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sometimes i have a thought so mentally ill i can feel it fizzle in my skull

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Fuck yes i just responded like a normal human

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that feeling when you finish writing a wip or a chapter you poured hours of work into is truly unmatched

like yeah THAT’S RIGHT. i braved the elements, battled with a stubborn keyboard and survived the ao3 formatting. i embarked on a noble quest to fetch emotional damage disguised as plot, to find the angstiest of all angsts, the grandest hurt/comfort known to all blorbos.

and i returned home on my brave steed, a scroll full of emotional devastation in one hand, my other hand victoriously brandishing my swor— i mean a pen.

i made it, and will get approximately twenty three minutes of break before a new idea blooms in my head at 3am…

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me: okay, tonight i’m locking in. i’m going to write all night, become a literary weapon and finish my chapter. i won’t just write the wip, i will be the wip. i’ll be unstoppable! relentless! unbreakable! so powerful the writing gods will have to restrain me themselves—

also me, 3 hours later: *giggling at yet another cursed tumblr post while my opened word doc glares at me with only 5 new words and a shameful half-finished sentence*

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i have been sleeping ever since i got home bc i think if i rub under my eyes anymore i will start bleeding

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just the usual

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i do not ghost purposely i just have no idea what to say ever

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it's so crazysauce how when you eat food you are less tired and less shaky and also in a better mood for the whole day!!!!!!

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i fucking love reactions in texting apps like discord. theyve revolutionized how i communicate. i can put a bug on your message

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hey quick question btw. what the fuck is going on

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^^^ by my BOSS. and then he also told me that i seem like i don’t try hard enough and then told me again that my coworkers don’t like me.

just got told that all my coworkers hate me 😭😭😭😭

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"you're so resilient" thanks it was either that or killing myself

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just got told that all my coworkers hate me 😭😭😭😭

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"you're so resilient" thanks it was either that or killing myself

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most important part of the writing process actually is when you loop a single song on max volume and stare at the word document and imagine the characters doing things for 14 hours. this is known as getting in the zone

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call me crazy or whatever but the idea of a neptune plushie is like sooooooo cute bro i could literally just squish hiiiiim come on is that not the cutest thing you could do to him?! AGHHH

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i’m done writing for tonight bc of my head and i need to do a syllabus quiz or two so im not overwhelmed tmr!! final word count for today is: 2.8k which is less than the 3k i had because i decided to change directions to unstuck myself and had to delete some stuff but i have outlined the rest of the fic and im really excited to work on it tmr!!! XD