldn’t let the negativity in our world possess everyone and everything with rage, hopelessness, and gloom. We may have started 2020 with the worst scenario ever but we wouldn’t end it the same way it started. We should end it with a bang! Let us enjoy the holidays with our family and loved ones. This reflection of mine may be very short this time but advance Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all! 

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The Storm

Last 11th of November, the Philippines has experienced / have gone through the biggest and most frightening typhoons ever. During the typhoon a lot of places have been affected, one example is Cagayan. Cagayan has suffered a lot during the typhoon, and until now Filipinos are still trying their best to help our brothers and sisters who have suffered the typhoon “Ulysses”. The typhoon hits Tarlac around 3 am in the morning of the 11th of November, I was actually having a google meet with some of my close friends around 10PM-2AM then I go sleepy so I left the call. Then there was a power outage but I honestly did not mind so I continued to focus on sleeping since there is class on the 11th around 7AM. When I woke up there was still no power, and it was really hot. I actually woke up around 8 am when I checked my phone, and I was shocked because I knew that there were classes but obviously it got cancelled because of the power outage of the whole city of Tarlac. There was power outage for at least 3-5 days, but thankfully we got our power back after 3 days since the typhoon hit us. But it was a real struggle in those 3 days because we had some written works that we needed to pass even if there was a power outage, my family was very sweaty because of the warm weather, I actually used my laptop as a power bank because I was never ready because i thought that the Ulysses typhoon was just another scare trick of people so that families would freak out. But it wasn’t, thankfully I got the chance to go to SM and charge my phone, laptop, power bank there. Maybe this was a sign that I should not take some things lightly because we all did not know what was really coming at us. Next time, I will be prepared and ready for anything that comes in my way. I will think of everything that I need, I should also come up with a Plan B for some things that needs a backup. This experience just made me learn that we should always be prepared for things, because at the end if we are not ready it’s our loss.                          “By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail.” -credits to the owner 

Here are some of the most saddening pictures, you will see during the typhoon “Ulysses”.

As I see it I say, “The drowning city”.

Even if everything fell apart, our fellow Filipinos still look on the bright side of things. They fight to get back up again. I am a Filipino, I am strong and I am proud! ❤

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Not My Best

Recently second quarter has just began, and I think right now that I am not doing the best that I can in my studies. Sometimes I tend not to listen to some of subject/s, but at the end I still understand the topic so maybe I am listening but really I am not. Confusing right? So after the PeTa week last quarter we had our break and the at the beginning of November, 2nd Quarter started. Sometimes I tend not listen because maybe my mind is occupied by something else, maybe I have encountered a problem, maybe I am just stressed out of online classes. Just last week, I tried to listen to this subject, but as it goes on I tend to hold my phone and just scroll through my social media. But eventually I got bored scrolling so I tried to listen again, yet again I got bored. The problem was my mind was occupied by something, I do not get enough sleep sometimes, and my phone is always near me then I eventually get distracted. But why was my mind so occupied that I cannot listen? I kind of admit that I am getting lazier as the online classes goes on because I realized that even if students are listening during discussions, face to face is still more effective for the education of students. I also admit that sometimes I get distracted because my mind has been occupied since this year. So now, I need to improve my habits and routine. To be able to cope up with this horrible year I shall think positively and let the negative side just slide pass through me. I shall have a positive mindset so that I will not be distracted or be lazy when it’s school time. I should make a schedule for the deadline/s and organize my things so that I will be prepared for the upcoming Unit Test/s, MST/s, and PeTa/s. Wish me luck!!

Here are some of the best quotes that I would love to share with you :)

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“People cry, not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong for too long.”

— Johnny Depp (via quotefeeling)

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“Sometimes you’re not cut out to be the you that you have in your mind.”

— Unknown

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Memories

Last school year was the best year in my life. I got to enjoy my last high school moments with my bestest friends. In my school we started the school year in a normal way, introducing yourself, discussing of topics for the first quarter, just ordinary. But when 2nd quarter is coming this is where the fun begins. Around the last week of September we are going to celebrate the Founding Anniversary of Bayanihan Institute (my old school) wherein the kiddos and high school students are given the time and chance for them to practice a presentation which is dancing but there was always a different theme every year. We celebrated for 3 days, the first and second day are for booths or it depends to the class adviser if the class will practice on those two day. Me and my friends handled the booths last year there was kiss stamp booth, ml tournaments, dedication booth, jail booth, love chain booth, and more! We enjoyed every moment we had in those past memories, and ofcourse the third day is for the competition of the students the high school students will be competing with each other while the elementary department will be competing with their other levels including the pre-elem. In the competition day our batch became the champions! we were so happy because we really worked hard to be at the very top.  While around december, each class will have their christmas party/year-end parties. Each class can have different ways in celebrating, some can propose the idea to watch a movie or maybe the class adviser can organize games for the students. Also we would do exchanging of gifts but we used pen names and te student has to write their wishlist on the paper with their pen name as well. We started 2019 together and will be ending together but better and stronger. As the time goes by new year has passed and we are all getting ready for school again, we’ve missed each other so much that almost all of us went to school very early, and honestly that was really shocking since most of us are late hahaha. The month of January has also its events, which is called “Intramurals” this is the month and event that will make us tired everyday because of non-stop practicing for the cheerleading competition, sports games, board games, and etc. Our intramurals consists of 3 days as well, personally I got all gold medals for all of the sports I participated in and of course I wouldn’t forget that we also made it to the very top again, we were the champions again! Our hard work paid off, we were so nervous because the other teams’ dances were really good but we trusted ourselves that we would do it together, so we made it. Intramurals passes by and the month of February came as we all know it’s Prom, I was so lucky to have my boyfriend as my partner during the dance! I wore this pink ball gown, had makeup on and went to the venue, and when I entered I saw my classmates they were so pretty with there filipinianas! Another highlight on my prom night, my partner bought me a bouquet with my favorite colors with it I was very happy and “kilig kilig” ahihihi. The night passes by, we had the dance it was nice but it was so late so everyone needed to go home. That night my partner and I were planning to go to mcdonalds to eat but his mom was there ready to pick him up so they decided to just drop me off at my home, I was so thankful because we all had a great night! Then here it goes, the last month of being seniors at Bayanihan Institute. I was happy that we were all graduating and no one was left behind but having to think that after everything we would leave each other is very sad. We were all doing the tasks needed to be done, rushed everything and went to the faculty for our clearance to be signed. But everything just happened so fast, it was like a blink of an eye and the finish line is right in front of you. I realized that in the past 4 years of highschool even when we had fights, had misunderstandings, tough moments, tough decisions needed to be made, in the end of the day we were still a family. Families experience ups and downs all the time, but in the end we need to forgive each other.  I am honored to be accompanied by my very dearest friends in my high school years, we may have maybe done daring and bad decision together but those decisions made the best memories that we will cherish together as a class. I am super thankful that I met my classmates because they are my family, they are the ones who helped me even if they knew there was nothing in return. My classmates whom I will always remember, the memories that I will cherish forever. Thank you batch 2019-2020, you will always have a part in my heart the memories shall be forever cherished! I miss my classmates so much. Happy trails to all of you, until we meet again! 🤍

Year End Party 🚀

Foundation Day Celebration 🎉

Taking of Graduation Pictures 🌹

Intramurals 2020 🙌

Graduates👩‍🎓👨‍🎓(Incomplete tho ):)

Prom 2020 ✨

My Prom Partner ❤

Honorees 🤍 

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“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life. - It goes on.”

— Robert Frost (via quotefeeling)

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“You cannot use someone else’s fire. You can only use your own. And in order to do that, you must first be willing to believe that you have it.”

— Audre Lorde

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A New Phase

Last March 11 of 2020, the World Health Organization (WHO) has declared the Coronavirus Disease (COVID). Due to these circumstances’ schools have been prohibited to have face to face classes. As a means to continue education, Department of Education (DepEd) has proposed a solution for Filipino students to be able to continue studying. Online classes, we can use technology to be able to participate in a synchronous or asynchronous way of learning. But due to the loss of jobs in the Philippines not all of the Filipinos are privileged enough to have the materials and financial support to continue education. Everyone is new to this situation. Personally, I feel so trapped like I’m in solitary. I feel so alone this past few days, like I have no one to talk to. Even if I knew my family was just here at home with me and I knew I had some friends, I still wasn’t able to express my feelings. I felt that I was in a labyrinth, but without an escape. I was feeling pressured by the MST as well as the school works. I realized that I was thinking too much, I was cramming but in a bad way. I knew that I needed to adjust step by step. I needed to first not overthink, then improve and organize my time. I was kind of being piled up by the school works the reason is because every time I get the chance to sleep I sleep. That is because I don’t get enough sleep. I am now planning/organizing my daily routine so I will not feel the loneliness and struggle again. Maybe the is just a phase that we haven’t experienced yet, until now we still can’t accept the fact that the world is facing a challenge and we are the warriors who need to fight through it. I know that soon everything will be okay, back to normal again. We just need to wait and be wise with the things we are going to do, I know that everything has been difficult. But I truly know that we can do everything by helping each other. As God said, “Release the worry, and release the stress. I promise I will work out my plan for your life.” Trust God, have hope and faith! 

Journal Entry #2

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Confidence + Glow up

Last March 2020, I started asking myself if I still wanted to go outside when I got the chance. But suddenly my heart and brain kept on telling me that I don’t deserve to be seen outside. Even when I tried to look good, my soul was not happy. So I started to find a solution/ways that would benefit me and make me happy, and then I thought of working out. I started doing research for workouts that would improve me physically and would help me emotionally. I was getting tired of searching for the right workout but when I was about to give up God gave me the answer. It was Chloe Ting’s 2 week Abs challenge in YouTube, so I started setting my goal. I officially started last March 20,2020 just right after when the pandemic occurred. I also considered doing fasting but when I tried that it made me feel obnoxious so I stopped and I just kept on working out. Simultaneously, I did calorie counting wherein I have an app that would give me a limit so I would be able to improve my eating habit too. One fact about me, I never get tired of eating junk food (especially when it is my favorite which is hot flaming Cheetos hahahaha). I realized that the problem was me not being able to control myself, especially when it comes to food. Eventually after a month I started checking out my body to see if there were any changes and I was blown away. I actually removed a few inches in my body which was one of the best things that I have ever accomplished in my life. I was so proud of myself that I kept on going but sadly there were bumps in my journey, I started to get lazy and I ate a lot of food like just a lot. My confidence was gone again, so I knew I needed to make a change once again. But in those times I was not going to do it because I kept on telling myself that I love myself even if I was fat. But in the end my insecurity got to me, but deeper this time. I changed again I started to workout not at home but in a gym wherein I have a great coach who is helping me be better. Also I want to give credits to my older sister Agape because she was there for me when I needed someone to talk to and someone to be with when I decided to workout. Another fact, up to now I haven’t given up and nobody should. Even if its not about confidence, no one should give up on their goals because I believe in the quote of Angela Merkel,” if there’s a will, there’s a way”. If you really like to accomplish the goal, don’t give up find a way to get back up again it’s never too late for anything to happen. Life is short why not live it to the fullest right? Have faith, and believe that with God nothing is impossible.

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A little picture of me and my sister after working out <3

My little glow up <3