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After experimenting in frustration last night, part of the problem is definitely that my screen protector wore out almost immediately and this Lenovo stylus (which was a free - probably also refurbished - bonus I did not expect!) badly needs a new nib... which I can't find. Even the ones on the Lenovo site have bad reviews for breaking and not fitting.

I've got some options. I budgeted for adding a full-on pen display if I needed one. It's all academic anyway due to eye issues *sigh* but I'm still operating under the assumption that whatever this is will improve with diagnosis and treatment.

We'll see what the next month of mandatory "oh god too much going on" break time does to me!

Olivier Neuray

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Maaaaybe. I'll give you a "definitely" in the spirit of fun and games:

"Abracadabra."

-Erik, to a guy with a gun.

Well, if nothing else, I wrote a new favourite line, and this one's for the actual serial!

"Don’t you ever use the people I love as a bludgeon trying to break me. I’m already broken and I will cut you!”

Woo, emotions are running high. But they have to, because I want them to take the train instead of the cat. That'll make sense in the future, if you're reading. Statistically, it's very unlikely you'll see this or that you're reading. Hi! I'm a random voice in a contextless void!

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Well, if nothing else, I wrote a new favourite line, and this one's for the actual serial!

"Don’t you ever use the people I love as a bludgeon trying to break me. I’m already broken and I will cut you!”

Woo, emotions are running high. But they have to, because I want them to take the train instead of the cat. That'll make sense in the future, if you're reading. Statistically, it's very unlikely you'll see this or that you're reading. Hi! I'm a random voice in a contextless void!

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Olivier Neuray

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Add "Basically a stuffed animal with fangs" and account for Bunnicula, Count Von Count, most vampires in children's media, and the nicer members of the Cullen family.

"What are we talking about, like an Anne Rice or a True Blood? You know Twilight? Very different kind of vampires."

Let's talk about Abigail, on the latest Mediavoring: https://www.patreon.com/posts/mediavoring-2024-102989780

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Real Artists: "That's easy to fix, just imagine where the belly button is!"

My cockeyed dysfunctional ass: "Yeah, uh... I'ma keep cutting up photos and playing with digital models over here. You, uh, go build plausible human beings out of simple shapes in your mind palace. That's cool."

*bangs head on desk* I could reeeeally use some reliable 3D vision to make producing art a little less painful. Maybe I'd even get used to it and be able to do it in my mind. I doubt I have enough time left on this planet to figure it out, but it'd be nice to have a chance.

how to draw arms ? ? 

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@del3141 Look babe. More people folding things.

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anybody else in the club feeling this one

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Alexa Demie in Fairy Tales (2020) Photography: Petra Collins

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Of course they loved me and wanted me to be happy, but they had no idea who I was, and they loved who they thought I was too much to listen when I tried to say that wasn't me, and they were hurting me.

They probably still love me, the ones still alive, and have no idea why I left.

I could say, "Because you were killing me." And they wouldn't understand.

So, yeah, I had to go.

things haven't been great but i think they will be. eventually 🌻🌼🩷

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Amazing forced perspective mosaic siding.

Photo via Jamie's Garden Shop

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I hate hate hate doing this, but the gfm money can't be touched, we're broke, and between groceries and bills for stuff about to be shut off, I need to pull in 400 bucks out of thin air.

And I'm too backed up with orders to promote the site, so I'm just asking for donations if you can kick in a few bucks to help. Here's the link: https://paypal.me/tormentedartifacts

Anything helps, even if it's just reblooping this.

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When the road is long and hard, you pick up a lot more stuff. There's some good stuff in here but dear god, so many thorns and prickers and cholla patties and I don't even KNOW what that is but it sure does hurt.

It's a lot to sort though. It takes a long time to sort through. Fingers crossed for having enough time to rest and recover and make the most of the past before plodding grimly on towards the future.

For whatever this is worth....

A large part of my childhood experience felt to me, at the time, like 'Adults Making Up New Rules Just to Make Me Miserable'.

It was far more complex than that, of course.

But in the 70's, it was still "He does so well at reading, and he passes tests based on minimal attention and effort, but he just can't get along with other children, and he assumes he's being mocked a lot of times when he isn't, and he acts out."

I don't even claim I'm much better than I was then, or in my twenties, or thirties, or forties. Everything I seem to understand about myself now, just makes me sad/angry that I can't get that information back to younger versions of me. Even as I realize that people who cared about me and for me back then were absolutely trying to tell me some of this stuff.

I could have had a lot more fun as a kid if my brain didn't insist on making it harder for me.

I probably also could have a lot more fun now if I didn't keep constantly swimming in my own memories.

But, hey, my spouse likes me and my Mom and I have a far better rapport than we did then.

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The fact that homelessness is controversial tells you everything you need to know about conservatives.

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DO SOMETHING

Let me get this out of my brain, it's been there for a few days, festering:

Pregnant people are becoming "radioactive." A pregnant person might have a miscarriage or need an abortion to save their life, and either of those things could send a doctor to jail now. So it's easier to just not treat them. Lack-of-treatment means more miscarriages and deaths. This, from the right-to-life folks.

And the response:

Let the corrupt Supreme Court make it worse...

...and demand voters elect a congress "that supports their right to choose"...

...because we can't do anything now. And there's no plan in the works to fix the filibuster, so he'll require THIS congress. Biden needs you to deliver the Blue Wave of Obama's first term, for Biden's second term, minus the Manchins and Sinemas who'll jump ship at a whisper of progressivism, while there's a genocide going on that he okayed, and THIS TIME, democrats have learned their lesson and will fight for your rights instead of fighting each other so the conservative ones still get elected in their purple districts. (Gee, we could theoretically pass anything... How 'bout Romneycare?)

And if they don't deliver a law that gets past both houses of congress and the same Supreme Court that struck down Roe v. Wade in the first place, the consequences will be...? What? I know a lot of people will die, but I mean the consequences for the politicians and their power. 'Cos I'm seeing a long string of elections where the only option to "save democracy" is to Vote Blue No Matter What. So what are we gonna do? Egg their houses? Even that's uncivil!

We're still operating as if the system is fair and functional and we can fix this by working within it at the most apathetic level possible.

Pregnancy is notoriously time-sensitive. In many cases it may be as urgent as Palestine's need to eat. People will die while this issue is being shunted into the future as an excellent way to get votes. People have already died. Some people will need to die for the sake of the win, and this time they may be near enough for you to see them, and care about them as individuals. It's been like this for two years and we had advance notice the Supreme Court was going to do it to us. Please tell me what's going to change. Something more than "if you don't elect THAT MANY democrats, its YOUR FAULT."

I can't fix this on my end. I'm distant and small. We couldn't come up with any better way to stop being complicit than to take our money out of the system, but the cost is that I'm easier to ignore. I don't know what to do. But I hate how it is.

I hope something, somehow, falls into place and fixes this. But I don't trust it to just do that because they say they want it. To have hope, I need to see ideas for change, not more of the same.

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But Couldn't You Protest More Conveniently (so we can ignore you)?

And, no. The answer to all this hand-wringing about the scary, uncivil college students is: no, if they sit down and shut up like you want, it's not much of a protest, so they will continue being loud and making you uncomfortable. You're complicit in a genocide and they're complicit in a genocide, and it should be uncomfortable. If you can ignore it and go on about your business, it won't stop.

This has been the playbook for a long time. The righteousness of civil disobedience is assigned retroactively. While it's going on, we just HATE it. Later, we can edit the narrative so that the counterculture was, actually, the culture, and only the worst people were against it. You know, if we feel like it.

I should mention, this is why we have a student loan crisis. Reagan responded to student protests by attacking their pocketbooks, assuming, like a cowardly conservative, that a threat that would shut him up would shut them up. Well, they're paying more than ever for the "privilege" of a degree that most entry-level positions will require of them, and they're still functioning as the conscience of the country. They're still not tired and scared and hopeless enough to let these things go without a fight.

It's a hard lesson to learn, but when you make yourself more convenient, you make yourself less relevant. Don't listen to all these voices insisting that the only way to get what you want is to ask nicely. So often, that won't get you anything at all.