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Morning squishings ☀️

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sometimes plushies make me cry because it’s like. they’re little guys made to be loved. their only purpose is to be held and hugged and loved. we made them because we love making things and we love loving things. and they’re so cute

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and then people had the gall to say she was being unreasonable for setting boundaries

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Sae Niijima is such a good character it drives me insane a little. She's not a mother nor a maternal or doting older sister but instead a twenty four year old who was thrown into a position of responsibility that she never asked for. She loves Makoto just as much as she resents her and its so apparent every time they talk up until November. "Are you studying?" (I want you to do well) (I need you to get a job and stop making my life harder) "I'll use any method necessary to get this promotion" (Life will be easier for us) (So stop distracting me with your problems) "Focus on your future" (I know that you're capable) (I can't afford to waste my time on you, so stop wasting time on others)

Makoto is not only the sole reason she pushes as hard as she does for a promotion, for success, and the reason that she loses herself in her animosity over her fathers death, but also someone she can't stand for so long. Makoto was 14-15 when their father died. Sae was 21. As soon as she got the career she wanted and things started to look up, her stability was robbed from her and she was disillusioned with the system that her father had taught her to rely on and completely adhere to. How do you manage, the daughter of a cop, following his footsteps towards law enforcement, when you're suddenly reminded of how unfair it is? You can't quit, your little sister relies on you and she's so young and struggling just as badly with this grief. So you pick yourself up and you get moving again. You push harder, press further. You abandon your morals and your ethics because punishing criminals (guilty or not) is almost like punishing the man who killed your father.

And the whole time she's fighting for promotions, going for drinks with the SIU Director to make herself more favourable for promotions, trying to navigate being a woman in a competitive, suffocating, male-dominated field, falling behind despite doing so much where others are promoted for doing so little - all the while your little sister comes back from school and her biggest issues are so small compared to yours.

Persona 5 revolves so heavily around grief and loss and change and Sae embodies all of that so well, all of the sharp and unpleasant and jagged parts of grief.

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My shuake mini zine is up! Read the rest in the zine.

It’s free for download so don’t feel pressured to pay.

I normally would have made a post of it, but Tumblr only allows 10 images and I’m 3 pages over.

Thanks always for your kind words by the way.

Anyway, I hope you like it even though summer is over! I mean, with global warming, summer never seems to be over.

Basically, I wanted to draw some star related comic for summer as I did with Orion.

I thought Personal Royal trio (Joker, Akechi and Kasumi) kinda goes well with the Summer Triangle which is Vega, Altair, and Deneb.

Vega and Altair are more blatant lover stars unlike Rigel and Betelgeuse which I guess feel more like rivals or duo? But what better stars to show some summer romance?

Also, I thought Sumire goes well with Deneb which is the brightest star of Cygnus. I know she’s more Cinderella themed, but come on. She would also make great Odette and you can easily imagine her as a ballerina as well.

Also my headcanon is that Goro pretty much hates most festivities including his own birthday, Valentines, Christmas, and any festival including Tanabata because he seldom had any chance to enjoy them with anyone.

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is it normal to have the thing you were doing for a long time to replay in your mind every time you close your eyes or have a quiet moment or is it just me

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people can personally hate morgana all they want but don’t pretend like the protagonist doesn’t love him . boy cannot do ANYTHING when that cat isn’t with him except walk around his attic going “fuckk this reminds me of morgana i miss him…!!” if you tried to get ren amamiya to spend one night without morgana he wouldn’t make it. he loves that cat that is his best friend for life dude

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underrated aspect of third semester is when you’re in mementos and akechi says something like “keep your friends close and your enemies closer… you never know when i may strike again…” and one of the thieves is like Omg goro stoooop we’ve been over thisss!!! you’re not gonna kill us againnnn :3 and they’re right. he’s making empty threats. He’s just weird

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joker's 6th part-time job is cat videos

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hooray for blue charmander!

somehow I've done another Chartodile family moment

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actually @ every fanfiction writer whether you wrote something that got thousands of reblogs and comments and became a staple in your fandom, or you wrote one fic and deleted it, or you write mutilchaptered fics that never get a final update, or write short fics, or long fics, or used to write and now you don’t, or you deleted/orphaned your works, or you only share with friends:

thank you.

sharing your writing is hard. and sometimes it’s thankless. sometimes it’s such a negative experience that I wonder how anyone does it at all. but you are needed; you are wanted. whether or not we properly acknowledge it, you are a vital part of fandom culture. thanks for sharing.

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i just want u to know if carry ur stories everywhere with me! usually, im laying in bed reading and i realized specifically Inevitable has been with me many places! Chapter 5 was in my childhood bedrooms bed lol, Chapter 7 was in a hotel in hawaii, and now this chapter is being read in my dorm in a new city! thank u mint ^o^

wah........thats so sweeetttt idk what do say............ weh............

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Some things don't change (for the most part)

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What is he thinking about? ❄️