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Everything we Haven't Said Pt 2

Honestly now this is a three parter I guess? I know it took a while, but I can't stop writing about them. Also, oops it's 7k

Summary: An romantic evening with boyfriend Kaiden Guhle doesn't go as planned when your roommate Arber Xhekaj accidentally sees you naked and you have an interesting sex dream.

Word count: 7k (sorry not sorry)

CW: voyeurism I guess. threesome. Light jealousy, sort of infidelity but not really

Pairing: Female reader/Kaiden Guhle/Arber Xhekaj

Kaiden wakes you up when he's getting ready for his run. Usually you sleep through it, but sometimes he moves around too much and closes drawers too loudly. "Sorry" he whispers when he sees you rubbing your eyes and rolling over. He comes over and kisses your forehead. "I'm heading out now, see you later, yeah?" You nod sleepily. "Yeah, I have an afternoon class but I'm home tonight." "Perfect" he replies. "We'll have a romantic dinner of leftovers" you say. "Yeah if Arber hasn't eaten all of them" he jokes and rolls his eyes. Arber eats enough for six men, but his mom usually keeps him in a steady supply when she's in town, and it's not like Kaiden eats like a bird either. It's not really an issue, you both just give him a hard time.

You try to fall back asleep but your body has decided it's morning. You throw off the covers and open the curtain, letting the light stream in the room.

The condo you and Kaiden are renting isn't anything extravagant, but it's definitely nicer than anything you'd be able to afford without your boyfriend's NHL paycheque, even if he let you contribute (which he doesn't). The windows in every room are huge, and you're right downtown. A couple other young players on the team have condos in the same building and the surrounding ones so it feels like a little community. Everyone in the building is really nice and respectful, never bothering you and Kaiden or you too much.

You look at the skyline of Montreal and think about how lucky you are. Regardless of what's going on with you and Kaiden, your life is pretty great.

You go to collect your clothes off the ground and realize something is missing - your bra. It's definitely somewhere in the main room, even if you don't remember him taking it off, and your stomach rolls thinking about it. Did Arber see it last night when he came in? He might not have even turned on the light.

You and Kaiden aren't usually so sloppy. You also tend to keep the naughty stuff to the bedroom since you share the main area, last night was a bit out of the box for you. You feel your core pulse just thinking about how hot that was. Losing it all over the island in the kitchen. You're going to have to bleach it this afternoon. You blush thinking about it.

It's 6:30 in the morning, Arber isn't usually awake this early. Neither are you, normally. You figure you can just quickly pop into the kitchen and grab your bra. It's your purple lace balconette bra that makes your boobs look fantastic. Kaiden looks at you like he wants to devour you when he discovers that you're wearing it. He's been known to leave dinners early, asking for the bill as soon as the mains are down on the table because he saw a hint of the strap under your dress.

You sigh. This used to be so much less complicated. Last night was a good sign, but you know that you can't rely on sex to make your relationship better. You need to talk this one out.

How do you even start this conversation? Even admitting things weren't the same was a hard conversation. You both felt awful about it and and it's been sort of looming over the two of you lately.

You shake off your thoughts, not really wanting to deal with them right now and open your bedroom door to the main living area.

Soft morning light fills the kitchen and living room. As a night owl, you aren't often up for sunrise, but you always enjoy it when you get a chance. Pink, orange, and yellow streak across the sky, the buildings beginning to light up. Mount Royal is ever present, and you love all the older buildings peeking out through the high rises. Spires and domes from ancient churches and preserved buildings.

You didn't bother to put on pants, but now standing out there in the open room in an oversized t-shirt of Kaiden's and a pair of panties, you feel a bit exposed. You scan the room and walk a loop around the kitchen island. Nothing. You start to panic. It has to be out here somewhere, unless Kaiden took it, or Arber...

You picture Arber coming home and finding your bra, and what? It's just a bra. It's not like he's never seen one before. What do you think he'd do with it? Take it into his room to jerk off? You blush, but shake your head again. It's just a silly crush and you're obviously worked up about other things.

Your eyes are still scanning the room and then you see it, folded over the back of the couch. You try to remember when Kaiden took it off you last night but it's all a blur, and Kaiden isn't really known for being too tidy. He's a very "throw caution to the wind" guy when it comes to laundry, and in the heat of the moment he's tossed clothes under the dresser or in the back of a closet. Once he even threw a shirt on a lamp and it almost caught fire.

You stare at the folded bra, knowing that Arber must have seen it and put it there. You wonder what he thought about it. Did he roll his eyes? Did he think it was gross that you guys fooled around in the living room? Was he jealous?

You jump as you hear the door behind you open. The door to Arber's room. You lunge for the bra and Arber's eyes open wide in shock at seeing you there and then you see his gaze change as he takes in what you are wearing. You blush as you grab the bra and hide it behind your back like a kid caught stealing a cookie.

You take in Arber. He's most likely just on his way to the bathroom. Yours and Kaiden's room has an en-suite, but the main bathroom off the living room is the one Arber uses.

He looks soft and rumpled. He's in his boxers and you have no idea where to look. His strong, toned chest is incredibly sculpted. You've seen him shirtless before, but something about seeing him first thing in the morning feels oddly private. Intimate. His hair is all over the place and he's got patches of five o'clock shadow on his face from not shaving yet. You want to reach out and touch it. It would feel so good rubbing against your face and neck. Or between your legs. You try to suppress a shiver and glance away, definitely avoiding looking at anything below his waist.

Your nipples are hard underneath your shirt and you can see them protruding through the fabric. You start to feel embarrassed and horny and very overwhelmed. You want to run back in your room and hide under the blankets and scream. You want to grab Arber and straddle him on the couch. You want Kaiden to walk in and watch. Your face heats up at that and you almost have to cross your legs with how much that turns you on.

The silence has gone on for far too long. Arber is looking at you sort of quizzically. He still looks sleepy (which is adorable), but he also knows you have the bra behind your back and the corner of his mouth looks like it's fighting a smile.

You close your eyes, take a deep breath and collect yourself.

"Morning" you say lightly and maybe slightly higher pitched than your regular voice. "You saw nothing" you say, waving your bra-free hand in front of him like you're wiping his memory. "You will go to the bathroom and back to your room and then you will forget this happened and never speak of it again" you continue waving your hand like a weirdo.

He cracks a full smile at this and says "okay weird girl." You're caught off guard by his smile and you're also walking backwards and you run into the corner of the couch. You flail, trying to catch yourself. but you're definitely not recovering from this, so you try to limit the embarrassment factor and brace for impact, but Arber shoots across the room and catches you before you hit the floor.

Suddenly he's got one hand spanning a disturbingly large part of your upper back, and the other is on the back of your thigh. Your naked thigh. Dangerously close to your ass. You feel his fingers flex and you take in a sharp breath.

His eyes are wide as you lower the leg he's basically holding up, and he lets go, raising his arms up in a surrender motion.

"Sorry" you both say at the same time and laugh it off a bit. Arber clears his throat "are you okay" he asks, genuinely looking concerned, but also turning around to give you space (but probably more to adjust himself in his boxers. It is the morning after all, and you are half clothed. And if he's feeling half of the sexual tension you are, he's definitely at least half hard. But you're trying not to think about that). "Other than my pride, I'm fine" you say, completely over trying to hide the bra behind your back and just leaning into the awkwardness of the moment.

You feel the adrenaline rush leaving your body and you finally catch your breath. "I'm gonna" you say and you point behind yourself even though he's still turned around and you make a beeline for your room, narrowly missing an end table and you know he's laughing again.

Inside your room you take some deep breaths and tell yourself you won't overthink the encounter outside. For sure you can just brush it off. You also try not to think about how his hand flexed around the back of your thigh. You're less successful than you want to be.

You go into your ensuite and splash cold water on your face and try to bring down your heart rate.

You hop in the shower and decide to do a full hair wash and mask to kill time and avoid going back out there and seeing Arber again. You also maybe have a bit of fun with the shower head, but that has nothing to do with Arber whatsoever, you tell yourself. It's always been a favourite way of getting off without a partner and you don't think about his scruffy beard rubbing between your thighs as you climax. Absolutely not one bit.

You do feel better after the shower. Relaxed. Less tightly wound. You go about your day, go to your class, and decide to pick up a nice bottle of wine on the way home. You'll plate up the leftovers from last night all fancy and have a nice dinner and maybe work up the nerve to have an adult conversation about the relationship. You can do this. You love each other and have put a lot of work into this relationship. You're both in it for the long haul. You know this in your heart.

When you get home the condo is completely quiet. The boys are at practice so you toss your bag in the corner, fix up a snack and settle on the couch. You read a textbook for a bit, highlighting important passages for your notes later and eventually turn on the tv.

As the sun sets you start cleaning up and setting up for dinner. The boys should be home soon, so you shoot Arber a text saying that you're hoping to have dinner tonight with Kaiden and he agrees to make other plans.

You set the table, take out some candles and nice wine glasses you got from his parents. You head to your room to get dressed and put on the purple bra. Smiling at the fun you know you're going to have later. The bra is a sure bet. It's your reward for having the tough conversation.

You heat up the food and light the candles when you expect Kaiden will be on his way home. You put on a romantic playlist, pour the wine and adjust your cleavage in the mirror. You smile at your reflection. Everything is going to be fine.

Hours later and you're still at the table, candles burned low and the food has gone cold. You've called and texted Kaiden a bunch of times and you're starting to worry. You've even texted Arber, asking if he's with Kaiden, but neither of them has seen the messages.

You've barely eaten your own food, but you've made your way through most of the bottle of wine. You've been trying not to cry, but you can feel the tears building up.

You try calling Kaiden again. You know his phone is probably just dead, he's not very good about keeping a charge, but when you get the voicemail you throw your phone down on the table. It accidentally hits your fork and tosses some food on the floor. "Shit" you say, bending over to pick it up. As you do this, you manage to knock over your glass of red wine. You catch it before it hits the floor, but not before it spills on your shirt, and you watch the red blotch grow on your shirt. "Fuck" you cry out, and the tears start coming.

You crumple to the ground, unable to stop it. All your feelings come to the surface. Your worry for Kaiden and why he isn't answering your phone calls, your anxiety over your relationship. Sadness, anger, guilt, it's all there. You just let yourself cry for a bit, knowing you just need to let it out.

Finally, after who knows how long, you pick yourself up and clean up the mess. You don't want to ruin your shirt, so you take it off and head to the sink. Hopefully dish soap will help.

You're scrubbing your shirt as you hear the door open. You reel around to see Arber come in. He drops his hockey bag in the corner, takes off his coat and turns around and sees you, eyes widening.

You're frozen in place. Obviously hoping it was Kaiden, but you aren't sure you're disappointed. You're not ready to deal with that yet.

You panic in the moment and drop the wet shirt in the sink and cover your breasts with your hands like he's caught you naked. His face breaks out into a huge smile and you're caught off guard by it. You've never noticed how his eyes light up when he smiles and little crinkles form on the sides. It's very endearing, given the roughness of the rest of his general appearance.

"i've seen a woman in a bra before" he says, smirking at you. "I've even seen that bra before" he winks, finally bringing his eyes up to meet your face. Your makeup must be all over your face from crying as his smile drops and he moves towards you. "Hey, are you okay? What's happened? Wait, where's Guhles? Didn't you guys have dinner tonight? He asks.

Finally you look up at him, trying to smile. "He didn't show up" you say, your voice catching again. "I've called and texted, but his phone must be dead."

"Shit" he says and pulls out his phone. "Marty got tired of phones going off in meetings so he made us all put our phones on airplane mode, he must have forgotten to turn it back on. Just like I did" he laughs as he flicks through his phone. "Hey, there's a text from you!" he smiles. His eyes are so dark, like molasses. So different from Kaiden's ocean blue eyes. He closes the space between the two of you and wraps you in his arms. He smells incredible. Like coffee and cinnamon with a hint of wood smoke.

"I know a bunch of guys went out after, but I assumed he came here. Slaf and I went out for dinner, but we left the rink right away" he says, looking down at you with the most earnest expression. "I'm sure it's all a misunderstanding and that he'll show up soon" he says, reassuringly. His hands are still on your back, however.

"I should probably put a shirt on" you say, not really wanting to leave his embrace. Reluctantly, you turn to walk away and he calls out after you, heading to his room as well "I'm just gonna change out of this suit and then let's get some food into you and watch a movie, yeah?" You smile at the bit of normalcy.

You come out and he's put on sweats and an old Kitchener Rangers shirt that's worn and soft and looks so cozy. You've got an old hoodie from high school and leggings. He's thrown on a Marvel movie knowing you wouldn't want to make any decisions and moved the food to the coffee table by the couch.

You're suddenly starving and dive into the leftovers. Halfway through the movie the exhaustion starts to hit. You're sitting up on the couch with your feet on the floor, not your normal feet in Arber's lap position since you've been eating. You go to move to your place, but Arber just opens his arms up, so you tuck in underneath, and his shirt is so soft, and he smells so good, and it feels like you fall asleep immediately. You have no recollection of any plot.

You dream of falling asleep in Arber's arms. He's built bigger than Kaiden. You know they both put in a lot of work at the gym, but Kaiden's always had to work hard to get the muscle on, and you feel like Arber's strength comes a bit easier. He's naturally bulkier. You roll over in bed and Kaiden is there. He smiles at you, blue eyes shining. You kiss him and he pulls you into him. Behind you, you can feel Arber breathing on the back of your neck. His hand comes up to your waist, then dips down. Your breath catches in Kaiden's mouth. "Like that, baby?" Arber asks in a dark and gravelly voice. Kaiden answers "she loves it" and you moan.

Arbers hand slowly makes its way down between your thighs and you open your legs for him. Kaiden pins one down with his heavily muscled leg and you groan again. Arbers fingers stroke slowly over your clit and you have to break from Kaiden, but he holds your head facing his. "Show me, baby, show me how much you like this" and you close your eyes, overwhelmed.

"So good" you managed to say. "Mmmm" Kaiden humms, stroking your face and looking down where Arbers finger is now entering you. You swallow hard. "Tell me how it feels, sweetheart" and you open your eyes wide, looking right into his. Heat flicks in his calm, blue eyes and he looks at you like he can feel your pleasure. "It feels s...so good" you stutter, as Arber's large digit finds a quick rhythm inside you.

He's rough, but not too rough. He's not quite hitting the spot that you like, and you love it. Kaiden can read you like a map, but half the fun of a new partner is the journey together. This is what you've been missing, and you stare into Kaiden's eyes, feeling suddenly more connected to him.

"He feels different" you say, collecting yourself, knowing that this is what Kaiden wants as well. "His finger is definitely bigger" you blush, and Kaiden cups your face and kisses you deeply.

The two of you are locked in a heated kiss, and you can't imagine anything being better than this. Arber's mouth finds the side of your neck and you moan deeply. He moves his mouth up to your ear and whispers "you ready for another?"

You realize you don't feel Kaiden's hand on your face anymore, and you break the kiss to find he's cupped the back of Arber's neck. You inhale sharply, and both boys are looking at you.

You feel treasured, celebrated. You don't feel any competition or jealousy. You feel like they both want to come together to make you feel good.

"Yes" you say, turning your head to capture Arber's mouth, Kaiden still holding Arber's face. You can't tell whose moans are whose as Arber puts a second finger inside you. You grind into them, and you feel him react. He deepens the kiss, Kaiden’s hand moves from Arber’s neck down to cup your breast and his long fingers tease your nipples. You bask in the glow that is the two men you cherish the most, making you feel so good.

Things start to get a bit hazy at this point, and there's shouting, which doesn't really fit the moment. You feel drunk and remember you drank half a bottle of wine, and that you're not in fact in bed with Kaiden and Arber, you're on the couch, and they're standing over you, looking down confused and wary.

You realize it was a dream, and you know that you talk in your sleep, so if you were dreaming of...and Arber was on the couch with you and Kaiden came home....

You go to stand up, but you're still a bit wobbly and both of the guys reach out to steady you, but Arber steps back after a quick glare from Kaiden. You blink and shake your head, trying to come back to reality, but you feel like you've had six different days in one. Weird morning with Arber, rest of your normal day, getting ready for dinner, Kaiden not showing up, awkward evening with Arber, falling asleep, the dream, you almost can't keep up.

"What's happening babe?" Kaiden asks, looking a bit worried, but also a bit guarded, like he's afraid to ask. "Where have you been?" you ask, your tone somewhere between concerned and angry. Kaiden closes his eyes and rolls back his head and you snap "don't get annoyed with me, I made this whole dinner for you and you never showed up and didn't answer your phone and I didn't know where you were" you start to get upset again and beg any deity who might be listening to stop you from crying, but a sob gets out.

"Hey, please don't cry baby, I'm sorry, Arber said he told you about the whole airplane mode thing, and I honestly didn't know we had dinner on tonight, did you tell me? I'm sorry if I forgot, I really didn't mean to" he says, moving his hand up and down your arm, trying to be comforting, but you can tell he's still holding back a bit. Kaiden is a full hug kinda guy and this guarded energy is throwing you off. You're tired and confused and honestly a bit worked up from your dream and Arber is just standing there looking weirdly angry and you can't figure out what's going on.

You sniffle, and try to work out what's going on. "I said we'd have leftovers this morning, but I guess I didn't say it was like a whole thing and that's on me, but you're acting weird and I want to know what's going on" you say, ready to lean into the whole adult conversation you expected to have tonight.

Arber senses the tone shift and goes to move, heading for his room but Kaiden whips around throwing an arm out "you're not going anywhere until you explain what happened here tonight" Kaiden says with authority and damn it if isn't the hottest thing you've seen. You know Arber could take him in a fight, but Arber's body language is completely passive. He backs away and hangs his head down.

He shuffles and coughs and says "I told you, nothing happened between us" he says, looking at Kaiden like he's trying to be annoyed but it isn't quite working. Kaiden can tell and starts to pull himself up to full height, puffing out his chest and says "bullshit. That's total bullshit Arbs. I come home to the two of you cuddling on the couch and you can't even pretend you didn't have a boner, that thing is like a fucking coke can" and Arber is taken aback and you know that your reaction isn't going to help but you can't help but burst into giggles.

"A coke can Kaiden? Really?" It's so funny to you and you cannot stop laughing. This whole night, the whole day really has been ridiculous and you feel like you've felt every emotion under the sun and you're suddenly exhausted and just want to go to bed.

Both guys are looking at you, Kaiden is furious and Arber honestly looks concerned for your safety. You take some deep breaths and try to stop laughing and catch your breath. "I'm sorry" you say, bent over in half, catching your breath "I can explain, I promise."

Kaiden's still glaring at Arber "I trust you babe, it's him I'm not sure about" he says, barely concealing the anger.

"Don't be jealous babe, it's not a good colour on you" you joke, and Kaiden almost growls and you quickly jump between them and put a hand on Kaiden's chest. "Nothing happened, I swear. He just found my bra last night, then he saw me half naked this morning, and there was the hand on the thigh thing, and then he hugged me without a top on when you didn't come home for dinner, but it was because I spilled the wine and then I fell asleep and had a sex dream and oh, also I kissed him once, but it was just cause he was cut" you say almost all in one breath and Arber puts his head in his hands and you can hear him say "not helpful" and Kaiden just stares at you, blinking.

"Start again please" he says, and you can tell he's trying to be calm, and fair, that was a lot of information all at once. "Ok, umm, so somebody" you raise your eyebrows at him "threw my bra across the room in the kitchen last night and I tried looking for it this morning, but couldn't find it, and came out into the kitchen looking for it and to my credit, it was 6:30 and I didn't think he'd be up, so I didn't put on pants" you say, trying to be calm and factual and resist the urge to crack jokes because as ridiculous as it is, you know it's also serious.

"I had to piss" Arber states, somewhat helpfully. "Yes, as this gentleman here put it ever so classily, he had to use the facilities" you state. "Ok Judge Judy, this isn't a trial" Kaiden says, but you can see he's no longer tensing his jaw and you are able to relax a bit.

"So he saw me in my t-shirt and panties. And I may have fallen, and he may have caught me, but it was totally innocent, I promise. Just awkward. And embarrassing." you say, naturally blushing at the memory, which kinda helps your case. "Very awkward. Not at all romantic no ulterior motives" Arber adds and Kaiden nods.

"Then when you didn't show up for dinner I sorta got drunk and threw my phone and spilled wine on my shirt and I was really upset and kinda drunk and crying and trying to wash the wine out of my shirt when Arber came home and he just wanted to make sure I was okay. I was kind of a mess" you admit. Kaiden softens visibly and puts his arms on either side of your torso, holding you, but still at arms length. "I'm sorry babe, I swear I didn't do it on purpose" he says gently and you step forward into him "I know, and you have to believe me, he was just trying to help me, like I said, I was a mess" and Kaiden chuckles and brings you into his chest "yes, I've seen you drunk" he quips. "Hey" you say, without any heat, and look up at him and he kisses the top of your forehead. You close your eyes and hope that this whole thing can just be over now.

"What about the kiss? Kaiden asks calmly, but you feel his muscles tense in his neck. You clutch him a bit tighter. "Don't be mad, it was nothing" you say, nuzzling into his chest, but he doesn't fall for it and gently pushes you away. "Tell me" he says. You nod and bite the top of your lip. "Last night, before you came home. He'd had that fight in the game and came home cut up. I looked after him the way I used to look after you" you say, brushing his face, concern etched all over it. "I guess I was doing it from muscle memory or something because I didn't even realize I kissed his hands until I pulled them away from my mouth" you say, earnestly looking up at him. He breathes out, relaxing again "so you just kissed his hands? That's it?" You are gearing up to tell him the rest, unsure how to explain that Arber kinda asked for it when you hear a voice behind you that says "no, that's not all of it" and you drop your head on Kaiden's chest, closing your eyes.

"So who's gonna tell me what happened?" Kaiden asks, his voice almost free of emotion. It's eerie how little he seems like any version of himself. He's not the sweet caring boyfriend, the big, physical hockey player, or the dominating sexual partner. It's like he's a caricature of himself without any defining features.

You want to say something like it was only a kiss on the cheek, but you don’t want to diminish his feelings, and you know deep down it isn’t about the kiss. It’s about the vibes and tension between you and Arber lately, and you know that isn’t nothing. “I had a cut on my face, so I asked her if she'd kiss it too" Arber says, running his hand through his hair then rubbing the back of his neck.

Kaiden moves you out of the way, the space between them is charged. "So you asked my girlfriend to kiss you" Kaiden states. "Kinda, I guess" says Arber, not backing down. "So what, you're going after my girl? Is that what this has come to? Is that why shit's been so weird?" Kaiden asks. You hold your breath, not sure if you're supposed to answer, but not sure what you would say if you had to.

Arber is a wall in front of Kaiden. Unmoving, just accepting what's coming "look, you can hit me if you want, but honestly, I don't know what's happening here. Yes, I asked her to kiss my face, I didn't mean to, it just happened. And yes, I saw her half naked this morning, and then shirtless this evening. And yes I had a fucking boner on the couch while she was moaning during her sex dream or whatever, I'm not denying it, but like, dude, that last one is beyond my control" he laughs harshly, knowing it's not funny.

Kaiden backs off and walks in a circle, hands on the back of his head. You're still frozen to the spot. You didn't expect Arber to say all of that, and you're slightly embarrassed about the moaning during the sex dream and just trying to process everything.

Kaiden turns around and walks towards you. You lock eyes. "Do you want to add anything? he asks, staring you down. "Umm no" you reply "he kinda said it all" you say "nothing really happened. We’re not hiding anything, but I’m guessing you’re not really mad about a face kiss, are you?” Kaiden shakes his head, his hair falling into his eyes. “I’m not stupid, I know there’s something between you two, but I thought you’d talk to me about it.”

He’s right, you know he’s right, but how do you start that conversation? “I wanted to, but I mean, your reaction to this isn’t quite a five star review, babe. It’s…complicated. I know you know how much I love you, but yeah, Arber and I have been spending more time together and, I guess I’ve had some feelings…but then last night you and I” you blush, cutting yourself off "and I just didn't get a chance."

You start to wonder if you've been reading Arber’s reaction all wrong and he wants nothing to do with you and now you've dragged him into this whole awkward situation and he's going to have to move out and maybe get traded cause Kaiden's stupid girlfriend couldn't control her crush and...

Kaiden steps forward, reaching out for you again. "I can see you spiralling. I trust you. And I'm sorry again for missing dinner" he says. "I know" you respond. He kisses your forehead again and Arber shuffles behind you. "Am I like, free to go here or what?" he asks.

You can feel Kaiden raise his head to look at Arber. He nods and you can feel Arber start to walk away. Just as you hear Arber open his door Kaiden asks "what were you dreaming about?" You hear Arber stop. "What?" You reply, panicking slightly. "On the couch when I came in and you were, umm, moaning a bunch, what were you dreaming about?" "Uhhh, sex?" You say coyly and Kaiden looks down at you. "Come on, you can tell me" he says, rubbing his arms up your back "what was I doing to you?" he asks, raising his eyebrows.

Kaiden tilts his head to look at you and you look up and Arber is standing in his doorway also listening.

You laugh and then take a deep breath. All in, right? "Ok, so I don't want to start this whole thing again, but it was you and me in bed, but uhhh, Arber was kinda there too, please don’t kill him" you trail off and brace for it all to start again.

Kaiden takes a deep breath. "So, what was happening?" he asks calmly. "You really want to know?" you ask and he replies immediately "yes, tell me" and he grips your arm tightly. "Are you mad?" you ask, making eye contact. "I'm not mad, I just, I don't know, it hurts to think that maybe you don't want me anymore?" he says, voice going up like a question and his eyes full of vulnerability.

"Baby" you say cupping his face and trying to send all the love to him through your eyes "that's not it at all. I love you so so much. I love us and our relationship and I feel like I don't want anything to change, but that's not how the world works. Things have changed so much since the NHL and we can't ignore that. We don't have the same time for each other and we're also growing up and changing. I don't want what we have between us to change. Or I do, but I want us to change together, does that make sense?” you say as you feel yourself babbling. You truly don't know how to explain all the feelings you have.

"Yeah, that makes sense" Kaiden says, leaning his face into your touch. "I don't want to lose you baby, and I feel like yeah, things have changed so much and I was worried. And Arber is my best friend and my teammate and like, that could get really awkward if I had to beat him up or something" he laughs.

You smile at Kaiden, but you can feel Arber’s dark eyes boring into you. It's impossible to read. You don't know the romantic relationship side of him, it may be entirely different than the roommate side that you have experienced so far.

"So are you going to tell me what we were doing in your dream that got you all worked up?" Kaiden asks, and as you look up at him you see his expression has changed and it feels like your entire body is flushed. Is it possible that he is into this too?

"Umm, well, we were in bed and" you look at Arber and he is holding on to the doorknob with white knuckles and standing stock still "you and I were kissing, and then Arber was behind me and he sort of put his hand right here" and you put Kaiden's hand on your hip "and then he..." and you trail off as your breathing picks up and you and Kaiden have locked eyes and you start moving his hand down your hip and in between your legs on top of your leggings, and god why is this so hot?. "Did he move his hand like this? he asks, cupping your sex, which feels red hot and you whine, your shoulders heaving with your breath "yes" you say on an outward punch of breath.

"And did you like that, baby?" he says, leaning into your ear, his breath softly tickling the shell and god, you could just melt into him. "Yes" you say again, softly. "I see" he says, holding his hand steady between your legs. "And then what" he asks, patiently, like he could do this all night, meanwhile you're three seconds away from jumping him. "He" you said, pausing to look at Arber. He is frozen in place, like a deer in the headlights, but make it horny. He looks like he wants to tear your clothes off, but also he is not moving. You have never seen another human stand so still in your life, except now that you look closer, you can see his chest and shoulders moving in deep inhales. He's into it too, you're positive.

"He put his finger inside me" you whisper, blushing at saying it out loud. A smirk unfolds on Kaiden's face "why don't you say it a little louder, I'm sure he'd like to know what he's been up to in your active little dream life, wouldn't you, buddy?"

Arber stops breathing and looks at you, panic and heat in his gaze. "Um" he says, stepping forward. "I don't really know what to say here." Kaiden turns around and takes in all of Arber, including the very obvious protrusion in his pants which you just noticed. "Well, my girl here had a dream with the two of us in bed, and I love her very much and want to give her whatever she wants, so are you in or are you out?"

"What the fuck dude, a minute ago you wanted to kill me for like, sitting on the couch with her, now you want me to fuck her?" Arber says, which you think is pretty reasonable. It has been a complete 180, but knowing Kaiden, you're not surprised. When he's in on something, he's all in, and he can make a decision pretty fast. You hold your breath, waiting for Kaiden's response.

"Well, that's when I thought that you'd been making moves on her, but if this is something she wants to explore, I'd rather it be with you than some random dude from a bar or something. I trust you. And I trust her. You can think about it if you want, I don't want to pressure you or make things weird" "YOU DON'T WANT TO MAKE THINGS WEIRD BUT YOU JUST ASKED ME TO HAVE SEX WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND" Arber shouts and part of you wants to laugh at the ridiculousness of this, but Kaiden is standing so close and now Arber is too and everything about this is just super hot and you can't really concentrate to be honest.

"Well" Kaiden says "technically it's just fingering so far" "FINGERING IS FUCKING, KAIDEN. IT’S A SEXUAL ACT" Arber yells again and you can't help it and you burst out laughing. Arber starts laughing as well, incredulously shaking his head and pacing in a circle and Kaiden says "am I the only one that's kinda turned on by all this? Like, I'm not joking, this sounds kinda hot."

"It is baby, it's just a bit ridiculous and we're all tired and confused and it's been a really long day." "Yeah, one in which my roommate has seen you almost naked twice and I have not seen you like, at all" Kaiden says pouting. "Whose fault is that now mr. I forgot to take my phone off airplane mode, and don't say Marty because you know he'd take his phone off airplane mode and text his wife right after a meeting" you say, accusingly. "Yeah, but his wife probably doesn't make plans for dinner with him and not tell him about them" he says, jokingly and you both burst into laughter.

Arber is still standing halfway between the two of you and his room. He clears his throat and interjects "so, what exactly is going on here?" You look at Kaiden and he nods "whatever you want babe, you're in charge here" "yeah, until we get into the bedroom, they you're the boss" you smirk and Arber coughs again and you tell him "he's super bossy in bed" and Arber rolls his eyes "I'm not surprised" he says with a laugh.

You take Kaiden's hand and focus him on you "I love you so much baby, and I wouldn't do this if I didn't think our relationship could handle it. Yes, recently I've been attracted to Arber, but that doesn't take away from what you and I have, I think it only adds to it. And if he's up for it, and you are, I'd like to invite him into our bedroom. We can talk about it all together, and you guys can talk. This only works with lots of communication, but I keep thinking about it and I really really want…both of you." You bite on your bottom lip and it feels like your hands are shaking from nerves. You didn't feel this nervous with Kaiden the first time, but this really feels like laying your feelings out bare.

Kaiden's eyes darken and he looks between you and Arber "I'm game if you are, buddy" and Arber swallows hard. "You don't have to say yes right now, you can think-" "I'm in" Arber interrupts. You bite your bottom lip again, looking up at him and he leans down to capture you in a kiss and you both moan deeply and you hear Kaiden say "fuuuuuuck" as Arber grabs the back of your neck and pulls you to him.

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