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08-03-2024, 8 PM

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I wish I can go back to the time that I am financially good

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“Behind every strong person lies a broken child who had to learn to stand up and take no shit.”

— lonerwolf

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“I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.”

— Unknown

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“Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You’re doing just fine.”

— Charlotte Eriksson

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Dear mama,

Alam ko pagod ka na. Pagod na din ako.

Sorry ma ha? Hindi ako yung anak na pinangarap niyo.

Sorry po kasi failure ako.

Ma, gustong gusto kong makabawi sa inyo.

Kaya kapag nagsusungit ka or nakakapagsalita nang masakit, imbes na magalit ako, hinahayaan ko nalang.

Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na deserve ko naman yun.

Ma sana wag ka mapagod mag hintay.

Darating ang araw makakabawi din ako ma.

Pangako yan ma.

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my parents are fighting again and it pains me

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“Forgive yourself for accepting less than you deserved - but don’t do it again.”

— Unknown

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no but you know what would be nice? experiencing the kind of happiness that doesn’t turn out to be a lesson that I have to mourn over for at least 3 months

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Anak, pinapangako ko na hindi mo mararanasan lahat nang pinagdaanan ko. Pinapangako ko, na pupunuin kita nang pagmamahal. Pinapangako ko, na ako ang magiging matalik mong kaibigan, na hindi mo pipiliin sa labas. Na kapag may problema ka, sakin ka tatakbo hindi sa iba. Anak, pangako, lagi akong nasa tabi mo. Ipaparanas ko sayo ang lambing, yakap at mga halik na hindi ko naranasan. Mahal na mahal kita. Kahit wala ka pa sa buhay ko sisiguraduhin ko na lalaki ka sa payapa at punong-puno nang pagmamahal na pamilya. Iloveyou anak.

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Pag nagka anak ako, I will pour out my love, care and acceptance . Yung klase nang pagmamahal na hindi niya hahanapin sa iba. Yung pag-aalaga na walang papantay. Yung acceptance na hindi niya kakailanganin ang validation nang iba.

I will make a home that my child would love to come home, rather than hate it. A home, not just a house.

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May we all find our value in the right place

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Being alone is not the most painful thing

But being with people that are presently around

But sees you invisible

Invisible when you did right

But visible when you do wrong

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Until when should I suffer like this

The rejection is very loud

The pain is trembling

I cannot carry the load anymore

I’m so tired

If death is rest

Then i’d like death more than life

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