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grief is such a funny thing because bobby sat there and lied about being sick so chim could live and now chim blames himself for being alive and athena resents chim for bobby’s choices. no one is wrong, no one is right, but they are all entitled to their own feelings and the way they choose to stand by each other or distance themselves. bobby wouldn’t have wanted this, but he’s not here. he doesn’t get a choice. he made his choice, which has the people he loved at odds. and that’s okay because they’re grieving.

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the way eddie could have easily texted buck he was going to the store or something but he left a dramatic note that he was going to the airport that man had such a flare for dramatics it’s not even funny

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what if your BOYFRIEND went and picked up your SON from the AIRPORT because you’re grieving and he YELLED AT YOU in the KITCHEN and he also brought his AUNT PEPPA

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I actually cannot believe the way we just won. Resentment and grief and bristling and two fucked up guys in a kitchen taking it out on each other. Ryan Guzman’s fast as fuck hands. Oliver Stark seething with rage. Closing the distance over and over. EROTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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not to be dramatic but buddie argument in the kitchen where they let their grief and hurt take over and blame themselves (while also questioning the other) as they let the love for their team who became found family take over their entire being might just be my favorite scene of this show my heart won’t stop racing i can’t breathe idk what i’m saying bobby come back

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IN. THE. KITCHEN.

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buck never forgetting the faces or names of people he’s helped on the job. bobby would be so proud im gonna violently throw up

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buck trying to feel closer to bobby through a confessional……… buck feeling like no one needs him anymore……… buck suffering without bobby and searching for something— anything— that leads to an answer from the person who was the closest thing to an actual father……. buck demanding bobby to come back………… my show is ON

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911 (2018–) 1.01: PILOT & 8.15: LAB RATS

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bobby isn’t dead because i said he’s not and i refuse to feed into reality when i know he’s alive bc he’s alive and i know that he’s alive because he’s living

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bobby didn't want to go, he wanted to stay with athena, athena was the reason he wasn't scraping by and surviving but living his life, athena was his joy his world his everything and he didn't want to leave her

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watching buck throw himself against the wall sobbing because the closest thing he’s ever had to a real dad died after telling him how much he loves him. one more person from buck’s life leaving him. i have a fucking headache what the fuck why would they do that

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someone has to call eddie and tell him bobby is dead. someone has to call him

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if i don’t post during 911 it’s not because i’m not invested it’s because i’m literally sobbing so bad i’m on the verge of throwing up

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if i had a nickel for every time buck felt like someone he loved left him i’d have at least a dollar at this point holy hell

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maddie on the other side of the line feeling helpless because that’s HER family too. kms actually

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This Buck/Ravi scene is actually so good. Damn. I love seeing them actually? interact with each other on a real and authentic basis? Wild what this show is capable of when they actually commit