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Various keys, German, 15th Century

From the Met Museum

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Happy Together / 春光乍洩 (1997) 📍 dir. Wong Kar-Wai

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much better footage of the haka that shut down parliament today

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knee-high tabi boots (eu sz 36) • martin margiela 130,000 円

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People usually think that knowledge and love are entirely different mental activities. To me … they are fundamentally the same. This activity is the union of subject and object. It is the activity in which the self unites with things … And why is love the union of subject and object? To love something is to cast away the self and unite with that other.

— Kitarō Nishida (西田 幾多郎)

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sam sifton, from the nyt “what to cook right now” newsletter

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Faye Wong & Takuya Kimura 2046 (2004) dir. Wong Kar-Wai

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i do love listmaking…

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ever since i was little i knew i wanted to haunt the narrative

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I don't let myself look up what my school friends are doing now, I'm afraid. Afraid I'll find pictures of a something I missed. I remember us at 11 crowded around a school library computer, you both looked up your favourite wedding dresses most of them mermaid and lacy white, you picked out our bridesmaids dresses and talked about how we would find a colour that at least looked good on us all; I thought powdered blue. I miss being that young, when the only worries where our homework and hoping we where first out for lunch. Maybe you did get married, maybe if I log in to my socials I'll find an invite. Or maybe time has changed too much, we aren't eleven anymore. I wonder if you picked powdered blue or a mermaid dress in lacy white, I wonder if something remains the same.

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Possession - A. Zulawski

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"Lestat looked up at me now with his large, agonized eyes and his smooth, ageless face. 'But you'll come back… you'll come to visit me… Louis?' he said. Interview with the Vampire (2022) | Sam Reid as Lestat de Lioncourt Anne Rice's Interview with the Vampire (1976) & The Vampire Lestat (1985)

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But the horror… The horror was for love. The things we do for love like this are ugly, mad, full of sweat and regret. This love burns you and maims you and twists you inside out.              It is a monstrous love and it makes monsters of us all.

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is this a life? i don’t know. i make another cup of coffee. stare at a tree from my balcony. write in my journal. take a hot shower. i call my sister and say nothing of value. she listens anyway. i make another coffee. read a book that gives me bad dreams. pick up my pen to write and put it back down. another flip of the calendar i carry in the center of my chest. i am learning to let my heart open up again