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THREE CHAPTERS OUT! Have you read it yet? If not, FOLLOW THIS LINK for chapter one!

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              ❛  Uh, yeah. Cora Harper.  ❜  He’s not so sure as to whether that affirmation will get him in trouble sooner or later. The only way to find out is to let the matter rest now and find out if ( or when ) the time arrives –––––– and move with the push and pull of present conversation. He’s good at that, Liam reckons. Must be, if he can do it all whilst feeding the frogs in front of him. Their tongues provide an endless source of amusement to him even amidst his attempt to anticipate what next she’ll ask.

                 Turns out, mid-lash of an overeager tongue against the tip of his finger, it’s the exact sort of question he reckons anyone would expect in his shoes. At least Nienna seems at ease, which to him is a big step forward from where she seemed to be just a minute or so ago ( when caught off-guard by his reference to that distant past ).  ❛  Heh. BUDDY COP? I mean … I wasn’t a bad cop, but I didn’t just go easy on people out of pity or anything.  ❜  But if his lopsided grin and stilled hands suggest anything, it has to be that he was even less of a hard-ass than he was a ‘buddy cop’.

                 More interesting is the mention of certain rumours, though. A single eyebrow arches as such and before long, he finds himself turning away from the tank.  ❛  And where’d you hear these rumours, I wonder?  ❜

    “---Right,” is her initial response. Tone completely devoid of... Well, much of anything, really. It’s sure something to process, after all. It’s not that she wants to lie, not at all. She’s never been big on lies - just... Dodging questions, redirecting the conversation, avoiding certain topics like the plague. Here, she’s going to have to be careful if she wants to do it, though. Because now, Kosta has his own way of fact checking. Someone who actually knew her, however briefly, before all this began. She thought she’d never meet another person alive who knew her as she used to be and now, she isn’t sure what to do with that information. So...

        Speaking the truth and nothing but the truth, but... In small doses?

        Nienna huffs out something of a chuckle. She’s not entirely sure at which point her arms have folded or even if it’s a defensive move (and if so, to which direction) but she attempts to relax a bit. Tension leaving her shoulders, if nothing else, as her eyes trail off to the side. Fixate on a locker of her’s in the corner - where her old N7 armor still lay in wait. “Oh, well - I have... Friends.” That’s vague, isn’t it? Terribly, yes. Uh. Maybe she owes Liam a little more than that. She raises a hand to rub her forehead; clears her throat. “I, uh - I don’t know if I ever told you this, but I was among the first to, you know... Wake up here. In the future. With things going haywire, they, uh, temporarily assigned me to help de-freeze people. I had access to some files, I saw something about the human Pathfinder and his chosen team and... I took a peak. Into the files. That I wasn’t even supposed to. So.” She shrugs, attempts a nonchalant little laugh.

    “Uh. Rumors, snooping - who’s counting, right?”

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WHEN YOU REALLY WANT TO RP WITH SOMEONE BUT UR AFRAID THEY THINK UR ANNOYING SO U STAY IN THE SHADOWS WITH A BROKEN HEART GOD DAMMIT

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Winter is coming

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I get a little warm in my heart when I think of winter

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            During the mid-conversation lull, Liam decides to take off his jacket and drape it over the nearest object that isn’t ( visibly ) occupied by reptiles or their terraria. Now that he’s got a little more freedom to move around as he pleases without that bothersome shoulder-piece poking him in the chin. It’s also a good way for him to put off answering too brashly and sabotaging the whole conversation after barely having started it.

            Liam slowly nods in recognition of her explanation. So she’s experienced both her father’s and mother’s line of work, apparently developing a preference for the latter –––– whilst he’s growing an equal sort of fondness of this part of her work, too. Can’t be too surprising, given the animals’ response to the crickets he holds out before them.  ❛  Makes sense — especially if you get to do this every day.  ❜

            A beat later, he’s reduced to a chuckle.  ❛  That’s a lot of questions, but I guess you’re right to ask them. I heard about this from the Pathfinder’s second; I literally don’t know any details about your time with the N7 and why you left; and, sure … ask away. I’ve got nothing to hide.  ❜

    “Oh----” Wait. Pathfinder’s second? Alec’s second? “---Harper?” Well, now that she thinks about it - it makes sense. Though Alec may be long dead, his second was still guiding his children through the wonders of this new galaxy. Right. “Shoulda seen that coming. I only ever met her once, though - didn’t think I made much of an impression.” The line of thought had her hum out loud. Purse her lips for a moment. Now, was he going to ask about her time in the N7? That remained to be seen. Not that she’d likely mind much, really. Not when it was him; anyone else, sure, but not him.

    “Alright, Kosta,” she spoke, then. Her arms may have folded but her posture remained otherwise casual. Secretive as she was about her past (mostly due to the fact that almost every single time an official found out about it, they tried to drag her back into the field) she didn’t want to appear as closed off to Liam. That puppy of a person had gotten around and over her shields good, it seemed. Besides - at least he was honest. This didn’t feel like another interrogation, which was nice, really. Who knew, huh. “What about you? What’d you do before this whole venture?” Nienna asked. Gave a bit of a smile, watching her slimy children bounce around the terrarium, trying to spot the crickets. To no real avail, though.

        Idiots, all of them. She loved them.

        Her dark eyes followed his figure, for a bit. The relaxed shoulders, laid back smile. God, she wished she possessed his attitude, now and then. “You seem like a real buddy cop type. Also, I might’ve heard rumors. Y’know. Whichever you wanna believe.”

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My Chemical Romance - The Ghost Of You

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✰   —  —  —  LIGHT HEARTED SUGGESTIONS STARTERS

‘  the world is a little happier with you in it.  ’ ‘  i have the right to be happy and i will not let you or anyone else take that from me.  ’ ‘  i’m done apologizing for who i am.  ’ ‘  i am stronger now and i will not say sorry.  ’ ‘  let this moment be your starting point. let this moment be the one when it all began.  ’ ‘  if you have nothing, you have nothing to lose.  ’ ‘  it’s never too late to rebuild yourself.  ’ ‘  healing takes time, but it will come.  ’ ‘  your warmth and kindness is more beautiful than you know.  ’ ‘  your feelings are valid.  ’ ‘  your opinons are valid.  ’ ‘  your happiest moment is still yet to come.  ’ ‘  turn off the light and close your eyes. it can wait until tomorrow.  ’ ‘  self love is a daily commitment.  ’ ‘  don’t let those thoughts that are telling you can’t keep you from trying at all.  ’ ‘  not today. i won’t let it defeat me.  ’ ‘  stop punishing yourself. please. you don’t deserve it.  ’ ‘  breathe.  ’ ‘  you don’t deserve that! demand better!  ’ ‘  i hope you find what your soul really needs.  ’ ‘  i hope you find the happiness you yearn for.  ’ ‘  there is a point where you have to let go of the anger.  ’ ‘  even if your voice was shaky and you stuttered on your words, you still spoke up and i am so proud you did.  ’ ‘  there’s something incredible about you and i can’t quite tell what it is. maybe that’s the magic in it.  ’ ‘  i know you want more and your heart is driven like that, but don’t take on too much.  ’ ‘  people aren’t always going to do and say what you want them to and that’s okay.  ’ ‘  you are a living, breathing masterpiece.  ’ ‘  some might not understand your beauty, but you are art nonetheless.  ’ ‘  quiet down those thoughts. it’s not worth it tonight.  ’ ‘  try to have gentle thoughts.  ’ ‘  your intrusive thoughts are just thoughts and nothing more than that.  ’ ‘  i love you… i always have.  ’ ‘  i tell myself i don’t care, but i care too much.  ’ ‘  maybe you and i exist together on a different wavelength than the rest of the world. perhaps, we are on a separate frequency.  ’ ‘  concept: we’re both in our softest pajamas, your arms around me and our legs are intertwined. you kiss the back of my neck and tell me you won’t ever let me go.  ’ ‘  look close enough and you’ll find how much i adore you in every subconscious thing i do.  ’ ‘  there are countless parts of you i’ve yet to meet, yet to memorize. nevertheless, i’ll keep wanting to get to know you even when i know everything.  ’ ‘  you make me feel loved in my unlovable moments and beautiful even in my ugliest ones.  ’ ‘  oh darling, how deeply you’ve become a part of me. i can’t help but feel something is missing when you’re gone.  ’ ‘  i can’t help but feel something is missing when you’re gone.  ’ ‘  thank you for never making me inadequate or dumb or inferior.  ’ ‘  your constant love and respect has given me incredible strength and confidence.  ’ ‘  thank you for seeing all the good in me.  ’ ‘  every night i image you beside me.  ’ ‘  it breaks my heart that you can’t fall asleep with me in the same room or the same city, but i always remember that even an imagined silhouette of you is better than nothing at all.  ’ ‘  the spaces between your fingers are where mine fit perfectly.  ’ ‘  by some miracle, the universe created you. of all the infinite combinations of atoms, somehow that infinity filtered down to form you.  ’ ‘  what people think of you is not equivalent to who you are.  ’ ‘  the moment i let myself believe i was going to be okay was the moment i finally was.  ’ ‘  protecting your own happiness ins’t selfish.  ’ ‘  you deserve every ounce of happiness.  ’ ‘  a week, a month, a year without you is nothing compared to the lifetime we’ll spend together.  ’ ‘  tomorrow is a new day. and a new day after that. it’s never too late to start over.  ’ ‘  i finally realize that i no longer need your approval and i never really did.  ’ ‘  maybe i will be okay in the end.  ’ ‘  maybe i will find all that i’m searching for.  ’ ‘  maybe i will figure out all that i am.  ’ ‘  whatever. whatever. whatever. let is pass right by you.  ’ ‘  you are not a failure. please believe that.  ’ ‘  you are only presented with obstacles you are strong enough to conquer.  ’ ‘  it’s been long enough. it’s time to forgive yourself.  ’ ‘  your bad days don’t make your good days any less good.  ’ ‘  even in your darkest times, the sun still rises.  ’ ‘  your existence wasn’t a mistaken accident, it was a creation from almost nothing to something incredible – a miracle even.  ’ ‘  your feelings are your own. no one should be allowed to define them for you.  ’ ‘  ever since our storylines intertwined, i haven’t stopped smiling. you are the best plot twist.   ’ ‘  your thoughts are something that deserve to be heard.  ’ ‘  sometimes it’s not meant to be, but that doesn’t mean there’s no value in it happening.  ’ ‘  your greatest love story is the one you have with yourself.  ’ ‘  i have the right to be happy and i will not let you or anyone else take that from me.  ’ ‘  your existence alone has altered the world. you are more important than you know.  ’ ‘  thank you for letting me forget all the bad, even just for a second.  ’ ‘  you were built for whatever is thrown your way. you are ready.  ’ ‘  no matter what your mind is telling you, please know that you are enough.  ’ ‘  what i can’t fathom is how we can be so close yet so far away.  ’ ‘  you are not a bad person for having bad thoughts. forgive yourself.  ’ ‘  you are growing from this.  ’ ‘  you will heal in time.  ’ ‘  your strength and kindness is more beautiful than you know.  ’ ‘  i’m just trying to be happy and stop thinking about what other people think.  ’ ‘  i want to be someone who sees magic in ordinary things.  ’ ‘  be extra. enjoy things and show it. stop apologizing for it.  ’ ‘  why do you keep trying to impress people who don’t matter?  ’ ‘  let go of the hate. let go of the anger. let go of the resentment. just let it go because it’s holding you back.  ’ ‘  you’re really cute and you make me really happy.  ’ ‘  show me your genuine care.  ’ ‘  why are you beating yourself up over things you can’t control? breathe.  ’ ‘  people annoy me too easily. i need to cut that shit out. i’m not cool enough to be trying to pull that.  ’ ‘  underestimate me and give me the ability to prove you wrong.  ’ ‘  you don’t have to have everything figured out.  ’ ‘  you’re not a bad person for being angry.  ’ ‘  forever is an adventure with you.  ’ ‘  you are not a failure. please believe that.  ’ ‘  you’re my favorite reason to stay awake.  ’

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All Liam tiles from Mass Effect Keep ❤️ .

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                He expresses his joy with her decision through a lopsided grin and, really, he might’ve even voiced the sense of gratitude he feels if not for the sudden turn taken by the atmosphere. HIS FAULT without a doubt, just for bringing up the past she left behind in the Milky Way. That latter part occurs to him only when Nienna’s initial stammer comes to an end –––– but still he nods without any intention to relent quite yet.

                She talks about the matter like she wishes it would’ve indeed gone down with Alec. It’s hard for him to understand why that’d be the case, for all he’s ever done is look up to N7 operatives and wish he would one day rise to similar heights. Granted, he’s sure doing so would come with a gratuitous set of trauma of some sort, which would explain Nienna’s reaction more than sufficiently ––––– yet he’s stubbornly holding onto disbelief instead.

            ❛  That far removed from your reality nowadays, is it?  ❜  One eyebrow arches as he regards her from the corner of his eye.  ❛  How’d you end up doing this work after being an N7?  ❜

        He’s not looking to drop that, is he? Ah, well. It wasn’t something she gladly talked about too often, but, well - if she were to talk about it to someone, she supposed he would be the one. As little as Nienna knew of Liam, he radiated warmth and genuine love for everything and everyone around him. So, she exhales. Places the crickets on his hand - within a small, plastic container of course.

    “Guess it was kind of a calling for me,” she simply replies. Waltzes towards the frogs with slow steps, stopping to work on the lid, giving Liam the opportunity to actually feed the little idiots. “My mother was a biologist, my father was N7. I ended up doing a bit of both. I mean, more or less.” There’s a pause, there. A raise of her brow, arms folding. Though her posture is quite demanding of answers, she gives a hint of humor with the quirk of her lips. She doesn’t want him thinking he’s somehow... Offending her or anything, after all.

    “Three questions - where exactly did you learn this, how much do you actually know, and - does this give me free reign to poke at your past, too?” A faint chuckle. “’Cause, I mean, if so, I’m all in for this lil’ venture down memory lane.”

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Confession: Scuse me but in that armor scene with Liam and Jaal, why is Jaal the only one who gets fully naked. Liam, what the hell. Why’d you chicken out. Let me see that thing. Set underwear to no.

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             ❛  Hey, anything for the greater good,  ❜  Liam answers promptly whilst gesturing to the animals in front of him. Thing is, he’s not sure how serious she is ––––– but he actually would if she was! He’ll ask her again to make sure before he leaves. If so and a rescue operation’s to be had, he’ll set it up. He’s already that dedicated to the little critters, apparently.

                 The mention of feeding them’s enough a distraction from his earlier thoughts for him to turn towards Nienna all over again.  ❛  That’d be great, actually. Didn’t think you’d let me.  ❜  He’s reduced to another laugh at the mention of their favourite mouth breather. That doesn’t take any clarification.  ❛  Heh. Got it. Expectations: lowered.  ❜  Eyebrows wag then, signalling his silence to follow before a sudden change of topic occurs.

                 That is, after he’s built up an air of feigned nonchalance.  ❛  So, someone back at the ship mentioned you were N7 back in the Milky Way …  ❜

        Of course he would. Naturally, though, Nienna wasn’t about to let Liam just dash off into the unknown to find Kett for her sake. Maybe if he got help, though; if Ryder wanted to look into it or something. Which, made sense she supposed, as the finn’s frogs weren’t the only ones in danger should those Kett get any ideas. Maybe she’d give a gentle nudge. As bad as she felt, taking advantage of Liam’s good nature like that.

        The baby snake is already curiously trying to slither out of Nienna’s pocket when she turns on her steps. Moves to a container on the counter holding, yes, the crickets. “Don’t get me wrong, I don’t let a lot of people. Kinda the future of a species in our hands, y’know?” She replies. Nods for Liam to join her; paps the little snake’s nose, to have him retreat back into her pocket for now. “But, well. You’re a real sweet, gentle type. Figure if anyone’s gonna share frog custody with me,” Cue a snort, “It’s gonna be you.” It’s gonna be may. God, ancient memes.

       And speaking of Ryder... She’d be lying if she claimed that didn’t throw her a bit. The mention of N7. “Oh, uh---... Yeah?” there’s a brief pause. Ryder shouldn’t have, logically, known, right? “Thought that information went down with Alec. But, uh - yeah. Before I was... This, yeah.” Another pause. “Feels like another lifetime ago. Guess it kinda is.”