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When you can’t even understand what’s going on with yourself, He does. He’ll happily listen to you ramble and vent. God is your best friend.

(via god-loves-u-sweetheart)

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Back 2 Back Devotion

“It’s never too late to get back on track :)”

Bible Verses:

“If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first. The world loves you as on of its own if you belonged to it, but you are no longer part of the world. I chose you to come out of the world, so it hates you.” -(John 15:18-19)

“For am I now seeking the approval of man or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” - (Galatians 1:10)

“You cant worship two gods at once. Loving one god, you’ll end up hating the other. Adoration of one feeds contempt for the other. You can’t worship God and Money both.” - (Matthew 6:24, MSG)

“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” -         (Matthew 6:34, MSG)

Reflection:

It is hard to change what you see wrong in the world when people think it is “normal”.  As a Christian, it is a challenge for us, what can we contribute to this world? How can we correct that wrong mindset of that “normal” thingy. 

Once you accept Christ in your life and commit yourself to Him. You have to give up all those worldly things and to stop pleasing the world. - Easy to say than done. Right? Yea. Right.

To some Christians it may be easy to do, but to others it takes a long time before they could actually do it, there are hindrances that is stopping them to grow and to mature and be fruitful. 

What are those hindrances???

FEAR and DOUBT.

You fear what people would think and say to you when they notice the changes that you are now, different than they knew before. - called over familiarity.

You doubt if you can really change, it you can finish what you been started. If you can go on being this new you. 

Because when people new that you are a Christian or new believer its either you’ll be an inspiration to them or they’ll persecute you. - Waiting for you to commit mistakes. - Watching every move you make.

But expect this, because you chose God over them. The world will gonna hate you (John 15:18-19). The world will make you feel like an outcast. It is okay that they hate you when you know your with other Christians but what if you’re alone? surrounded by them? that’s when you feel the fear and doubt and decided you’ll just be one of them at the same time being a servant of God. Which is a big no no..

Remember (Matthew 6:24), you can’t serve two at the same time. You need to choose one only, whom you’ll serve. God or the World? If not God, then you can’t be His servant (Galatians 1:10).

This is hard if you in yourself are in doubt and fear and confused. But when your heart and mind is in to God. Your all attention to God, choosing is not difficult for you, because you know deep inside whom you’ll want to serve forever. :)

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To whom it may concern

Open letter ng isang babaeng nagmahal lamang.

Ang gusto lang naman niya iparamdam na mahal ka niya, at nandito lang siya naghihintay kahit minsan napapaisip siya na possible pa ba kaya maging kayo ulit. Kahit na alam niya na sa gitna ng paghihintay niya di maiwasang magkagusto ka sa iba. Pero umaasa padin siya kahit masakit isipin na nagawa mong magkagusto ng iba, na minsan nawala yung nararamdaman mo sa kanya at napunan ng iba, pero di niya magawang isumbat sayo yun kasi sino nga ba naman siya sayo ngayon? - “friend/Ex” mo na lang. 

Pero hindi niya alam, na etong pagmamahal na iniingatan niya para sayo siya din pala magdudulot o magdagdag ng bigat ng kalooban na nararamdaman mo, na bawat pagpapahayag niya ng pagmamahal sayo guilt naman ang nararamdaman mo kasi nahihirapan ka maging faithful sa nararamdaman mo para sa kanya.

Siguro, dapat na talagang matigil yung nararamdaman niya para sayo. Hindi naman nadin na malinaw ang lahat. Baka nga one-sided na lang ang nararamdaman niya. Baka iba na tinutukoy mo at hindi na siya. Pero kung para nga sa kanya yun eto lang masasabi niya...para sa ikakabuti ninyong dalawa. Mabuti pang maging PAST na lang ang lahat. Hanggang doon na lang. Wag na lang marahil ipagpatuloy pa.

THE END.

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#TulaTulaanSerye

“Hindi ko maimagine”

Hindi ko maimagine na ibang kamay ang hawak ko maliban sayo.

Hindi ko maimagine na iba ang kayakap ko, maliban sa mga yakap mo na sobra ko ng namimiss.

Hindi ko maimagine na ibang labi ang kahalikan ko, maliban sa mga labi mo.

Sa madaling salita, hindi ko maimagine ang sarili ko sa iba, maliban sayo.. at SAYO lamang.

Kasi mahal kita o sinta ko, MAHAL padin kita. At hinihintay ko lang si tamang panahon na dumating. 

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Cat Lover

I wonder what you look like, hindi kasi kita natitigan ng maayos. - side seeing lang ang peg ko kanina sa van. 

Same school. - hey classmate! :)

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ka may dalang kuting papasok ng school, gusto ko ngang himasin sana ee kaso nakakahiya namang mag FC sayo. 

I wonder when will I meet you, and if we meet again, how will I know it was you if I didn’t clearly see your face.

Ang na observe ko lang, naka bonnet ka, panay ayos ng hair - LOL, may balbas sa chin banda...

What really caught my attention was you and your kitten. Kasi, first time ko lang makakita ng lalake na cat lover at ganun ka sweet and caring sa kuting nya. :)

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1:30am

Yung ang dami kong gustong gawin. Gusto ko talagang gawin. Kaso, hindi ako makaalis sa comfort zone ko. - struggling.

Nakakatamad. Lagi na lang nakakatamad. Buti pa ang isip ko kumikilos, buti pa sa mga pagtutulala ko, pag da-dayream ko ang dami na nangyayari. Pero sa reality.... - WALA.

Unorganized. Undisciplined. - MY LIFE. MY COMFORT ZONE.

Pakikipaglaban sa sarili ko ang pinakamahirap na battle sa lahat. Hindi makasundo ang isip at ang katawan. Parehong may sariling mundo.

“the spirit is willing, but the body is weak.”

Change. napakadaling i-type. napakadaling sabihin. Pero ang hirap gawin.

Change. 

Motivation. 

Perseverance....

hanggang simula lang lagi ako, pag dating ng gitna, nawawala na ulit.. - U turn. wala pa ata akong nasimulan na natapos ko, o pinagpatuloy kong i-maintain..

Anong nanangyayari sakin? Anong Problema? Bakit ako ganto? - EWAN. HINDI KO ALAM. 

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#HugoTula-Sana

Ang sana ko, ay ako na lang ang iyong maging huli. Ngunit, puso’y puno ng pangamba. puso’y puno ng pagdududa. puso’y takot.

Sa kabila ng lahat, handa ka pa rin tanggapin. Handa ka pa din mahalin, pakiusap nga lang na sana ako na ang maging huli.

Ngunit muling tatanungin ang sarili, matatanggap ko kaya? kung sa pag-ibig mo para sa akin ay minsan ng nawala? minsa’y ng napunta sa iba?

Babalikan ba natin ang isa’t isa kung alam ko naman ang puso ko ay naguguluhan na. Magawa ko kayang ipagkatiwala muli sayo ang puso  minsan ng umibig?

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Itago ko siya sa pangalang Mister Dee :) short for Enchong Dee! hahaha. jk! 

The who?? :)

hehe. Fan girl lang. Eto ata ang kaunaunahang picture niya na ang hotsome (Hot + Handsome) ang dating! hahaha. kung pupwede lang i-hit ang ‘Like’ button ng 1000x ee. 

Pwede ng makisabayan sa mga model ng bench na sina James Reid at Daniel Padilla Hahahaha. NAKS! :D

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SLEEP PARALYSIS

What is sleep paralysis?  (for those who doesn’t have any idea what is that or no experience or maybe you already experience it but you don’t know what is - you might relate it to a ‘nightmare’. - but it isn’t a nightmare.)

Sleep paralysis is a phenomenon in which a person, either falling asleep or awakening, temporarily experiences an inability to move, speak, or react. It is a transitional state between wakefulness and sleep, characterized by muscle atonia (muscle weakness). It is often accompanied by terrifying hallucinations (such as an intruder in the room) to which one is unable to react due to paralysis, and physical experiences (such as strong current running through the upper body).

So that is the definition of sleep paralysis. - now you know *winks*.

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I just want to share to you my experience to this sleep paralysis. Most of them experience it just once. (Lucky to you guys!) but for me??? - MOST OF THE TIME. 

Base on my research, they are 2 major classifications of sleepy paralysis; isolated sleep paralysis (ISP) and the significantly rarer recurrent isolated sleep paralysis (RISP). ISP episodes are infrequent, and may occur only once in an individual's lifetime, while recurrent isolated sleep paralysis is a chronic condition, and can recur throughout a person's lifetime. RISP episodes can last for up to an hour or longer, and have a much higher occurrence of perceived out of body experiences, while ISP episodes are generally short (usually no longer than one minute) and are typically associated with the intruder and incubus visitations. With RISP the individual can also suffer back-to-back episodes of sleep paralysis in the same night, which is unlikely in individuals who suffer from ISP.

So, I’m under the RISP then. *smh* *face palm*

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Around 2:58 AM when I woke up, before that I had a 30 mins. sleep when sleep paralysis occurred. Did you already watched the movie Insidious? well, I’ll say that the feeling is like that. The only difference is that I don’t see other people with me (the are instances - rare. - but I know them). I will wake up in my dream, same room. I can’t move. But I can speak. 

There are times that I can move then suddenly, there is someone holding me that I can’t move my hands and arms. Then it just pinned me on my bed. I know. I’m aware that it was just a dream. But it taking me time before I could really wake up. To go back to reality. I sometimes, shakes my head to wake me up. And shout. Calling out the names of my family. - my mom or my aunt. Or just shout. Just to know If could really hear vividly my voice. Because when I hear my voice vividly I woke up. I’m back again. When I go back to sleep. It will occur again. Sometimes its hard to battle with that someone you can’t see that is making you paralyzed. I wanted to give up. But if I stop on trying to move and wake up what will happen? then I’ll just pray. pray. and pray. I got strength to fight and wake up again. 

TIP:

If you are under RISP my tip for you so you can avoid to experience it is just before you sleep PRAY. Then, put on your earphones. volumes up. Then play your favorite playlist. until you have a good sleep :) its effective! I always do that at night. It is my lullaby. 

In my opinion. Listening to music could calm you brain. Because for me, it is on the brain. Because we think and worry a lot. 

Thanks for reading this blog post! :* xoxo 

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A quick prayer.

Note: Especially for exam/quiz

I have exam/quiz tomorrow Lord, I fear na kabahan ako, ma-tense at di makapagsagot ng maayos. Maging careless ako sa pag answer at makaligtaan o malimutan ko yung mga pinag aralan ko. 

Will you Lord remove this fear from me?

“God is looking after me, keeping me safe in the Kingdom of Heaven. All praise to Him, praise forever” (2 Timothy 4:18 MSG)

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The reason why...

Why even I study for our quiz, I still flunk?

Reflection:

Me getting flunk was not because my effort was not enough. But rather I didn’t include God.

I want to pass, not to impress God but to impress them. I’m just thinking of myself. Just “M-E” without “G-O-D”. I want to make an impression to them that I’m not just a nobody but a somebody. I pray before the quiz, but  God is sensitive. He knows what my heart really desires. 

During the exam; I panicked. Excited-Nervous. I fret! I lost my focus! Even though I know how to solve it. I messed up. 

“This is how it will be with anyone who stores up things to himself but is not rich toward God” (Luke 12:16-21 NIV)

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Countdown

She’s excited for that event. Since the start of summer. And since the organizer of that event posted the date. She want to be a part of it. She want. She really love to be a part of it. But something happen. And she can’t come anymore. she’ll be missing the fun. And she was sad. 

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Hindi kami close. But were friends. Unting time lang napagsamahan namin nun nung tiga AdU pa siya. Pero nung nag transfer na siya, although were friends. I didn’t expect na na-value niya pala yung ganung namuong friendship namin. At nakakaalala siya mag pm sakin. Nakakatuwa lang. Kasi yung mga least expected mong people na aalala sayo. Yun pa pala yung nagpapahalaga sayo. At naiisip ka i-pm. 

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“I’m OK now, because we’re speaking in generalities, but if you were to ask me about anything specific, like names or dates, I wouldn’t be able to remember them. My mother had it too. It was ten years of her not knowing who anybody was. And I don’t want to be remembered like that. That’s why I’m sitting here alone. I used to have a lot of friends, but I’ve withdrawn from all of them. Group situations are especially hard because I can’t steer the conversation toward something I can remember. And when I do get stuck, it’s more embarrassing. So I’ve missed weddings. I’ve stopped returning calls. I do have one friend who won’t give up on me. He calls me from Florida. And if I’m trying to tell him about a bridge, he’ll list off every bridge in New York City until I remember the one that I’m trying to talk about.”

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Getting on board with Christ can mean getting soaked with Christ. Disciples can expect rough seas and stout winds.

Fearless, Max Lucado

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She’s pissed. She’s annoyed. That girl.. assumes.. 

She stalked. She randomly reads post, then stop. Then thought to herself “is that me?”. 

Gets her phone. Scan the previous messages. 

Shoot! ...

not me...

her mood shift. 

then wonder.. who’s the ______ ? 

now, she’s confused...

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stalk.

stalk.

stalk.

akala ko ako.

hindi pala

hindi pala..

assumera lang...