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NINA S.AYERS PORTRAYAL NOTES 1/?, a general summary, inspired by : black swan (2010), nocturne (2020), birds of paradise (2021), suspiria (2018), & many convos with lea.

directly following a rather disastrous audition for both the white & black swan roles, nina comes across a strange book while snooping through beth m.acintyre's (currently cast as the swans) changing room.

without knowing why, nina feels compelled to take it with her. horrified by her own actions, it sits untouched in a hidden compartment of her bedside table [made necessary by her mother's constant privacy invasions] for a week or so.

once nina finally does give into her curiosity, she is mostly disturbed by the contents inside. sketches depicting scenes of both beauty & carnage, an unreadable language spilling across the pages, drawing her in.

she spends hours & hours scouring the ink in the coming days, researching what language it could possibly be in but coming up empty. it's not until she catches a glimpse of a page in her mirror compact that the truth reveals itself, it is simply written backwards in decorative script.

she finds herself enticed by the steps laid out for her,

I. INVOCATION : REPEATING THE WORDS ALOUD, A QUIET SEANCE OF ONE, OPENING THE DOOR FOR. . . SOMETHING. II. ASSURANCE : ONE OF THE COMPANY'S MOST BELOVED INSTRUCTORS, FIRED AT HER WILL. THE FIRST BITE, THE FIRST KILL. III. TRIUMPH : A TERRIBLE ACCIDENT INFLICTED UPON HER GREATEST COMPETITION, JUST LIKE THAT SHE IS THE SWAN QUEEN. IV. CONSUMMATION : A RATHER HEATED EXCHANGE WITH HER FELLOW BALLERINA, ONE THAT TURNS INTIMATE IN NATURE. V. PURIFICATION : THE FIRST TIME NINA KILLS BY HER OWN HAND, SLAYING THE DIRECTOR THAT SOUGHT TO EXPLOIT HER INNOCENCE. VI. SACRIFICE : RATHER SIMILAR TO THE FILM, THIS IS ALL LEADING TO HER SELF - ASSURED DEMISE, THE ONLY ROUTE TO PERFECTION.

as the steps begin to play out, nina is haunted by an entity that portrays itself as the 'black swan' version of herself.

losing herself more in the role, in the book, in the darker spirit in the mirror, she slowly becomes unrecognizable.

the reality is that these steps are not leading nina to perfection, but to the open mouth of the entity. what she has yet to discover is that sacrifice leads to possession.

she is not being guided to her highest self, the prima ballerina she's always dreamed of being, but being molded into the ideal vessel - ready to be invaded.

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Birds Of Paradise (2021)

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Meena Alexander, from a poem titled "Consider This Leaf," featured in House of a Thousand Doors: Poems & Prose Pieces

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Ferry

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anna baker

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INSP, INFO & AES SIDEBLOG FOR NADYA'S PORTRAYAL OF NINA SAYERS. MAIN BLOG : @GRIMSON.

( INFO. VERSES. PINTEREST. INSP. IMGS. STUDY. AESTHETIC. WRITING. )

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“Delusion is a lie that tells the truth.”

Suspiria (2018) dir. Luca Guadagnino

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my words on film stills pt 4

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Suspiria (2018)

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What if I lose this battle? What if I'm not strong enough?