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I'm going to nothing do you want anything

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the old english name for giraffes, camelopards, is one of the funniest names in the world because the first thing you have to know is that they're called camelopards because they look like a cross between a camel and a leopard, and the second thing you have to know is that leopards are called that because...

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i just have absolutely no patience left for anyone constructing a caricature of a ""binary trans woman"' that they can lecture about having a simplistic/essentialist/whatever view of gender. like whatever your intention was it is always going to come across as thinking of trans woman as too fucking stupid to have developed complex and individual relationships to and ideas about gender

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It spoke your name on the stairs that night.

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Monster fuckers are so creative cuz it’s like you’ll look at a monster and go “how the fuck would one go about fucking that?” And then a monster fucker will slither from the shadows and give a demonstration of human ingenuity

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like because when you're physically disabled it doesn't mean you have no other disabilities. it doesn't mean you can't have problems with mental health either. a physically disabled person who's autistic or schizophrenic or traumatized aren't dealing with these issues separately. we're dealing with them concurrently. our ability to react and respond to issues caused by physical disability can be impaired by other things. so if someone grabs us to try and help stop us falling over or want to pick up something we dropped or. idk. the unfortunate thing is we can react very badly. when we're having these problems we won't react the same way a normally abled person who is physically limited for a while would. like if you just grabbed an autistic person in general they might scream or cry or try to bite you because like. you just grabbed them. but somehow when that person is also physically disabled, usually visibly physically disabled, people kinda see nothing other than the physical limitation. our complex humanity and individual circumstances and personalities get sidelined in favour of seeing us like a task, or an obstacle, or a good deed. like it always boils down to the fact that hey. do you know that we're people.

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2012年7月

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[multiple takumis au] i want to understand you

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Meat eater

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you cannot headcanon your way out of overt thematic structures on which the entire narrative is built

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my problem with how “grooming” is used and this is illustrative is it just feels like it’s always about propounding ideas of abuse damaging victims irreparably for life given a progressive guise. you have been “groomed” so it colonizes your brain so you are incapable of realizing you are being or have been abused and it means any affection you had for a perpetrator borne of the necessary adaptations of survival or the fact that perpetrators are also often family and loved ones means you are a gullible bamboozled brainwashed pitiable dummy or your sexuality has been overwritten so you can never meaningfully consent to anything anyone anywhere might disagree with ever again and all your attractions are suspect and pathological forever. it’s ok to outright say this or imply this constantly because you can’t possibly know better, because you were “groomed.” and it’s everywhere. lol!

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gestalt

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Maf uh h

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i try to be chill but my brain writes essays about everything

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Pee changing color depending on ur hydration is very intuitive game desigm