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🐝  *  ―  𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑪𝑶𝑵𝑭𝑬𝑺𝑺𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑺.

❛  but i do care about you ... a lot.  ❜ ❛  do you really need me to say it? fine, i love you. happy now?  ❜ ❛  i didn't think you'd feel the same way.  ❜ ❛  the truth is, i don't want just anyone. i want you.  ❜ ❛  you know i love you, right?  ❜ ❛  i want to spend the rest of my life with you.  ❜ ❛  you're the only person who has ever made me feel this way.  ❜ ❛  can't you see how much i care about you?  ❜ ❛  i did all of this for you. because ... because i love you.  ❜ ❛  please don't make me say it. saying it is gonna make it real and i'm not sure i'm ready for that yet.  ❜ ❛  somewhere along the way, you became more than just a friend.  ❜ ❛  i can't keep pretending like i don't love you.  ❜ ❛  well, i like you. i really, really like you.  ❜ ❛  i like you a lot more than i ever thought i would.  ❜ ❛  you're an idiot ... but you are my idiot and i wouldn't have it any other way.  ❜ ❛  when we first met, i didn't think you'd ever mean so much to me.  ❜ ❛  i could do this on my own but i don't want to. i want you right by my side every step of the way.  ❜ ❛  for once, i'm gonna make the selfish choice and be with whoever i want to be. and that person is you.  ❜ ❛  you've made me so incredibly happy.  ❜ ❛  i wasn't planning on telling you like this but now is better than never.  ❜ ❛  believe it or not, i do enjoy spending time with you.  ❜ ❛  i still don't understand what i ever did to deserve someone like you in my life.  ❜ ❛  i love you. i'm in love with you.  ❜ ❛  just being with you is enough ... you are enough.  ❜ ❛  i love everything about you. even the things i don't like, i love.  ❜ ❛  i have been trying so hard not to say anything, to just ignore it, but i cannot do that any longer.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up, you're the first person i think about.  ❜ ❛  i've never felt a connection like this with anyone else ever before.  ❜ ❛  there's something i've been meaning to tell you for a while ... i love you.  ❜ ❛  don't ever do something like this again! i thought i'd lost you ... and i can't ever lose you.  ❜ ❛  i don't hate you. i actually like you. a lot.  ❜ ❛  you don't have to say anything, i understand. and i want you to know that i feel the same way.  ❜ ❛  what's not to love about you? you're beautiful and kind and you're overall the most amazing person i have ever met.  ❜ ❛  i have no idea how i ever managed to fall in love with someone as infuriating as you.  ❜ ❛  i just want you to know how i feel ... in case one of us won't make it.  ❜ ❛  i can't believe it's taken me this long to realize but i love you.  ❜ ❛  whenever you're around, i can feel the butterflies in my stomach.  ❜ ❛  but most of all, i hate how much i don't hate you.  ❜ ❛  you are the most important person in my life.  ❜ ❛  i love you more than words can express.  ❜

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season core test

tagged by: stole from dash 😎 tagging: you!

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y'all i got the job we out here!!

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*wants to rp with everyone*

*stares at one draft for three hours*

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Ask my muse questions about muses you see them interacting with.

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zoemira shitposting sketch kkkkkkkkk

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hey chat ... do i do mains sometime in the future

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man really hate that some days i could write like 3k no problem and then others i struggle to get out a paragraph

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a  kiss  of  relief. 💋

𝗕𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗣𝗥𝗜𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗢𝗙 𝗠𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗨𝗠𝗕

IT HAD BEEN A LONG NIGHT OF SILENCE : after Rumi seemingly disappeared for what was meant to be their first performance of Golden, Mira couldn't help but shake unease from her being. Anxiously she waited with Zoey, minutes turning into hours, from the rehearsal stage to their home.

It's at once that she rises from her seat when the door finally opens, a sudden ease overcoming her upon the sight of Rumi. Though it doesn't last for long, a tinge of fear that begins to settle as she catches the expression her friend bears. In a moment she's by her side, a hand finding the small of her back.

Nothing is said for a moment, relief prominent in her gaze before it relaxes and shifts into something more affectionate. " Hey, " she says, softly but with enough authority to be grounding. Steady, as always. " Welcome home. "

Leaning in, Mira captures Rumi's lips with her own. Albeit on the shorter end, it speaks a thousand words unsaid ; of her worries, and the relief to see her home and unharmed. Gently, her thumb idly rubs along the bare skin of her back as she draws herself away ever slowly, a heated gaze barely contained before letting out a breath.

" You hungry? "

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This is their dynamic, right?

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my favorite trope is when someone believes they’re hard to love and someone who loves them like it’s breathing.

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sorry everyone i ended up sleeping most of today :( im about to head out but ill work on stuff when i get home later!

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WHAT ARE YOU SEEKING ?

home.

"i wish i could say i am a light that never goes out, but i flicker from time to time." // oh, little one, you have burned for so quietly for so long, haven't you? burnt yourself out trying to give others light? wishing, desperately, that they would notice the way your hands shake or the wildflower bruises under your tired eyes. but they never have, have they? and so, it obviously wasn't bad? right? you had more to give, didn't you? how much could you pour yourself out before they noticed? it is all you've ever known, after all. help, help, help, help. (are you providing it, or begging for it?) but you've given too much, spread yourself too thin, didn't you? you are so heavy, so tired. you have spent your life carrying for others the way you wished someone would care for you. but you're worried, aren't you? that if you can't be what they need, if you can't be the pillar for others to lean on, they'll leave you. what you seek is home, a safe place to rest and be taken care of. and little light, you deserve it. you have earned it. you are worth more than what you can provide for others: you deserve the same care you so freely give out. they will love you all the same, honey. set down the world, and rest that weary heart of yours

tagged by : @agmaknae <3 tagging : @loyaltysung @jyeonghon @queenrumi @rumunui @voicestrong ( rumi or zoey? ), @sajaboytellem and you!

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𝜗𝜚 ⠀𝗕𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗣𝗥𝗜𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗢𝗙 𝗠𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗨𝗠𝗕   ﹔ action prompts - various kisses  .  please   like   or reblog   if   you   plan   on   using   .   don’t   claim   as   your   own   .

a  kiss  when  they're  about  to  die.

a  kiss  under  the  stars.

a  kiss  to  distract  them.

a  kiss  in  the  middle  of  a  fight.

a  kiss  before  they  go  to  their  death.

a  kiss  to  apologize.

a  kiss  to  wake  them  up.

a  kiss  when  parting  ways.

a  kiss  at  midnight.

a  kiss  in  the  heat  of  the  moment.

a  kiss  on  the  forehead.

a  kiss  after  a  confession  of  love.

a  kiss  after  a  playful  moment.

a  kiss  at  the  altar.

a  final  kiss  before  they  part  for  the  last  time.

a  final  kiss  before  a  truth  is  revealed.

a  kiss  while  dancing.

a  kiss  after  they  treat  your  wound.

a  kiss  of  relief.

a  kiss  on  the  hand.

a  first  kiss  between  friends.

a  first  kiss  with  a  stranger.

a  long  awaited  kiss.

a  kiss  in  a  hedge  maze.

a  stolen  kiss.

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OF THE TWO OF THEM , MIRA ISN'T QUITE SURE who is better at making conversation. It's not often that they hang out, nor does she really try to create time to do so. She tolerates Taejoon, and she thinks he does the same back. Least, if nothing else, he lets her eat in silence and doesn't try to make small talk.

That is, until right now.

" Uh huh. " And soon she is silent, processing the very words that come from Taejoon. Noodles nearly spill out of her mouth, but she has enough of a braincell to catch herself and slurp them fully before blinking once. Then twice.

Laughing awkwardly, she draws the cup of noodles from her face. " But I killed - ah, everything's been fucked anyways. " With a long sigh, Mira glances at him. " ... Do you like .. want me to find another reason for you to be mad at me? "

“…Hey, so…” Hands grip chopsticks, pulling noodles from the ramyeon cup in his hands as he sits next to her, lips parting as he shoved the noodles inside, closing mouth around it, biting down as some of the noodles fell back into broth, swallowing what was in his mouth as he glanced at her. “…Look, I don’t know how to say this, and I don’t know how it fucking works either, but…Woohyuk’s back. So I guess I can’t be mad at you anymore.”

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IN COMES ANOTHER LONG BREATH , ILL ATTEMPTS OF REMAINING COOL in front of her. Mira feels small underneath the fluttering kisses and touches, heart hammering against her chest and surging with adrenaline from all the attention. Her hands twitch, grip wavering in anticipation of something when she knows Rumi's gaze lingers a moment too long before settling to meet her own.

" It's hard not to watch, " murmurs Mira after a moment. It's hot, between the fire that is barely contained in Rumi's look and how her body is responding to it all. There's an urge, barely contained, to turn this all around and have Rumi against the wall and ravish her in the same manner. " Do you have any clue how breath taking you are? "

And she means it, with every fiber in her being. Passion laces in her tone, breath hot as Rumi's thumb traces her lips. Against her will, a whiny, needy ghost of a moan escapes her at the touch and she loathes how pathetic she feels longing for such affection and intimacy. Her face flushes, and she attempts to swallow down her embarrassment.

" You, watching me. " Pause, a grin that grows deliciously. " You're not sly, you know. If you really want something, just take it. I don't bite. "

Mira glances to Rumi's own lips before rumbling a low laugh. " Hard. "

mira’s voice—cut from the purest marble, steeped in grit and rubble—could bring even the strongest willed to their knees. rumi is no different. goosebumps erupt across her arms and down her legs, and suddenly, there is nothing she wouldn’t do or say.

“you’ve been watching me?” playful, coy … mostly rhetorical. rumi knows she has. mira has always been the most perceptive of the group, as if she has her finger on their pulse the way that rumi’s lips cover hers now. reluctantly, rumi pulls back, dark eyes lingering on mira’s perfect mouth first before ultimately meeting her gaze.

“what else have you seen?” it’s a dangerous question but so is whatever this is; so are their lives.

rumi reaches out with her right hand to gently caress mira’s face. her touch is feather-light, the pad of her thumb tracing from the corner of mira’s lips along the high rise of her cheek. she’s looking at her mouth again, her heart a trapped bird in her chest. restraint stands, barred, on the opposite side of mira’s bedroom door.

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me, minding my own business working on replies:

some lil pop up: help me write!

me: okay fuck off ??