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Could you do a HC for either What if Angelica & Roland’s roles were switched or if Angelica never died?

This is an interesting concept! I went with Angelica and Roland’s roles being switched as I feel as though that presents a situation I haven’t thought of before. (Also just saying a lot of these tend to be angsty just ‘cause of the whole death stuff but it’s Lor so sort of expected.)

What if Angelica and Roland’s Roles were Switched Headcanons:

Well this really spurs a new interesting series of events. Roland played a far larger role than intended, so to have that completely changed would definitely turn things in a different direction.

While one could assume that Angelica would be spurred into a similar revenge plot like Roland was upon her death, or lash out to people as she desperately tried to find someone to blame, I realistically don’t think that would be the case. Not yet at least.

The thing is that she’s soon to have a child, and that’s her top priority above all. Yes, she is overwhelmed with emotions of rage, confusion, despair, loss but she isn’t about to let herself lose another loved one. 

I think because she clings onto this sliver of rationality she’s deterred from going on similar murder sprees and instead grasps at any strand left at what she has to bring together some kind of stable living space. 

She’s hinted to also have been the Black Silence, and while she’s in no condition to take on any more requests there has to be at least some money she can compile together. Even if it means sleeping in some sketchy hotel she’s willing to take the risk.

It’s absolutely horrible for her mentally, she’s sobbing and crying to the point it’s caused noise complaints from the neighboring rooms. It’s like a swirling pot of horrible, uncontrollable melancholy and anger. One minute she’s filled with sorrow, the next she’s nearly broken one of her belongings out of stress and wrath.

She wants to lash out on someone, she wants to try and alleviate this pain somehow but she knows she can’t. There’s an impulsive urge nipping at the back of her consciousness, but even in this complex state a voice of reason stands tall enough to prevent her from possibly endangering her kid.

After the initial shock, news, and mourning every day just feels completely devoid of all life. It’s like all her energy, all her devotion, her spirit has just been sapped away from her. She’s not open or friendly or curious like she once was, just irritated and exhausted.

After her absence and general unresponsive behavior someone was bound to try and reach out to her at some point. Whether it were some past members of Charles’ office that heard the news of the story, and recognized that she and Roland lived in one of the places destroyed by the pianist, or none other than her brother.

While she may or may not have reached out to those concerned office members, there’s no possible way she could have avoided Argalia. He really doesn’t care about Roland and what happened to him, a sick part of him happy that the man is gone, but he does care about his sister.

In his own selfish mind he’s just glad to have Angelica back and is completely willing to offer support. After all he is the Blue Reverberation, surely he’s able to offer a home better than whatever cheap hotel she’s located in.

There’s really no getting rid of him either. He’s like a parasite, and unfortunately is just as skilled in fixer work as she is, so there is no hiding. As much as he wants to celebrate getting back his sister, he can read the tone of the situation and know that would only further upset Angelica. Even though he tries to cheer her up nothing seems to work which is rather troubling for Argalia.

I think where a definitive changing place in the story begins is after she’s had her child. She’s crossed between letting go of her desire for revenge, living a life where it feels like she can’t truly be satisfied so that she can ensure that her kid grows strong, or now that her child doesn’t rely on her every moment to give in and follow what Roland would have done.

Say that she decides to focus on raising her child, after all it’s the only thing she really has left. Is it really worth risking the safety of them just so that she could violently rampage and express her distress on others? In this course of events, she doesn’t see it as such.

I do believe that Angelica will reach some form of release and ability to be happy again. There still may be that hole in her heart where Roland once was, and there are certainly a lot of pressed down issues, but watching her little one grow makes her glad she made this choice.

Argalia absolutely loves being an uncle too, and the kid has the time of their life with the sorts of adventures he takes them on. Of course Angelica moderates him because he himself is like a manchild and she doesn't want her little ankle-biter put in dangerous situations or taking on his recklessness.

However, because there is no one to deter Angela from her path in the library, nor change her mind about becoming human, the spread of the light and dispelling of previously booked guests never occurs. 

Perhaps she does gain humanity and freedom, but it’s not really too much of a happy ending either. There was no one to entirely brief her on how the city works as Roland once did, and with her newfound mortality it could lead to a grim fate.

Now if Angelica did decide to take revenge I feel like this could take two main paths. Given the pianist incident still happened, Argalia has been affected by it just the same which means it could have impacted his personality. 

Perhaps his interest in creating a beautiful performance for all continued, and with the knowledge that the library was the source of the distortion that killed Roland, he convinced Angelica to take action.

While she may not fully agree with the almost spiritual direction he’s taking it, she agrees nonetheless. From this the Reverberation Ensemble is created, however not with the members you know.

Past members like Jae-heon could have never come to distort. After all, the push to throw him into the deep end was Roland coming in, destroying his attempt to revive his son, and ridiculing him for it. But if there was no Roland to do that? Well there’s a chance of no Puppeteer.

Also someone like Elena is probably not the best choice when Angelica has history with her. History in which resulted in the presumed death of the bloodfiend. 

So it’s a cast of differing distortions all with the goal to break into the library and take the light. At least, that’s the rest of the ensemble’s goal, for Angelica she mainly wants Angela to pay for what she’s caused.

If they succeed? Well their desires for whatever they want to do with the light comes to fruition. If they fail? They die in the library just as they did in the real storyline.

I could also see Angelica possibly distorting. I mean she’s overwhelmed mentally and surrounded by a bunch of distortions as well as her brother who keeps talking about some voice of a lady, it’s only time before Carmen decides to come creeping in towards her.

Now the second revenge outcome is relatively similar to the plot line we already got. Iori finds her, sends her to the library, she meets Angela and becomes the patron librarian of the floor of general works.

This leads to bonding, possible floor realizations of her own, problems, and character development. Basically really close to the story you already know and understand.

If Argalia came to the library I think it would not only be out of desire to claim the light, but also because he’s upset that his sister is being trapped there. He now has two motivations for forming the Reverberation Ensemble; the light and freeing Angelica.

She’d probably have to kill him which is uh, probably gonna be pretty rough. If she still decides to forgive Angela after this though, I believe a similar ending would occur to the one we got canonically. The guests are released along with the light, and they’re expelled to the backstreets.

There’s probably a lot more ways that this could go that I haven’t even begun to think about, timelines are pretty complex. Just saying but Iori probably gets awful migraines having to see the possibility of all this.

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hc of Yi Sang and his exact opposite s/o please? The one who will cling to him whenever possible, giving him lots of attention and all? Tyy

I’ve crawled out of the grave. Good evening. 

Yi Sang w/ Opposite S/O Headcanons:

Yi Sang, after the decline of the League of Nine Litterateurs has fallen into a deep depression after the absence of genuine companionship. Things became muddied and bitter between people, and the sight of people he once regarded as friends bickering took a toll on the heart.

Of course after his canto he found a reason to continue on, and no doubt the company of the sinners has helped rebuild a circle of people he can enjoy time with. But you know who he would really enjoy time with? You.

Even before the two of you were together I believe he would harbor a fondness to you the moment you began to inquire about his thoughts in earnest. Sure, you were far more talkative than him, and it wasn’t exclusively he who you spoke to, but you lacked a certain level of remoteness that many in the city held.

He isn’t the person to typically initiate conversation or activities unprompted, and this is especially the case pre-canto. He’s in a pit of social destitution, held back by the lingering nostalgia of what once was, and what is left now. You can tell he’s in a moment of deep introspection by how he stares off into nowhere. 

You’d likely have to take the initiation with conversation which seems to be not a problem. Though he does have an air of melancholy, and he feels that he is lacking of a wholeness and enrichment, initiating conversation with him would be pleasant.

He is a very good listener and will divulge interest if you reciprocate it. Even if at the time he may make little comments regarding what you’re saying, he does commit it to memory at times when depressive it mentally straining and exhausting to speak.

Not to say he doesn’t enjoy responding as well, and once you decide to stick around, you will hear a lot more of what he has to share. Yi Sang thinks. A lot. He is always thinking about something, somewhere, at some place and time, usually with some kind of philosophical undertone. He has the thought and vibrant prose of a poet, and it’s not lost in speech.

Although the sinners have grown accustomed to his speaking mannerisms how much of it is genuine understanding of what he’s saying and simply nodding their heads along is.. Arguable.

He doesn’t do it intentionally, but sometimes all he’s met with are blank stares and vague gestures. That’s where you’re lucky to come in! Having spent much time at his side, and with an affinity for all his peculiar charms and poetry, you can help things be much more digestible.

Think as in how Sinclair translates for Ryoshu. It’s almost a miracle you’re at his side because more often than not people will stare blankly to you to parse it more understandably. 

I do think Yi Sang is a bashful type with someone who is not afraid to give him attention. Not in an overtly nervous way, but in a body language way. Tucked shoulders and a slightly dipped head with a small smile he just can’t seem to get rid of. 

You don’t really have shame when it comes to adhering to his side. Quite the heavy contrast to what he’s been used to. How he seems to tense up and try to carry on a conversation with whoever he is talking to. It might come across as him being averse to touch but ohhh he is not. Don’t you fret.

He savors it and always pines for it, he’s just not used to it. The idea of a connection so casual and absentminded as to hold onto one another is lovely to him, it’s just getting into the process of oh. Oh wait I can do that now.

He is a lot more relaxed, leaning into the touch and resting his own head upon your shoulder when you sit besides one another,

I do think he would look at someone he admires, such as you, with almost glassy eyes. You know when you’re in the city and it’s just been rainfall, and you can see the blurry reflection of all the street lamps and lights? That. Don’t know how else to describe it but that.

Yi Sang has had a rough time sharing his discoveries only for them to be taken and turned into something he never purposed them for. He has been exploited a lot for his proficiency. Even so, if he had the opportunity to make something for you he would take it. Maybe it’s not the city’s new singularity, but he crafts with an idealistic intent. And he hopes –yearns for– you to understand what he made the same way he does.

Rather than speaking up on things that may bother him, such as the resting unease after a particularly foul fight on the bus, he often stews on them. Realistically the sinners will be back and at it again but sometimes it just hits a little too close to home; a dryness to the tongue and a heavy heart.

And so, in search of comfort and stability, he may wander to your side. Leaning ever so slightly to your side which is a silent communication and outreach for contact. You are a sort of grounding force, and if he can hear your happy chatter and unbothered expression he knows that it will all be alright.

I wouldn’t say he trails you, but he’s lingering around. He wishes for human connection, those shared moments in the presence of others far more than he could anything materialistic. 

He sees you as a beacon of life if that makes sense?? Your vibrancy, your attentiveness, it lingers on his mind. You are such an enriched person, an endless pool, an endless wealth of what it means to live. He loves you in the very epitome of the word. In the way where it curls and it encompasses and it’s beautiful. No moment is wasted in your presence.

You often help him draw lines and boundaries that prevent him from falling into the same patterns of people using him. He is an empathetic person, and in such it’s difficult to hate those who wrong him truly. If he understands why they do then often, even if he is aware of what harm might circle back to him, he can not necessarily blame them– or at times perhaps he can but he acknowledges the reason behind what they do. 

With all this, it becomes easy to let things happen and accept it as such. But if you are the opposite to him, I strongly doubt you will just let this be. Though he deeply cares with a silent veneration, you love louder.

So be there to help him be more than just stepping stones, and he will deeply appreciate it. He is more than a tool, but himself; it is he who you are there for, and who you desire to remain with. 

Give him the grace he would afford others because he is worthy of it.

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Take A Break

Limbus practice.. Still not good but I tried

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yisang or dante and y/n pls!!

Why not both

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Drew them on my stream with you can stop by if ya'll want! I do take requests there: this is the playback

Overall hope you like it!!

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angela, angie

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so here i lie in our imperfect paradise

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Ayin and Roland Sketch cos I'm mostly focusing on my studies for web development rn

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drinking

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i don't go here (yet) but here's some scrungly guy for an art trade w a good friend of mine <3

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For I have yearned for you

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Hokma askblog post #1: put on some stockings! + can you hold me? (the original wording means holding in one's hands but the post uses it in terms of knees)

Askblog tag: #nmoroder hokma ask Please see pinned blog post before asking questions!

This isn't actually the first post but it's the easiest one to translate, so here have at least some of the lighthearted stuff. knowing the way i usually construct askblog posts, it's gonna be jokes after heartaches after jokes and so on

also special thanks to the person who holds Roland's role in the same askblog cuz it's all her fault i'm so inspired abt their interaction (Hokma does have some (positively) weird relationship with Keter in both games i'd say)

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Library of Ruina Spoilers

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impromptu intermission : happy birthday !

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I drag you down, I use you up, MR. SELF DESTRUCT

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Roland mentioned in the new episode

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Wedding Dance

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Headpats for a good boy