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Idk if I like you or not, I mean it's been a long time since I feel this feeling again and honestly it made my whole mind blown up

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Dear Peeps consider my confessional essay about how devoting myself to The Cthulhu Mythos taught me to love again.

I still wonder how it started and how I realized that by devoting myself to the Cthulhu Mythos, it would teach me to love again. I know it was strange to admit because the Cthulhu Mythos is a fictional character, an immortal monster based on the works of American author H.P Lovecraft. A Cthulhu Mythos is a monster with many tentacles that lives in the deepest parts of the seas. was their common identities that we've ever known when we read, watch, or even talk about their stories. My first encounter with the Cthulhu Mythos was 7 years ago when I was only 11 years old and playing some retro video games on my tablet. The game was called Terraria. It was a craft survival game and the final boss on that game was a Cthulhu and it was difficult. It felt like I was battling with a god and it took me a gazillion times to just defeat one Cthulhu and that day I started to unnoticeably devote myself to uncovering the Cthulhu Mythos and I became a nerd from it. I started to browse some video games online that have connections to the Cthulhu Mythos. Next, I started to watch some horror movies that have scenes of Cthulhu. As you read my confession, The first thing I guess will come to your mind is like, "This guy is crazy about this stuff" and "yes, I was really addicted to this stuff and I have this attitude when I become interested in something that I really think would really take some months or years to at least get bored or find some new stuff again." In my case, it took over 1 year and 7 months on the Cthulhu Mythos.

And in the last 3 months of it, but things got down for me my parents got separated when I was just a young teenager, and I really blame myself on that because I didn't do anything to at least fix it.This stuff, my devotion to Cthulhu, really helped me a lot to at least escape the forlorn and heartbreak that I felt, but the bad thing is that I started to take absent in class and just play RPG videogames that were related to Cthulhu. I really need to make myself better, so the first thing that comes to my head is to stop my addiction to videogames and Cthulhu. I know that these really help me a lot to escape from the reality of my life, but I really need to do it because I've seen some of my relatives and friends worried about my situation, so I decided that I will stop. On the night of May 24th, 2017 will be the last day that I will ever play this stuff again. I really don't waste nanoseconds of that night and really enjoy it, and when I wake up I know that this will be a new beginning for me; a new beginning to love myself again and a new beginning to love and cherish others' efforts to show their love for me.

And in conclusion, I think by just devoting yourself to some things or stuff that you love, it will lead you and teach you to love again.

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A Night With Vodka

You listen to my stories without any judgement. We both crave each other like longtime lovers, but like other cliched love stories, everything will end.

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We met, loved, and became memories.

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Is anyone here ever so exhausted they just lay lazily on top of their bed with the lights on without attempting to sleep in some random state of awareness lmao

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Am I Insensitive