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caretaker.

i'll  stay  until  you  fall  asleep.

you're  not  a  burden.  not  to  me.

you  don't  have  to  act  tough  with  me.

let  me  help.

if  you  need  to  cry,  i'll  look  the  other  way.

you  don't  have  to  talk.

let  me  handle  it,  just  for  a  minute.

rest,  i'll  watch  over  you.

i  don't  care  if  you  think  you're  fine.  i'm  staying.

deep  breaths.

just  lean  on  me.

you're  safe  now,  okay?  just  breathe.

i  know  it  hurts.  i'll  sit  here  as  long  as  it  takes.

i'm  not  leaving  until  i  know  you're  okay.

you  don't  need  to  hide.

let  me  take  care  of  you  this  time.

shh.  i'm  right  here.

you  don't  have  to  put  on  a  smile  for  me.

i  don't  think  less  of  you.

i'll  be  here  when  you  wake  up.

you're  allowed  to  lean  on  me.  that's  what  i'm  here  for.

you  don't  have  to  be  okay.

scoot  over,  i'm  not  letting  you  sleep  alone.

your  hair's  a  mess.  let  me  brush  it.

don't  apologize.

cared  for.

i'm  tired,  that's  all.

please  don't  go.

i  don't  know  what  i  need.

you  didn't  need  to  come.

you  shouldn't  have  to  see  me  like  this.

i  hate  feeling  like  this.

i  was  trying  to  push  through.  i  think  i  made  it  worse.

this  is  so  embarrassing.

can  you  just...  stay  a  little  longer?

i  didn't  think  anyone  would  notice...

i'm  not  safe  in  my  own  head  right  now.

why  are  you  being  so  gentle  with  me?

i  don't  want  you  to  fix  me.

today's  just...  one  of  the  harder  days.

i  didn't  know  i  needed  to  hear  that.

can  you  stay?  after  i  fall  asleep?

sorry.  i  didn't  mean  to  flinch.

i  don't  always  know  what's  going  to  help.

this  is  the  nicest  anyone’s  been  to  me  all  week.

i'm  sorry.  i  know  i'm  a  lot.

i  don't  even  know  why  i'm  crying...

i  think  i'm  broken.

you  didn't  have  to  do  all  this  for  me.

i  don't  want  to  be  a  burden.

i  didn't  think  anyone  would  stay.

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I obviously can't fortell canon- but I'm holding tight onto the concept/wanting to very much write L.angdon post s1 having isolated himself off onto the night shift.

-Not wanting to be around the gossip because you know him being sent home like That is a hot topic

-Mad at himself+ thus not wanting to be around Robby or Dana (as well doesn't want to feel micromanaged/pitied etc)

-Really the only person he's friendly with on day shift is Mel (he'd feel bad about not being on shift with her- but the idea of him during shift change asking her about her day is very likely. even if he's most likely trying to get out+avoid most of his coworkers and get home him taking that time is likely.)

-His excuse, genuine but not fully obviously for the hour change being "this way I can have more time with my kids, family during the day"

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given the r.edbull scene with dana- I just 100% know she frequently provides the caffeine supply with an snack (otherwise I fear L.angdon is exactly the sort to empty stomach down multiple energy drinks while on shift & forget to eat)

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"I sort of shuffled around my schedule. Abby's out of state for the weekend and my kids are with my parents. So figured I'd work this weekend anyways." That way he'd be able to be free to pick her up when she got back from vacation. Actually spend time with his family and decompress properly.

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"I am far from picky, especially at this point in the shift." Stretching to try loosen his back up some. Glancing at the clock before taking the other coffee to sip at it. "Also definitely an upgrade from vending machine fine dining."

" You're welcome." Billy gave a soft smile. " I'm sorry your back is acting up." He sipped his own coffee cup. " It's just a sandwich from the deli so I hope that's okay. How's work been?" He hadn't known Frank for long but Billy was figuring him out and having fun doing that and any fun he could have, he would take. He had only been out of prison for a few months and didn't know anyone anymore or have much to do so he was thankful for Frank.

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༘⋆｡ where it hurts starters.

caretaker.

i'll  stay  until  you  fall  asleep.

you're  not  a  burden.  not  to  me.

you  don't  have  to  act  tough  with  me.

let  me  help.

if  you  need  to  cry,  i'll  look  the  other  way.

you  don't  have  to  talk.

let  me  handle  it,  just  for  a  minute.

rest,  i'll  watch  over  you.

i  don't  care  if  you  think  you're  fine.  i'm  staying.

deep  breaths.

just  lean  on  me.

you're  safe  now,  okay?  just  breathe.

i  know  it  hurts.  i'll  sit  here  as  long  as  it  takes.

i'm  not  leaving  until  i  know  you're  okay.

you  don't  need  to  hide.

let  me  take  care  of  you  this  time.

shh.  i'm  right  here.

you  don't  have  to  put  on  a  smile  for  me.

i  don't  think  less  of  you.

i'll  be  here  when  you  wake  up.

you're  allowed  to  lean  on  me.  that's  what  i'm  here  for.

you  don't  have  to  be  okay.

scoot  over,  i'm  not  letting  you  sleep  alone.

your  hair's  a  mess.  let  me  brush  it.

don't  apologize.

cared  for.

i'm  tired,  that's  all.

please  don't  go.

i  don't  know  what  i  need.

you  didn't  need  to  come.

you  shouldn't  have  to  see  me  like  this.

i  hate  feeling  like  this.

i  was  trying  to  push  through.  i  think  i  made  it  worse.

this  is  so  embarrassing.

can  you  just...  stay  a  little  longer?

i  didn't  think  anyone  would  notice...

i'm  not  safe  in  my  own  head  right  now.

why  are  you  being  so  gentle  with  me?

i  don't  want  you  to  fix  me.

today's  just...  one  of  the  harder  days.

i  didn't  know  i  needed  to  hear  that.

can  you  stay?  after  i  fall  asleep?

sorry.  i  didn't  mean  to  flinch.

i  don't  always  know  what's  going  to  help.

this  is  the  nicest  anyone’s  been  to  me  all  week.

i'm  sorry.  i  know  i'm  a  lot.

i  don't  even  know  why  i'm  crying...

i  think  i'm  broken.

you  didn't  have  to  do  all  this  for  me.

i  don't  want  to  be  a  burden.

i  didn't  think  anyone  would  stay.

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Tossing them away as focused on the pain to not get stuck in his head. Luckily it wasn't even needed though on hearing his first name. Following out the door, "It's alright, bit stiff but that's long hours on the feet typical."

Jack stood by and watched the residents work, keeping an eye on Frank as he kept his composure while ripping his gloves off. Jack nods at the others as they continue to work on the guy after he was stable. "Frank." Jack speaks, moving toward the door waiting to see if the other would follow him. "How's your back?"

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"I can have a look at it, for you if you want. Save you having to go to an electronics repair store on your off hours."

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i hate when people ask me to open up. like i met you 3 years ago give me time

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"Sorry, it's been an rough shift." Adjusting his tone to be softer and less tense. Plus let some of the emergency room noise drown the conversation out from nearby ears. "A new back possible?" It was a joke but he sure did miss before he hurt it. Offering a small grin, "Coffee and dinner is more than enough. Thank you."

"Yeah whats up? Thats the greeting i get when i bring you dinner and coffee?" Billy questioned, teasing of course but he knew by the stance that he was clearly in pain. He walked over to him and gave a sympathetic look. "Your back again?" He asked, ignoring any glances from anyone around. " Want me to get you anything or do anything for you?"

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"Usually, so you've totally gotten one of those unconscious fist fight patients too?" Had certainly gotten chaotic surgery rotations during med study; which absolutely contributed to picking emergency medicine.

"One and a half times." Recounting the blur of what happened; before doing self inventory. "Little bit of a headache; but that's more an it's past time for an energy drink and water thing."

"I always forget how thick skinned you emergency room sorts are. Usually when I'm handling a patient they're on my table no fights." Heather says before she has a quick look toward the patient who is indeed passed out. She then looks back, "I did look like he got you in the head once or twice. Any blurry vision, ringing in the ears, headache, or nausea?" She's already scanning for sign of physical injury.

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Keeping his composure, as best he could while ripping his gloves off. His back was killing him; not to mention the current patient's case hit far too close to home. "Okay well, that's it for now. If you have everything handled in here."

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Okay but Devon ending up being part of a hospital gala/fundraiser- not out of interest or ability to sweet talk the hospital. But to spare their night shift coworkers. Like obviously day shift would be the primary focus. I could see an 'well we need somebody from the night crew though' and Dev just deciding to spare their coworkers that headache.

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"Oh yeah, I mean it's staff space and really no reason for it not to be acceptable. " Hadn't cost the hospital an single penny; no coworkers so far had seemed the why are you in this profession if you're judgey and bigoted sort. Plus having an excess of them meant easily could spare one for the dreary staff room.

A grin while quietly letting him talk. "Right back at you, which I do and I've also signed up to do medical services at some of the events this month." Did need to do some schedule rearranging for it though. Mentally jotting down an internal note to put the request in before clocking out later.

"Speaking of which if you want any personal flair for the month, or anything I'm your person."

"Really?" Whitaker asks his voice soft as he looks over. He's fidgeting with his hands, a nervous habit he'd always had.

He looks at the clock realizing just how late it was. He didn't know why he'd decided to work an overnight shift probably because he was bad at saying no. "I just didn't... I mean I didn't know we could do that. That's cool." He constantly has to remind himself he's not in small town Nebraska anymore.

"Happy pride- I mean if you celebrate. I don't know- I don't want to assume-" He begins to say his brows wrinkling as he tries to come up with something to say. "It's cool. I guess I should just say that it's cool and I'm happy you put it up."

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the way once somebody has managed to Befriend them/or gets them in a situation where they're more open+friendly.... Swapping work horror stories is 100% an bonding method with them & they will be an champion of causal dark humored tales like "Oh yeah I had a patient stab me with the knife I'd just removed from them, two for one special or something."

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His back was killing him, standing still- sitting still and even leaning was offering no relief. So came the shifting weight on his feet; bouncing given pacing around would be far more likely to get commented on. Eyes scanning over the board until heard his name and snapping his attention to where it came from. Groaning internally as he rapidly slowed down to just be standing there. "Yeah, what's up?"

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me when feeling suspiciously relaxed: what responsibility have i forgotten