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@militechnical​​ for V bc i love u 

❝    Silverhand  and  I?  We  go  way  back,  farther  than  some  of  the  people  in  his  band  actually.    ❞        There  is  a  moment  where  she  pauses,  her  hand  moving  to  roatate  a  small  wedding  band  around  her  finger.  Distance  falling  on  her  face  and  her  eyes  as  she  slowly  begins  to  lose  herself  in  thoughts  of  another  time  past.  For  a  moment,  Fallon  does  not  even  see  V  but  the  memories  of  someone  she  used  to  love.  ❝    Outside  of  all  the  bullshit  he  started  pulling  with  the  band,  before  they  started  to  pick  up  and  things  got  real  bad  for  him,  Johnny  was  a  good  guy.  Type  that  would  give  those  sitting  on  the  corner  the  last  ten  eddies  he  had.    ❞      There's  a  fond  smile  onher  face  remembering  moments  like  that  before  she  lifts  her  drink  to  her  lips.  She  takes  a  long  sip  before  leaning  her  head  back.  ❝    This  was  the  first  bar  we  played  a  song  at  together.  Real  dumb  song,  same  song  I  played  tonight.    Spot  is  one  of  the  only  places  that  Night  City  hasn't  swallowed  whole.❞        Fallon  took  a  moment,  optics  glowing  a  bright  color  for  a  moment  as  she  sent  V  a  very  old  picture  of  herself  and  Johnny  together  in  a  spot  very  similar  to  the  stage  in  the  bar  they  were  sitting    in.

There  is  a  moment  where  she  waits,  there  is  complete  silence  between  everyone.  Quickly  finishing.  her  drink  Fallon  stood  up.  Transferring  eddies  to  the  bartender  before  looking  down  to  the  merc  who  had  come  into  her  safe  place  and  began  to  pry  up  her  past.  It  was  bold,  ballsy  even  but  it  brough.    questions.  Ones  that  were  half  answered  by  a  weird  text  from  Kerry.❝    You  know  if  you're  the  same  V  that  Kerry  messaged  me  about,  I  gotta  wonder,  why  are  you  talking  to  me.  Johnny  hated  me  for  years  before  he  died,  he  hated  everything  about    me  so  why  do  you  want  to  be  near  me  if  you're  looking  into  him?    ❞        

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It   takes   only   a   moment   of   watching   her   that   he   realizes   he   really   doesn’t   care   what   Johnny   has   to   say   about   it.   He   enjoys   Fallon’s   presence.   He   likes   being   around   her,   and   it   doesn’t   make   him   feel   so   blindingly   angry   all   the   time.   Johnny   had   brought   them   together,   but   more   often   than   not   he   just   drove   wedges   between   them.   It   felt   like   his   sole   purpose   in   life   was   to   irritate   and   fester   in   their   lives.   Ker   knew   that   Johnny   could   be   soft,   he’d   been   on   the   receiving   end   of   a   it   a   few   times,   but   for   the   most   part   it   was   nothing   but   blind   aggression   and   anger.   For   a   moment,   he   considers   just   letting   her   leave.   His   better   judgement   telling   him   that   the   inevitable   horrible   explosion   from   Silverhand   won’t   be   worth   it.   “Y’know,   you   don’t   deserve   to   have   to   put   up   with   him   either.   He’s   not   even   in   your   band.   He’s   just   a   prick   you   have   to   deal   with   sometimes.”   It’s   all   he   can   think   to   leave   her   with.   Johnny’s   jealousy   knew   no   boundaries,      and   that   jealousy   frequently   led   to   violent   outbursts.   It   wasn’t   something   Fallon   deserved   to   put   up   with.   He   takes   a   drag   off   his   cigarette,   trying   for   a   moment   to   calm   his   nerves.   He   watches   her   leave,   once   again   reconsidering   if   he   was   going   to   follow   after   her.

It’s   about   ten   minutes   before   he’s   made   that   decision.   He’s   going   with   her.   He   couldn’t   muster   the   wherewithall   to   deal   with   Johnny   tonight.   He   was   irritating   enough   on   stage,   and   with   any   luck   he’d   be   with   Alt   and   thoroughly   distracted.   Kerry   slips   out   of   the   room,   making   his   way   to   where   he   knew   Fallon   had   run   off   to.   He   gave   the   door   a   quick   tap   to   forewarn   her   before   he   slipped   inside.   “Hey,”   he   greets,   he   can   feel   his   drunkeness   wearing   off,   but   it   doesn’t   really   change   anything   if   he’s   being   honest.   “Slipped   off   before   Johnny   showed.   He’ll   probably   be   busy   with   Alt.   Or   Rogue.   Who   knows   who   the   flavor   of   the   night   is,”   there’s   a   certain   tone   to   his   voice.   Hard   to   put   a   finger   on   it,   but   he’s   disappointed   in   Johnny’s   decision   to   string   Rogue   along.   She   had   always   deserved   better.   

What  had  been  between  Fallon  and  Johnny  years  ago,  when  their  bands  were  new,  when  they  were  fresh  and  soft  people  was  no  secret.  Everyone  knew,  their  lives  bleed  into  one  another  like  a  watercolor  painting  and  Fallon  had  been  so  in  love  with  Johnny,  sometimes  she  worried  she  still  might  be.  But,  there  is  a  harshness  that  comes  and  winter  sweeps  people  away,  consuming  them  in  a  blanket  of  snow  and  cold  that  some  succumb  to  and  others  become  the  sunshine  and  burn  bright  enough  to  survive.  Fallon  had  been  that  sunshine  and  Johnny,  he  had  fallen  below  the  surface  of  the  snow  and  ice.  But  there  is  a  pain  in  her  chest,  of  a  knife,  a  soft  stabbing  in  the  middle  of  her  ribs  just  above  where  her  heart  was.  Johnny  had  been  the  one  to  introduce  her  to  Kerry,  and  when  they  split  she  and  Kerry  stuck  together.  She  stuck  to  all  of  them,  her  sunshine  bleeding  into  the  things  that  they  had  shared.  She  understood  his  rage  but  Fallon  would  not  put  Kerry  away  simply  because  Johnny  couldn't  handle  the  jealousy.  He  had  been  his  own  undoing  and  if  that  meant  it  brought  herself  and  Kerry  closer  then  so  be  it.  That  was  Johnny's  problem  not  theirs.  ❝    No  one  deserves  this  Johnny  Silverhand.    ❞            Her  voice  had  been  a  whisper  if  that.  Mind  wondering  to  a  time  before  as  she  left  Kerry  behind  her.  

 Long  blonde  hair  fell  past  her  shoulders  pulling  on  a  black  leather  trench  coat,  flashy  and  intense  stagewear  had  been  swapped  out  for  a  more  laid  back  outfit,  thigh  high  black  boots,  a  pair  of  jeans  and  a  haltered  black  crop  top.  The  knock  causes  her  to  sit  up  in  the  chair  she  had  been  leaning  back  in.    She  knew  he  was  going  to  take  her  up  on  her  offer.  If  she  is  honest  she  can  see  how  tired  he  has  been,  Johnny  has  only  been  getting  worse.  She  has  a  hard  time  sometimes  knowing  if  it  is  because  of  her  own  success  or  his  own  inability  to  handle  things.  Kerry,  who  had  been  as  close  to  him  as  she  had  seemed  to  always  be  on  the  side  of  Johnny's  gun  that  went  off.  It  hurt  her,  Kerry  was  kind  and  he  was  good  at  what  he  did.  Kerry  had  been  the  other  sunlight  that  was  in  Johnny's  life  and  the  last  thing  Fal  wanted  was  it  to  be  stomped  out.  

 She  had  signed  a  record  deal  two  nights  ago,  no  one  knew  yet  Blackheart  had,  in  what  Silverhand  would  surely  say,  sold  out.  But  it  was  a  good  deal  through  a  small  company  that  offered  them  a  lot.  She  was  getting  her  dream  but,  it  meant  slowly  leaving  behind  everyone  and  she  didn't  want  that.  The  last  thing  she  wanted  was  to  leave  behind  everyone.  Especially  Kerry,  whom  she  had  found  bits  and  pieces  of  herself  in  if  she  was  honest.  Sometimes  they  were  exact  reflections  of  one  another  and  it  had  become  such  a  comfort  to  her.  He  had  been  such  a  comfort  to  her  in  just  existing  since  they  had  met  and  as  he  enters  the  small  dressing  room  that  had  been  Blackheart's  and  now  just  hers  she  smiled.  A  real  one,  a  warm  one,  not  the  one  she  put  on  outside  or  when  she  bought  the  whole  bar  drinks,  or  had  been  with  Johnny  before  things  broke  off.  It  was  the  smile  she  had  years  ago,  when  life  was  nothing  but  peach  vodka  and  good  music.  The  good  times.  ❝    Heya.    ❞      Although  the  smile  faltered  the  slightest  at  the  mention  of  the  other  women,  that  pain  came  back.  Neither  Alt  or  Ro  deserved  the  way  Johnny  treated  them,  but  they  stuck  with  him.  She  never  understood  why,  Alt  could  make  so  much  more  as  a  netrunner  on  her  own  instead  of  a  groupie  or  a  dealer,  and  Ro,  well  she  was  gearing  up  to  be  something  huge.  But,  she  pushed  it  out  of  her  head,  Johnny  was  just  a  ball  of  low  expectations  and  disappointment  to  her  now,  she  needed  to  remember  that.  He  wasn't  who  he  was  before.  ❝    Honestly  Ker,  you  worry  about  everyone  else  too  much.  We  can't  help  those  who  don't  want  it.  They  think  they're  special  and  he  thinks  he  can  do  whatever  he  wants.  We  just  have  to  watch  out  for  them  how  we  can  and  be  there  for  ourselves.    ❞            Tucking  back  her  hair  she  shrugged  before  taking  a  moment  to  lift  her  arms  and  stretch.  After  a  moment  an  idea  fell  into  her  brain  and  a  light  bulb  went  off.

Fuck  Johnny,  she  was  tired  of  today  being  an  emotional  shit  show  because  of  him.  Herself  and  Kerry  had  been  having  fun  until  the  thoughts  of  what  Johnny  would  do  ruined  it,  Johnny  had  ruined  everything.  So,  why  not  simply  leave  the  person  and  place  that  was  causing  the  pain.  Standing  she  grabbed  the  black  purse  sitting  on  the  floor  by  the  door  before  wrapping  her  arm  around  Kerry's.  ❝    They  can  be  wrapped  up  in  one  another  and  we  can  go  do  something  fun  instead.  Do  you  remember  that  small  diner  that  we  all  use  to  go  to,  twenty  minute  drive  from  here?  They  upgraded  a  few  months  back,  heard  they  have  this  boozy  milkshake  that  some  people  would  kill  another  man  for.  I  think  that's  worth  checking  out.    ❞ 

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Atomic Blonde (2017) dir. David Leitch  

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i’m thinking a lot about fallon and her band and how they were “rivals”. with johnny. and his but Fallon at the end of. the day while. she. wanted to help mend something. that was broken. within that group, and help. Johnny grow knew that she had to put herself first and kind of cut. them out after her band made it pretty big. they still are pretty big in 2077, and fallon did some solo experimental stuff on the side, but. she still plays some of johnny’s music as a tribute to him at concerts and same with kerry. she always did genuinely care. and worry about them.

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 Satisfied  smile  on  features  before  lightly  nudging  his  arm.  Closeness  came  easily  to  people  Fallon  knew  had  heart,  Kerry  had  one,  a  big  one  hidden  behind  facades  created  by.  the  great  Silverhand  and  in  his  presence.  That  was  what  built.  his  band,  his  rage  and  anger.  It  affected  them  all,  she  saw  it  in  Kerry's  face  the  most  though.  She  hated  that,  she  hated  Johnny  at  times  but  knew  he  wasn't  all  bad,  he  had  a  heart,  in  that  black  tar  pit  that  was  Johnny  it  existed.  She  saw  it,  and  she  knew  Ker  did  too.  That  was  why  the  stuck  around.  They  were  rivals  on  stage  but  the  moment  they  stepped  off  Fallon  bought  rounds  of  drinks,  put  her  arm  around  the  others  shoulders  and  brought  them  close.  ❝  Just  know  that  door  is  always  open  Ker.  Even  if  you  get  too  embarrassed.  ❞      A  wink  at  him  before  sighing  and  standing  up.  The  last  thing  Fallon  ever  wanted  was  to  cause  trouble  for  Kerry.  He  didn't  deserve  Johnny's  wrath  about  her  being  in  what  was  now  their  dressing  rooms.  ❝  It's  only  funny  when  it's  over  something  dumb  and  he  gets  over  it  fast.  ❞      She  hummed  back  before  standing  and  stretching.  Steps  to  Kerry  before  planting  a  kiss  on  his  cheek  and  grabbing  the  long  black  leather  jacket  on  the  couch  behind  him.  ❝  You  don't  deserve  the  Johnny  wrath  over  me  after  how  sweet  you  were.  'Sides,  I  like  it  when  you  say  I  look  good  and  I  have  a  feeling  if  he  hears  that  then  he  will  make  sure  it  never  happens  again.  So---  ❞      Her  hand  rose  and  pointed  to  the  door.  Slinging  her  jacket  over  her  shoulder  she  sent  him  another  wink  before  walking  towards  the  door.

@nightciity sent:  “ and  risk  you  being  too  embarrassed  to  keep  saying  such  lovely  things ? ” ( fallon @ kerry )

“Too   late,”   his   tone   is   sheepish   now.   Maybe   he’d   had   too   many   drinks;   maybe   it   was   just   the   general   post-performance   adrenaline   wearing   off.   He   certainly   couldn’t   tell,   and   if   he   was   being   honest,   he   didn’t   care.   “Too   embarrassed   to   keep   goin’,”   his   cheeks   are   painted   rosy   with   blush.   Deep   hues   raise   make   brief   eye   contact   before   darting   away   to   fixate   on   something   else   in   the   room.   “Y’know,   if   Johnny   finds   you   back   here   he   might   flip   is   lid   again,”   he   teases.   It’s   a   desperate   attempt   at   changing   the   subject   from   his   previous   flirting.   He   stands   from   his   position,   hands   fishing   in   his   pocket   for   his   pack   of   cigs.   “I   can’t   say   I   care   too   much,   though.   It’s   kind   of   funny   to   watch   him   get   so   worked   up   sometimes.”

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    ❝    Soft,  on  you?    Never  J.  Ya  gotta  earn  me  bein'  soft  just  prose  is  all.  ❞  Beer  bottle  brought.  to  lips  with.  slight  hesitation.  Gears  turn  in  her  head  as  his  words  enter  her  ears,  roll  of  her  eyes  before  shrugging  her  shoulders.  Anger  and  chaos  rode  strong  in  her  music,  but  there  was  nothing  but  kindness  and  a  strength  in  sensibilities  towards  who  she  was.  Rare  time  where  herself  and  Johnny  actually  allowing  one  another  to  exist  in  the  same  space.  Hesitation  at  his  suggestions  but  another  long,  twinge  of  a  burning  sip  from  her  beer.  Long  digit  points  to  him,  quirk  of  a  brow  as  the  idea  entered  her  brain.  ❝    You  ever  try  one  of  those  rage  rooms?  Heard  they  just  let  you  break  shit.  Seems  like  a  Silverhand  kinda  thing  t'  pick.  up.  ❞    

@nightciity sent:  “ i could wreck it if i had to . but i’m the wreck , so what would that do ? ” ( fallon @ johnny )

“Gettin’   soft   on   us,   Fallon?”   he   teased,   taking   a   long   drag   off   his   cigarette.   He   holds   the   smoke   for   a   moment   before   blowing   it   through   his   nose.   He   shakes   his   head,   glancing   around   the   packed   club   for   where   the   bar   was.   “Sounds   like   you   need   to   chill   the   fuck   out,   huh?   Just   calm   your   nerves?   Nothin’s   gotta   get   wrecked   just   yet….   or,   well,   guess   it   depends   on   what   ya   wanna   wreck.   What   were   you   thinking?”

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Atomic Blonde (2017) dir. David Leitch  

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plot twist, im active on here again. i am making a new oc and gonna adjust my muses page on here and my new oc is gonna be. great bc charlize theron and she is also gonna have been chillin with johnny & the gang back in the day as an opposing band.

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horizon zero dawn starters

❝  you can sense it. you already know you’re going to lose.  ❞ ❝  did you want to be alone?  ❞ ❝  you wouldn’t be so eager to speak with me if you knew me.  ❞ ❝  that will draw attention. we won’t have this place to ourselves for long now.  ❞ ❝  it’s a world worth fighting for. not just here. everywhere.  ❞ ❝  trying to live up to glorious pasts has a way of getting people killed.  ❞ ❝  never celebrate a victory before it’s earned.  ❞ ❝  i crave vengeance. do you?  ❞ ❝  my comrades weren’t so lucky. i might shed a tear, if they weren’t all cutthroats and cheaters.  ❞ ❝  i’ll always have a minute for you. maybe even two.  ❞ ❝  you walk on the edge of life and death. i can tell.  ❞ ❝  what is a gift but an award you did not earn?  ❞ ❝  so many voices to listen to, it must make your head hurt. i promise my voice will be soft and soothing.  ❞ ❝  i wish i could borrow some of your courage now.  ❞ ❝  i’ve always wondered. are all your kind hunters and fighters, or just a few?  ❞ ❝  no one doubts your determination. but you need to rest.  ❞ ❝  a bold claim. i wonder if you’ll live up to it.  ❞ ❝  why would someone name a knife?  ❞ ❝  so you’re alive ! we should celebrate! drinks on me!  ❞ ❝  try not to forget me, while you’re out there saving the world.  ❞ ❝  when we spoke earlier, you winced, then looked like you were in pain - or frightened.  ❞ ❝  i’m really not one for crowds.  ❞ ❝  so - how are we gonna do that? oh, wait, i forgot. we won’t. i do all the dangerous stuff.  ❞ ❝  i knew there was something about you. hammered from the stuff they make leaders out of.  ❞ ❝  no matter what happens, i will not intervene. do you understand? you are on your own.  ❞ ❝  it’s always a pain in the neck when you show up, girl, one way or another.  ❞ ❝  you’re bleeding, let me have a look. here, hold still.  ❞ ❝  just don’t think this means i enjoy it.  ❞ ❝  i don’t want to jinx it, but we might be in the clear.  ❞ ❝  when i start a fuss, i like to finish it.  ❞ ❝  i promise to look solemn at your funeral before i hit the bar.  ❞ ❝  what could go wrong? turns out, a lot.  ❞ ❝  let me come with you! i won’t be a bother. i know how to stay out of sight.  ❞ ❝  now i’m supposed to fill ____’s shoes. and instead, here i am, stumbling around in them.  ❞ ❝  we need to talk - alone. and you need to pull it together.  ❞ ❝  i guess growing up means putting what you should do in front of what you want to do, right?  ❞ ❝  oh, are you going to shut your mouth now? because that would be a surprise.  ❞ ❝  i will come to you in secret. no one will see me, so i won’t get in trouble.  ❞ ❝  it looks like something chewed you up and spat you out.  ❞ ❝  these are the true wilds, with threats unlike any you have ever faced.  ❞ ❝  that moment the door opened and you were standing there, and the way you smiled… i had to look away or you were going to see. on my face. what had just… blossomed inside me, you know?  ❞ ❝  i’m not afraid of you - i’m not afraid of anything.  ❞ ❝  stop being evasive? you might as well tell me to stop being charming. it’s impossible.  ❞ ❝  what a waste. at least he died better than he lived.  ❞ ❝  i’ve been looking up at the stars a lot, and the only story i see written across them is that we are small and insignificant and will soon disappear with hardly a trace left behind. it’s a hard story, and i don’t like it much..  ❞ ❝  if i’m going to stand for something, it’ll have to be something i believe in.  ❞ ❝  the strength to stand alone, is the strength to make a stand.  ❞ ❝  soon it’ll all seem familiar. like home.  ❞ ❝  now i see that i was just lucky to get a minute of your time.  ❞ ❝  i know my duty to them - and to you. i’m here. and wherever you go…i will follow.  ❞ ❝  you’re really good at making it impossible to like you.  ❞ ❝  i’ve missed our little talks.  ❞ ❝  will change happen at all, while men live in palaces?  ❞ ❝  confidence is quiet. you’re not.  ❞ ❝  you’re not a very convincing liar.  ❞ ❝  i already have all the friends i need. i don’t need the bother.  ❞ ❝  all right, cool your fire. i got nothing to hide.  ❞ ❝  i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago.  ❞ ❝  you will turn back - or bleed. your choice.  ❞ ❝  when we met, i thought i was a big shot talking to a pretty girl hidden away in the middle of nowhere.  ❞ ❝  you would speak ill of the dead? truly you have no shame.  ❞ ❝  truth is, i get lonely once in awhile. there. i admitted it. don’t think less of me.  ❞ ❝  do you have any idea how dangerous it is out there?  ❞ ❝  but i don’t know anyone here.  ❞ ❝  come on, stop. you’re going to make me tear up.  ❞ ❝  i feel like i should drop to my knees and worship you.  ❞ ❝  think i’m done? think again. i’ve gotten out of worse scrapes.  ❞ ❝  it’s hard to imagine where we’d be without you - and i don’t want to try.  ❞ ❝  if we’re to fight together on the brink of life and death, i’d prefer to do so with your forgiveness.  ❞ ❝  trust is for fools. it shifts and crumbles like sand.  ❞ ❝  what will you do while i risk my life?  ❞ ❝  you can smile, can’t you? …no, that’s a grimace.  ❞ ❝  you killed that demon…pulled its guts from the carcass!  ❞ ❝  the sooner you’re gone from here, the better.  ❞ ❝  for now, all you need to know is that i’m a whisper of reason in this howling pit of insanity.  ❞ ❝  i heard the rumors, but i didn’t know for sure until saw you just now. i’m glad to see you’re okay.  ❞ ❝  no barrier can now stay you from your sacred task.  ❞ ❝  i won’t deny i risked your life. but it was the only way.  ❞ ❝  they can’t shoot if they’re dead. keep them busy, i’ll find an angle.  ❞ ❝  comforts are weakness.  ❞ ❝  as for honor, sacrifice– true sacrifice, the kind rulers know nothing of – it’s all a fat joke.  ❞ ❝  i’ve been sharpening my blade, anticipating the scent of the fight.  ❞ ❝  you’re not just a traveler. that armor was fitted for you. and the way you hold your bow…  ❞ ❝  i’d expect to see some tomatoes fly, maybe rocks. hopefully not spears. in any case, be ready to duck.  ❞ ❝  i’m not here for the price on your head.  ❞ ❝  for a moment, i was a child again, rapt from stories told by hunters at the campfire.  ❞ ❝  this…attachment to me will only hold you back.  ❞ ❝  whatever you do, don’t let their shabby looks fool you! they’ll kill you as soon as look at you.  ❞ ❝  i’m doing what i love. and what could be wrong with that?  ❞ ❝  when the arrowhead passes between armor and skin - that’s the place i belong.  ❞ ❝  right. why would i expect an answer? it’s so much more exciting to keep it all a mystery…  ❞ ❝  oh, it’s a story all right, but it takes a while to tell. maybe another time, over a drink or three?  ❞ ❝  why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again?  ❞ ❝  i’ll wager you don’t scare easy - it’s a good quality.  ❞ ❝  there will be people celebrating, and feasting. more than you’ve ever see in one place.  ❞ ❝  i didn’t bring you here to answer questions. i brought you here to deal with that.  ❞ ❝  …you’ve…put a lot of thought into this.  ❞ ❝  i do not want to hear this talk from you again. doubt is heavier than a week’s snow.  ❞ ❝  bandits are drawn to here like infection to a wound.  ❞ ❝  i guess you’re doing the right thing for the wrong reason.  ❞ ❝  i thought you and i were agreed: only enjoy the killing as much as the challenge.  ❞ ❝  rumors spread like blood.  ❞ ❝  they would steal from us, chase us through the night, laughing.  ❞ ❝  leave it too long, your fingers itch for the bowstring.  ❞ ❝  you’re strong, shrewd, capable… i could use someone like you on my side.  ❞ ❝  you defeated it? alone?  ❞ ❝  grasp your grief. and kill it.  ❞ ❝  at least i’ll have a fire to keep me company.  ❞ ❝  only survivors scar. after everything you’ve been through, you keep going.  ❞ ❝  just stop being evasive and tell me who you really are.  ❞ ❝  i don’t mind putting my worthless ass on the line. but not yours.  ❞ ❝  i’m not here to intrigue you.  ❞ ❝  how about you? who do you think i am? what will you remember of me? ❞ ❝  everything freezing. the ground, the air… me.  ❞ ❝  you lost someone you care about. that leaves a wound. the sort of wound a lot of people don’t recover from.  ❞ ❝  the only thing i know i’m still fighting for is…you.  ❞ ❝  i didn’t earn this mercy, but i will die to make myself worthy of it.  ❞ ❝  to say you have my gratitude feels woefully insufficient. you saved my life.  ❞ ❝  makes you wish you could kill them more than once, doesn’t it?  ❞ ❝  why did you act so strange when we spoke earlier?  ❞ ❝  being smart won’t count for nothing if you don’t make the world a better place.  ❞ ❝  to serve a purpose greater than yourself…that is the lesson you must learn.  ❞ ❝   if a big, meaningful talk is what you’re after, move along.  ❞ ❝  that carcass! what sort of beast was that?  ❞ ❝  what are you doing out here all alone? where are your men?  ❞ ❝  you’ve obviously heard of me. you know what i’m capable of. why do you think this will turn out well for you?  ❞ ❝  there’s so much to discover before the world ends.  ❞ ❝  i couldn’t wait to see you again. it’s like…i’m dead and only come alive when i’m here with you.  ❞ ❝  some even say you have a conscience. how extraordinary!  ❞ ❝  do you always accuse people you’ve just met of lying?  ❞ ❝  if you ever visit, look me up. i’ll show you around, make introductions. it’d be a whole new life, if you want it.  ❞ ❝  it had a name once, not that it matters now. i was born there.  ❞ ❝  i always knew you were different… i think you’re a blessing.  ❞ ❝  no one hears your prayers anyway.  ❞ ❝  this place is difficult even for the prepared.  ❞ ❝  i underestimated you. i won’t make that same mistake again.  ❞ ❝  oh. is that supposed to sound scary or something?  ❞ ❝  look, maybe i shouldn’t say this, but it’s obvious that you don’t belong in this… backwater.  ❞ ❝  were you kept hidden away? did you have overprotective parents or something?  ❞ ❝  hmph. don’t go soft on me.  ❞ ❝  i prefer the company of spirits. or my own.  ❞ ❝  blood spilled calls for blood spilled! if the ground is cursed, then let our vengeance sanctify it.  ❞ ❝  so many people here, all talking at once. how does anyone think?  ❞ ❝  why is it that every time something bad happens to you, someone else tells you something bad that happened to them, as if that makes it any better?  ❞ ❝  i’ve never seen armor like yours.  ❞ ❝  the wrongness here jags at me like an arrowhead.  ❞ ❝  when you found me, i was trying to eke out a glorious death. but now a glorious life seems more preferable.  ❞ ❝  tomorrow, may the sun rise on the world.  ❞ ❝  you saved my epitaph from being ‘a fine soldier but a fool of a man’.  ❞ ❝  i don’t think i know you at all. but i’d like to.  ❞ ❝  i don’t like this. it feels…wrong.  ❞ ❝  oh, i’m grateful for this wound. it’s a lesson i won’t forget.  ❞ ❝  you’re a clever one. but not so clever as to heed my warning, i see.  ❞ ❝  not everyone follows the law like you do.  ❞ ❝  how many times have i pulled you from danger by your neck? made excuses for your behavior?  ❞ ❝  for what it’s worth, i’m glad you’re coming with me.  ❞ ❝  what have i ever given you but struggle?  ❞ ❝  it’s starting to feel real, you know? that we might actually get out of this place.  ❞ ❝  i’ve never been part of anything. i serve my own interests. always.  ❞ ❝  i apologize for my…behavior. i thought i was dead.  ❞ ❝  look, i don’t even know your story. must be a good one. if you ever feel like telling it, look me up.  ❞ ❝  when my anger has thawed, i will feel nothing.  ❞ ❝  i can’t remember when i had this much fun! i should be thanking you!  ❞ ❝  you gave him a quicker death than he deserved.  ❞ ❝  that…could be the last creepy thing you’ve said to me.  ❞ ❝  something’s really bothering you. if you think i’m gonna abandon you, you’re wrong.  ❞ ❝  surprised you saw me, the way you keep looking every other direction to make sure no one’s watching. careful there, or you’ll sprain your neck.  ❞ ❝  remember how the blood pounded in your ears? they’ll ring later, in the calm. it’s a call to arms, from your inner desires.  ❞ ❝  ___’s dead. i was ready to go through anything to make that happen. and i did.  ❞ ❝  is there a reason why you’re acting so cranky today?  ❞ ❝  you hold your grief close, like a tailsman.  ❞ ❝  i hope you can find peace.  ❞ ❝  you don’t know who i am, do you?  ❞ ❝  you know there’s always been dirt on my hands. now there’s blood too.  ❞ ❝  i want to be strong like you. but…  ❞ ❝  i hadn’t given up on hope, but i’ve forgotten the taste of it.  ❞ ❝  just…don’t start singing again.  ❞ ❝  you’re sparing me? after all i’ve done?  ❞ ❝  i don’t intend to die today.  ❞ ❝  it will take many good deeds to make up for the crimes you’ve committed.  ❞ ❝  but why should you have justice, and not me?  ❞ ❝  such a voice… a cold, awful jangle that scrapes your bones and hollows your guts.  ❞ ❝  one more word, and i’ll throw you in jail myself.  ❞ ❝  only in the struggle against death do we find, even for a moment, the spark of life.  ❞ ❝  the war changed you. changed us both. we’re not kids anymore.  ❞ ❝  i can’t sleep, i can’t breathe knowing you could be out there…hurting…  ❞ ❝  now i’m left to wear my sins. for me, at least, they hang heavy.  ❞       ❝  but what does a girl like you know of loss?  ❞ ❝  it’s a good thing you’ve got brains. because your personality could use some work.  ❞ ❝  i was going to ask you to leave with me…to go somewhere out in the sun where no shadow could reach us.  ❞ ❝  they didn’t need to disgrace my name. i did it myself, serving a rotten throne. ❞ ❝  you don’t approve? well, i have a secret for you. neither do i.  ❞ ❝  perhaps you are not an evil man. just a weak one.  ❞ ❝  losses can feel… overwhelming. but they remind us of our connections to others.  ❞ ❝  i don’t exactly see anyone beating down the door to spend time with you.  ❞ ❝  if i had known, i would never have spoken to you.  ❞ ❝  forge a new life. one of better make.  ❞ ❝  impossible odds, fine company, killing without consequence — how could i resist?  ❞ ❝  look at me. i can’t imagine how you’re feeling, but you don’t have to go through it alone.  ❞ ❝  i wish i had known, all this time, what you were going through.  ❞ ❝  i’m with you. until the end.  ❞ ❝  i thought you just wanted to have tea and conversation! is there a battle coming? i wasn’t informed!  ❞ ❝  we’ve only met a few times, and yet you know me so well.  ❞ ❝  are you going to drive me off, too? it’s okay. i’ve dealt with worse.  ❞ ❝  now i know the kind of person i want to be, watching you.  ❞ ❝  it’s so…bittersweet. like a smile through bloodied teeth.  ❞ ❝  i swear i saw my ancestors… they said: ‘we’re not surprised to see you here’.  ❞ ❝  more mercenaries? what kind of person sells their loyalty?  ❞ ❝  keep moving or you’ll die!  ❞ ❝  this is the kind of place you’d take someone if you want to lose them forever.  ❞ ❝  if that’s destiny, i wouldn’t wish it on anyone.  ❞ ❝  i’ve thought about what you said. every time, the wound you gave me caught on my ribs.  ❞ ❝  i’ve never seen such disregard for personal safety.  ❞ ❝  the most important thing is what you’re not like - your father.  ❞ ❝  i’m never lonely where there’s killing to be done.  ❞ ❝  my past - and my secrets - are my own. you’ll do well to remember that.  ❞ ❝  only to you do i extend the courtesy of a warning.  ❞ ❝  if the war’s not over, i’m not done.  ❞ ❝  a long kiss, the best kind… i can still remember the feel of your hand on the back of my neck.  ❞ ❝  it would be a worse fate to bow our heads to the challenge and say, ‘too much’.  ❞ ❝  let’s not say farewell. i’ve had enough of that to last me a dozen winters.  ❞ ❝  have your wounds even had time to heal?  ❞ ❝  you can stop worrying. the secret’s safe with me.  ❞ ❝  just to be clear, i have no plans to murder you, alright?  ❞ ❝  you’re an idiot. a dangerous idiot, but an idiot.  ❞ ❝  i’m kicking myself for not seeing your potential from the beginning.  ❞ ❝  for your sake, you must go where you will never find me. this is goodbye.   ❞ ❝  so that’s what this is? a tantrum? a cry for attention?  ❞ ❝  change won’t come in a single sunrise.  ❞ ❝  this place may not seem like much, but we’ll make the best of it.  ❞ ❝  no murderers here, if that’s what you’re asking.  ❞

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MGMT lyrics - Sentence Meme

“You can do the talking and I’ll wait my turn.”

“You spoke and I conquered most fears.”

“What have we done?”

“I killed your mama.”

“You better run.”

“This is what the future holds.”

“It’s hopeless from the start.”

“Take me home with you, I’ll do what you want.”

“I thought they were my friends.”

“This is our decision to live fast and die young.”

“But there is really nothing, nothing we can do.”

“Love must be forgotten.”

“We were fated to pretend.”

“I’ll miss the comfort of my mother.”

“Yeah it’s overwhelming, but what else can we do?”

“Are you starting to change?”

“This is what the world is for.”

“Control yourself.”

“I feel your racing heart.”

“There’s a light beneath your eyes.”

“I forgot my fear…”

“Are you mad at your walls?”

“It tastes like death but it looks like fun.”

“I was a loner, I was just waiting by myself.”

“It’s you who’s being used.”

“It would only take a few seconds of darkness to figure out what’s in store.”

“You convince yourself that you want it, but you don’t know.”

“You keep trying to wash the blood from your hands, but it won’t go.”

“I said you got the good stuff baby, won’t you flaunt it?”

“Am I just someone from the past?”

“But if I try to feel at all, I am deceived.”

“Love is only in your mind and not your heart.”

“It hurts to stay at home.”

“You can’t get a grip if there’s nothing to hold.”

“I’d rather die before I get sold.”

“I would feel better knowing that I was alone.”

“Real emotion’s such a drag.”

“I’ve got a pistol that’s aimed at your heart.”

“You speak without even knowing.”

“If you can’t save it, leave it dying on the road.”

“Wide open arms can feel so cold.”

“The older I get, the more I suspect there’s a trick.”

“Running away isn’t rough, but it’s not enough.”

“As strange as it seems I’d rather dissolve than have you ignore me.”

“Damn my luck and damn these friends.”

“Be quick dear, times are uncertain.”

“Numbers can’t decide if the day’s supposed to smile.”

“It’s a blessing but it’s also a curse.”

“Those days taught me everything I know.”

“You don’t need smoke to cover most of the world in a gloom.”

“What you find shocking, they find amusing.”

“Don’t sympathize with the mystery disease, all it is, is a feeling.”

“It’s no fun to face what you don’t get to be.”

“Trap what you want, waste what you need.”

“Your life is a lie.”

“I’ve come to terms with what I have.”

“I can’t touch you only once, you always leave me wanting more.”

“Let me die when I’m in love.”

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therapy / talking about trauma / post - trauma starters. feel free to change things as necessary. 

would you like to talk about it?

please tell me what’s bothering you.

hey, are you okay?

i don’t have to know everything. just what you’re comfortable telling me.

i’m your friend. of course i care.

there’s nothing bad about going to therapy.

would you like to try a different approach?

i – i didn’t know that. i’m sorry.

is this helping?

i’ll try not to ask a lot of questions.

i’m always here if you need me.

shh, it’s alright. shh. 

we’re safe now. you’re safe now.

it was just a nightmare.

sweetheart, you have to tell me these things.

you know i’d never judge you for that, right?

i’m worried about you.

is something going on? 

everything you say will just be between you and me.

what method do you prefer?

do you need help falling asleep?

anything i could do to help?

why are you like this?

i understand. 

sweetie, is there something you aren’t telling me? what’s wrong?

let’s get you cleaned up.

this is good. this is important. 

you’re healing, and healing takes time. 

we can do more tomorrow.

how about you get some sleep, hm?

bedtime.

it’s ok not to be ok.

tomorrow is another day.

hey, hey, hey. look at me, look at me. it’s okay.

breath in for seven seconds, exhale for eleven …

do you need some space?

remember, look for things that you can touch. ground yourself.

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@malwarfare​ sent: ¢ for a late night text

( msg; 💻👑 King 👑💻) r u still here ( msg; 💻👑 King 👑💻) it’s really late... or i guess early and the security is gone ( msg; 💻👑 King 👑💻) could u walk me home? my mom doesn’t like it when i walk by myself. ( msg; 💻👑 King 👑💻) YOU COULD SEE TONY IN HIS HOUSE BC I LEFT HIM HOME TODAY

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i came back bc savvy and tetra have me emotional over joanna

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@ginnygardner:  “been ruining family photos since ‘95″

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIRGINIA ELIZABETH GARDNER! (April 18th, 1995)

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63 / ∞ virginia gardner being gorgeous: instagram

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