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i can’t wait for when chatGPT and ai image generation also crashes and each prompt cost $50 an attempt. oh you can’t get your stolen big tiddy anime ghibli art for free anymore? you want to buy real big boy art from real artists now? beg for it. beg for it like a dog.

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Somewhere between shadow and light

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"Right person, right time", but its never me and never now

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I haven't seen Chai An in a single scene since she was shipped off to the house in the outskirts to recover.

I obviously don't ship the leads rn. But like Goddamn. Chemistry so strong that they remove the character from the storyline. Hate what happened here. Nobody is admitting that Fu Yunxi's main competitor was a woman who was Zhang Hanyan's bodyguard and best friend. Why would Hanyan say no to a real marriage? She's seen true devotion. A woman was ready to die for her. The writers are making her say that she thinks feelings don't stay the same. Babygirl, a woman was ready to die for you, a man waited all his life for your mom, a woman held on to some very serious feelings for your mom all her life. This show is about women. Her mom's most compelling relationship is also with a woman (the Imperial Consort). I don't buy these male leads in their lives at all. I think they are supposed to be coconspirators and (in modern times) would be colleagues but not lovers. I don't see it.

This whole show is about the older generations choosing the wrong person. Will Hanyan repeat the same mistake? I hate that.

I love that the Yanxi has already physically fought with Chai An and lost. I think its an important narrative element. Hanyan protecting Chai An from Yanxi is also pretty important. If Yanxi was faced with the actual competition for Hanyan's love, he would lose. That's what the metaphor sounds to me.

I guess lame (no pun intended) marriages are a hereditary disease in this story.

Side note- I actually love seeing the conflicted sort of microexpression on the ML's face when they were talking about her mom and the imperial consort and the few conversations he had with Chai An. He looks to be absorbing so much info all the time. Really well acted. I was on the fence when I first saw him, but he sold it to me.

Also I really loved the actress who played Chai An. I've seen her play a ballerina earlier, she always brings an interesting dimension to her characters. I would love to see her in more dramas. She really acted with her body language and expressions this time. I loved her chemistry with the FL.

I have decided what lens I'm going to view this show with. I don't care if it'll never work out. I will die on this hill.

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I'm watching the Glory and Zhang Han Yu and Chai An should totally kiss and ride off into the sunset together away from the capital

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i feel like i must be a demisexual cause why do i have all this horny but not even a celebrity crush to put it in?

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hearts of darkness (1991) dir. eleanor coppola, george hickenlooper, fax bahr

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– Sam Sax

TEXT ID: [there's a theory / that says you don't exist / unless someone calls / and you respond]

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Oddly I see him as a great visual for a happy young Rhaegar Targaryen who happily played music in taverns and then gave away the money to the poor children.

felix — "heartris" @ sbs gayo daejeon (231225)

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Journal Excerpt: 08/28/23

Life feels the most fulfilling after great fear and pain. Yet, once I've re-experienced life, I'm quick to forget my trials. And I again mistaken things I'm privileged to partake in as my basic rights and lose the great joy and satisfaction of living. When I'm sick, I long to live; and when I'm alive, I long for silence. I wish to break my cycle. I do not want to take my life for granted.

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at some point you have to realize that you actually have to read to understand the nuance of anything. we as a society are obsessed with summarization, likely as a result of the speed demanded by capital. from headlines to social media (twitter being especially egregious with the character limit), people take in fragments of knowledge and run with them, twisting their meaning into a kaleidoscope that dilutes the message into nothing. yes, brevity is good, but sometimes the message, even when communicated with utmost brevity, requires a 300 page book. sorry.

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This applies to religion, this applies to patriarchy, this applies to how anti-teen our world has become.

A cartoon from 1914 that could have been written today

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Made this a couple days ago

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hey me and my girlfriend saw you from across the parking lot and we really fucking hate your vibe. i’m going to hit you with my mercedes