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I finally took off the IUD

Life is funny most of the time (at least, to me it is) and you get the things you want in the most adverse scenarios and it's up to you to learn something and still smile. Due to a widespread infection of my lower abdomen (mostly my reproductive organs and whats near them), my doctor decided it was time for the IUD to go, since we're having issues from the get go. On place, she gave me a trimestral injection, which won't be effective until friday. As my uterus is one of the affected organs and she gave 2 additional weeks of 2 different antibiotics, an I was told to abstain from sex.

But of course, I didn't comply. I was bursting with hornyness. My ex/fiance saved a lot of cum just for me. Yesterday we fucked, but he didn't finish. Today, I had the most terrific risky creampie I've ever had. Thick jizz ran all over my inner thigh, and I must have still a lot of it inside me, trying to take. We agreed we wouldn't take any additional steps to avoid pregnancy during this week, and I will keep being bred, and what it is, it is. Of course, I'll have to be careful from now on with the medicines I take, because there is a bunch of those that could affect efficacy on my birth control. I've been dreaming of my fiance crushing a bunch of oxcarbazepine to render it uneffective. I'll have a big surprise when I keep gaining weight and he suddenly suggest a pregnancy test. I'll know I've been submitted to something only a male can do to a female. I'm thrilling to be the mother of his children, altho I confess I am afraid too.

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I hope things go better for you! And sorry if this is a personal question, but despite no longer doing the detrans stuff (valid) are you still trying to get pregnant or is that just an RP thing?

I still want to have a family, but I am already a solo father with no finantial stability. I still fantasize from times to times of getting pregnant by a undetermined lover (wich is possible, since I get regularly bred by several people), but those fade quickly when I remember how it was for me as a single parente. I didn't just want kids, I want kids to raise with my true love. There's no sense for me to do it alone. Back when I was still married, we seriously debated taking off the IUD, but I was already sensing he wasn't the person I've once loved. He's grown insecure, controlling and disrespectful, to the point of physically assaulting me. He left me some serious debt and perhaps destroyed any chance of me liking other people. Right now, I didn't even want to be alive. I was always a introverted character, never asking for help and always doing shit alone. And maybe I should've kept at that

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I wasn't supposed to fuck, let alone get absolutely demolished by monster cock. So there's this fuckboy that's cute. He's absolutely tall, completely shy and also has the biggest dick I've succesfully fucked. Things started slow and I had to deal with a considerable amount of pain. He ate my pussy, but I had played with myself earlier, so I know he wouldn't make me cum that way. But as soon as I got used to his size, I was moaning loud. I almost came only by having his dick thrusting and throbing hard. I looked at his eyes as he emptied his balls inside me. I told him to hold still while I enjoyed his hot thick cum flooding my womb, making sure a lot of it would remain inside me way after he's gone. I then played myself until I came again, so my cervix would be all open.

I love how many men are willing to breed me. I love being bred.

PS: I'll probably write some things, but as said, not much about detrans. Just regular breeding/BDSM stuff.

[nonbinarywannabepreggo]

Hows life?

I was going to make a post with this exact info, I guess things happen when they fucking should. I'm using this to announce that I probably will no longer write detrans stories for this blog. It's been a fun journey, but it now brings me several painful memories. The lingering feeling of unconditional love I still feel and will do so forever over my ex husband is not letting me do anything else. I've been but a shell of myself. My sense of identity and selfworth, all of that is gone. Just gone. I've been hanging with less than ideal people just so as to no be alone. I really don't feel at all comfortable in engaging in detrans content any longer, since I don't trust any of the motherfuckers I've been railing and would rather not to have any connections besides fucking every once in a while. I don't know what this means for this blog as of yet. This break up is taking its toll on me. I'm also with a huge ass fucking infection that is making me physically weak. I'm at my limit and no amount of sex will heal that. I know this answer does not match the rest of my blog, and that is because this is #IRLspeaking me, a very real person who is not at its best.

Engage in the kink counsciously, you guys.

TLDR: life is shitty, I'm probably going on a break

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Last saturday, I ended up on the ER. Found out I had a nasty infection on pretty much every organ bellow my stomach, am taking a shitload of antibiotics and that's not even the worse. My uterus hurts like hell and I have to be extra careful with my partners because anything would hurt me. My ex came over and even he hurt me. My usual fuckboys are all busy, so I'm left desperate for dick. I already have something scheduled to wednesday, but I have to cope until. As expected, the sadder I get, the more I feel the need for the D.

* as I was writting, someone called me on grindr. Guess I'm back in business *

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Today I got bred again by another grindr random. But let me tell you, this guy was HUGE. His dick was huge, his hands are huge, he is huge. I felt so litte and overpowered when he was on top of me, pounding me deep. Choking me, telling me to cum on his dick, and then bottoming out deep inside of me. His cum so thick it didn't ran out. Altho his personality is kinda sketchy, I will definitivelly call him again. I'm reaching for a guy for every week day. As of now, my pussy is hurting, but I didn't intend to bang anyone tomorrow morning. Maybe tomorrow night? Now that I don't have a master anymore, i can dedicate to my nature: being a cumdump cocksleeve whore.

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My brief marriage is over. But there's no need for this to be sad news, as I have already started being bred by other men. I'm on a strike with bears, as my body now resembles more of that subtype. Altho the months off of T + wight gain made my body ultra curvy and feminine, bears still find me attractive. I've been having ups and downs, but today, I got nutted in twice. I even took a pic of my bred pussy (ask me for it!). Now my pussy is drowned in this guy's semen, and I'm pleasing myself to the thoughts of being unluckily successfully bred by this stranger. I'm back on T, and with the most absurd baby fever. I need to have my titties dripping milk and my belly full of a real man's child.

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My womanhood have been again and again getting jizzed at by my husband. I'm moody and fragile these days. The unexplainable blood is somewhat gone, but I'm still figuring out what to do about my IUD. I didn't get any scholarship yet, so I'm economically fucked, but everything else is going more or less like it should. I showed him how I looked in panties. My ass and thighs so thick he got hard instantly. He's been breeding me nonstop. Always licking my clit and sucking my nipples and titties. He said he would agree with me both using estrogen and getting a boobjob in case I detransitioned. I wonder what goes into his mind, since lately he have been sending me some christian propaganda about couples with several children, that didn't do any contraceptions. I find the idea of turning me into a breeding straight Christian girl hot. Simply ignoring all my identity and making me obbey to my biological role of populating the planet with our kind. I dream of giving up on my career and becoming a traditional trophy wife, popping out baby after baby and always being pregnant, breastfeeding and being overall his cumdump. Girls got boobs, guys are the brain. I must only be quietly bred acordding to his wishes. I'm considering maybe changing my name again to something more neutral or maybe even a feminine one, when I get pregnant with his seed. Maybe God will give me the chance to birth and even breastfeed again. Maybe my titties even get so undeniably feminine that straight guys will start hitting on me when estrogen start making its wonders.

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The first day of class was kinda tiring this year. My husband decided it was time for me to get railed by another man, so I came into class after being dicked down by the two of them. Initially, my husband was supposed to just watch, but he thought better to actually participate. We did every position imaginable, and it was awesome to get pounded whilst sucking dick. He made sure to held me for the other guy to slam his cock deep into my womanhood, and ultimately came all over my face while the other guy pulled out just in time to bathe my belly with his seed. I felt desired to a whole another level. Powerful. Went in class almost feeling the hot cum running thru my skin. As I write this, a few days later, his sperm is deep inside me and as always, I'm hoping it takes. We are having a series of conversations about our future and relationship due to our recent breakups, and we set some things straight. He told me he thought I'd be happier if I actually detransed, altho he really would rather my current self. And told me he would turn straight for me, if that was the case. He's searching some lingerie to me and have been talking about "being a woman who doesn't follow stereotypes". Altho I'm personally not into that narrative, imagining him telling me to detrans have left several wet spots in my undies. He told me to shave my whole beard and I'm considering doing it on sunday and then putting on some special clothes. I can't stop having baby fever and I want so bad to get knocked up with his child.

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I officially asked my husband to Detrans me slowly. I've changed my nickname on his Instagram (where we talk mainly) to feminine and he will call me exclusively on fem by my real name. He will also compliment my feminine traits and will act more like my man. I begged him to let me take off the IUD so we can have actual pregnancy risk sex on our anniversary. Any extra money will go to some gender affirming care, like sexy lingerie, make up and whatnot. I've considered launching some kickstart here to help this confused cunt explore herself while being fucked silly and maybe pregnant. I also told he should show others pre-transition pics of me, so all they could picture is him having straight babymaking with a pretty girl while they looked at me. I told him that when he bred me, his cum was inside of me trying to make me a mommy for 3 days, then he promised to always pump me full of his seed at least every 3 days, so I'm always his marked territory. Maybe I'll come out of this as a cis girl. Maybe I actually want to Detrans. I've considered doing a Detrans notes game also, maybe you guys could give some incentive?

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My husband and I have been fighting and breaking UP and getting back together a lot lately. This gave us mind blowing breakup and makeup sex. He fucked me in my building stairs, leaving me shivering. His cum was so thick it didn't even come out. He asked me today to stop T forever and told he wouldn't mind me fully detransing. He also asked me to keep my nails long. I'm thinking about seriously talking him into buying me lactation supplements. And I can't wait for him to gift me new lingerie to wear beneath my manly clothes. I'm his woman, his wife. And his goal in life is to make me a mommy to his children. I can only dream about my IUD failing and my belly swelling. My IUD appointment is next to our 1 year anniversary. Maybe I'll gift him my unprotected ovulating pussy. Will he impregnate me? Leave bred and swollen, with milky titties and that "pregnant girl' glow. Will he eventually tell people he cured me, made me a woman, a mommy, his wife and his bitch. After having straight babymaking, why would he want men? After cumming raw inside, no BC, risking knocking the bitch he loves, why would he chose to be gay? He wants my body. He loves to be my man. He's ready to make me his woman

[nonbinarywannabepreggo]

In the future you picture for yourself, are you living fully as a cis woman, and the kinky aspect is that you gave up on transitioning for your husbands happiness?

Like, is the kinky part that he's "forcing" you, but in reality, you actually wish to detransition, or is it that you actually don't want to detransition?

There's no wrong answer I'm just curious!

#IRL speaking

I do think about occasionally running away from all the masculine stereotypes and also enjoy being seen as a woman, sexually speaking, but I don't think I could be actually happy detransitioning, as in using my deadname and fem pronouns 24/7. This kink does bear consequences in my real life, but I take it separately. I don't mind fem clothes, I actually like make up and can dedicate long periods of time to kinky behaviour, but I'm also autistic, and I need to unmask eventually and just be me (a generally quite weird person whose gender is very confusing to people in general). I still hate to be seen as a woman in most contexts, and haven't even talked about to this fetish to anyone from my real life besides my boyfriend/fiance/husband/ex. ZERO of my friends know about this because I'm an activist and people really don't understand the "humilliation" part of humilliation kink. Yeah bitch, degrade me and disrespect my cause while using me as a sex toy and try to change me into whatever you like. Force me to carry your seed and grow feminine, with no choice but to accept womanhood.

But well. Now that I might be single, I don't think I can safely engage in any detrans fantasy any longer, as it takes a lot of trust of my part and I generally don't trust people at fucking all. My husband/ex (we're breaking up and getting back se many times, and honestly I don't think I can do this anymore) is actually gay, and he likes the power, but he isn't keen on my detransition either, he just likes the kinky aspects with no bearing on his real life preferences, where he likes me more manly (everyone thinks he's the bottom). He doesn1t like me taking hormones or any kind of drugs, so he also wouldn't support me using estrogen or doing any unnecessary surgeries as breast augmentation.

In the end, I would only detransition with several backup plans right in hand because I know I couldn't keep it up for too long. I quite like being a being whose gender is very hard to define and tell (when it comes to both appearance and my actual identity). If it was something unpredictable, like a pregnancy, the boundaries are another. That's why I use that heavily on my writting. I like to make it stories that are feasible to me, and normally, I'd only do something as extreme as detrans in action to something equally extreme, like unplanned pregnancies. I don't think I could be an actual woman if I tried (and I did, for the first few years of my life) but I like the idea of being forced into womanhood. I never felt connected to it, and it's nice to feel some connection to like 50% of the planet. Altho the sex I describe here is real, based on my daily life, the interpretation aspects of it are up to me. I do think detrans is hot and I've considered engaging an ex lover on it, with the intent to feminize him (FTM on the early stages) if he showed anymore inclinations towards that kind of kink (he have already shown), but as of right now, I'm emotionally fucked up and will abstain of suge life altering actions.

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Diving into Detrans - festivities

At this time of the year, my country celebrates a holiday named Carnaval, on wich is very common for lads to dress like ladies. So I'm taking the chance and going full femme. I shaved almost my whole face, leaving the mustache only. Will wear heavy makeup, padding in my boobs and, most of all, will ask my husband to only call me on fem and by my real name. And if he introduces me, he should do it as a female. Can't wait to be correctly gendered and get straight men to fantasize about raping me pregnant back into womanhood tomorrow.

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I've been off of T for a considerable time now. I've also steadily gained weight, so my body is so womanly... Huge and wide birthing hips, thick thighs and a stupidly narrow waist and slim shoulders. Even my boobs are getting so round and perky. They are hurting like they were regrowing. I now can use bras again, and am experimenting with more femme looks. I considering painting nails and maybe I'll even changing my name again. My legal name is very masculine, and I wanted something more neutral, so I can start presenting as a girl before I get pregnant and get used to being correctly gendered. My pussy throbs thinking how much I'm degrading myself for this kink and enjoying it. My latest thoughts were on removing IUD and start some BC alongside something to make me more feminine. I want to give in to my biology and have some pregnancy risk sex. My pussy has been a long time without any babies being fucked into it. I wanna ruin it all to be his pregnant housewife. I want to be bred day after day until I'm a mommy again. I want a real man to force detransition and motherhood into me and make me like It.

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Diving deep into some forced detrans and orientation play

Last weeks have been complicated for me, for several reasons. I am late for my T shot for a long time now, and have been experiencing blood on my pretty pink pussy, possibly due to an dislocated IUD (that I might take off because it is starting to annoy me, moving all around and maybe causing damage to my fertility). I have a duty to grow his seed, and he can't do that to a barren fakeboy. but I know the moment I take it off, my breeding instincts will certainly get the best of me. I keep fantasizing about getting pregnant and having to detransition just so I can get proper healthcare for my baby. My menstrual cycle is stabilizing and soon enough, I'll be back to the girl routine (menstruation, baby fever and pregnancy brain). I wanna submit so bad to my desires... My husband now is adamant that I shouldn't take "unnatural hormones" and that my body is perfect the way it is. He says he will learn to deal with my mood swings, and he knows girls are like that. He was just so used to being the girl that he still have difficulties understanding that now he's the man, and should treat his wife accordingly to her pretty pink plump fertile pussy. I even considered taking some estrogen supplements and such, but he doesn't want that too. He wants me as i come. He is always so strict about what I can or can't eat, smoke, drink or take. Even regular over the counter medicine is a "must avoid" situation to him. He's appreciating how fucking thick my thighs got. My ass is so massive, and my titties are all swollen and girlie, a perky small titty with pink nipples. I am as feminine as I can be underneath the clothes, while I maintain everyday the masculine façade. It entices me to know that people all around don't even imagine that I am a breeding bitch and a slut wife, and that I turned this gay guy into a straight man, pussy loving and so happy to have a wife to breastfeed him and his babies. He, too, has submitted to his natural role as the male to make me the perfect female. he keeps saying he wanted to meet me before and that he would never allow me to have my huge titties removed.

I can only wonder when will his seed finally take, for myself to slowly embrace both mother and womanhood as my body changes to give my husband a healthy child

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Long time no see, you guys. Some things have changed during this december. First of all, I got married. As of now, my IUD is probably dislocated again and I am in high risk of taking it off. My sex life is in shambles because of my work and right now I'm menstruating (or so I hope, otherwise this blood would be really concerning). My testosterone is late, but my husband haven't at all handled well my mood swings that come with feminine hormones. So I still haven't figured out how to proceed. Babies are all around and is kind of torture to us. He's insecure about some things, but all around, wouldn't be sad to have gotten me pregnant. As part of my training to be his good girl, I'm trying to cum with only his touch. For the first time in my life, I came by only having my clit licked. It was so feminine, so delicious... I felt my womb begging for a child to be put in. And yesterday, he fucked me in my colective balcony, making me cum by plowing me from behind while caressing my clit. All along, I was asking him to put a baby in me, to get me so huge and with leaky boobs. He called my real name and said he would make me a mommy. I told "I hope you have actually knocked me up today" and that wasn't just the kink. I have to be a mommy to his kids. I came hard on his dick, thinking about detransing because of the pregnancy. He keeps telling about his dreams, when he see me as a girl and likes it. I keep telling him I'm not doing it, but keep rubbing off to thoughts of going thru with it. What does it mean?

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Wait...you actually have a daugther? You have gotten pregnant and birthed before?

I do. I've had her during my high School, at 16. It wasnt wanted nor planned, and this is how my breeding fetish started. Ever since, I've been somewhat careful not to give in. Before this year, I only got purposefully bred one time. But as I grow older and more confident, I started being careless and now I actually want to get pregnant again.