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Thank you Sean

I would like to say thank you, Sean. I know this is a message that all the fans say. Many of them have similar, same, or worse stories/situations than me. but i would like to take a moment and let you know how much you have helped me. For many years, I had struggled with bullying and depression. I would often isolate myself from others to keep from letting them know, and even pushed my family away to keep from letting the get too close to me. I often plotted ending my life, and, on 3 separate occasions, tried and failed. I was hopelessly lost in my own head, thinking myself useless and a burden on those around me, so I eventually took to video games as an escape. Being from a family that often struggled to get from paycheck to paycheck, I didn't have much to play, nor internet stable enough to play anything online. Then, one day, I was watching a PewDiePie video at a friends house and he mentioned an Irishman going by the YouTube name JackSepticEye. My only friend at the time and I looked up some of your videos and liked what we saw, so when I got home I made an account on YouTube and subscribed. Sadly, my home internet was very slow, so I'd take about 30 minutes to load 5 seconds of video. I eventually stopped watching except whenever my friends wanted to show me an episode or two of Happy Wheels. That little bit of humor would sometimes be the only bit of smiling/laughing I would do for that week or two. Then, one day, my friend left, and I was left alone. I tried to get help, but the therapists and counselors I put my trust in either turned their backs thinking I was lost, or betrayed me when I was finally recovering, sending me back further. During this time, I entered my lowest, and attempted the 3 failed attempts mentioned earlier. Finally I just gave up and dragged myself day in and day out, faking smiles and internalizing my pain. Fast forward 3 years, I found myself at college thinking that maybe I can find myself and try to fix what was wrong with me. I went online to YouTube to check out some video on the school I was at when I realized my account was still there, so I logged in. There on the left was my old sub list with 3 names. FPSRussia, PewDiePie, and JackSepticEye. There were hundreds of notification markers, so I licked on your channel, still ignorant to just how large you had grown. I spent the next week before classes started bingeing series after series, video after video, finding other channels such as Markiplier, LordMinnion777, Muyskerm, and many, many more. Thought I may never have the trust to visit a therapist again, in the last 2 years since I was reintroduced to you, and introduced to many others, I have made leaps and strides in recovery. I no longer want have the desire to end my life. I no longer wake each day wishing I had died in my sleep. I have found communities that I can find safety and solace in on my dark times. I have made reconnections with my family that I had figured so far gone. I have been able to push myself out of my comfort zone and make friends through the mediums of YouTube and Video games. For the first time in my life, I feel like I can live life with purpose. Thank you, Sean! From me and millions of fans with similar, same, or different stories that hope and pray for millions more "Top of da Mornins'," keep it up. WE LOVE YOU!

@therealjacksepticeye @sarcastic-pasta-games

#IAlmostForgot #ThankYou