niratias

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I’m alive, just fucked in the head from the insurance situation. Soz. Back as soon as my brain will let me be.

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Lil break continues. Fiscal end of year kickin my ass at work. Brain no work. Y'know how it is.

Still here, still kicking, just not quite ready to write ya feel me

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Yall I'm really sorry, insurance denied coverage on something I need so I had to switch to an alternative that's not doing it for me, I'm cranky, I'm itchy, and I'm highkey just

SO. It's not happening today. Really, truly sorry LMAO I just need a break.

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👀 Silco and Ras, Purrhaps

Rasnus Viks

Get to know: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Befriend: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Date: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Make love with: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Hook up with: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Protect: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Help: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Stop: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

Kill: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

eyes emoji

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Would you write him if someone else wrote Roman?

are you offering fr???

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Quick: best food type on the planet, go

I’m team mexican and tex mex

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show them dogs bro

sure here you go

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“Munday” on a thursday then I’m closing the browser yall are wildin I made my demands!!! I said what I said if you want it you join me in this hell 😤

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I dare you to write Seth.

you're evil

i'm into it, but you're evil

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They released a t1d barbie

I don’t give a fuck about barbie.

What I give a fuck about is the reaction.

When I tell yall to stop making diabetes jokes (“diabetes in a cup” “so sweet it will give you diabetes” “diabeetus” etc) this is what I fucking mean. Stop. Cut it out of your vocab. Full stop.

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"I think it is literally the closest bond that two people of whatever gender can have. It's beyond the body. It's absolutely… I mean, it's soul partners, and it's beyond time and space. It is the biggest stake relationship you can have. Even if they were married and had four beautiful adopted children, I don't think it could be the same kind of power and connection of partnership that they have. The sacrifice they both made not only for this relationship, but for what this relationship also means: it's kind of two halves of the structure that needs to be in place for this society to kind of run in the end. [...] So I think to say whether it is or isn't 'romantic', frankly, would belittle it. It doesn't really touch the size of how big a deal it is. [...] Whether they see each other again, or whether they live in a little cottage by the stream- it doesn't matter. The connection is bigger than, I think, the connection between any other characters in the show, or in the world. It's beyond that. It's massive. [...]" —Harry Lloyd

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actually nah lemme get this out now. I am just asking for your patience and kindness with me because, per usual, the universe loathes me specifically. again this is my actual life so please be respectful or i'll fucking eat your bone marrow. this is like. not even a quarter of the lore.

tw medical malpractice, elder abuse, and the rest of the shit that is my fucked up life. this is long. I'm basically journaling. Got nowhere else to dump most of this to be honest.

I left the rpc for just about a year and a half, maybe two? because of witnessing the murder I've talked about + just dealt with the second court case resulting from it. I came back and made burnlikeme in the fall right when I started to get so sick I couldn't function. Then I got that diagnosis. Then my last living non-parental relative died (my dad's father) after a long decline. Had to deal with the estate. Had to deal with parenting my own father. I had no relationship w/ the deceased, but I love my dad, and that's what mattered and why I had to help. I dealt with having to cough up money to repair stucco on my home in the dead of winter (still deep in debt over that), I dealt with my surgery (deep in debt over this too). Dealt with court. Dealt with my car dying and having to replace it (in some debt on this front as well). Dealt with all kinds of other shit you've heard about in large or small part.

On a much smaller level, I lost some friends both online and off along the way who weren't willing to wait on me. While that's ok, that shit still hurts, so I've felt awkward and out of balance trying to reclaim my space, ask for my accommodation, be steady in knowing I belong. I've worked hard to not let those fears and insecurities hurt any of you. Still there, though. I'm human. I wake up and someone's gone, it hurts me.

Anyway, in the midst of...all of this...? My dad gets a phone call from the state. The long short: they've found and substantiated elder abuse being what led to the guy's death. There was a fine, a knock against the facility's license.

That's not going to do anything. That's not enough. I don't think I need to explain the horrors of nursing homes. This one wasn't even a "bad" one. I could go on about the current political situation and ICE raids making it even harder for them to have staffing. I'd be preaching to the choir, though. So. My dad is planning to sue. I support this and agree with him. It's not about the money- it's about accountability.

What's my role in all of this? I have no fucking clue. I got my own homicide trial stuff behind me- both of them- and now this is on my plate.

Yes- I know it's totally different. That does not make it any less stressful on me.

Do I need to air my business on main? No. But listen, man- I'm lonely, I'm tired, and I just think that maybe parts of my life, parts of my situation, can serve as a comfort or a reality check and that I shouldn't feel obligated to shut the fuck up on my own goddamn blog.

So...I'm not going to! And y'know what. You don't have to read this. I don't expect you to know this. I just ask you treat me as a whole person. If you want to be part of my life you have got to respect that I'm carrying this and oh so much more with me at all times. I've got ten lifetimes of experiences crammed into 30 years and it looks like the train ain't slowing down any time soon.

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Which oddly specific colour palette are you?

tagged by: @themckaytriarchy (ty) tagging: you!

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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 1x06 - "When These Walls Come Tumbling Down"

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"Sure am." Viktor lowers the Hexclaw again. He's been using it to cut a component free. He leaves his mask down, however, far more comfortable in full persona when there's any remote risk of being seen out here. That also protects Zora in the end. He doesn't want them associated with him, especially not were his cover to be fully blown. Realistically, it won't be long until people tie the Herald with Viktor, but he's going to enjoy his few months of peace. No need to rush the public's perception of him along. He intends to play the long game.

"What can I do for you?" He's willing to help, the offer sincere. He likes them. He intends to prove it, and he sees no reason to not build a solid relationship in the process. Gods know he could use any friends he can get. Attention fully on Z, he follows them, inhaling deeply, the sound rattling faintly through the filters of his mask. The night's cool after a day of blazing sun. He intends to enjoy it, even in armor.

When told that's unpleasant, Zora gives another nod. They don't need to think too much to fathom the kind of unpleasant situation it might be.

"Alright, thanks. I'll let you know if I need a bit of assistance." They offered a nod before scampering off to start to collect some materials of their own - they wanted to get a good haul, build up their resources while the taking was still available.

...

It's a little bit later - and while Zora has mostly gotten most of what they wanted, there is one more thing that they have been picking at - but having a hard time extract. Might as well use that request while they can.

They roamed back to find Viktor. "Are.. are you still here? There's one thing that I'd appreciate assistance with."

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"Too good for public transit?" Axe can't help but needle, though it answers her question anyway. They need a ride, and it's not like he owns a non-Order vehicle. He can't check one out for recreation willy-nilly. There are systems in place for a reason. He'll let his nepo baby companion buck those rules in his stead.

"Here," he says, flicking a finger to transmit the data from his interface to hers. It's an address and a business name, as well as the general reviews- nearly perfect, save for one naysayer disappointed in the lack of something called a Corpse Flower. A shame- that would probably be a perfect gift for Karson. Maybe some other day! "Thanks for the idea. But if he hates it, I'm fucking blaming you for my breakup, toots."

"I got nothing better to do," being her father's favorite gets her some favors, unlike Kal she doesn't have to go out of her way to perform to get her allowance. She grabs her bag nearby and fishes for her tablet. "Is it in walking distance or am I calling a ride?"

She is still a princess, even if she's covered in the ashes of her own species. Ifris at least manages to try to be relatable to those around her, it's a little performative, sure, but she's managed to worm her way into the designated losers club within the Hounds after proving herself to not be a stuck up cunt on purpose.

She has her moments. Absolutely a mirror image of her father.

Funny how he probably wouldn't have considered going anywhere with her alone just a cycle ago.