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ep6 || 12/26

HEY YOU. GET OFF HERE. STOP SCROLLING. DO SOMETHING THAT MATTERS TO YOU. Don't feel bad abt your life because it's YOU who's deciding your future RIGHT NOW.

pic credit: A Distant Place

Dude, wow it's Thursday ya'll!!! Basically 5 days have passed and I'm on day 6 of 17. Or if you're a half empty person, it's 12 days left out of 17. I am deciding to create a plan for today after 2.5 hrs of scrolling. So...after calling you out—what did I do today? Well- 1. Youtube 2. Webtoon 3. Insta 4. Scroll Discord for a lil. Basically a bunch of scrolling lol. BUT WE'RE GONNA END THAT TODAY. girl Imma slay my winterbreak and stop the break curse.

#Ignore the tags. I'm just putting shat for the fun of it.

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ep5.1 || 12/23

chat ok. feeling a little overstimulated right now. it's all the tech i know. but! i'm about to head outside and enjoy the air. the days are so short now but i guess we always look for what's lacking rather than what's there.

i was about to go and watch more things but it's not what I want. i always only realize this after i go take a dump or get water cause im so severely dehydrated lol.

but i don't want to live everyday being stressed so i'm just going to start doing things. dont think too much just stay absorbed and present in whatever i'm doing. my grammar's never consistent too loll. no music now. just me my laptop the clacking of keyboards. what do i want to do? i want to write a research paper! i want to draw more perhaps make some crafts art cause that's so super duper fun. i can weave a basket! anyways let's take the walk after this.

random thingie below

i'm always chasing after trends, slang words, whatever. i wanna be cool and admired but i'm a ppl pleaser. im just ur mirror i have no personality what so ever. im scared because without you who am i? anyways, it's getting existential but i wonder if all humans are just some reflective surface of their environment, whether they are ppl pleasers or not. We mentally can't think outside of this tangible box of a world.

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ep3 || 12/21

Today is the first day of Winter Break! I'm feeling a little tired after studying for a bit, although in reflection I may or may not have been indulging in kpop on the side (I know I know young people's attention span these days). Of course I would get tired, I've been sitting here for 2 hours. Anyways, I want to build out a solid plan. Eat meals on time, sleep no later than 10:30pm, wake up at 6. Go outside, but I often feel bored just walking.

Guys! I need some tips, how do you make your walks more fun? I've tried origami, crochet, but it's kind of hard to walk and look down at the same time. Music hurts/gets tiring after a while and I enjoy the natural sounds outside. Having a walking buddy would be nice but I live far away from my friends.

I've been obsessed with NJ's Ditto again, i'm so sad that they terminated their contract. It's my favorite kpop vid/concept ever! You'll always know I like a song when I listen to it sparingly so I can savor the enjoyment of it longer before I get too tired of it.

Oh I know what to do! Chores, they get me moving but I also feel a little more accomplished!

Wait it's also the winter solstice today! Love the vibes, you know it's kind of weird, when the days are short you want it to be long; when the days are long away you miss the short.

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ep1 || 12/18

Meh, okay here's a dump list of all the things due tomorrow + what I need to do altho it's really late and I gotta sleep about right now. I only have 1.5 days to finish everything.

Study L Test | Due 12/19

E Writing Piece

E Art Piece

M Presentation (been trying to figure this out for forever!)

H Essay | Due 12/20

HVisualization (Almost finished!)

Study for Calculus Test (Need to send an email about this....)

Oh that Semester Reflection thing for all classes: Se, Ch (Ch which is due tonight! update: I sent an email asking for more time cause I'm kinda spent rn)

Reassessment for M (idk need to send email/check in with teach abt this)

Reflection for C Project

M Strategy Assignment Reflection

Emails I've been neglecting (update I just sent two! that only took 25 minutes to write. woahhh world record!) Only two emails I've been neglecting left.

Deciding on next semester (I procrastinated on this, lowkey kinda screwed)

Woah, writing tags is kinda motivating :).

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i got this!!!

yup that's so me hahaha.....creating this blog to break out of the cycle hahaha....I admit this is totally not another form of procrastination that I've convinced myself is productive. I was getting really tired of my chatgpt therapist so I'm trying something else today.

Okay basically I'm going to post everyday to update on my progress. It'll be like a glow-up diary but for academics lmao, and also my f**ked mental state. We're getting there. Let's do it.