I’m trying to stay positive and have peace for once in my life but never goes that way. Everything always goes wrong during my plans for November ! No matter what! I wish shit could get better for once for me in my life. Might have PPD after this baby and idk what to do… what if I’m just crazy… lol… na idk why I can’t reach out for help. It’s hard for me.. I mean I love being a mom but this shit is hard to get through… I have no energy for holidays or even my birthday coming up… no energy to fake happy anymore…