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A post shared by Noctis Lucis Caelum (@noctiscaelum20) on Aug 20, 2018 at 10:23pm PDT

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Recovery

So, recovery is going well, get my stiches out the next couple days.

Part of the recovery, more so just to spoil my beloved wife, we're having a honeymoon re-run. Spa break for two.

The break will hopefully do us good, aswell as any aches and pains she has. After all, i can't imagine pregnancy being very comfortable.

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Insomnia.

The hardest part of leaving the city that day, leaving those i loved behind. My dad, Rin, everything i had grown up around. If i had known back then, what i know now, i wouldn't have left.

To think i left my father in the hands of someone who would essentially turn out to be his killer, what the hell was i doing? I could have been there... i could have saved him. Not that it would have mattered... apparently, my old man had to die, had to die so i could forfill this stupid calling. This stupid prophecy.

However, there was one thing i was greatful for, after Luna passed, i found my old friend, could call her a lover, Rin. To say i was relieved she was sent on an assignment away from the city would be an understatement. This stupid war has taken alot from me. I can only pray to the six it's done.

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It's a boy...

So we're 5 days i think post surgery, everything went well.. they think they fixed the issue.. stuck a bit hardware in to fuse it... needless to say i'm glad to be home, if not fed up from being stuck in bed...

Anyways enough about that... yesterday the midwife came out for Rins Ultrasound... think we're 15-16 weeks now, wasn't paying much attention to that as soon as she got the picture up on the screen. We found out the gender to... and well... it's a boy. A little prince. We're so over the moon with the news and as soon as i'm able, i'll be taking her to dinner to celebrate.

It's been a long, hard road for us both, but we've made it and we've made it work.

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Feeling... anxious

Todays the day...

Time to face my fear and have this op. Hopefully it helps with my back, if not it'll make things worse... but, no negative thoughts right? All this for a better future for me and more importantly, my family....

Anyways. I'll see you guys on the other side.... of my op that is... not quite sure i'm ready to write myself off just yet.

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Alot to do

So, going to a view a potential new home today, hoping it works out and we can get moved before i have surgery to hopefully fix my back.

To say i'm nervous at the prospect of everything coming up. I know it's for the best and that my wife will get me through it

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Downsizing

So despite the recent news, this house is to big. Looking to downsize. Applied for a few viewings hopefully we hear something back soon. Would rather move before my op to be honest.

So far we're looking at coastal properties. Sonewhere not to far from town but not to close either. The freedom of being basically in the middle of nowhere is amazing. The peace and quiet we both find very appealing and what better place to bring up a child right? Away from the hustle and bustle of the real world. A world where they would be judged by their title. Not that they will be raised as royalty, just as my father treated me like a normal child as much as he could.

Anyway. Just an update. Thats all for now. Gotta alot to do and prepare. Will update again soon.

Till then, take care, stay safe and have fun

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Big changes

Next few month are bringing some big changes for me.

Nothing bad, its all good.

For one, after dealing with my back my whole life, i finally had the guts to get something done about it. Going to be getting some corrective surgery to ease the pain. Though this is not 100% gaurenteed to work. The odds are pretty good.

Why am i doing this? Well, i'm going to be a dad. Again. Better luck this time i hope.

Currently 8 weeks gone, Rin and I, are expeecting. Early for the announcement i know, but not many people read my blog. Just had a scan, and everythings good. Even heard their little heart. Needless to say i'm pretty excited to meet them

Anyway thats just a brief update of whats to come in my life. Will keep you guys updated as i go.

Just 4 weeks till surgery. Wish me luck.

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New life. New me. New friends. New story.

Ok, i have to say it. This life, has been far from the friendliest. Yet. It's far from the worse.

Finally. Finally i'm free of all the manipulation, being used for my title, my power, my body and my kindness.

Finally i'm free to love who i choose. Hang out with those i cherish. Live my life how i want. And, thats exactly what i'm doing.

I'm not going to lie. I'm not the most sane person around. I have my flaws. I have my past traumas to live with. I have my mistakes to correct. However, to turn my back on those and to say they haven't made me stronger some how... that, that would be wrong.

This life had brought me the love and loss the same as the rest, my mother, my father and Luna. However. I find myself now happier then i ever have been.

I learnt at the young age of 16/17 what my life had instore for me... or should i say my fate. But i didn't let it kick me down. Instead. I'm dealing with it. I'm living my life to the fullest. Like i said. I'm free.

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Apparently my wife sees fit to use me as a coffee table *sigh* good job i love her

Amazing work ❤

Getting some of my post-surgery backlog out of the way YAAAAAAAY!

For @donttouchmypompom, of her OC Rin and Noct having a nice bit of afternoon tea ;P (Sorry it took so long, I apparently like messing with myself by doing unfamiliar angles, and didnt want to give you something I wasn’t happy with XPPPPP)