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[newmxmories]

Ghost of You

What if he could just hear your voice one last time? Would you ask him to stay or let him go?

••

It’s been a couple days since the accident. He hasn’t even gone out of bed. But today, he had no choice. Everyone had to be there. He had to be there. He was going to move until he heard someone,

“Get up sleepy head”

He jolted up, shivers down his spine. He knows that voice. That’s the voice he wanted to hear over and over again.

“Y/N?!”

Searching and searching for where the voice came from. He saw you standing by the door. You placed your palm on his cheek. He tried to hold on but couldn’t. Eyes filled with tears for both sides. You stroke his cheek,

“Baby.. you know why you can’t.. You have to get dress.”

“No. No, I don’t want to.”

“Babe-”

“NO Y/N. Don’t make me. I don’t want to go. I can’t..”

“I don’t want you to go either. But this is what we have to do. If I could come back..”

“It’s all my fault.”

“It is not. Do you hear me? Never blame yourself for what happened.”

“I could’ve saved you.”

“Don’t do that. The situation was already had it’s outcome.”

“I can’t live without you, Y/N.. I don’t want to.”

“You’re not going to. I’ll always be here” Tapping on his chest. “You’ll always have a piece of me.”

You held his face in the palm of your hands and placed on last kiss on his forehead.

“You have to go.. You have to say goodbye.”

“Don’t make me, please.”

“Until we meet again, my love. Live your life. For you, the boys. Do it for me. Find new love, just not as epic as ours”

Letting out a dry chuckle. You wiped his tears.

“Don’t be late.”

You got up while he stayed on the ground. You turned back a blew him one last kiss.

He let out one last cry as the boys ran to comfort their brother. It’s never easy grieving over lost of a loved one.

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What if?

(Base of course back to season 3)

A/N: I'm a little rusty from not writing for a very long time. So forgive me if it wasn't the best!

Plot: What happens if it was you in his arms?

·· Shall we? ··

You did everything and anything for your friends. You were with Allison trying to figure out how to kill the Onis. When you finally realized what it was, both of you go,

"Silver.. Jinx!"

You and her started laughing and started building armor made from silver. The perks of having two hunters in the pack instead of one. You tried to keep it as lowkey as possible but meeting your lover/alpha made it hard especially when your family knew the Argents. That's why you and Allison were so close. Your parents and hers worked together so you grew up together. You knew her and Scott had a past and you had no intention to lose your bond with her over a boy. However, after talking it out with her and explaining how much you tried to stray away, she knew you couldn't. In her words, "it's hard not to fall for a boy like Scott McCall." You were forever grateful she didn't let anything happen between you and her.

Stiles was no longer Void Stiles. At first, you were very hesitant seeing him again. You stopped by Scott's after you heard what happened. Allison said to go and she'll meet you there. Entering the McCalls, you saw your best friend and boyfriend. Your eyes were teary seeing him because you didn't know if this was some kind a joke Void was playing. Scott came to you and put a hand on your cheek.

"It's okay.. it's him."

You still looked at him with teary eyes. Stiles whispered,

"Hey Y/N.."

You looked at him,

"How do I know it's not the other one?"

Stiles sighed,

"Uhh.. remember when you told me the day you fell for your lover boy? It was-"

You eyes popped

"Okay! It's you! Where's Lydia?"

Scott looked at you with a smirk but went back into serious mode.

"He took her."

"Well then let's go."

Right before you left, Scott stopped you

"You never told me how you fell for me"

He smirked and you did too.

You gave him a loving kiss before rushing to the Jeep, you shouted,

"You'll found out on our last day together, babe! So you'll be waiting for a while"

Smiling before you hopped into the car. Scott scoffed and followed while having the biggest smile on his face.

Once everyone met at Eichen, you repeated the plan before going in. Stiles looked like he's becoming weaker so the plan had to move faster. The plan was about to begin once you saw the Oni come to life. Everyone was fighting one and once you saw Allison release the arrow to save Issac, you did the same. You guys saw what the silver did and both let a sigh of relief. What you didn't know was what was going to happen next. The Oni was going to come right after her when you pushed her and you took her place. You felt the sword of the Oni go right through you. You knew this was it. Allison eyes popped out so big. She saved Issac. You saved her.

She raced to your aid and Issac yelled for his alpha.

"SCOTT! HELP!"

You held Allison hand and she looked at you with tears streaming non-stop down her face,

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry! You're going to be okay. Scott's coming! Okay?! I need you to hold on. Okay? Eyes open"

Scott saw you laying there and rushed and held on to you once Allison finally let go. You smile very weakly at the boy you'll forever love. He tried to heal you,

"Baby.. you gotta let me heal you. C'mon. Let me take it, I can take it"

"Don't. I'm okay. I'm not in pain"

He shooked his head uncontrollably and tried

"babe.. the day I fell for you-"

"NO! You said on our last day together. This isn't it!"

"The day I fell for you *coughs* is the day you saved my life. The day in forest *coughs*. When you just let me rant and let me feel heard. Then you came to me the next day with my favourite chocolate (or whatever sweet you prefer). I knew then. I was falling for the alpha of Beacon *coughs* Hills."

Seeing him cry wasn't what you wanted to see last.

"Baby.. I can't go with you looking at me like that.. but we don't have much time"

"NO! I can help you!"

You knew you were about to take your last breath. You just tried to hold on as much as you can.

"I love you. With my heart. Scott. Tell them I love them. Thank you *cough* for everything. How bout one last forehead kiss.. my lips aren't the most attractive right now."

Trying to let out one last sassy remark, you laughed weakly. He knew it too. There wasn't much left he can do but honour you wish. He placed his lips on your forehead as you took that one last breath.

"I love you Y/N Y/L/N. Till our last day."

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Let Me Go

Even with everyone gone in the room, you were left stunned. You thought everything was going well. Everything was supposed to be good in your life. You got your dream job working for this amazing boyband and even fell in love with one of them. What you didn't think was going to happen was this ultimatum. Your job or your love life. How do you choose between that? is it that easy? do you just throw away your dream job and find a job that doesn’t even meet half the experience you’ve had with this one? or do you break up with the man of your dream and face everyday knowing you can’t have him by your side anymore?

•• Boys in the studio ••

They were recording for the new era about to come. Everyone was busy but Zabdiel couldn’t stop thinking about where you went. It’s been past 15 minutes you left with the management crew. He didn’t have a good feeling about it either. It’s been a few weeks since you guys went public. Most of the fandom were happy for you guys so he didn’t think it was taking a toll on them as a group. The boys loved you as a sister. He wasn’t focus at all anymore so he tap Richard’s knee. He looked up from his phone and saw Zabdiel’s facial expression asking him to quietly follow him. They went to the nearest staircase.

“Hey, everything okay,”

Zabdiel kept his head down, “No.. I don’t think so.. Y/N left with management almost half an hour now.. Rich, I don’t have a good feeling about this.”

Richard crossed his arms, “dude.. what do you think their talking about? maybe you’re thinking too negative. Maybe it’s about a promotion?”

Zab shook his head, “they would’ve called by now.”

Rich looking at his worried brother face. Tears slowly forming. He pulled into a hug.

“We’ll figure it out soon.”

•• At yours and Zab’s apartment ••

You finally left the meeting room. But you couldn’t go back into the recording room. How do you explain to your boyfriend it's either him or your career? You looked at the numerous calls and texts from Zabdiel but also from Richard. You flipped your phone on the table. This is the worst possible situation for you to be in. But this is what you think is best right now. If you can't have Zabdiel, you didn't want to look into his eyes everyday. If you can't have your dream job, you don't want to end of resenting anyone, especially him. You had to do what you had to do. You started walking into your room, seeing all the pictures makes your heart slowly shatter. You grabbed your suitcase out of the closest and started to pack. As you were putting the last of your things you heard a faint voice,

"What are you doing?"

You couldn't look at him. It will absolutely break you. You zipped your suitcase and lifted it off the bed. He came to you and cupped your cheek. You leaned in into his palm and holding his other hand and gently pulled him onto the bed. You took a breath before you started talking,

"First, I want to say thank you. For everything you've given me the last couple years. I didn't want myself falling for you because I thought, 'he'll find someone better' or 'you really want a celebrity?' but you proved me wrong. Your heart and just you. You were my-"

"Don't do this, Y/N, please."

You looked away before continuing,

"My everything. You are such an angel and I am so grateful I was able to be loved by a man like you. But.. my career is just as important to me. Sometimes we can't have everything we want though."

"I knew I should've came with you to the meeting. I could've protect-"

You shushed him and wiped his tears streaming from his face.

"You have to let me go, baby.. I want you to succeed in life, I wanna see you on billboards and say 'He did it.' I want to know I let your career go so far but so will mine. We will reconnect again if time allows us. You'll always have me. Please, let me go."

He engulfs you into a tight hug,

"I don't want to.. I don't want to"

Fighting back any more tears. You rubbed his back and kissed his temple.

"But you have to."

You got up and took your suitcase.

"I'll see you again, Zabdiel."

With that you left. Leaving your dream job, your love of your life. You really hope this was the right thing. You finally pulled the door to leave the building getting into a cab. You look at your lockscreen of the picture of you and Zabdiel.

"One day."

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If you love her

Haven't written anything in a long time and the moment I was listening to this song for some reason this is the first person I thought to write about.

Hope you enjoy!

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You had a very hectic work schedule. You were understaffed meaning you had to take more responsibilities and hours at the store. You really didn't mind it. However that meant losing time with the pack especially your lovely tempered boyfriend. You came home after another double shift. He was there in the living room snoozing away. You placed a very light kiss on his forehead before heading to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Following shortly were his footsteps. You looked up from your phone and smiled,

“Hey sleepy head. What are you doing awake?”

“I was waiting for you. I thought you finished at 3. I got worried. I stopped by the store but you weren’t there.”

“Paul I texted you about my double.”

“No you didn’t Y/N. Lexi told me you had to do another double.”

You checked your phone to see the unsent text to Paul about your shift change. You sighed.

“I’m sorry. I thought I pressed sent. It was busy, I just didn’t have-”

“Time. Yeah something you don’t really have much nowadays.”

You were taken back from that sassy remark.

“You just woke up and I just got home from work. Please don’t tell me you’re trying to start something.”

He looked back at you,

“I’m not. I’m stating a fact. This is the what? Third? fourth? ‘double’ shift? You’re doing nothing but work!”

“And?! Paul you knew I wasn’t just going to sit around here waiting all the damn time! worrying if you’re going to come home in one piece! IF you’re going to come home. It’s not my fault if we don’t have enough people at my job. But babe I can’t just sit here and watch the clock.”

“You wouldn’t even know if I came back because you’re never here!”

Tears of frustration and shock came down streaming your face. You grabbed your keys and started walking out the door. Paul following closely after you.

“Where are you going?!”

“You don’t need to know. Because I’m never home right? Leave me alone.”

You got into your car and zoomed off.

••

You and Kim sat on her couch. She sat down across you.

“Thanks for letting me stay. He knew I’d go to Emily’s first. So might as well catch him off guard. No offense."

Kim chuckled softly.

"No worries. You know I'm always here, Y/N."

She places her hand on your thigh in comfort. You started to tear up again,

"I love him to death but I can't just stay home and worry."

Kim sighed.

"That was me too before with Jared. I hated just watching the clock hoping 'when is he coming home?' 'IS he coming home?' 'Why haven't I heard from him yet?' and so on."

"Paul does doubles too and you don't see me getting mad."

"But not as much as you, workaholic. Paul used to ALL the time because he didn't have anyone to come home to. Now.. his whole world is at his home. He has a reason to run as fast as he can."

"Who's side are you on?"

Both of you let a small laugh.

"I'm on neither. I'm the peacemaker, sassy pants" as she taps your nose.

"I'm saying I get your point because I am like that too. But I'm also saying, look at his view too. You mean everything to him. He doesn't feel any better than being in a home with you."

You huffed in defeat knowing she has a point. Kim got up,

"Get some sleep. We're gonna help Emily tomorrow. Maybe you'll see lover boy there too."

You hit her leg with the pillow before you said your goodnights and parted ways.

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Next morning you and Kim were in Emily's kitchen. As you all are doing your roles, Emily asked you,

"Sooo, where'd you end up going last night? It wasn't here"

Kim smirked while you stopped cutting.

"I went to Kim's last night."

"Figured. He came in a frantic pace. He looked everywhere before finally speaking. He told me his side of what happened."

"What'd he say?"

"He told us he didn't mean to start something but it was built up emotions and he was trying to fight his inner wolf."

You nodded your head. You heard footsteps so you dropped whatever it was to hide. Kim and Emily chuckled before resuming dinner. Sam, Jared and Paul enter.

"I don't know.. she still hasn't texted me or called. I messed up big time."

As the other two couples were now in each others embrace. Emily showed Sam her phone,

"She's here. Hiding. Be quiet"

Sam smirked and said,

"Paul. You've known her since day 1. You knew she was a workaholic. But doesn't mean she didn't love you any less."

He was still walking back and forth.

"Yeah but you should've seen her face. It's like I slammed glass onto the floor. I've never seen her so hurt. I just love her so damn much."

"If you love her, then you'd tell her that you'll be there. Even with a hectic schedule, you'll be there to kiss her good morning or good night. Even when she's stressed she'll feel relax in your arms. That one day she won't need to do all those doubles and finally go back to her regular schedule where the two of you will find time to spend time together. Try calling her again."

He dials your number and hears your phone on the counter where he looks up and sees you by the hallway by their washroom. He rushes into your arms, wrapping yours tightly around his neck. He snuggles into your neck

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry."

"It's okay. I get it. I should be sorry too. I didn't realize how you felt."

You looked into each others' eyes as you stroke his cheek with your thumb. He presses his lips on yours so soft and gently. When you finally pull apart, you asked

"How bout we go to the beach? We'll come back when dinner's ready."

Paul just nodded his head as the two walked out the door. Emily tells Jared to take over what you were doing. Jared rolled his eyes and yelled

"Hey! Have room for a third wheel?!"

Both of you turned and said,

"Nope."

Leaving everyone laughing at a scowling Jared as he started to help with dinner.

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Train Wreck

A/N: Mention of Teen Wolf (Allison's death)

Plot: Coming back home after suffering a lost. You needed to home. Everything's changed. But what remains the same was the arms you once loved, the arms you'll always love.

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It's been a while since you came back to reservation. Last time you were here you said goodbye to your love ones. You needed to be with the pack who truly needed you. You went to help knowing there might not be a chance at surviving. That left the pack you had at home feeling very uneasy. But you knew you can't sit there and wait on news. You were on your way back home to Emily's. Everyone was there waiting. Jared asked,

"Did she say what time?"

"Who's picking her up?"

"What exactly were they fighting?"

So many questions by so many people. Emily couldn't answer them all.

Sam asked, "Is she here to stay?"

Emily nodded her head but it wasn't in excitement. It was saddness. When they all heard a car door slam, everyone went out. Seth mentioned,

"Where's Paul? Does he know she's here? that's his imprint"

"Well they didn't exactly say goodbye properly last time remember?"

Leah and you came out of the car. You couldn't bear to look at anyone. You ran straight up to your room and locked the door. You just stood in the middle of your room and just let the tears escape from your eyes. Emily knocked on the door,

"Y/N... When you're ready.. dinners set. Leah left your bags here."

You looked into the mirrors to wipe your tears once more. You didn't even cry at the funeral. You needed to be there for Scott. There was no room to fall apart. But when you realized you couldn't be there anymore. You had to go home. You had to be with the pack you were meant to be with. Scott understood that. He was the one who bought your ticket home. You came downstairs to see everyone there, one spot in between Emily and Leah was empty. You sat down and started putting the food on your plate. Everyone watched you as if your glass that's about to shatter. You hope no one asked because if you let it out, it'll be unbearable. To be honest, you probably didn't fully comprehend that your best friend was gone and you watched her die in the arms of her first love. It made you crave the arms you loved.. love. As the awkward dinner came to the end, Sam, the remaining boys and Leah left for their night shift of patrol. He left with kiss on Emily's lips and a kiss on your forehead. After everything was washed and put away. You asked Emily,

"Where's Paul?"

Emily looked up,

"He's been doing patrol night and day. He doesn't want to come unless he knew you were here. Sweetheart. Can I ask you something?"

You slowly nodded your head, here it goes..

"What happened out there? You wouldn't have come home so secretive."

You held onto the chair, looked up at the ceiling and held your breath.

"Em.. She's gone.. Allison's gone. And I watched her die in Scott's arms and him trying to take her pain. She's gone."

You feel to the ground. Emily caught you. As you sobbed in her arms, footsteps came creeping into the house. Emily slightly smiled.

"He's home."

Paul came in, gently replacing Emily's grasp. He rubbed your back and Emily made her way upstairs.

"Baby.. I'm here.. It's okay"

You looked up at the man. Mascara everywhere. Hair's a complete mess.

"I know we didn't say goodbye properly. And I really hope you forgive me, Y/N. I meant no-"

You connected your lips to his. You knew there was a chance of you not coming back but you fought hard as hell to come back for the sake of the man you love. Your soulmate.

"I know. I'm sorry too. I'm sorry for being a train wreck."

He kissed your temple and lifted you so you two moved to the couch.

"She's gone. And I saw her get killed."

"If you don't want to talk about it, it's okay. But can I ask you a favour?"

You nodded your head,

"Please don't leave me anymore. I beg of you, Y/N."

You cupped his face into the palm of your hand.

"Never again."

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Hope.

You ever wonder if you'd get one day. Just one day. To be at peace with him. You knew what being an imprint to him is like. Protection 24/7. But you didn't really feel protected when he's never there. When he is, you're asleep. When you're awake, he's asleep. All you ask was just one day. To be with him. You were with Emily spending the day with her while the boys were out on patrol. Thoughts consumed you, you didn't even see Emily pass you the cup of hot chocolate she made for the rainy day. You saw her fingers snap,

"Huh? Sorry. Did you ask me something?"

She smiled

"I did. I asked if you wanted some. You okay?"

You smiled and took a muffin off the plate before she sets it on the table.

"Thanks. Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah go for it"

"Do you ever wish you and Sam got one day to yourselves? no patrol, no pack meeting, no boys. Just you two?"

She took a set across you,

"Yeah, at first I did. But then I had to look from it as Sam. He's alpha. He needs to be gone most of the time. I understand it but.. I still wish sometimes. You?"

You nodded.

"Everyday. Maybe because I'm still adjusting. But I don't really feel protected when Paul's barely home. Sometimes I just wonder if leaving would make things easier. But because I'm his imprint.."

"You feel like you can't?"

A sigh. It's not that you didn't want to be. You just want time to be an actual couple. You just want to spend time with him. Be with him. Without the pack or without another protection detail. Just a normal couple. But normal is just no longer available. You heard a whistle coming through the back. From afar, you see the boys. Your boy. But at this time. You just wanted to go. You didn't think Paul would get where you're coming from. And you didn't want to end up in a fight.

"Em, I'm just down to the beach. I need fresh air. Time to think. I'll be back for dinner."

"Okay. Be safe."

You left. The boys came through the door. Emily whispered something to Sam. He nodded his head and gave her another kiss.

Emily made her way to the back,

"Paul? Let's talk."

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You sat in the sand, listening to waves brought you at ease. You sat there until a voice asked you

"Mind if I join?"

You turned. You saw him standing there. With a hopeful small smile. You nodded your head. He sat and he pulled you into him. You two sat in silence. Comfortable silence. He then said,

"I know it's hard. I'm sorry."

You already knew what he was talking about. You fought back tears.

"One day. Is all I want. But I know the endless possibilities of what can happen in one day."

He kissed your forehead while slow tears came sliding down.

"I love you, with all my heart I do, Paul. But sometimes."

"Are you?"

You shook your head, a small chuckle escaped your lips.

"Never in a million years. But I just don't feel 'protected' if you're never there. When I sleep, you're awake and vice versa. In the world we live in, I want to do something that we never thought we could. Be normal. But we can't. And I don't want to be selfish. I really don't. Then I start to think about it from your eyes. I understand now. It's something that'll always be a part of you. A part I fell in deeper for."

He wiped your tears and press his forehead against yours before he kissed it.

"God I love you. And I will move heaven and hell to keep your safe. You're what matters most. You're my everything."

You got up and stuck your hand out for him to take.

"Let's go. Em is waiting."

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After dinner and a little chitchatter, it was time for you to head home. When you were about to go. Sam calls out.

"Hey Paul?"

You both turned.

"Jared is going to do a double round tomorrow. You have the day."

You smiled ear to ear

Sam came towards you and hugged you before he kissed your forehead,

"Happy birthday, baby sister"

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With You

A/N: it's been a while, loves! Hope you all are safe and healthy during this crazy time. And hope you enjoy 😊

·· Shall we ? ··

It wasn't the best day you had but you overcame a lot more than what happened today. It was just the little things that kept adding up to throw your mood a little off. Ending up going home tired and just wanting to plop down on your comfy bed. You entered your apartment so focused on your phone, responding to unread texts, emails and trying to figure out what the next week is going to look like. You went straight into your room. Face straight down onto your bed, you laid at peace for a couple minutes. Then you felt a hand on your back then stroking your hair and a kiss on your forehead,

"Hi"

You looked up and smiled

"Hi babe"

Looking at each other now he asked

"You okay? you seem so out of it, you didn't even say hi to any of us"

"Us? who's here?"

"The boys"

"oh my! really? I didn't even hear any of you, I'm sorry!"

"Nah baby it's okay, you good though? what happened?"

"It just wasn't the best day today. But I'm fine"

"Hmm. I know that answer"

You chuckled,

"I mean it this time, I'm okay."

"Is there anything I could do to make you feel better?"

"Go have fun with the boys, it'll make me feel a little better to know at least you had a good day"

"You sure? they can go"

"No! Go!"

You shoved your boyfriend as a signal to not worry about it. Kissing him before he left the room. You put your head back down. Then again, after a couple minutes, you feel yourself get swooped into his arms and a sweet kiss on the cheek.

"My day got better when I saw you walk through the door. So you wanna sleep? we'll sleep. Wanna talk about it? Les talk. So I choose to spend my good day, with you."

"Babe! that was so cute! Thank you, that just washed away all the bad"

Kissing him one last time,

"But my eyes needs to shut."

"I love you"

"I love you, with all my heart."

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A/N: It's short to get the groove back. So I hope you enjoyed that little fluff moment ☺️

And again, hope everyone is staying safe! And if anyone is still working or has family members working, big appreciation goes out to you/them! It's not easy working in this time. So hope you/they are extremely safe in the work force. Until next post.

xo.

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It's okay, I'm okay.

It's been hard. Moving on, going day by day, trying to escape him from your mind. You've accepted it already, right? You were happy for him. Nothing you wanted more than to see him smile. Even if it wasn't because of you.. Every night your thoughts creeped and stole your slumber. Was it you? Was it something you did? No. It couldn't be. Because you guys were never in a relationship. You wished for one. But fate wasn't on your side this time. You wanted one last thing from him but you know if you got it, you didn't want to let go. But letting go is what you had to do in order for yourself to truly be happy. No more of this you said to yourself. You saw how he wrapped his arm around her beautiful waist. Damn you wish it was yours instead. But you whisper, "it's okay be where you are happy". He will always be your love, even when you weren't his. God you wish. One more looked back before you stepped of their world, his world, and began a new one. One without him. One where you only heard his name but did not see a face. One where you don't have to break your heart when you saw them together. One where everything was new. This is for you. This was best for both of you.

...

He came out to the boys. Tears in his eyes, a note in his hand.

"Where did she go?"

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So I tried my hardest, took my a while 🙊 I would've done every beautiful curly strand but it was like a test run for the new drawing tablet. Anyways! hope everyone is having a beautiful day/night wherever your shining souls are 😊✨

xo.

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Get to the Author

Hey beautifuls! Sorry it's not a CNCO imagine today, I'm just opening up to you all to get to know me a bit more. You all have been reading what I put and giving me such positive vibes. I thought it'd be good if you get to know who I am. So if you have any questions or comments you wanna say, drop by and say hello! I'm welcome to answer anything.

Have a beautiful day or night wherever you beautiful souls are! 💕

Xo.

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Are you with me?

A/N: Wow! I did not expect doing a part 2 but thank you to all of you lovely people! Words will never be enough to express how much thankful I am. BUT without further ado, Part 2 of Holding On and Letting Go

·· Shall We ? ··

You got to the diner after hours of going house to house getting candy. It was just you and Richard because Aaliyah crashed right after Richard put her in her car seat. After ordering, Rich put down his phone,

"So, you're scared?"

You nodded.

"Y/N.. I get where you're coming from. But understand where he's coming from too. He's never been in an actual relationship before. Or even whatever you two have. What he sees is that he went out with friends."

You put your head down on the table,

"I know! But I can't help it!"

He laid back,

"Lemme ask you. If there was no fuss between the two all over social media. Would you still be as scared as you are now?"

You got back up and huffed.

"I don't know..."

"I think it was all the publicity that got out and the social media that got into your head. Now you're afraid whatever you saw would be true because you have an idea of what it'd been like. No need for you to make anything up in your wild imagination."

As you were eating. Joel texted you,

"Are you coming home tonight?"

You replied,

"No. I'm staying at Richards."

You put down your phone, Rich asked you

"What did he say?"

You shrugged your shoulders,

"Nothing. He asked if I was coming home tonight and I said no."

Rich nodded. Soon enough Chris called Richard.

"Hello?"

"Tell Y/N to go home"

"Why? She already said she isn't."

You gave him a questioning look.

"You call her then"

"I'm on the phone with you!"

After a few minutes of going back and forth he hung up the phone.

"What was that about?" You asked.

"Go home tonight"

You shook your head,

"I promised Aaliyah."

"Who is sound asleep right now."

"You don't know that"

Few minutes Richard showed you a picture Yash sent of Aaliyah sound asleep in her Wonder Woman costume.

"Told you! Go home, I'll bring her over tomorrow."

"Promise?"

"Promise. Let's finish our food and go"

· Back at the house ·

You open the door as if you never left. Zab and Erick playing video games while Chris was watching them. When you entered the living room,

"Why did I need to come back?"

Zab paused the game,

"Because he's upstairs"

Your eyebrows met,

"Who?"

Chris looked at you,

"Don't be like that. You know who."

"Why? He's supposed to clubbing with his friends no?"

Erick turned,

"Came back an hour ago. Had a bunch of things to ask us"

"Like?"

Erick cleared his throat,

"Is Y/N okay? Why did she rush out? Did I do something? Is she mad at me? What should I do?!"

You chuckled at his little imitation of Joel. Chris came around to put his arm around you.

"Tell us. Why are you scared?"

You fought back your tears,

"I already talked about it with Richard."

Zab chimmed in,

"Were we there though?"

You rolled your eyes. Chris kissed your temple,

"You have to be willing to go through obstacles in order to love, hermana. You can be scared but you can't let that block you from falling in love. It's a natural instinct to feel that way. But if there's love in the bond then it's something you can get over."

You looked at him with teary eyes,

"And when did you get all lovey dovey?!"

He pulled you into a tight hug,

"I see the way he is with you. You both are very shy but together you bring something out of him. He's loose and he's chill. When you're backstage he looks back time to time to make sure you're there. When we have to go through fans, you should see how protective he gets. But he knows the can't show how protective he is. He always texts Clara and Ali to make sure you're safe. When we're in the clear, you're the first person he asks for. Remember the time Clara, Ali and you decided to prank us? Saying they lost you in the crowd?"

You nodded your head and chuckled to yourself remembering that moment. You really just went to Starbucks to get a drink.

"Joel's eyes were on the verge of crying. He started to ask how?! why?! He losted it"

"I remember that. He didn't let me out of sight after that."

"He's scared Y/N. He's just as scared as you. Give him a chance to express how he feels too. Because most likely you both are sharing the same feelings right now" Zabdiel said.

You nodded your head.

"He's in his room." Erick said softly

"Goodnight boys, I love you guys, you know that?"

"Te amo mucho hermana. Go talk to him. He came in looking like he did at the airport."

You go upstairs to your room. You wanted to wash of whatever makeup you had left before you talk to him. Once you were clean, new pajamas on and done putting on your moisturizer, you opened your washroom door to reveal him sitting on your bed.

He jolted up and tried to say something,

"I.. Uh.. Tried-"

"Joel."

"Right. I tried to call you but you weren't answering"

"I was in the shower."

"Sorry."

"What do you want?"

Sounding a little too blunt you already started to feel guilty. Joel took a breath,

"I thought about what happened when you left. Did I do something? Please talk to me. I texted you when I was at the club and all I got was 'okay'. And I know you, when you give me one word answers it's the complete opposite of okay."

Again with the tears. You pressed your tongue on the top of your mouth and stared at the ceiling. Joel took a step towards you,

"Please talk to me Y/N. Please. I just want to know-"

"I'M SCARED, OKAY?! I WAS- NO. I AM SCARED. BECAUSE I AM AFRAID TO LET YOU FULLY IN. I AM SCARED THAT YOU WILL LEAVE ME FOR HER. AND I KNOW, OKAY? I KNOW WE'RE NOT TOGETHER SO I CAN'T GET MAD OR JEALOUS. BUT I AM SCARED TO LOVE YOU BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FIRST AND I AM TERRIFIED OF IT. You were out tonight with your friends but you were out with a friend that I wish I can think of just as a friend but I can't. I don't hate her because God she's so beautiful. But I do hate that whatever happened between you guys can't leave my head. That whatever happened on social media and the publicity will all become true and I don't know.."

Joel hugged you. And you stopped. You just stopped. He kissed your temple and you just fell into his arms.

"I'm with you. Okay? We are just friends. Because you are the first person I think of. You are also the last person I want to see when I sleep. No matter if we have different rooms, I still check sometimes if you're asleep. Especially when you stay up late when we have an early morning plan. Even if I text you if you're up though I'm literally 10 feet away. I know sometimes you don't want to answer because you're trying to play it as if you're asleep. But I can hear you especially if you're really into the movie or show you're watching. But I know that nighttime is your only alone time you have so I give you the space. I know we want to take things slow. But God I love you Y/N Y/L/N but if you have me, I'd love to be your-"

"My boyfriend?"

He chuckles,

"Yes you're boyfriend. It's my first time though so you have to give me pardon sometimes."

You were both now cuddled in your bed.

"I will. As long as you give me pardon too because it's my first time too."

He snuggled deeper into your body as you let him engulf your body frame so softly. He kissed your temple, your cheek and your beautiful lips.

"Well I guess here's to firsts."

You looked at him,

"We've kissed before Joel"

"Never as a couple"

You smiled as you leaned in for another one. Once you separated, he asked

"Can we have movie night now?"

You quickly got up and grabbed a bag of goodies.

"Now we can!"

[newmxmories]

Holding On & Letting Go

A/N: Had a little time and I couldn't sleep. Even though Halloween is over, for this sake, it's the day of 😝

Plot: You and Joel have a mutal understanding about how you two feel about each other. Halloween comes and you see he has plans with his friends, especially one friend in particular.You got scared because you've never been in an actual relationship. So you decided to join your best friend Richard and his little wonder woman instead.

·· Shall we ? ··

"Chris! If you want me to do your makeup then I need you to stay still!"

"I'm sorry! It tickles!"

As he continues to laugh. He held it in but the minute you gave him a fake glare he started to burst out again.

"CHRISTOPHER! I'll make you a clown rather than a really cool skeleton"

Stressed out from this man-child because you still needed to change into your costume.

"Okay, okay! I'll stop"

You went in again to do his makeup, after about an hour or so later, you gave him a mirror to take a look at himself.

"Woah! this looks so sick, I wanna show the guys!"

He ran out of your room, you yelled out

"Oh wow! you're welcome!"

Chuckling to yourself you started to clean up. He came back to quickly kiss you on the cheek and thank you before he race back down. You hear him yell

"Yo! Look what Y/N did to my face!"

As you put on your black long sleeve, someone's footsteps stops right you as you were looking at yourself in the mirror. His arms snake behind your waist. Joel smiled.

"I like what you did to Chris's face."

You turned around and smiled. Hands are his chest,

"And what about mine?"

"It's eh, you could've done better"

Barely saying that with a straight face. You playfully rolled your eyes as you tried to get out of his grip but failed.

"Did you want me to do your makeup? I have a bit of time before Richard and I have to go."

"Nah it's okay. I have mine already."

You went to grab your phone off your desk,

"Yeah? What are you being?"

"We're going as the Scooby Doo gang. Christian is Fred, Johann is Scooby, Samantha is Daphne and Emilia's Velma."

You stopped when you heard her name. But you had no right to be jealous.. Right? You and Joel weren't in a relationship just yet but you did have a mutal understanding of your guy's feelings. Both of you have never been in a true relationship which is why you decided to take things slow. Whatever fuse that happened in the past was in the past. But who's to say history can't repeat itself, correct? You didn't want to stop him because you know it was just a night out with "friends" but you just couldn't help but be scared. Scared that you'll lose the one you let in. Scared that you'll lose him and find out you were just to fill his void. Scared that he'll say to you that the feelings for you are gone. How can that be? You blocked any tears from ruining your awesome halloween makeup. You zipped your bag and started making your way to the door. Joel stopped you by grabbing your arm.

"Hey.. I thought you said you had a bit of free time before Rich gets back? I thought we could stay here and-"

"Yeah sorry. Yoce texted me. Rich needs help with Aaliyah's costume so.."

He nodded his head ever so slightly. He's spirit lifted a little,

"Okay.. What about after? We're going to the club after and I'd love to-"

"I can't, Joel. Sorry. I promised Aaliyah I'd spend the night with her and-"

"But I thought Rich said he had her for whole weekend."

As his spirit dies down a little more now. You nodded,

"Yeah but I haven't seen Aaliyah in so long. I couldn't do our tradition last year so I made her a promise I can't let down. I'm sorry I have to go."

You hugged him but right when he was about to kiss you on the cheek like he always does. You sped out of your room. You went into the living room where the boys were so you can bid there goodbyes.

"Okay, I'm heading out now. Zab, Erick. Do not eat all the candy before the little children get here."

Chris chuckled while the boys nodded their heads with their eyes fixed on the TV. Chris said

"Imma leaving later so I'll make sure they give it. Well 50% if it at least"

You shook your head while you scoffed. Erick paused the game and asked

"Is Joel going with you?"

Chris saw how your expression changed. Zabdiel looked at you and pieced it in his head before he tried to get up but you stopped him because you know what would happen. Chris asked

"Estas bien?"

You nodded your head quickly but it was shake whatever tears tried to escape your eyes. Zabdiel said

"Y/N.. They're-"

"Just friends. Yeah got it."

Your phone rang, saved by the bell. How convenient. You answered

"Hello?"

"Ayo Y/N I'm here."

"Okay"

You hung up and hugged each boy goodbye. Chris kissed the top of your head like a brother bidding goodbye to his sister. He whispered

"They are."

You left the house as you see a little wonder woman running up to you,

"Tia! Tia! Look! Mama dressed me as wonder woman"

Twirling around you smilied. How this little bundle of joy just managed to take away even the slightest bit of sadness.

"I see that baby. Let's go get you some candy!"

Richard knew from the moment you stepped out of the house that something was wrong. He hugged you and said

"We'll talk about it while Yash helps Aaliyah with the stash."

You smiled as you and the Camachos begin you adventure.

··

A/N: I was originally suppose to post this last night but Tumblr crashed and half of my work was deleted so yay 🙃

[newmxmories]

Thank you.

A/N: Thanks to mama Patricia for the picture and idea for this imagine!😊

Plot: You and abuela share a sweet moment. She reminded you of your grandma who passed away years ago. You missed her a lot and your moment with abuela reminded her of the good old days. This moment was one you and Joel cherish forever.

•• Shall we? ••

You and Joel were cuddled up on his bed as he was sound asleep. You on the other hand, sleep just wasn't your best friend at this moment. You thought about the remaining days you had with your boyfriend before he goes back on tour. It wasn't something you wanted to think about, but it was like a ticking time bomb in your head. Joel's soft snores signaled you that he was knocked out for sure. You place a kiss on his forehead before escaping out of his room. You grabbed your phone and made your way to the kitchen. You poured yourself a glass of water. You sat on the couch in their living room. Just thinking about you and Joel. You were very deep into your thoughts until a voice came beside you.

"Mija? Estas bien?"

You turn to meet eyes with Joel's abuela. A soft smile escaped your lips with a soft nod. But you should've known no one can fool abuela. She sat beside you and put one hand on your thigh.

"Y/N. You know better to lie to me. Qué pasa?"

Tears slowly started to glaze your eyes. You rested your head on her shoulder.

"I was thinking of how many days left I have with him before he goes back. And I know I'm being overdramatic because it's not like he's going to war. But he's gone for so long and is here for such a short time."

"Shhh.. Y/N.. it's okay. It's okay to feel that way. You love him and I see the way he loves you. Ever since he brought you home for the first time I knew you were going to be his last. It's okay to have that feeling. It's young love. But you know he always comes back to you. Because at the end of the day, the love you two have is always stronger."

You felt her place a kiss on your temple. You stayed there in silence for a bit because you wanted to cherish this moment. It reminded you of the times you and your grandma would have little moments like this. Abuela then said,

"Go back to sleep. You still see him when you wake up anyways. Sweet dreams, mija"

"Goodnight abuela. Thank you"

She smiled a placed one last kiss on your forehead before she disappeared back into her room. You grabbed your phone from the kitchen before making your way back to Joel's room. You open the door as quietly as you can. You see Joel switch positions but he was still asleep. You looked at your phone as it flashes "12:45PM" You placed it by his drawers and crawled into his embrace. He place a soft, sweet kiss upon your lips. With a smile but eyes are still close.

“Hey I thought you were sleeping!"

"I was, until I felt emptiness beside me. So I got up to check where you were."

Taking in what he said your eyes popped while he had a smirk on his face,

"Okay. How much did you hear?"

"Not much. But abuela is right. Our love will always be stronger in the end."

You smiled and cuddled into him as close as possible.

"Go to sleep nosy head."

"I was asleep someone else wasn't because she was crushing all over me."

Both of you let out a chuckled and you smacked his chest lightly.

"Okay okay I'm sleeping now. I love you."

"I love you, Y/N. Forever and ever and ever and-"

"Joel! Can we please sleep?"

"Okay okay. Gezz someone's grumpy when she's tired."

"Goodnight!"

One last kiss before you both feel into deep slumber.

[newmxmories]

They danced salsa....yo morí. I LOVED IT, OMG. THE CHOREOGRAPHY WAS AMAZING !! 🔥🔥 Christopher's part with that girl...dancing...I just- ME ENCANTÓ, DAMN IT.

[newmxmories]

Baby, it was a prank!

A/N: It's been a while! Hope everyone's doing well, wanted to squeeze a quick one before disappearing once again.

·· Shall we ? ··

Everyone was on break, you were on break from school and Zabdiel was on a short break from tour. As much as you missed Zabdiel, you missed goofing around with him. You were bonding with Richard having lunch because you also missed that crazy redhead. While you were out to lunch, you said

"Rich, I want to prank Zabdiel, but I don't know what to do!"

Richard gave you a devious smile,

"Ou! I know it's an old prank, but why not the lyric prank? He wouldn't know what's going on. OU! what about the breakup prank?"

Everything between you and Zabdiel were fine, great even. So great that the thought of breaking up was absolutely nowhere upon your heads. The breakup prank would be perfect. Richard asked,

"Does he know you're with me?"

You nodded your head.

"I'll pretend like you rushed home, I'll say you saw something on your phone. But don't answer if he tries to call."

You nodded your head excitedly, you felt really bad but you love playing with your soft teddy bear, it loosens him up and helps you find a little humour. Richard dials and Zabdiel answers,

"Hey bro, is Y/N there?

"No.. she was supposed to be with you!" Worry starting to fill Zabdiel's voice

"She was! but she saw something and rushed out. She told me she've had enough of what she saw. Bro. She's mad."

"Okay okay. I'll try getting in touch with her. Let me know if she calls you."

"Okay."

That was the end of their call. Both of you giggling endlessly.

"Aw my baby! I feel bad!"

Richard sat back giving a look,

"Really? do you?"

You looked at him seriously for .2 seconds before letting out another fit of laughter. Next thing you know your phone lights up, a picture of you and Zabdiel pops up with his name. You let it go. Again, again, and again. You see a notification that Zabdiel texted you. Repeatedly. Opening your conservation you read his texts

You showed Richard,

"Okay what do I do now?! oh my!"

Richard said,

"okay just tell him you'll be home soon. I'll drop you"

[At your apartment]

The moment he heard keys jingling he rushed towards the door. You opened it to see a very worried Zabdiel standing in front you. You borrowed a Gopro from Richard and clipped in onto your bag and put your jacket on-top so he wouldn't see.

He instantly hugged you so tight you couldn't even breathe.

"Zabdiel. Get off me."

Putting your bag on the table and sitting on the couch with your hands covering your face. He came beside you but was scared to touch you as if you were as fragile as a China glass. He asked you,

"Baby.. What's wrong? talk to me please.."

"I want to breakup. I'm done with you and everything."

Hearing that was like stabbing his heart and giving it to him on a silver platter. He sat back,

"Wait what? what do you mean?"

"I saw the pictures Zabdiel, you thought I wouldn't see it?"

"What pictures?! Y/N I'm so confused! There are no pictures! They're fake"

"No Zabdiel I'm done. I want you out by the morning."

Still covering your face to hold in your laughter. Until something got you caught off guard.

"No."

You stood up and looked at him like what the fck

“No? what the hell you mean no?!"

Zabdiel looked at you,

"No. I'm not leaving because I love you and you love me. And I'm not going anywhere because whatever you saw was 99% no! 100% fake because ever since I met you my eyes never set on another girl again. I love how you support me from countries away or two feet away. I love when we sleep I feel your warmth because I know I’m at home. And when you’re really tired you let out soft snores when we nap and I love it. I’m not leaving you porque tú eres mi vida y mi amor"

Your heart just stopped and just melted. You went to your bag and took off the camera,

"OH MY GOD! ZABDIEL! BABY IT WAS A PRANK!"

His eyes popped while you were smiling but eyes filled with guilt. He asked

"Who's camera's that?!"

"Richards.."

"He was in it?!?"

You wrapped one arm around his neck and the other stuck out holding out the camera.

"I'm sorry baby! I wanted to prank you because I miss goofing around you. You know I'd never dare to break up with you."

You planted a kiss on his lips as a sorry. He took the camera out of your hand and placed it down on the coffee table. His lips still connected to yours but he was lying on the couch now.

"Don't prank me like that"

"I'm sorry baby! it was funny though!"

He pouted so you gave him a big hug and snuggled into him.

"I'm promise not to do again!"

"You scared me.."

"Awww baby!"

"It's not funny!"

You laughed one last time before snuggling into him again for movie night to begin. This is what your truly missed though. Not the pranks, just being with your love of your life, in his arms and lips right there whenever you wanted to plant a sweet one on him. This is what paradise is. And you were thankful.

[newmxmories]

I do(n't know)

A/N: If you haven't read part one, Say it, please. Link's here!

·· Shall we ? ··

Richard's POV:

“I love you, Richard Camacho. But I guess we both know your answer. Goodbye.”

And she left. Gone like the wind. It's been three weeks and that night has been on a constant loop in my head. It's just a living nightmare at this point. I didn't know this is how she felt. The night she said the words that I couldn't. Just prove how much stronger she was than me. She still is. I called and called and no answer. I texted and she'll just read it. Go to her place, never there or just never answered. I went back again. This time her neighbour saw me,

"Sweetheart, are you looking for Y/N?"

I looked over at her sweet old neighbour,

"Yeah, is she here?"

"No. She hasn't been home in weeks. The last I saw her was when she was leaving to catch her plane."

Plane? she left? My heart just shattered, I didn't even realize my body fell to the ground. Her neighbour came beside me and sat with me on the stairs.

"What happened to you two? I don't see you as often anymore and she was in such a rush when she left."

"She told me she loved me."

She stops rubbing my back and pauses.

"She finally said it? And what did you say?"

"Nothing."

A deep sigh comes from her neighbour.

"Oh sweetie. Y/N has been telling me how much she loved you and how she planned on telling you."

"She did?"

"Yeah. She told me one night when she came over for dinner. 'Mrs. Vasquez, I think I'm going to say it. But I don't know how to.'" Then I told her 'Hunny, you let the words take over and just go with it."

I chuckled. Remembering the night she told me. We were at her apartment and her roommate Y/B/F was out of town to visit her family. We were watching a movie and she was eating the snacks on the table. A funny scene happened and we laughed. She stopped and just said it. I love you. She froze and started flaming her arms out and said,

"oh my god! oh my god! I didn't mean to say it like that. Forget I said that, no wait! actually! No I do mean it, I love you."

And I just stopped. I grabbed my things and told her I had to go. God, I'm an idiot. Mrs. Vasquez continued talking,

"If you don't mind me asking, why didn't you say it?"

"I don't know. I really don't."

"Do you love her?"

"Yes!"

"So why didn't you do it?"

"I don't know!"

"Maybe because you haven't found your words yet. Richard. If you truly love her, you don't think so much on how you say it. You let words tale over-"

"And just go with it." I finish her saying. She nodded her head.

"Just go with it."

We sat in silence for a few minutes. Then my phone rang, an unknown number appears, I slide to answer and I answered

"Hello? Who is this?"

"Hi, Mr. Camacho. Do you know a Y/N Y/L/N? she has listed you as her emergency contact."

I jolted up.

"Yes I do. Where is she?! what's going on?!"

"You may want to come the St. Andrews Hospital."

"I'm on my way."

I zoomed out the door. I can't. I can't lose the love of my life. Not when I'm about to say it. Not now.

· Stay tuned for Part 3 ·